Mother's Day
Mother is the most beautiful gift from God and being one is the most beautiful yet difficult role you could ever play.
May 8, 2022
Happy happy mother's day to all mother's out there. I hope all the mother's out there are healthy and happy not just today but everyday of their lives. I hope an pray as will that we feel love and valued every single day as a mother.
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Today marks another celebration for all mother's therefore I celebrate it with the most precious person in my life, my mama. I don't any luxurious thing for her today, I greeted her and say I love you to her. And during lunch I bought some ice cream for us to share. Ice cream is one of her favorite thing especially if you give her bread that would pair to her ice cream. So, I bought her some slice bread as well. She would always put the ice cream as a spread to her bread and enjoy every bite of it. She thought I wouldn't have anything for her today. I thought as well, but I want to see her happy eyes and bright smile. It wouldn't cost that much though so I am much willing to bargain. I know I need the money for other things yet her happiness comes first before money. So I risk, it's not that much though but she thank me with all her sincerity and appreciation. I told her that's the only thing I could afford for now, but she told me it's a big thing already.
I am happy she is happy and I am more than willing to do everything to give her more than what she deserve. It will be more than ice cream soon. I hope and pray cause she deserve more. I know she looked things more than that simple ice cream I bought for her. She valued the effort and the thoughtfulness of it. And I hope she could feel the love that I have for her. I hope she could feel the appreciation behind my simple gesture that was shown. More than the things I wanted to give is my prayer. I pray for her good health and more years to come in her life. For I cannot imagine my life without her. She is our light and our treasure in this world. She is such a wonderful mother. I know she isn't perfect cause none of us do. But she is doing her best everyday, for us to be who, what and where we are place in life right now.
To all mother's out there, never feel that you are unlove because no one greeted you today or give you any gifts, cause you are more than those material things in life. Do not base your worth with it. You are amazing superhuman being. A mother who love her children unconditionally. A mother who would do everything for her children. You are love. You are valued. Continue to be that supermom you are today, because we needed you everyday. My prayers are with you. God bless you all always.
Happy mother's day to you @Zhyne06 @Yzza0625 @Janz stay awesome and pretty. Aja! Fighting 💪
That would be all for today friends. Thank you so much for reading. God bless.
A little service
May 5, 2022
What is service? When is the right time to serve? Is there any qualifications to be able to serve?
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Today I attended a seminar for the parish pastoral for responsible voting (PPRCV) election volunteer. As an active member of the church I dedicated myself to serve in the community especially that I have no busy schedule at that moment so I said yes to God's calling. Yes, being a volunteer is a God's calling, it's a service towards the people without expecting in return. We started the orientation at 9 in the morning. The host of the orientation asked us about the meaning of service, when to serve and if there will be any qualifications for a person to serve? That is why I want to asked you the same questions.
**What is service?**
For me service is doing something for the good of others. An act that does not look for any return. According to the host, I am correct. And asked me what's the difference between job and service? I could ponder the difference and we all couldn't answer. So, he told us that job is doing something for your own good, finding job to earn and buy things we needed especially food that makes us able to survive. While service is the opposite because service don't have compensation, yet will require us to do some job for the sake of others.
When is the right time to do service?
The host then asked us this question. And the answer will be there is no right time because it's every time. Yes, it could be anytime. Whether we are a student, an unemployed, a business owner, old, poor, anyone. There's no age in doing service. If we say I can't serve because I'm busy, then when will be the time that you are not. You can if you want. If you say you can't because you are still studying and don't have the means yet then you still can't when you will have work and have means because you will be busy. When you want to serve you, you can. Let's not wait if we get old because we don't know if we could. We can serve in little ways we could. To serve doesn't only means doing big things. It could be small things everytime and it could be bigger in time.
**Is there any qualifications?**
No, there is no qualifications to serve. It could be anyone. The previous question is related from this question. Anyone could serve whether a student, a business owner or whoever it is. You could serve in your own little ways. You have the power to contribute. You could help others not only through money. If you will say, I can't do anything because I am still a student and have no means then when you have the means you won't have any time because you will be busy.
Conclusion
Therefore let us serve anytime, everytime whatever we have as a disposition in the society. Let us listen to the calling of our Lord because to serve others is like serving the Lord. It is expected from us. Let's not put second thought in serving. Let's not hid our talents inside us. A talent that is given by God. Yes, whatever we have right now not just talent but so as blessings are God given. Therefore we must give back to him as much as we could through service. Through the church. Through other people.
That would be all for today. Thank you for reading. God bless.
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***Writer's note:*** *I am sorry if I publish this article just this morning cause I doze off to sleep last night without clicking the published button. I was shocked upon learning it this morning yet I couldn't do anything so I do what needed to be done today. Thank you for your understanding.*
Proven guilty
May 4, 2022
Today I was convicted with a crime of being unkind. I said no to do kindness that I should have given. And I prove myself guilty of doing the crime.
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Since I wasn't able to finished the process of opening an account at the bank last week, so I came back today. And I am thankful that I didn't have a hard time passing all the requirements. It give me a since of relief that I would have an account number by next week. Though I am quite sad learning that I would be back again for the third time just to have my salary. Sad reality of the world ehh? Having to struggle a lot before acquiring your pay. I hope soon enough it would be change. Anyways so much about that.
I want to ask you a question? It's about kindness. It goes like this, **Do kindness have limits? If yes, when**? I want to asked your opinion about it because I want to analize if base on your answer, I would still be proven guilty because I prove myself guilty of the convicted crime. Well, for you to understand better the story goes like this.
This morning as I was waiting for a van to ride going to the bank. I arrived in the waiting shed alone, I mean there's no other passenger that is waiting other than me. Few minutes later, a girl arrived and the van arrived as well. When the driver open the van, there were only one sit available. The girl claim she was in a hurry and so as myself but I did not told everyone about it. But I told that I came and waited first. So, the driver let me in. The girl, continue to asked if she could still hop in cause its okay for her if we share the chair. The driver asked me and I couldn't answer. I was so hesitant because the ride will be long and everyone have the same destination. Therefore we will be both uncomfortable and we will pay the same fare even with such horrible situation. Since I did not answer nor move an inch in my chair, so the driver close the door. I still couldn't decide, and I am half hearted about the situation.
I could have share my chair with her.
I could have indure the uncomfortable situation.
What if she's really in a hurry?
What if she would wait long hours to finally ride?
There and then, I found myself guilty. I was too unkind. I was selfish and I hate myself so much. But I couldn't change anything. So, I prayed. I asked God to forgive me for what I have done and what I have failed to do. I prayed that he will provide her transportation and would arrive in her destination at the right time. I know there will be more van passing. So I am positive she will.
From that moment as well I realized that God tells me it's okay to say no especially when you are uncomfortable doing it. If it will hurt you or put you in an uncomfortable situation in your life. I am happy in one side that I know when to say no or when I give kindness in order for it to be not abused by others. Cause currently, I wanna share as well how I regretted to extend so much kindness to a friend of mine. Lending her my extra money and now that I needed it and she couldn't return it back as per agreement, I was left no choice and struggled so much finding money and even borrowed from others as well.
Let's put a healthy boundaries to ourselves as to when will kindness be given without compromising yourself. Sometimes we let kindness over play the role and we forget that we put ourselves in a very bad situation. Never do that. Do kindness happily, comfortably. Yes, I convicted myself with the crime of unkindness but I learned my lessons and realize my worth today. I knew God will forgive me. At some point I am happy I did or I will regretted doing it at the end. I may have some guilt of not doing extra mile of kindness but I never regretted doing it. The situation serve as a reminder and a wake up call as will. As to how far my kindness would go. Pondering it tonight, I think I have made the right decision. If she was on a hurry at the first place she should have come early. Never allow anyone suffer the consequences of your actions. I accepted my flaws and my lapses, I hope she did as well.
That would be all for today friends. Thank yous so much for reading. God bless always.
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Souvenirs
May 3, 2022
We keep different things as remembrance of memories we had in the past and we called it souvenirs. Memories of good and bad times. Memories that is already part of us.
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Do you have any souvenirs kept in a box? Any souvenirs from a good memories you had in the past. Whether it could be from a friend or any special person in your life. It could be anything. A figurines, a book, a stone, anything.
Today I made a souvenir for my friend whom I have been telling you about. My friend who would have her wedding this month. Yes, I am not only a designer and will become a host but I am also a souvenir maker haha. I may sound an expert here but I am not really. It's my first time making one as well. I made a souvenir out of popsicles sticks. A DIY small picture frame and a basket. I know it's just simple yet I made it out of love.
My DIY basket is filled with paper flowers inside and I printed a photo of them with their names on it. This idea comes from Google and I only copied it. You can search it if you want. But what makes my flower basket a unique one it the flowers itself. On Google they used plastic flower but mine, I made them out from my own hands with pure love hehe. Simple as Iit may seem in one look on it but it requires patience and another whole lot patience because of its small details.
The other souvenir is a DIY picture frame. I actually copied it from one of the souvenir that I received from the christening of my goddaughter. I add some twist on it by using colored popsicles sticks rather than the plain one. It simple and easy to do. You just need some glue to attached them altogether.
I always received souvenirs in my life and it's my first time making one and I have learned that it's difficult to make. Most often than not, we tend to give less value to such souvenir yet it's hard to create one. And the fact that I only made some for principal sponsors and for the couple themselves means that when you receive souvenir from occasions you've been through means you are important. Some might want it while you give less value towards it. Other times you asked celebrants just to be given.
In life you tend to give less value to things especially if it's not so important to us or useful in daily life, or we don't get any benefits yet some things that we given less importance was asked by many, prayed by many, or even beg by many. Therefore whatever you have value it. Be grateful towards it. Take care of it.
That would be all for today. Thank you for reading and May God bless you.
I now design weddings
**May 2, 2022**
Hi beautiful people. Today is Monday and I hope you start your week with a smile on your face. Its the second of May and I am not as lucky as April cause it's been two days that rusty becomes so out of enthusiasm for me. Yet, I am still grateful and I don't want to stop writing just because of that. Not now. Not anymore. And since I am having hard time regarding earnings this May because I am currently jobless, so I had to do extra jobs. I know it's not that big but I still count them as blessings and opportunity.
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What are those job?
**Writing thesis**
I know that it's not good to let others pay you for writing their thesis for them to have grades or pass the semester but I was asked by a friend and I it's not just purely about money but I want to help her as well on her study. Though it's out of my field of specification because it's a Filipino subject requirement and I am an English major yet I extend my capabilities just to help her. I know how hard this is to her because she's already a mom and a wife. She need to perform multiple tasks while having her tons of modules. I wasn't actually expecting her to give me payment but she gave me so much than I expected.
**Edit thesis**
Currently, I am editing some thesis for a group of graduating students since thesis should be edited by a graduate English teacher in order for them to have certificate and could publish there book as per requirement. It's also a friend of mine from one of the member of the group who asked me a favor to help them as well. And I couldn't refuse especially now that I need money as well cause I don't have any job. It's quite a challenging job, and I need to be extra careful on choosing my words. It's not my first time editing a thesis though. Yet, I don't won't to get it all wrong because the writers' future depend on it.
Wedding designer
I know I am not a pro when it comes to designing though I am a pro on drawings and staff like that but I never had any experience to design a wedding. It was a neighbor and a friend as well that would have her wedding this coming 13th and I couldn't say no to her because I am happy for the reason alone that she entrusted me such an important event in her life. She did not pay for any designer because it cost a lot. And so her sister recommend me to her. At first I was hesitant and told her I am not really good about it yet she never asked for a luxurious design. She only want a very simple one and one that is budget friendly. So, I decided to go to her house earlier in today and we agreed about it. I sketch a design for her back drop and she liked it. Well, I don't want to let her pay any amount to me in this job. It we'll be my gift for her. Being part of the important event in her life is such a huge thing for me.
**Hosting**
In few days times I will took the path of hosting as well. I am not only a designer for the wedding that I have been telling you, I will be the host of it too. I know that my role is all over the place, as much as I want to say no but there will be none other person she would asked about it too. So, I said yes. I am not a professional about it but why not venture it. Right? Who knows it will be my path too. I wouldn't have any talent fee for that, but having the opportunity to get the role for the first time is a huge thing, let's charge the experience. Though I have been hosting a program in school few times but not wedding.
Venturing the world of wedding design is such a risky decision but I am excited to play the role. I may not earned money but I know the experience cannot be bought by any amount. Plus she's my friend. Most of the people who asked me to do some tasks were my friends and I am glad they remember me and include me, called me when they needed help. So who am I to refused. It's a very nice feeling when someone needed you and someone relay on you for help. I may not earn all of those job but I believe experience is more than the money that I get to earn especially friendship and reliance to one another.
I hope that May would be good to me and to all of us. Many more BCH coming to us. That would be all for today. God bless.
I earn $106
Hello! Hello! beautiful people. Today is the 1st of May and let's start the month with a bang! I hope let us welcome the month with positivity so that we will attract positive things in life.
*Happy labor day to all my sponsors. I hope you received your double pay today. And for those who don't, like me, let's grind grind grind* 😁😁. *Keep grinding everyone. More BCH to Al of us this May.*
April is a sweet month for me. I did a lot of things that add up my memories to look back. As well as the lessons I have learned to all the struggles that had come. Yet, I am grateful to all those experiences for it made me become bolder and wiser. And since April had ended and another month unfolded before us allow me to look back my good things about April. Let's talk about good things for us to attract good things and let us be grateful with all those good things that happened because grateful heart acquires more than what it deserve.
The thing that I want to look back with all the happenings on April is my earnings. Yes, I want to share about my earnings. As what you have read from the title, I earned $106 for this month roughly 5 thousand if converted into peso. Isn't amazing? Isn't surprising? Lol. Sorry for the vibes, if I am so hype, it's just I am happy of this huge blessing I received althrough out the month of April. Yes I know it's not big compared to many who earned huge amount here in this platform but it's so much more of what I deserve. Who would give you such amount in just 1 month? Not a full time and super legit platform? Only here in read.cash. Right? Right? Come on, I know you will agree with me and your mind is nodding while reading this. 😅
106 USD is a huge blessings to me, I know I could do more but it's more than enough for me. I know that BCH is dump right now but soon it will pump on its highest. I truly believe with it. This month as well, I acquire my 1 BCH for the first time in my 11 months of being a writer to this platform. Again, I know that it's already a long period of time before acquiring but it's all worth it. The on and off writing, the demotivation, and trying my best to push through was all worth it. I am in my greatest happiness of having the amount. As of the moment I hodle it and wait for it to bloom. When the time is right, I will put everything in good use. Currently, I am saving for 2 BCH in my wallet trying to examine as to how many months I would save another BCH without having to convert it for any bills to pay.
I hope and pray that this month will be a blast. I hope this month I will acquire more BCH. Though currently, rusty did not visit me like before yet I am hopeful. I know he will be back and we will be reunited again for this month.
Balik kana po, di na ako galit. Miss na kita rusty!
**Note***: this writing is not for the purpose of showing off it is an article that express my happiness and my gratefulness towards all of you and to this platform.*
To all who is demotivated I've been there and I want to let you know that you must continue writing or you will regret it sooner or later. Never waste the opportunity to earn I'm such a wonderful platform. You can rest but never give up. I did not acquire such earning from huge upvotes from rusty or the generous people here. It's just 1-2 dollars per day yet it accumulated such a huge amount in 1 month. Therefore don't waste time. Don't waste the platform and your opportunity to write. Utilize it. Maximaze it. Enjoy with it and at the same time earn from it.
That would be all for today friends. Thank you for reading. God bless.
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Behind the scenes
With all the lessons of yesterday's experience, there are beautiful things that happened in between. Things that was not appreciated because everything feels rough.
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In every tough times, beautiful things neglected. In those rough moments we tend to not see the things that makes the journey pretty on its own ways. Sometimes because we are dealing with much emotions due to the tough times that was experiencing. Today I would like to appreciate those things that makes the ride wonderful. Things that makes me see the positive side of everything that seems going wrong. And things that makes me hold on to that positive side because I see goodness with it.
What are those things?
**The opportunity to be in the destination safe and sound.** Even with the fact that there is some part of the road that was still under construction and observation due to typhoon Agaton's havoc yet the road was passable and I get to arrived my destination safe and sound is a great blessings. Setting in a comfortable sit without having the struggle to wait for the transportation to arrive. If I will look closely it's a blessing to be acknowledge and gave thanks yet clouded because of all the things that happened.
**To be entertained by such kind and wonderful people** inside the department is a blessing. And knowing that I was already late upon arrival yet there's no much visitors needed to attend that day. The office was not crowded and I get to be attended in a short period of time. Also with the fact that it's my first time processing, well it's a very good experience after all. I get to know and familiarize the place and the people who is assigned every documents.
**To help other's even in a small way**. I was actually in a hurry and I was so hesitant to get on his bicycle that very moment but later on I smiled. He is so kind that I get to talked to him and asked him few questions. I then realized that I am a blessing for this person. I am happy to know that I helped him to provide food on the table even in a very small ways. I enjoy his company and with that I forget the worries that I had carried from the office. I thought of myself it is God in human form consoling me in my tough times. Overall I enjoy the ride, our conversation, so as the wind that blows.
**To enjoy the simple food** I get to have as my lunch. With that sandwich becomes delicious for me. I appreciate it so much and how it give me the satisfaction. Then I could say, sandwich is now my new favorite 😂. I get to appreciate the simplicity of food that I take. Everything that I get to eat that takes away the hunger that I felt. I am more than bless to have it cause others we're starving to death yet here I am eating my bread not just bread but my sandwich, a bread with some delicious and healthy peanut butter as spread.
**To feel the nostalgic feeling of memories from yesterday.** It was many years back then that I last walked on this part of the street in the city. Way back that building was my favorite go to place during my pay day. I get to buy my favorite watch and my favorite clothes before in a very affordable price. I forget the feelings that I have feeling upon getting out from the bank. It release my negative vibes and the walked refresh me from many hours sitting.
**To enjoy the rain**. If you look at the picture it's like that the weather is good and just fine but if you would look closer it's actually raining. The camera couldn't capture the rain that was falling fast and hard. It's actually raining look at the road that is soaked wet by the rain. The rain that only soaked my shoes and my pants. The rain that give the coldness of the environment from it's hot temperature. It calm us from our aching head. It's suites us from the uncomfortable feeling. Dries the sweat that's pouring. I am glad it rain. Let's not focus on how it soaked me but unto how it calms me from the raging emotions that I have been feeling.
In every movie we only watch the finest of the actor and how great they are in playing the role they have. How great the author place it's twist. But we never see behind the scenes. The struggles, the few takes, the repeatitions, the hardwork, and the breakdowns. That's like life itself, we never appreciated the little things that makes the journey beautiful. Those behind the scenes of our live that creates the details. I hope we could see them soon. I hope we could appreciate them. And value them as much as we do to the learnings that we get and the memories that we had.
That would be all for today friends. Thanks for reading. Keep safe and God bless.
The test continue: emotion vs rationality
If last day was a rough day, today is the roughest. I would have gone crazy for the roller coaster of today's ride. Some part I enjoy mostly I am silent and pondering whether I will continue or not, whether I am on the right place in the ride or even the ride itself. My rationality as human being was tested due to mixed emotions. Yet, I am still grateful of today's experience, a very challenging yet honing one.
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In this life we need to be tested for us to be just like the gold, which gone fire and water to be mold, shine and strong. And as for me the time had come to be tested. I hope I would be mold, shine and become strong right after all this.
What are the test?
**1.To go alone or go with friends?**
Mama wake me early because she knew I need to be prepared before 6 in the morning. What she doesn't know that won't be living that early because of my friend. This friend of mine work with the same agency as mine so we will be going together in the office to pass some requirements. So, I live the house past 7 and gone to our meeting place as per agreement. But then they told me they will be late and better for me to go without them. So, I went to the office alone. And since I didn't leave home early I ended up coming to the office, after few hours ride, I was late.
**Lesson**: **In this life you will journey alone with yourself therefore do not wait for someone to be with you and would take the same journey together.**
**2.To Asks questions**
Since it was my first time going to the office to process such papers I don't know what to do. So I chatted my friends, the same friends I have mentioned earlier, the things I needed to be done. But then I couldn't send and receive any mail because there's no reception or connection inside the office. So I needed to be brave and asked the people around me to learned the things I needed to know. The first person was quite having an attitude so I am having second thought if I would continue to asked another person around. But then, how can I finished everything if I won't asked so I decided to asked some personnel instead.
**Lesson**: **Never be afraid to asked the right questions unto the right people.**
**3.To deal with other's mistake that requires redoing the process all over again**
I was in the last department for the process but then the staff told me to do the process all over again because some of my documents that came from the first department is wrong. The date was redundant and needed to be replace. I don't want to waste time so I immediately comply. I turn back to the first department and waited for another few hours.
Lesson: **Never waste your energy ranting or be angry on things you can't do something, instead of wasting that energy do the things needed to be done.**
4.Lacking that one thing that would make everything be done
After redoing everything. I am in the last department again. I thought everything would go smoothly and I will be finished but then the staff announced that I need to go to the bank to get the account number in order for them process the papers successfully.
Oh no. Oh no. Oh no no no no no. (This song playing in my head)
What the fudge?
Lesson: **You need to be prepared for the unexpected things in your life. And get ready to extend your patience a 100 miles more.**
5.To try things to work out
I went to the bank around 11 in the morning to try things if it would work and I could get what I needed. I was so positive even with all the things that happened. At least I've tried, no regrets. I pick my priority number which is 91 and currently called was 54. I waited. And waited. And waited. Waiting become so long that it took me 3 hours to finally be called. It's around 2 in the afternoon already. Happily sitting in front of the staff, my smile fade as she handed me the form and told me to come back next week. I asked her why and she told me they will be close at 3 in the afternoon. Well, all bank do right? So, I went outside with form in my hand, drained and emotional. I paused for a moment trying to calculate and process everything. I am angry. I am disappointed. I am tired. I am hungry. I feel so down. What would I do? Why? I could have filled up, they could have process but why? I need to be rational. I need to control my emotion. I already know why. So, I walk away from the bank and decided to find a transportation that would take me home.
Lesson: **Never allow your emotion cloud you from being rational. At least you have tried and they have tried yet time is really running out. Forgive yourself.**
6.To take the easy or to take the risky?
As I arrived in the terminal downtown, transportation was only up to the town before ours. I would be cutting my trip if I would take it. I asked if there will be any van that would take me directly to our town, he told me to wait the van outside the city to the next town. I need to think. Leaving the emotional havoc that was just few minutes pass, think. I don't have the assurance that I could take another transport if I cut trips. But I could be sure to be home no matter how long if I would wait outside the city to the next town. I choose the later and took a ride going to the next town outside the city. It's my first time riding in such route via cab yet I need to try. I need to take the risk to make sure I could arrive home safe.
Lesson: **I learned two lesson here, first, never be afraid to take risk and to set aside emotions when you need to decide on things.**
7.Rain or shine?
I arrived unto the next town and waited patiently. After few minutes of failed attempts, the rain started to fall. It was light at first and becomes hard as it continue pouring. I take out my umbrella and stand my ground where I could see van that would pass in order for me to ride. I was soaked wet by the rain but the only thing I was thinking is to get home. " I want to get home". I look at my dirty white shoes that was soaked by the rain. I think of my feet that was so hot earlier because of the hot weather and then soaked wet by the cold rain, I know I will suffer the consequence later. Yet, the rain couldn't stop me. Few moments later the rain stop and the sunshine again. I smiled looking at the sky then to my shoes. The sky just play on me. After an hour of waiting, I finally take my ride going home.
Lesson: **Don't be afraid to be soaked by the rain just to have the things you want or needed to have, or to be in the place you needed to be. If the rain won't stop learned to play with it.**
8.To spread the negative energy or be willing to accept the positive energy around?
While riding home, I was so tired. I was down and very sad. Very disappointed. I needed to get home and lay on my bed. I needed to charge to have my energy back. All I want to be was to be home. As I pass in the juncture I bought something to give to mama and the rest that stays at home. Filipino called it "pasalubong". I hope everyone will like it. As I arrived home, I heard the laughed, the exchanged of lively stories. And mama asked me how's everything and I told her it's all right. I needed to be back next week. I don't need to tell her my anger, my frustrations, my disappointment. The struggles. I don't need to pass on the negative energy. I then smile and joined them on to their stories as we share the food I bought for them. Then my tiredness gone away.
**Lesson: You don't need to pass on negative energy to let it go away. You just need to take positive energy from the people that surrounds you. Family is the best medicine in almost any emotional breakdown. There is no place like home.**
**Conclusion**
I have been tested fire and water today. Many factors that triggers the fire inside me and the water that drown me to negative emotions. Yet, the coast is clear and I had fish many things. Learned many lessons. And I wanted to emphasize one thing here, NEVER LET EMOTION STOP YOU FROM BEING RATIONAL HUMAN BEING. Think first before you act. Do not decide base on your emotions. Do the right thing and in that every right thing do your best.
That would be all for today, it's been a long, long reading I have here. I hope you learned lesson or two. Thank you so much for reading. God bless.
Testing of patience and Trust
**Today was a tiring and rough day for me. It's a day full of testing towards my patience and my trust to the Lord.**
Hello beautiful people. It's Thursday and I am super busy. I been all over the place. Here and there just to process some papers and preparing it to be pass tomorrow. I know I am quite redundant for almost days about my just-ended contract but because it's the root of all this things so let's flex it a bit more.
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The testing of patience starts when I end my contract of substitution in a school just few miles away. I've been there for a month and half and in order for me to get my salary grade I needed to process few requirements. And when I say few, it's a whole lot that would make you do a lot more tasks. Since I have plan to submit it tomorrow I needed to finish all of them today which made me do a lot of work.
I wake up early and take a bath just to be early in the law office to get some documents notated. I photocopy few of them just to make sure I won't be out of copies and wouldn't create any problem. I went home right after. Ate my lunch and continue the work that I was asked a favor with. Facing the laptop for quite sometime my phone beep and a friend of mine chatted me. Announcing that I need to remake my dtr because the memo for the typhoon Agaton was out and we aren't supposedly logging in for that day. It's 3:30 in the afternoon yet I move as needed. Doubled my time and become quick. A remake of dtr means going to a few miles to school for the signatories of my school head. Without any minute wasted I changed clothes and go to my friend who had the memo and photocopied it. Right after I went to the school I previously work yet I didn't meet the principal there because they had a meeting in the district office. So, I needed to go to their house. Before going, I asked my previous colleague if I could use the PC there for me to print my new dtr. She allow me and even assisted me. She's so nice really. As I am about to print I realize that I didn't save the dtr for the month of April that I encoded last time so I encode the dtr again and make few adjustments for the suspended days. It takes few more tries as well in printing before we get it right, in it's correct size. Whewww. After few minutes, I was done. And bid my goodbye to the kindest person who assisted me.
It takes few minutes before I get to ride a motorcycle going to the house of the principal. Yet, I stand there with patience and utter my silent prayer to God. As I went to the principal's house I asked few times before I get heard and attended. As much I want to talk to her few minutes more, I can't because I needed to travel few miles going home. And it's already getting dark. I walked going to the waiting shed and waited for a miracle. I never think that I can't go home anymore because I knew God will hear me and have pity on me. A few minutes I get to ride going home, but I decided to buy some bread in town because I am so hungry.
Right after I arrived home. I ate the bread together with the peanut butter that I bought as well along with the bread. I ate with mama and we talk for a while. I even told her that I can't have my daily workout anymore because I had things to do and I'm running out of time. She told me that running my errands today is already a workout. I agree with her. I did a lot of walking and standing. And my feet is tired. So, I continue my work in the laptop. It's already 10 o'clock this evening that I am done with it and so, I prepare the things I will be needing for tomorrow's submission. Before writing this article I was cutting my dtr with no electricity because the light has been on and off right after the earthquake. Oh yeah I forget to tell you that there is an earthquake earlier while I'm sitting in front of my work. It's just light though but I am worried it would be a danger to the place it shakes hard.
So here I am cutting all this papers with the light from my phone only. Anyhow, I could still see and finished them.
Today was a very tiring day. A day full of testing, of patient and trust. And I am proud to say, I finally learned how to let go of things we are not in control with and go with the flow. It's a nice feeling no worries, no frustration. Even though my friend rant this and that yet I told her, I am willing to do everything and she congratulated and cheer me on.
In life we don't need to be worried and frustrated Everytime things won't go on how we plan it to be or how we want it to be. Just trust the lord, and he will put everything in it's order. Never allow to be consumed or ruled over with your emotions. I am happy today even though I am exhausted and burn out. Yet, knowing that it goes very well, maybe not how I want it to be yet it goes pretty well just how God put everything well. Never be out of patient and trust whatever you've been through today. God is with you.
That's all for today everyone. I need to sleep for I will wake up early again tomorrow. Thank you so much for reading me. I appreciate you all. God bless and be safe always.
Simple yet happy
Yesterday was my first nephew's birthday. We celebrate his birthday in a very simple way yet I could see in his eyes the happiness his heart contain.
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I know it's late to celebrate his birthday here in this platform yet here I am writing about his celebration because I had found lesson and happiness while celebrating with him. I wasn't able to write it yesterday since I had to celebrate my 11 months in this platform with you friends since I've been missing many months of celebration so I made up this time and make sure I could celebrate and write my heartfelt gratitude to all of you yesterday.
Last day April 26, 2022 is the 9th birthday of my first nephew. I could remember how I cuddle him in my arms right after he was out from the maternity room. He was so cute and beautiful baby but now his growing fast as time flies so fast. He is becoming a teenage boy. I'm sorry I'd become an emotional tita here 😁😅. I can't hold myself huhu.
Anyways, to continue my story, his birthday was just a very simple one. We don't have much and even I myself wasn't able to give much that day. We just hang a simple decoration for him. And we cooked just a few viand. We are just bless by her godmother who have sent him a thousand bill for his birthday, which his mother bought a pasta for spaghetti, some pork for the humba and pansit, and a cake.
We didn't invite many people just family, close friends and few neighborhood. Even so we enjoy the celebration, the celebrant enjoy his birthday. One of his visitor jokingly said to him, "**You have a lot of visitors coming, your cake will be eaten and nothing will left for you.**" He responded saying," **It's okay as long as I have visitors and they will be happy and full, I will be happy."** I am really happy of his response. He never worried about himself but he look for the welfare of his visitors. He is a big boy indeed. He even take care his friends who came to celebrate with him. And had so much fun. Her mom greet him and asked if his happy and he said he is happy. The reason of his happiness is so simple, he had his favorite food as what he requested, he had cake from his godmother, and his friends is coming over.
**Conclusion**
In life sometimes we forget to appreciate the simple things because we are not contented and looking for more than the things we acquire thus we could not feel happy with those simple things. Let us remember that this simple things are the things that we need and could make us happy. We shouldn't have to look for the things that is not there because if we do so, we could never feel happy in our lifetime. Children had simple happiness and they could appreciate simple things, things that we, adult couldn't even see as worthy or have value.
During birthdays we want nice dress, good food and many gifts without even asking ourselves if that could really be the necessary things to make us happy. Cause we we see closely, it just take a family, a friend and whatever food present to make a celebration become wonderful and full of life. Because what's the use of the nice dress, good food and gifts if your family isn't present? If no friends arrived because you have none? If your visitor isn't happy attending? It will be surely useless. So, whenever a celebration is celebrated let's makes sure that whatever you have you are happy and contented with it cause even how simple it could be you could still be happy.
**Life isn't about the richness nor the luxury of being rich but it's about having true people who supports you, guide you and be with you through thick and thin.**
Happy birthday to all who celebrates their birthday today. May God bless you and shower you with good health, love, peace and success.
That would be all for today friends thank you for reading. Keep safe and God bless.
11 months and 1 BCH goal achieve
Today marks my 11 months on this platform, finally after almost a year in the platform, I finally save 1 BCH. I know it is a very long time yet here I am happy and victorious. I believe I already accomulate more than 1 BCH within this time frame yet it become my life saver and was the ultimate emergency button I have in this life and I am so much grateful with that reason alone. I don't feel any regrets or what so ever of spending those many because it has its purpose and it surely served its purpose.
Time flies so fast that I couldn't believe that I will celebrate anniversary next month in this platform. There are a lot of challenges happened, on and off writing yet here I am, surpassing everything with a lot of learnings with me. I know I couldn't do this without this beautiful people in my back. First off my subscribers. To my 160 subscribers, I appreciate you all I am so grateful for your support. I may not know you all but let me give my heartfelt gratitude to all of you. Second, my sponsors, you are the best and you are all appreciated. To @Olasquare @foryoubtc09 @Sequoia @JonicaBradley , I really appreciate you for having my back and renewing every month. It means so much to me. Thank you, thank you so much. Within this 11 months of journey it made more blissful.
This 11 months would not be possible without those people and I awe them a lot. I know my words of gratitude and appreciation wouldn't be enough but I hope you will know how sincere I am. I believe that God will give you double and even ten folds. He will bless you more than how you bless me. This 1 BCH wouldn't be possible without you all. And I am more than grateful for earning this. May God shower you much blessings.
Within this 11 months I know it's not just only 1 BCH that I earn yet it's only now I get to save such because of many things I get to attend and need to pay using my earnings, one of this is my mobile phone and my monthly load. Another is my PRC papers and other documents while I am applying for a job. Moreover, emergency bills at home are included as well, such as medication for father's accident while working. I don't have any regrets though, that I haven't save any of those money because I am grateful that I had it in the first place because what can I spend without it?
**Now that I get to save 1 BCH, what's the goal?**
Eventhough BCH is currently at it's deep but I believe it will rise soon. So, might hold for a bit more.I think for now I don't have any goal on how to spend that earning. I want to hold it and wait for its value to rise. Since, the goal that I always dreamed of already achieve I put another goal off course to be more motivated here. I believe we all need it. So, I create another wallet for the new goal.
Off course since I am done with 1 BCH goal I move to 2 BCH goal. I hope I could achieve it. I do have a lot in my mind as to how to spend it but I might reach this goal before deciding how to spend it. I am excited to know as well if how many more months or years it would take me before accumulating this goal. I won't be in a hurry though, I would be patient and I would work hard for it to achieve.
Well, in order for the long-term goal to be achieve there must be a short-term goal needed to back up for the step by step journey before acquiring the long-term. And yes, I know and I believe that being active would comes first. I need to be more active in the platform and visit more writers and interact with them more often too. As well as, supporting another writers, not just visit and read them but become a sponsor as well. I knew it was a great challenge since the beginning but I hope I could be back from sponsoring writers as well. I hope and pray I will soon. Of course, write more often at least 1 article per day. Though I had 2 days of not writing for this month because of unstable internet connection, I hope it won't happened next month.
Even though I don't have much earnings lately but 2 dollars per day is more than enough and I am grateful. Who will gave me such amount per day? It's only read.cash. That's why, I should have done better for the platform as well. I hope I could for the months to come especially now that I would be a full time writer because my contract just ended. I hope I could visit the platform often and be more active. 🤞
**Conclusion**
To all the successes in life let us not forget the people that make possible for that success. I hope that we could look back to them and give even just a simple appreciation or words of gratitude. And even with the late achievement of goals, let's still be grateful because we made it. It's not the achieved goals that made us happy but the journey in between. And to the long-term to be possible let us not be tired of trying the short-term works. Let's give our best to everything that we work for. Because as what they said, "Do your best and God will do the rest". Never forget to trust God and yourself. Sooner or later you will achieve your goal.
That's all for today friends. Thank you so much for reading and I appreciate you all. God bless and keep safe.
Officially signing off
Last Friday was the last day of my substitution thus this Monday I officially sign off as a teacher to the school I work with.
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My 1 month and half substitution end last Friday. Time flies so fast whenever you love what you are doing and I don't want to leave yet. It sadden me at the same time I am happy. It's a mixed emotions. I don't know what I've felt really. Tonight I bid goodbye to the GC that my school staff had and I gave my heartfelt thanks to them. They are so warm and they treat me very nicely. They are all pleasant and kind. I will surely missed them.
Today is an ordinary Monday. I didn't wake up early prepare myself and went to school. A routine that I used to. It's sadden me, especially the school works and all. Haysss. Though I am happy because I could stay in the house, stay in the bed for how long I'd like but still there is this pinch in my heart that long for the daily routine. At some point I know I it will end sooner or later maybe I just overreacting or over played my role. I shouldn't have, I guess. Maybe I wouldn't feel this way right now. 😓
On the other side of it, I am grateful because I could resume my workout and my healthy routine. No more, fast meal, can goods and preserve food because I need to rash to work and I need to pack something for lunch. Most times can goods are the fast to prepare for lunch. So since I don't have to rash things every morning, I already have the opportunity to cook food for myself that is much more healthy than I consume when I was working. Since I had plenty of time in my hand earlier I went to the town earlier this morning to inquire the requirements for my salary claim. I visit my friend @Zhyne06 in her house and we had long conversation of how's life doin, plans and career. I also buy fruits and oatmeal for me to have some healthy food that would get along with my workout. I also start resuming my work out finally! 😁
I had two workout this afternoon jump rope and freestyle including plank, leg exercises, and arm exercises. And I had oatmeal with banana as dinner. And while eating I remember how I eat so much this past few months and I regretted it huhu. I know I can control my binge eating but I let food ruled again. So yeah, I should expect the consequences. Anyways so much about it, I can't keep blaming myself and regretting therefore move on and do something about it.
I know and I accepted already that my journey of being a teacher in that school had ended and I am officially signing off as there staff yet I know I have new journey to take and that is to myself. I am grateful of the experience and I will bring it in my lifetime wherever I am.
Thank you for reading. I appreciate you all God bless.
Food for the soul is back!
April 24, 2022
Hi everyone. Happy, happy Sunday. I hope you are doing great and you are showered with grace by the Lord in this very moment. Today is another plate of food for the soul article. It's me coming back again after few months of stop writing this project of mine. I had missed a lot and I am very sorry about that. And as I promised that I would be back soon, here it goes. I hope you will be reading this entire episode and leave a comment right after reading. It will be much appreciated. Thank you.
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Before I would start the holy gospel as well as my reflections, let me share you first the reason of why I stop writing this project and why I came back just now.
Why I stop?
Okay, it's because I never wanted to write something that is not pure and I myself isn't putting, advices and reflection into actions. Cause months ago I was so sinful and not pure and I don't want to be hypocrite nor be a human plastic with you. I don't write that doesn't comes from the heart and soul.
Why now?
It's because I am ready for it and I passed the stage of feeling unpure and sinful. Though I don't say I don't commit sin anymore now but it's a matter of having pure thoughts and pure intentions. I already reconciled with God, my self and the people around me. I guess it happened right after the Holy week (The holy week was so personal to me) that I have felt I am ready to do the mission again. Spreading the good news. So, I think I am done with my story now let us hear the Gospel of the lord.
Holy Gospel is according to John 20:19-31
In the evening of that same day, the first day of the week, the doors were closed in the room where the disciples were, for fear of the Jews. Jesus came and stood among them. He said to them, '**Peace be with you**,' and, after saying this, he showed them his hands and his side. The disciples were filled with joy at seeing the Lord, and he said to them again, 'Peace be with you. **'As the Father sent me, so am I sending you.'**After saying this he breathed on them and said: **Receive the Holy Spirit.** If you forgive anyone's sins, they are forgiven; if you retain anyone's sins, they are retained.
Thomas, called the Twin, who was one of the Twelve, was not with them when Jesus came.So the other disciples said to him, 'We have seen the Lord,' but he answered, 'Unless I can see the holes that the nails made in his hands and can put my finger into the holes they made, and unless I can put my hand into his side, I refuse to believe.'
Eight days later the disciples were in the house again and Thomas was with them. The doors were closed, but Jesus came in and stood among them. '**Peace be with you,'** he said.Then he spoke to Thomas, 'Put your finger here; look, here are my hands. Give me your hand; put it into my side. Do not be unbelieving any more but believe.' Thomas replied, 'My Lord and my God!' Jesus said to him: You believe because you can see me. **Blessed are those who have not seen and yet believe**.
There were many other signs that Jesus worked in the sight of the disciples, but they are not recorded in this book. These are recorded so that you may believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God, and that believing this you may have life through his name.
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Reflection
Let us ponder few things in this Gospel today. As the Lord had risen and with the disciples in a closed room. And said the following words:
'Peace be with you,'
It's a word of sincere blessings of peace for the disciples who were very much disturb and scared that very moment. Because the soldiers were after him because of Jesus. It was a words that he says that symbolize his forgiveness towards his disciples towards us.
After the incident that one of his disciples lied about him, betrayed him and deserted him as he suffered his death on the cross, he still offer everyone forgiveness. A forgiveness they don't deserve. Because he loved all of them, he loved us.
Jesus loved us so much that he did not feel anger of what we have done to him. And because of that great love that he forgive us. That he give us his blessings of peace to continue to live in this world without fear, without guilt. That is the greatest love that we ever had in this world. A love that is forgiving.
As the Father sent me, so am I sending you.
After Jesus was risen he immediately told everyone to tell the world that he is alive. To continue do the mission, to spread his good news. As he will be going to the father and couldn't be with the people he loved dearly, he instructed them to go and do the mission instead of him.
Even though his disciples had sinned against him. He still want them to do the mission. He still manage to trust him to sent them for his behalf. Like an owner of a company whom instructed his beloved employee to continue work despite messing up and making the company go down and bankrupt.
It's only Jesus who did that. To trust us despite of our sinfulness. It's his great loved and his compassion that brought to us into this mission. Who would still trust people to do something after a great betrayal. It's only Jesus. He trusted us to be his disciples even though we committed a lot of sin. Because of his forgiveness, and his trust that we continue to live out this mission. That is why as Jesus sent us, we should spread his goodness and his loved. Because we experience it in our lives.
Receive the Holy Spirit.
As Jesus give his disciples the holy spirit, he continue to live in their lives even though he will be with his father in heaven. He gave the holy spirit to his disciples for them to feel his presence and would not be afraid. Whatever the situation would be. Whatever they will encounter along the way, he gave them the holy spirit to strengthen them and for them to become brave.
We received his holy spirit through the sacraments in the church. Through recieving the Holy Eucharist. He made this remembrance for us to believe that he is really with us. Let us not waste this opportunity to recieve the holy spirit because it will give us strength to continue in this life.
Blessed are those who have not seen and yet believe.
The disciples had doubted Jesus even though they seen his works and his miracles. What more those who did not see him or his works. But as what he said to his disciples, "Blessed are those who not seen yet believe".
We are truly blessed if we believe in him even though we did not see him because we will inherit the treasures and the goodness in heaven. How can we not believe? when we experience his love and his goodness every of our life. From our breathe to all the blessings we had been experiencing.
Conclusion
Truly Jesus is loving and compassionate to all of us. He is with us every of our life that even though he died, he is risen to prove to us that he really is with us. Not dead but alive. He works in our lives. He showered us his blessings. He gave us peace and he sent us in this world to let everyone else know that he is alive and he is preparing the heaven for us.
My dear brothers and sisters. I hope you receive the message of the lord this day. I hope you will continue to believe and do everything with love just live Jesus with trust, love and compassion towards each other.
That would be all for today. Thank you for your time. I appreciate it so much if you made up to this far. God bless and keep safe.
Cancelled
There are moments in life that we are cancelled by the people around us, sometimes it is a blessing in disguise but more often it hurts real bad.
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Life is beautiful and life is challenging it offers many spectrum that we could choose which one to take. We may have good experience along the journey but we couldn't escape from the reality that we will be hurt more than we want to be. Sometimes we are hurt by people we barely know other times by the people we are close with like family and friends. Mostly we feel more hurt when we are cancelled or rejected by our family members or close friends than the people that aren't close to us. Yet what I have experience is quite bad. I was cancelled. Or should I say my parcel was cancelled. And it hurts badly.
Dude I've been waiting for it for few weeks and it end like this? 😭😭😭 It hurt me so much. I know I had lapses as well but it's not totally my fault. Okay here's the story for you to understand.
Last April 6, I ordered a trend pair of jelly heels. It's not just cheap it's also pretty and I like to have a pair of them too. That's why I ordered it and was very excited to have them. I checked my app every now and then and expected it to come according to the date it supposed to arrived. Yet, typhoon Agaton hits us and road weren't passable because of the huge landslide that happened. It was before holy week. It was dated to arrived April 14 and since the road is not passable so I did not receive it. The partner courier message me as well explaining about the delay and asking for forgiveness. I understand everything because it's no one's fault. Week after that I couldn't have the luxury to tracked it because I was busy and since I already thought that it would be delayed for couple more weeks. I even message the courier to message me whenever they will deliver my parcel. Since I never expected it to come, I did not checked it. Week after the Holy week the delivery attempted but they never reached me because I was at work and I don't have any reception there. April 18 was the first attempt and three days from that my parcel was already returned. I was sad, with the fact that I did wait for it and was very excited yet I couldn't have them. And the most sad part is that, the courier did not message me as per request by the time I message them. I was so disappointed and angry. My excitement was replaced by so much disappointment. My sister actually the one who told me to never expect it to arrived anymore because that what happened to her parcel as well. I told her it's fine and that good to know because my money will be saved yet deep inside me, I was hurt. I was down. I know I had my lapses as well but I never have expected for it to come in such unnoticed date. I asked the courier but he/she did not message me. Looking at the notification that I will be ban after three cancelled order I was disappointed. I mean how can they do this to me? It's not my fault that the road weren't passable. Haysss. 😓
There nothing I can do anymore. There's so much energy wasted over things I don't have any control. I should accept it. And let it be a lesson learned. For now, I have a lot of things added on my cart yet I have second thought of ordering. Maybe I should checked it on the store directly when I have time for me to not encounter such experience. I need to be careful too because I couldn't afford to be ban for COD payment option. It will be bad.
Being cancelled was the worst feeling it could be by close person's or not still hurt. It won't be the same intensity though but the hurt feeling exist and it count. So, maybe we should not easily cancelled anyone who need us because we know the feeling already. Let's not make cancellation a normal thing. When things gets rough or challenges came let's hear their side of the story before judging them and cancelling them. Let's not close ourselves, our door to them because being cancelled is the worst feeling ever. It could not just in big things but even in small things like listening to someone's story. Let's be more kind and humane to others. Because who are we to be not kind. To be not understanding. To be not considerate. They need it just like we do.
Today I will message the seller and ask for forgiveness of what had happened. I think she needs to hear my side. I awe it to here in the first place because she paid for the delivery of those products. She lost her capital. She take risk for my parcel that she could have profit. When I hadn't lost any on my side. So maybe an explaination could console her lost.
That would be all for today folks. Thanks for reading. I appreciate you all. Keep safe and God bless.
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Stability
There are few things in life that needed stability and most times stability in all different aspects are very difficult to achieve.
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Stability is a broad aspects that needs deeper understanding and research yet why I write about it? Well, there's so much going on in my life right now and things had been difficult and unstable just like my internet connection. It's been few days that I couldn't get to have good internet connection and I couldn't write a article because of it. That's why I have decide to write about it because in my life right now it's not only internet connection that's have a problem but a lot more aspect too. I will right my own experience as well to prevent from plagiarism.
**What are the things that need stability?**
Physical aspects
To be physically fit is very important in our life because we need the strength to battle everyday struggles.
Being healthy and physical fit right now is very challenging. Aside from the reason that I am getting extra weight and having unhealthy eating habits, I don't have the time and money to put my effort into good use. First and foremost, I have been very busy with my job and the weather is not good for some jog outside. Second, I need money for my food because we always have excessive intake of sodium and can goods at home plus vegetables are so expensive nowadays. Anyways so much for all the excuses if I am very willing to be stable physically, no more excuses. Since I am done with my teaching substitution, I will have enough time. For the weather I will maybe having routine indoor. For the food maybe I will just have to grow my own garden for the sake of eating healthy. Hehe
Physical stabality here I come. 💪
**Emotional aspect**
Emotional is connected with our physical stability. We need to be physically fit for us to have a stable emotion. Stress could be avoided through exercising. It could relieve worries and overthinking. Since exercising is proven to help get rid of anxiety because if our physical aspects is healthy our body releases hormone that help the brain to be healthy as well. Having good healthy lifestyle could give confidence and positive outlook in life.
I don't say I have been struggling again emotionally right now but I do worries of few things that makes me eat unnecessary food that contribute to unhealthy diet. Sometimes I use food as a way to escape. And I am guilty, I am sad of the few months that I wasted just to be fit and gain the confidence. So, I think I should and I need to do something for me not to drown totally by my unhealthy habits that will surely led me to experience emotional break downs again. No, never again. I will not allow it to happen. Not anymore.
**Financial aspect**
Money is important, though it suffice basic needs but it's not the most important things in this life. No, please don't think money is the VERY important thing, LIFE is. You can't have money or money is useless if you are lifeless. So think carefully. Next to life is health. That's why I emphasize physical stability in the very beginning of this writing.
I am not broke. I am not rich. I am earning and I could buy the things I need and some wants too. Yet, I couldn't say I am confident and stable in terms of financial aspects. I don't have regular job yet thus makes me say I am not financially stable. I hope and pray I could land a regular job soon. Still thankful that I have this platform and earn. I could provide basic needs and emergency things at home.
**Spiritual aspects**
One that is mostly neglected but important. We should be spiritually stable for us to have strength to continue life with it's battles. This aspect as well makes life more meaningful and keeps as sane. It makes us realize what's more than in this world.
I need this too. Even though I go to church every Sunday but it's not enough. I know it's not, because it's important for me to have personal time with the Lord and I don't have yet. My prayer time is dry. I pray when I remember. I pray when it's needed. I hope I could be stable spiritually I know I needed to for me to continue my journey. It's a weapon to all the unseen battle. Because through this I could gain strength from God.
This four aspects is the most important thing for us to be stable. As for me I believe if it will be stable I could continue life. But as what I have learned from the post on Facebook earlier that says and I quote " **don't wait until life will be stable to continue living and live life you ever wanted like getting married or have a vacation because it will never be realized if you wanted for it to happen pray for it. Stability will follow. Because if God will put things according to his plan it will happened."**
As the bible says, " **trust the Lord your God and lean not on your own understanding."**
I hope and pray that soon God will provide the stability that I needed. I hope yours too. May it be physical, emotional, financial or spiritual aspects. Let's pray for it. Let's trust the Lord. For he is the Almighty and have the control of everything.
That's all for today friends. Thank you for reading. God bless.
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Creating an impact
Creating an impact doesn't require big effort, sometimes it only needs simple act.
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Happy hump day everyone. I hope you are doing great. It calls for another weekend that will end soon as we call it a day to our daily task and lay down our tired body unto the bed. How's your day going by the way? As for me we had a very tiring day as we prepare for the portfolio day. It's not just the preparation for tomorrow's event that made me tired it's also that my plate is full and everything seems in a rush. I bet it's because of the reason that I will be leaving the school soon. Thus I need to finished everything that is required by my head teacher.
Time flies so fast that I did not notice that my duty will end. I guess it's because I enjoy my job, thus I did notice notice the day that pass. Oh! Speaking of job, my school requires me to make a reading materials, actually we all need to it's just that I need to make everything done soon.
What are those reading materials?
Flashcards
I created as per assignment, a vowel letter A and consonant letter B, K and D, and W. I am done incoding them and attaching pictures that represent the word. The only thing that left to do is to print, cut and attach it on a card board or folder. It's not that many though just 10 words for vowel letter and 5 words each consonant letter.
Flipchart
For the phrases, I choose to make it as a flip chart for the students. It is easy and convenient for the student to read and for the teacher to facilitate the learning of the students. I will just print it into a tarp paper for it to be presentable and less time consuming in making for I won't be needed to write them one by one.
Big book
From its name big book, it's a big story book and the story that is featured is written by me and illustrated by me. That is why it took so much of my time. Yet, I don't have any regrets of doing so because it will be useful soon. It will help the students and the teachers as well.
It's not that hard to do yet I make sure it look presentable for the learners to enjoy reading it. The story for my big book is entitled" Ang trak ni Trabis" (the car of Trabis) and " Ang Baboy ni Biboy" (the pig of Biboy). I made the story and I really loved it. I hope the learners will love it too.
I know I don't need to do this because I will leave the school soon, but I want to do it. I want to leave just a single trace of me in that school, in that place. I want to create an impact, it may not create a wave for now but I believe soon. I want to be remembered and I want to have an impact on my learners. Thus, I am putting a very simple act. I know its not big, but I believe it still create an impact to my learners. I hope it will be count soon. I would definitely missed my job, my learners and the school. Aweehhh, naiiyak ako (I'm teary eyed 🥺).
As the quotes says, "bloom where God puts you". I hope I did. I did my best to bloom with Grace. To create an impact. To create a step for a change of my learners life. I guess, I will end here. My eyes will close as I type this. I am tired, yet I am happy. I will sleep with a smile on my face. Thank you so much for reading me. I appreciate you all and God bless.
Small but grateful
Small things create the big things therefore let's be grateful of those little things we have.
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Lately I've felt I haven't do much and move much in my life. I can't see myself in a spotlight. Things had been a little difficult and shakey. Still even so I am much grateful because I have this little things in my life that still complete me and made me, me. That made me happy. That made some corner of my life shine and bright.
What are those small things I am grateful for?
Family
I am grateful of my family. Even though I don't have great family yet I am so much grateful of this small family of mine. They are a gift that support me all the way of where I am right now. They maybe not perfect because there's no perfect in this world. We fight. We argue. We had lapses but love always prevail. That what matter most. We love each other more than anything in this world. And with that I thank God everyday with this gift of family. Small but I am grateful.
Job
I am grateful of my work. I may not have the nicest job and one which have big salary yet I am so much grateful of my job. It's not stable in yet because I am not a regular employee of the government yet. It will end soon yet I am grateful. This is a gift that makes me live my career for a small amount of time. Those small time that makes me fall in love with my chosen career over and over again. My job isn't one that have big salary, yet I am happy and I always felt I live out my purpose and mission everytime I wake up in the morning. Therefore I am grateful of this small amount of time, of opportunity. I may leave it sooner but I am still grateful of this chance.
Friends
I am grateful of my friends. They are not the perfect friends yet we value and appreciate it's other. That's the most important thing I believe. I don't have the big circle of friends yet we love each other. Treat each other as brother and sisters. I am grateful to God for giving me such loving friends. For me they are the best. We could tell each other worries and serve the lord together. Isn't it wonderful? It is more than that. It's amazing to have such kind of friendship. One that sees no bonderies. One that does not see imperfections. Small but I am grateful.
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I am grateful of the opportunity to be part of this wonderful platform. I may have small number of people around me but there heart are great. The support they gave is more than enough. I may not have the biggest amount earned but I am so much grateful of the small number cause it count. Small but after sometime it accumulate big amount and I don't expect it to be that huge for me because who could gave me such amount without giving a capital but only effort and time. Thus, I am grateful of small amount everyday. It is maybe small but it's so much more than enough for me and I am grateful with that small things.
Let us give thanks of the small things we have in life because they create the big things as time pass by. Without those small things we can't have those big things. Let's stop complaining in life for us to see the details, thus small things that create the details that makes everything counts. Small things are the step to greatness. I hope that we could see small things as blessings and give value to them. Let's give thanks to the family, friends, job and this opportunity to earned here in read.cash. We don't have big things yet in our life but let us be patient because as time pass by we can't realize that we have big things already. And there we realize that those small things makes those big things possible.
That would be all for today everyone. Have a great day. Thank you for reading me. God bless.
A day to be risen
Today the Lord has risen. I hope and pray we will rise with him from the deepest slumber of our faith.
Happy Easter Sunday everyone. I hope you are doing great. I hope you celebrate this Easter Sunday with the Lord and with your family.
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Easter Sunday is the last day of our Holy week celebration. It is the day which the Lord has risen from the dead. As the gospel tells us how the disciples discovered the Lord is not there in his tomb anymore they believe that he is the Lord yet do not understand the scripture that he must rise from the dead.
My dear brothers and sisters in Christ let's believe in the Lord with all our heart, with all our mind, and with all our soul. Let us understand as well that he must rise from the dead in order to fulfill what was written in the scripture. For everything was already written and Jesus was sent to fulfill them. As this holy week celebration end let me ask you this question?
**How are you in this holy week celebration?**
As of me, this holy week is really a very personal and powerful one, as I came to know Jesus deeper and make a deeper faith and relationship towards him. As I have said in my previous article, this holy week there are some activities I get to do for the first time, such as hearing the seven last words that was celebrated on Good Friday. I get to serve and celebrate the blessings of the new fire on black Saturday and able to sing with the angels on the celebration of the Easter Sunday as Jesus and Mary met after his resurrection.
God has been so faithful to me, to us that even in his death he rise to be with us to show us that he is the son of God sent from heaven. To believe in him and never doubt him. This Easter Sunday Jesus wanted to remind us that He died for us and he rise for us. That there is more than this life and the death as the end of our life in this world. That we will be risen and be with him in his paradise. That after the painful sacrifice he take on the cross for our sinfulness, he never regretted it and even get back to us alive to show that he never had left us even a single moment in our life.
Brothers and sisters, God is alive. Our God is alive and is not dead. He hear our prayers, heals our wound and lift our burdens in this life. He is with us. I hope and pray that this Easter Sunday, like God that is risen from the dead, we will also be risen from our deepest slumber in our faith towards the Lord. Let us believe, be hopeful, be faithful towards him because he is to us. Let's end our doubts, and our worries because he is with us. Let's put our trust to him because he is our God willing to die for us, take the cross for us and rise from dead for us. That's how big the love of our God for us. That's how great his mercy and compassion towards us. He could have just forsake us, leave us and let us suffer from our sins but he didn't let that happened because he loved us. Our God is not just alive but our God is the greatest God, the most loving and compassionate God. Imagine how precious you are because someone is willing to die for you, and loved you unconditionally.
I myself, had realized this day is a gift. This day is the day I shouldn't waste. Because if not today when will be the time I will do something? When time is running out? No, I should not wait because I will never knew until when I could have this borrowed life.
Let's use this Easter Sunday to be renewed, to be risen with the Lord. Let our old self be risen. Let our faith be risen. Let us rise with the Lord.
Happy Easter everyone.
That would be all for today thank you for your time. God bless.
Black Saturday: A day of service
As a continue celebration of the Holy week, we celebrate black Saturday. Black Saturday is a celebration where the station of the cross is celebrated. And I wasn't able to attend because it was celebrated early in the morning. More activities coming on the way and I thank God that I was able to do service within this black Saturday.
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As I was saying, I was able to do service within this day and I am grateful and happy to be of service.
First off, we went to get something for our decoration for the Easter Sunday. We meet in the church at 9:00 am.
We get some ferns and Vietnam grass off the woods. We enjoy it much although there are a lot of mosquitoes biting hehe. We enjoy the esthetic mother nature. Such a refreshing view. We really appreciate it and talk about planting more trees to avoid more disaster in the coming years.
After, getting the ferns and vines. We get back to the church. Na decorate the venue for the Easter Sunday.
We don't have enough resources for the decoration because aside from the fact that roads still unpassable the past few days, flowers cost a lot lately. So, we improvise, and we reuse the flowers again tha was use the previous day. Still we were able to beautify the place even with such crisis we encounter.
We able to finish the decorations and had our lunch in the barangay hall together with our brothers and sisters. After that we went home and prepare ourselves for the 8:00 pm mass. We arrived early in the church. Another activity I get to attend is the Blessing of the new fire. Because of the crowd I did not able to capture any photos. So I capture this instead.
The mass begin with the lighting of the candle and renewing our faith through the baptism of water.
The church was field with the light of the candle as we celebrate the Holy Saturday. This symbolize the light that we found in Jesus, as He rose from the dead. We were showered with the holy water right after the priest blessed the water in the altar. Praise the Lord God almighty for the calling to be here and the opportunity to celebrate the Black Saturday with him through the Holy gospel and the Holy Eucharist.
As we wait for the Easter Sunday celebration, we are here right now in the church watching the program that is facilitated by the Youth.
I am typing this article at exactly 2:24 in the morning April 17, 2022.
Happy Easter Sunday everyone. May the Lord be with us and live with us everyday.
Good Friday: 7 last words
Today is good Friday. As part of the Holy week celebration and comemoration of the death of Jesus in the cross. There were few activities that was held in the church. One of this is the "Siyete palabras" which recall the seven last words of Jesus in the cross.
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This year's holy week is life changing for me. Maybe not 360 degree in one move but a step for some changes. I am happy and proud to say that, I attended the seven last words activity in the church for the first time in my entire existence. Yes, it's not my first time hearing it because I've been listening on radio way back or watch it no television. Yet, it's very much different when you heard it personally. The seven last words that was delivered by seven different people with different stories and journey with the Lord. Words that touches my heart and soul that I could tell myself it is the Lord that spoke to me through these people.
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There are different activities I get to attend today but the seven last words was the highlight of it all.
The seven last words;
Father forgive them, for they do not know what the are doing.
Today you will be with me in the paradise.
Dear woman here is your son, here is your mother.
My god, my god why have you forsaken me?
I am thirsty.
It is finished.
Father into your hands I commit my spirit.
Reflection:
**"Father forgive them, for they do not know what the are doing."**
As the Lord was about to be crossified, he asked the Lord Almighty to forgive the people that made his sufferings and crossifixion.
We are the reason of his sufferings yet he asked the Father to forgive us because we do not know what we are doing. In this life alone when the only thing that we do is sinfulness towards Him and our Father in heaven, we are still forgiven. Even with our sinfulness, He loved us. His love is abundant that even in his difficult times, the only thing he do is to understand and forgive us.
I hope and pray that today we will start forgiving ourselves and leave our sinfulness behind. Let us live the love and the forgiveness that the Lord had offer for us through the sacrifice of his life.
**"Today you will be with me in the paradise."**
As the thief who asked to be with him in his paradise the Lord promise him that with the regrets and the faith he had in him he will be with him in heaven.
In this life we are like thieves, who are greedy and discontented of life and it's graces. Thus, continue to commit the sinfulness and all that makes us no longer worthy of his love and grace. Of his abundance and blessings.
I hope and pray that even though we commit sinfulness and like the thief in this world, we will be like him as well who regret and have faith with the Lord. And would asked the Lord to be with him in his paradise. May we be able to do our part as well to become worthy to enter in his paradise.
**"Dear woman here is your son, here is your mother."**
As Mary cried seeing her son in the cross. Jesus told her that it's the fate that her son had to faced. And he told his disciples that she is their mother. And from that moment on Mary stayed with His disciples.
Whatever fate we have in this world. To all the mother reading this, let's accept what the Lord in heaven prepares for our sons and daughters. Let's entrust them fully to the Lord. And to all the sons and daughters reading this, let's honor and acknowledge our mothers like Jesus had done. For everything will not fulfill without Mary who carry the son from heaven without fear and accepted what the Lord had entrusted of her. Our mother had done a huge role in our life. Without them we will not be in this world.
**"My god, my god why have you forsaken me?"**
As the Lord suffer the pain from the nails and the arrow in his side, he asked the Lord, "why have you forsaken me?"
Sometimes in our life as we encounter struggles, challenges and pain, we immediately questioned the Lord, "why have you forsaken me?" We always asked why should we needed to suffer such pain, such struggles. And then we doubt him. We doubt his goodness, his power. If we look closer to the struggles and pain, it is not intended to break us, scar us but to strengthen us, and make our faith deeper and move us closer to the Lord. This is to remind us that we are nothing without the Lord. That the Lord is the most powerful and has the total control of everything.
I hope and pray that in times of pain and struggles we will not question the Lord. The struggles are not there to forsake us but to move us closer to him. Let's call him in times of crisis and hold unto his faithfulness, his goodness, his love.
**"I am thirsty."**
As the Lord become thirsty. And the soldier give him a sponge with vinegar on it. The Lord wasn't pertaining to wordly desires and needs. But it was because of a divine need.
I am thirsty, isn't about our basic needs of water, of power, or of richness but of the soul. I'm life we couldn't find contentment because our soul is empty, which worldly things cannot fill-in. Thus, we need spiritual aspects for our soul to be full and our flesh to be contented.
I hope and pray that may we feed our soul as well not just our body. May we recieve the holy eucharist and hear the message of the Lord every day or every Sunday. May we be able to feed our soul for us to satisfy our thirst from this world.
**"It is finished."**
After the soldier gave him vinegar in sponge, he said "It is finished." His sufferings will be over and his life will end thus he says it is finished.
In this life that we borrowed, it will come to an end. We will all die. Just like Christ, we will. And by that everything that we had in this world in this life will end and will vanished. We couldn't bring anything in this world. The richness, the power, the popularity. We can't bring them all when we die. Therefore, we shouldn't put too much effort to have this in this world. Instead have faith, have good friends, good relationship. Have things that will not rotten. Do good deeds. Help others. Serve the lord through the people around you.
I hope and pray that we will build richness in heaven and not of this world. For this world is not ours and our borrowed life will end and our time will be finished sooner or later. Let us seek the kingdom of the lord.
"**Father into your hands I commit my spirit."**
As the life of Jesus end, he cried in his last breath that he entrusted his spirit to the hands of his Father.
Just like Jesus, I hope and pray that we will entrust our soul to the Lord. That we will put our full trust in him for it is from him alone. Let us dedicate this life to the Father. And by that I mean, that we will do all things in him, through him and with him.
Conclusion:
Holy week is a celebration of how great the love of God towards us that he gave his only begotten son to die for our sins. I know that we celebrate holy week in different ways but I just hope and pray that we knew and learned the essence of celebrating it alone.
I may not have yet the total change but I love this small changes that happened to me today. The miracle of attending the seven last word in good Friday. And not only that because I see the goodness, the love and the very essence of the holy week. I hope and pray that you too. Soon you will find that way too or please find it yourself. Learned and understand it. It is essential for your faith, your soul and your life in general. Take the first step. Do it now cause if not now then when? A small reminder that we don't know until when we could borrow this life that we had.
That would be all for today friends. Thank you for your time and God bless.
Maundy Thursday: washing of feet
Maundy Thursday is the day which Jesus had the last supper with his apostles. On that same day and time he also washed their feet.
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I get to attend the mass for today, Maundy Thursday, as part of the holy week celebration. I praise God I got to witness the memoire of his humble dids and got to appreciate the holiness of the holy mass and the Eucharist.
The holy gospel retell the story of what exactly happened on that day in which Jesus had the last supper with his disciples. Every Maundy Thursday, I always reminded of how we celebrate the body of blood of Christ through the Holy mass. As he said" Do this in memory of me". But today's Maundy Thursday, I have learned different part of the story and focus different side of it. The side where the Lord washed the apostles feet. It was the humblest act I could ever known in my existence. As the Lord said to Peter when Peter refused to be washed " **if you won't let me washed your feet then you are not my disciple".** And then Peter responded and allowed the Lord even asked to be washed not just feet but head and body as well. But the Lord said to him, " **if you take a bath, the part of your body are all clean except the feet, thus I will only clean your feet."** It was a very humble act of the Lord to clean the feet of his apostles.
Cleaning the feet reflect service to others. The Lord had shown perfect example to all of us that we should be a service to others as well. I believe that the Lord tried to show us, that we should live for other people and not just ourselves. Indeed, we are made not for ourselves alone. "No man is an island". Eva is made for Adam. The tree won't eat its own fruit. And the river doesn't drink its own water. It is very clear that our mission, that the Lord emphasizes to us this Maundy Thursday is to be of service to other people.
Way back in the past years when I was an active member in the CFC- Youth for Christ community, I attended a recollection, a leader's retreat. I was the chapter head of our chapter by that time that is why I was in that recollection. Part of the program was washing of feet. An act that was taken from the act of Jesus to his disciples. We must choose anyone from our group that we will washed feet with. Someone that is of service and we want to honor and give thanks for their service to us. I choose my partner as a chapter head. I was his feet and told him how I honor him for his service as my partner in the mission. It was a very satisfying feeling and a feels so amazing. I was so overwhelmed that after washing his feet, he got to washed mine as well. He honor me for being his partner as well, giving thanks for my patience and understanding. I cried not because I was flattered but because I see Christ himself in him. The humbleness and the humility. By that moment I felt so overwhelmed and filled with the holy spirit. That's how I start to commit myself unto serving the Lord through the community. Through leading other youth and become of service to them. Eventually, I become a sector head and actively serving the Lord. But time come I get to choose between serving and study. And I choose study yet continue my mission of becoming a service to my students, as I embark my pre-service teacher journey. After graduation, I was never again become an active member of the CFC-Youth for Christ community, because I need to cross-over to becoming a Singles for Christ. It was a very challenging journey of faith and service and I was inactive by that time. And just today I came to realize that I needed to continue my service because ***if I won't let Jesus washed my feet, which is a sign of service then, I am not his disciples.***
I couldn't fathom how the Lord become so close to me this Maundy Thursday. And I am so much grateful that I get to experience and recieved the message. I need to be of service to others that is how I continue his loving memory. The priest told us, that we are all His disciples, Jesus disciples. Thus, we must continue his legacy, his perfect example. His humility. His humbleness.
Tomorrow is Good Friday. And I hope and pray, God will continue to talk to me through the Gospel. I hope and pray that tomorrow, I will acknowledge the Holiness of that day. His death in the cross for my sins. I knew and I believe I couldn't repay his goodness towards me. Therefore, I need to do my best that I could do what he is saying to me.
Become of service to others.
I hope you too my friend. You could make some time for the Lord tomorrow and the rest of the days in your life to come. Listen to his words and reflect from it. It will not just for the betterment of your actions but of your soul specifically. We can't live by bread alone, because we are composed of body and soul, therefore we need His words to feed our soul as well.
That would be all for today friends. Thanks for reading. I appreciate you all.
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Stranger
I thought it will just be a fine day just like any other day, but a strange thing happened from a strange stranger.
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First of it all allow me to share my first my fine day before I would share to you how it turn out so badly.
In the morning I wake up early and prepare myself to work. I was happy we get to go home early because our work is only until noon only. I went home and eat my lunch. After that I spend my entire afternoon watching my new found K-drama that I am obsess with hehe.
I am so flustered with the romantic scenario and even finished it today. It's been 3 days and I finally finished it. I am happy yet sad at the same time. After finishing my movie, I felt hungry and decided to walk to the near store to buy some snacks.
The wind is so refreshing so as the beauty of the nature. It's a very nice day after the storm had surpass. Finally, the sun is out although it's not totally bright. It's nice to get out as well after few hours of indulging my eyes in the mobile phone and filled it with much radiation. A walk helps me relax as well and enjoy the rest of the afternoon I had after work. I ate my snacks with my mama and sister. I shared it to them since I bought quite few.
From here my afternoon gets to ruined...
Moments later, two motorbikes arrived with some strangers. At first I couldn't recognize a single one of them but later on, a familiar face greeted me. His not that close and his not a total stranger as well. He is a suitor of mine from long ago that was already rejected. As he waved at me with his loud voice I guess exactly how he came to be in our place. He had his guts coming altogether because he is drunk. After knowing that, I went inside the room and never get out. He then find me and asked me to come out. I had a second thought of facing him because of two reasons alone.
First, his drunk. I don't want someone visiting me drunk. It a no, no for me and I don't want to face a drunkard person. There's no since talking to a drunk person anymore. I could remember the last time he visit me in the house of my sister, he wasn't drunk yet he don't have the face to be ashamed that it's already midnight and the people already wanted to rest from a very tiring day. I hate it. When people don't have the sensitivity to the feelings of others. His not drunk that day yet he don't have shamed what more now that his drunk. If I will face him he will not go home 'til midnight or worst until morning.
Second reason is that I am totally scared with drankard. I had this trauma that I once shared here. A trauma that I get from a drankard person. A trauma that whenever I hear a drunk person I would eventually get nervous, shaking and my heart would beat fast. I would hide in the corner and couldn't speak. And today I get to feel the same feeling again. I hate this feeling and I hate the people that would become the reason that I would felt this feelings.
I overheard them form outside. They want me to get out and face them. They were wondering why I am afraid and what I am afraid of. That I am so loyal with my boyfriend that I can't even entertain them just giving for some respect. Hearing those gets me furious. Respect? Really? Where this respect coming from when they couldn't even give it to me themselves. They're asking it from me? How could they? When in fact they came here drunk and cause a scene. I am ashamed of them.
I could hear almost everything they say. And I know that what I did is not good, but I believe they deserve it. Yes, I know I am not pretty or I am no artist to act like that. Not face them, when they visit me. But I totally think they don't deserve my respect. I maybe not pretty but I too deserve some respect myself. And they didn't even show a single, tiny respect to me.
*I don't need your gifts, I don't need anything but a simple respect. Isn't hard to give? What's on earth did I do to deserve such actions. In the past I gave you good manners. I gave you respect. I gave you friendship because that's the only thing I can offer. Yet, you gave me shame of all things.*
*Why? Am I that lowest in your eyes? Did you see me as a girl who have many faces? Why insist feelings that could not be reciprocated? If you will be in my boyfriend's shoe would you be happy to see your girlfriend entertained another guy? Respect? In the name of respect? If I ask you? Do you have anything left for yourself?*
I am Angry. I felt week. I found myself laughing. In my 26 years of existence. It's my first time hiding because someone had came to visit me drunk. I feel pity towards myself hiding in the corner eating my dinner and the only light that I had was the flashlight. I feel awful. I felt I am about to explode but I need to hold it. And then I found myself smiling. Well, charge to the experience. Congrats self, after quite a lot of relationship you had in the past it's the very first time ever. I finished my dinner that was prepared by mama in a secret without making any sound.
I entertained myself and watch movies. Few hours later, I heard someone snoaring. I couldn't believe myself. Really? It's funny yet very annoying.
The bastard is confidently laying, sleeping in our coach. What the? Are you kidding me? How the fudge his sleeping there? Takti walanghiya! Hoy, Gago uwi kana sa inyu! Sigaw Ng utak ko. Did I wake him of course.
No, I don't want to cause any scene, so I just click few shoots, zoom his face and get back inside. I chatted my sister and told her everything. And she was laughing at me the whole time. I send him the photos and we both had a sound laugh. After I vent out all my anger, she told me to talk to him whenever he wakes up and sober. Tell him straightforward that what he did is all wrong and I don't want to see his face anymore. Well, technically I really want to do that. But, I guess I can't. I pitty him and could not dare to say words that could hurt him and put him to shame. The shame that he would feel right after he wakes up is enough. I just hope he could remember everything he did. I just hope by that he could not sleep thinking and he would regret everything he had done. Until he couldn't have the face to face me.
After few hours he wakes up and eat dinner since he told everyone he was so hungry. My sister prepares him some soup for him to sober. I hope it would add the conscience. If he has some conscience though. After eating dinner they bid goodbye.
My day end so badly. And I was still in furious just even thinking of it. Although I already vent out but I couldn't stop thinking and asking myself if I really deserve it. Hayss what a day. I would never forget this day in my entire life. Such a funny yet frustrating experience. I learn some lesson though.
" Never question your worth base on how much other people could give."
" Respect is earned, not just given. If they don't deserve it, reserve it for yourself."
That would be all for today friends. Thank you so much for reading. I appreciate you all. Keep safe and God bless.
No safe place
In this world full of disasters and calamities, there is no safe place. If it's our time, it will be the end of us.
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This past few days we are full of worries and overthinking because of the current situation we are in, of typhoon and all the struggles we faced, we are having hard time. We faced so much heartbreaks and pain. Even so, it's not our place of loss but we sympathize to thus who have loss. It's painful for us too how much more if we fit in their shoe. Looking to the situation we pray and hope that everything will stop soon and no soul will be lost ever again. Becoming more vigilant and try ourselves to be awake more than often.
Even with the faith we have, we tend to still worry with all this disasters coming. It's normal because we are human being and worrying is a normal response to a situation like this. There were different response we could have in this times. Some of us prepare everything in case the situation calls for necessity, others are already evacuating. Our neighbors for example, were already in the evacuation center earlier this afternoon. So as my sister, who is far from us and was only communicated through mobile phones. She don't want to rush things when things get tough since she had two kids. Yet, here we are staying in our home, near the river and irrigation. We are not being stubborn or whatever. We are only listening to the nature. Yet, we are prepared if things will be escalated. Since as of the moments we no longer experience hard rain nor wind. Though a little rain to no rain, from time to time. The place is quite and peaceful as well. I believe we will still be vigilant of the danger and we are doing so.
Since my colleagues who is living two town away from where I live experience strong wind and strong rain, I believe they are still experiencing the wrath of the second typhoon that enter in our area of responsibility. Therefore, even with the distance we should still be vigilant at all times because we couldn't know how the weather would turn out to be in our favor or not.
Learning from this experience, I could tell to myself not being stubborn or hard headed that in this world today there will be no safe place for us. If it's our time, it will be our end. Many from the news on the previous typhoon that even though they are already in the evacuation center and they thought it was the safe place to be but then the evacuation collapsed and vanished. Many have died. Death is the most unassumed things in this life. We couldn't tell when it is coming to all of us, like the thief in the midnight it will just come and rubbed us with everything that we had in this world, this borrowed life.
Thus, I say, in this world full of worries and uncertainties, let's put our trust to the Almighty Father who have all the control. Let's entrust everything to him, since his the owner of this life we had. With all this worries only his love and power can put us in ease, therefore let's cling unto it. I believe that the only safe place for us is in the arms of our God the Father in heaven.
Let's offer a short prayer my dear brothers and sisters to the soul who now rest in his loving arms.
*In the name of the father and of the son and of the holy spirit amen. Our loving God, may you give love and compassion towards our departed brothers and sisters. May you give them rest in your loving arms. May you will bring them unto your side and grant them the eternal life that you have prepared for us all. I ask these prayers to your mighty name Jesus whole lives and reign with you in the unity of the holy spirit one God forever and ever. Amen.*
That would be all for today dear friends. Thank you so much for your time. Keep safe and God bless.
Heartbreaking wrath of Agaton
April 11, 2022- Monday
Today after the storm Agaton had passed my news feed is full of post and news of different places that was devastated by typhoon Agaton. It sadden me so much upon looking and reading of it all. Most especially that the places were near from my home town and just our neighborhood. I already knew that last night that I will see this news and post on Facebook. I was just a little late learning about it because I can't access Facebook earlier since the TNT and smart connection were down. Upon learning everything, it shocked me because it's too much from what I have expected. There were a lot of places covered because of landslide and many went missing because of it. The flood was a different issue as well.
That's only few of the different flood scenario that happened during the devastation of the typhoon Agaton yesterday. There were many who need help and rescue because of the flood. But many rescuers as well couldn't handled all of them especially those areas which water current is so strong. Baybay alone needs speed boat for rescuing many residents who had been struggling from the flood. Aside from the flood there is much more devastating scenario that happened during Agaton.
There is a whole barangay covered with the land in a particular place in Baybay, our neighboring town. There are 13 houses that was covered, and families that went missing. The rescue is still on going and there are already few bodies found already dead.
*The photo isn't mine and was saved only from a Facebook post.* I don't intend to hurt anyone but looking at this photo is very heart breaking. May their souls rest in eternal peace. They're just only few of the people who gone missing from the landslide that happened. The rescue operation is still on going.
Many roads are not passable. Bridges are not safe to pass. The clearing operations are still on going. I just hope and pray that the rain will stop so that there will be no more damage and distractions that will happened. I hope and pray as will for the rescuers and clearing personnels' safety. May the Lord protect and guide them.
Currently, as the operations are on going the hospitals is busy as well.
I thank God for the safety of this individuals. May the Lord give them strength and hope. In this time around they need our prayers and our help. May the Lord give the nurse and doctors as well the courage and health to attend all the patients needs. I couldn't bare to look how broken and tired they are in this time. From the home and properties that lost to the member of the families. Let's pray for them. They badly need it. Aside from the prayer they also need food, water and clothing. If you are willing to help you can send it via the following.
A little help would be a big thing for this people. If you are just willing. This numbers, of gcash and all, was only found in Facebook, if you want to get numbers directly you can search "typhoon Agaton" on Facebook. There are lots of people there who posted regarding help or donation matters. As much as I want to help them at least in this simple act I could. We are having hard time in this times as well but this people needed much help than I do. I hope and pray that you will have the heart to help.
Currently, the rain still falling though there is no hard wind anymore but it's still not safe because the water is continue raising. It's the second night that we won't have sleep again. Although I am worried of our situation, my worries is much more to the people who lost home and families. My prayer is with them.
This time isn't the first typhoon we encounter but it's my first time encountering such devastation near our land, of flood and landslide. It's the first time we face many deaths. It's our first time to have typhoon in a holy week season. In my 26 years of existence it's the very first time. I hope it will be the first and the last. This is more than a reminder to all of us. It's a calling to be back in our Father's arm and pray. In this holy week season let's respond the calling and turn our back to sinfulness. May the Lord cleans our soul and renew us.
That would be all for today. To all those who is experiencing rain tonight please be safe. God bless us all. Thank you so much for reading.
**Writer's note**
*All the images are not mine. It was saved or screenshots from Facebook post as updates of typhoon Agaton and are not intended to be own. Credit from the original owrner.*
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The trauma has been triggered
Today our trauma from Odette has been triggered. The weather wasn't good since last night and we don't even have a good sleep. The rain won't stop pouring hard and the wind blow hard as well this morning. The whistling sound of the wind was the most scary part of it. The news announced that there will be a typhoon coming and already landed yesterday in Guiuan Estearn Samar.
As per DOST.PAG-ASA information;
TROPICAL CYCLONE BULLETIN NO. 10
Tropical Storm “#AgatonPH”
Issued at 8:00 AM, 10 April 2022
Valid for broadcast until the next bulletin at 11:00 AM today
“AGATON” FURTHER INTENSIFIES AND IS ABOUT TO MAKE LANDFALL OVER THE SOUTHEASTERN PORTION OF EASTERN SAMAR
• Location of Center (7:00 AM):
• The center of Tropical Storm “AGATON” was estimated based on all available data including those from Guiuan Doppler Weather Radar over the coastal waters of Guiuan, Eastern Samar (11.0°N, 125.9°E)
• • Intensity
Maximum sustained winds of 75 km/h near the center, gustiness of up to 105 km/h, and central pressure of 996 hPa
• Present Movement
• West northwestward at 10 km/h
• • Extent of Tropical Cyclone Winds
Strong winds or higher extend outwards up to
220 km from the center
TROPICAL CYCLONE WIND SIGNALS (TCWS) IN EFFECT
• TCWS No. 2
• (Gale-force winds prevailing or expected within the next 24 hours)
VISAYAS:
The southern portion of Eastern Samar (Guiuan, Mercedes, Salcedo, Quinapondan, Giporlos, Balangiga, Lawaan, General Macarthur, Hernani, Llorente, Balangkayan, Maydolong, Borongan City), the southern portion of Samar (Marabut, Basey, Calbiga, Pinabacdao, Villareal, Santa Rita), and the northeastern portion of Leyte (Babatngon, Tacloban City, Palo, Tanauan, Tolosa)
○ Potential impacts of winds: Minor to moderate threat to life and property
• TCWS No. 1
• (Strong winds prevailing or expected within the next 36 hours)
VISAYAS:
The rest of Eastern Samar, the rest of Samar, Northern Samar, Biliran, the rest of Leyte, Southern Leyte, and the northeastern portion of Cebu (Daanbantayan, Medellin, Bogo City, Tabogon, Borbon) including Camotes Islands
○ Potential impacts of winds: Minimal to minor threat to life and property
HAZARDS AFFECTING LAND AREAS
Heavy Rainfall
• Today: Heavy to intense with at times torrential rains over Eastern Visayas and Dinagat Islands. Moderate to heavy with at times intense rains over the Surigao del Norte, Agusan del Norte, Bohol, and Cebu. Light to moderate with at times heavy rains over Masbate, Sorsogon, Albay, Catanduanes, Romblon, Northern Mindanao, and the rest of Visayas and Caraga.
• • Tomorrow: Moderate to heavy with at times intense rains over Eastern Visayas, Dinagat Islands, Surigao del Norte, and the northern portion of Cebu including Bantayan and Camotes Islands. Light to moderate with at times heavy rains over Masbate, Sorsogon, and the rest of Visayas and Caraga.
• Under these conditions and considering significant antecedent rainfall, scattered to widespread flooding (including flooding) and rain-induced landslides are expected especially in areas that are highly or very highly susceptible to these hazard as identified in hazard maps.
Severe Winds
• Winds may reach gale-force in strength in any of the areas where Wind Signal No. 2 is hoisted throughout the passage of Tropical Storm “AGATON”.
• • Strong winds (strong breeze to near gale conditions) will be experienced within any of the areas where Wind Signal No. 1 is currently in effect.
HAZARDS AFFECTING COASTAL WATERS
• In the next 24 hours, rough to very rough seas (2.8 to 5.0 m) will prevail over the seaboards of areas where Wind Signals No. 2 and 1 are hoisted. These conditions may be risky for most seacrafts. Mariners of small seacrafts are advised to remain in port or take shelter, while those operating larger vessels are advised to take precautionary measures when venturing out to sea and, if possible, avoid navigating in these conditions.
• • In the next 24 hours, moderate to rough seas (1.2 to 3.4 m) will also prevail over the remaining seaboards of the country that are not under any wind signal or gale warning. These conditions may be risky for those using small seacrafts. Mariners are advised to take precautionary measures when venturing out to sea and, if possible, avoid navigating in these conditions.
Source:
Website Link: tinyurl.com/AgatonPH
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The typhoon is moving very slow thus we could feel the strong effect of it. I just hope and pray that it won't create a huge devastation just like Odette for many of us had not yet recovered from the previous typhoon. I hope and pray that the Lord will keep us safe and give comfort to those affected such as the people on the streets and the people who have no home in general. Let's not pray just for our own safety but the safety of all people affected of this typhoon right now.
Typhoon has been a part of us and this isn't new to us yet the experience from the previous typhoon was just so scary and left us a huge traumatic experience. Everytime we hear the wind and the word typhoon, we couldn't help ourselves but to worry and be scared. A traumatic experience that brought to us a great lesson that was learned the very hard ways. I hope we won't experience the same, and by that I mean we should be ready at all times and be vigilant.
Speaking of being ready, I am all ready. I had prepare the important things such as my documents, money, ID's and medicine in one bag. I prepare two pair of clothes as well in another bag. It's not that I prayed for something to happened but I just prepared it anyways. I believe the trauma and the experience had gave me enough lessoned to learned already.
A small update as of the moment the wind blows hard with the rain in all directions. The river almost overflow, so as the irrigation and the electricity went off. I don't have any picture since I can't have enough courage to go outside. It's not safe and I am cold as ice. Currently, snuggling in my bed with the blanket covered my whole body. I am not sleeping though, I can't because my ears are listening what's going on outside.
That would be all for today. Thank you do much for reading. May the Almighty Father keep us safe and bless us all.
D'Alivia
Alivia is an influencer I followed on YouTube. I found Alivia last year in the most challenging journey of my life -my weight loss. Alivia serves as my motivation as she, herself was in the same journey as mine way back. And today, I was watching Alivia again.
Why? It's the same reason as before. I was facing the crisis and I want to take the same journey as before. Yes, I am gaining weight again. And yes, I failed to maintain my body. And yes, food ruled over my life again.
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I failed. I failed again. I failed myself with all the hardships she took from that painful journey. I failed myself again for not being constant. I failed myself again for allowing food to take over my life. I failed, and I hate it. I failed and I hate myself for doing so.
Looking back it was the same month, April that I get to do seriously about my weight loss journey and few months now, by June I get to achieved my goal weight and was so proud and happy about myself. It was like cloud nine whenever I get to wear my dream clothes. I was so happy seeing myself with my dream body. I fell inlove over and over again with the girl I see in the mirror. And I promise her to make her happy for the rest of her life. To be inlove with her, and take care of her. To do the things that would make her happy. And whenever I get to look my reflection today, I see the girl that I promised and I failed her.
Do I have regret?
No, I don't have any regrets. Me and that girl that I promised don't have any regrets. Within those months, from June up until now, we did a lot of things, amazing things together, and we are happy. That what's matter most, happiness. I may not be in the same dream body or my goal weight yet I don't regret. I may gain not only few but a lot of pounds again but I don't have regrets. I love those things in between those journey of gaining this weight, of having this body. It's not that I totally forget the promises that I made nor the love that I felt about her seeing her in her good shape. Because I still do love her. I am happy even though she gain this weight. I gain these fats and folds again. That's the important part.
What's the important part?
The love, the confidence, and the acceptance that I gain having to achieve my dream body and the weight that I desired. More than those physical aspects that I get to fell inlove with is the soul that get to accept of who I am really is. The confidence that I get to build with those journey. And the chance to learnd and understood my body and myself was the greatest gift of that journey. I am grateful that I get to experience that journey because it erase all my insecurities. It erase all my anxieties. It give me the chance to accept everything, weither I am fat or slim.
What's next?
Well, to tell you honestly, eventhough I love myself whatever shape I am right now yet the love to wear my favorite clothes again was in me right now. So, I want to get back to good shape and excited to wear them again. Few days from now, I am planning to start over the same journey that I had before but this time not because of insecurities nor the anxieties but because I just love to do it and experience the same cloud nine feeling and excitement. I am looking forward to it. Ayeehhh!!! I'm sorry I'm just excited. I hope it will be successful and I will update you from time to time. Maybe, I'm gonna write few blogs whenever I start because for now I just waited my period to end since it finally arrived last Monday and my period tend to stay for four to five days. After this I am planning to buy first some stuffs for the journey. Maybe some yoga mat, or jump rope to get my ass kickin' and be motivated. Aweehhh, I am motivated, to do this cause I had few tops I added to cart on shopee, haha I want to try them on. Wish me luck though.
That would be all for today fellas. Thanks for reading. Keep safe and God bless.
If you are on a weight loss journey and failed over many times, then I recommend watching Alivia D'Andrea on YouTube. You can search or just click here. https://youtube.com/c/aliviadandrea
It might help you to understand your journey and yourself as well. You can appreciate what more than the struggles you've been through and be motivated to continue even with all the hardships.
Literal Flyday Friday
The days past by so fast. It's like yesterday was just Monday and today it's already Friday. Happy flyday everyone. I hope you end this week with a happy heart. Who's excited for the weekend? I guess I count myself in hehe. I am excited for the weekend because I've got to stay in the house with nothing to do. I think I might cancel washing of clothes this week because the weather isn't good and it won't stop raining. My washed clothes, if I will decide to wash them, will just smell bad because it won't dry for a couple of days. So, I better not. It will be just a waste of time, resources and energy. How about you? How would you spend your weekend?
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Anyways, for today's article is just a mumbling as to how my Friday goin'. Well, it's literally, flyday Friday today because my colleagues and I went home earlier than usual. We are 4 teachers only in our school and a school head. And our school head was out today because of the reason we all don't know. I have a colleague who's house is so far, like 4-6 hours of ride. Therefore she need to go home early. But whenever our school head is out, we head home early as well just like her. I don't want to look us bad but I just want to emphasized that Friday, is literally a flyday for us. It's not all of the time though, today was just a lucky day.
So, I took the opportunity to visit two different schools today since I have time to do it. I might be busy the next few days. I actually visited for the purpose of passing the Letter of Intent and the pertinent documents for the upcoming ranking. Yes, you read it right. I will be going back to the same process as in back to zero like the previous one. I thought, my happiness upon knowing that I passed the RQA was absolute and continuous yet here I am again. I don't complain though cause it's actually fine with me. I honestly hope and pray that I still have the chance to be called. I do have time though cause the chance of calling is up until June. But, I don't want to relay unto the 50% chances and would waste the half of it. The passing of the LOI and the pertinent documents to the school intended to apply will end this coming April 12, and if I won't be called until June I will lose my chance for the upcoming ranking if I won't pass those documents. So, I gamble again to this chances, this time I try them all SHS, JHS and Elementary. Since I am wasting so much energy and money, *lulubusin ko na,* 😂😂
Though my friends was hurt and have the questions of why and how come? Yet, I don't know the answer of those. I just told them " ***that's how life is. When we don't have yet the chance today let's not quit trying***." It's not failure, it's just a process. Failure is when we quit trying. I just hope this will be my last try. And I pray that best if God will answer my prayer for the gift of career stability this year.
If you have wonder what happened and why did I feel out of time from my previous writing it's all because of this. What I meant by that is that when I can't be stable right now I can't achieve and continue move on to the next step of my life. That how I say I am dead, or my dreams would be dead. But, I was reminded already of the true purpose that I have and that is becoming of service to others. I just only felt that by achieving my goals, my dreams, thats when I can be of service. Yes, I know now that it's wrong. Because I can be of service in different ways. Because service doesn't only mean providing money but providing comfort, love and happiness as well. Not just materially but physically and emotionally as well.
Today, might not be 100% assurance I get but I have 100% faith with me. Not doubt this time. No buts and if's. I live what is now. I accept what is now. And do what I can do now. No overthinking. No nothing. Just like today, a literal flyday to my worries and to my doubts as well.
That's all for today. My apologies with all this mumblings friends. I hope you understand. Thank you so much for reading. Know that I appreciate you all. I love you. 💕
Out of time
The age and the things that I needed to achieve wasn't meeting each other and I feel like I am out of time.
Today's article was supposedly yesterday's writing but then since I wasn't able to write because I felt so sleepy and I can't help it, so I am writing it a little bit late. I felt a little out of time and I blame it to myself cause I did not do it earlier than I needed to before I've felt drowning to sleep. Yet, blaming couldn't do much of it. I don't want to force myself to write anything just to comply and don't have the heart while writing. Like the rest of my inactiveness it was the same reason I had. So, I told myself "I should get to sleep and maybe I will just write later" and here I am. Meeting the goal to write eventhough I am out of time for yesterday's goal to write 1 article per day, still I am trying my best to be here now. I just hope I could make it.
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In this age and the life I had today, I always felt I am out of time. I will be celebrating my 26 years this year yet I did not yet achieve the things that I expected within the age that I have.
**Time. Why are you running so fast that I can't cope up with you?** We all do have those plans and time frame for ourselves. Dreams that we could all be in that aspects of life in that specific time of our life. Sometimes I felt like giving up with all those dreams since **time won't allow me to be there. Time isn't giving me the favor.** They all said we have those specific timeline so don't compare yourself to others success. I'm not really. I am not comparing anyone to myself because even I am not, in my own terms I believe I am not achieving the things a person should be and should have to in this time of life.
**Is time is a little hard to me? or am I to myself?** When they said, "You're still young." I don't feel that anymore. I know to myself that I am not getting any younger and yes I don't. I am not pressured by anyone or anything yet I believe that I should have done this now or else I will be out of time. I believe getting a my career now or it will never. I believe if not then I can't settle in this life sooner. If not sooner then I couldn't do it as well later. I won't and I can't.
**Why I had this feeling that I had this short time now?** I really felt like catching my breath, catching my goals. Sooner or later when time runs out, I will die. I will be dead. My dreams would be dead. Dry out. Worn out. I felt like if I won't make it now then I couldn't live any longer. If I won't make it sooner then I don't have chance for later. There's no time. To dream. To wish for a shooting star. To be happy. To reach for the skies. Because I don't have time. Because I am out of time.
Am I really out? Tell me. They said, you can do anything. You can still achieve those dreams even in later years of your life because dreams have no age. Really? Is it? Then why I felt, I am not allowed to dream anymore if not today. If I can't make it today. I felt I can't make it to tomorrow either. When guy said in the movie "*The Croods*", that tomorrow isn't time, it is a place and that's where he is going. Then I ask myself, where is that tomorrow for me? I can't seem to picture it out. If I won't make it to tomorrow today then I don't have the time to make it to the later years. I need tomorrow now or it will never.
I needed it now. I needed to achieve it now that's why I am giving my best and my all now. I believe my chance of trying isn't limitless, therefore I should make it today. I needed to make it today. To my goals, to my dreams because I am running out of time. **Am I impatient? Maybe I am. Is it helping?** I think the feeling wasn't healthy but it help me. To give my best everytime, every try. But I think if this would last, I won't survive. I needed to get out of this feeling cause I will soon not enjoy my time, my borrowed time. I had to get over it. I needed to reset my mind. My beliefs. My goals. Because if not, I will not just waste my 26th chance but the rest of 40 or 50 more chances in this life.
I should repurpose, reconstruct, and remind myself that I have only borrowed time so I should make the most out of it. The dreams are supposed to be aspirations, inspirations in life only not the purpose, not the mission. Goals are supposedly the things that gets us going not the things that would stop us going if not achieve. I know I had sin. To myself and to God. And I am deeply sorry. I am grateful of this opportunity, of this delay in writing, of this 2 a.m thoughts. It is an awakening, that I am not out of time for those dreams, for those goals. I should think what my purpose really is in this life rather than those dreams and goals. If I am living with those purpose then I think, God will give me the dreams that I am hoping to achieve someday.
**What's your purpose?**
**What's your dreams?**
*"If you are living your dreams rather than your purpose today. Then rethink cause you are given this time, this chance for one purpose alone. To glorify God by becoming of service to others. And if you are living that purpose then I tell you, you will have that plenty of time in your life and won't never feel out of time anymore."*
This is what God's message for me today.
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Let's be aware
Hi read.cash friends. How's your doing going? Mine was still fine even with the rain still pouring but glad that it wasn't as hard as yesterday. Today was just a moderate rain and no flood for today, praise God.
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It's not the month of health awareness but I want us all to be aware and vigilant to our health everyday. Today I bump in a post in my Facebook feed about a death of a 24 year old, registered nurse and famous tiktoker. She died because of brain aneurysm.
Do you know her? Have you heard her story?
As I have read her story that goes like this it sadden me so much.
*Joyce Culla, a registered nurse and a tiktoker with 1.6 million followers, was rushed to the hospital and became unconscious. According to some source, she and her boyfriend broke up last February because she found out that her boyfriend was cheating on her. She could wasn't getting enough sleep, wasn't eating, and was under a lot of stress...*
Her stress mainly cause her to death. Her death was diagnose cause by so called **Raptured Brain Aneurysm.**
**What is Raptured Brain Aneurysm?**
A brain aneurysm, also known as a subarachnoid hemorrhage (SAH), is a weak spot on the wall of a blood vessel inside the brain.
**Raptured aneurysm** *is a sudden, severe headache is the key symptom of a ruptured aneurysm. This headache is often described as the "worst headache" ever experienced. Common signs and symptoms of a ruptured aneurysm include: Sudden, extremely severe headache Nausea and vomiting Stiff neck Blurred or double vision Sensitivity to light Seizure A drooping eyelid Loss of consciousness Confusion.* https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/brain-aneurysm/symptoms-causes/syc-20361483
***The causes of brain aneurysm*** *are unknown, but a range of factors may increase your risk. Risk factors A number of factors can contribute to weakness in an artery wall and increase the risk of a brain aneurysm or aneurysm rupture. Brain aneurysms are more common in adults than in children and more common in women than in men. Some of these risk factors develop over time; others are present at birth.*
*Risk factors that develop over time These include:*
*•Older age*
*•Cigarette smoking*
*•High blood pressure*
*•(hypertension)*
*•Drug abuse, particularly the use of cocaine*
*•Heavy alcohol consumption*
*Some types of aneurysms may occur after a head injury (dissecting aneurysm) or from certain blood infections (mycotic aneurysm). Risk factors present at birth Selected conditions that date to birth can be associated with an elevated risk of developing a brain aneurysm. These include:*
*•Inherited connective tissue disorders, such as Ehlers-Danlos syndrome, that weaken blood vessels Polycystic kidney disease, an inherited disorder that results in fluid-filled sacs in the kidneys and usually increases blood pressure.*
*•Abnormally narrow aorta (coarctation of the aorta), the large blood vessel that delivers oxygen-rich blood from the heart to the body Cerebral arteriovenous malformation (brain AVM), an abnormal connection between arteries and veins in the brain that interrupts the normal flow of blood between them.*
*•Family history of brain aneurysm, particularly a first-degree relative, such as a parent, brother, sister, or child.*
Information Source https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/brain-aneurysm/symptoms-causes/syc-20361483
According to the post aside from the stress Joyce inherited her condition from her grandmother. The stress in only a triggering factor of it all.
Conclusion:
It really sudden me really that at a very young age Joyce had to leave in this world earlier than expected. Let's not stress ourselves and put much care about our health. This condition could be prevented through promoting healthy habits, such as eating healthy foods, exercising, going out with friends, having circle that you could share your problems in life. Let's not put too much energy on the things that could cause our health to deteriorate. Health is wealth remember. Whatever you're struggle right now in this life never forget to asked the Lord for guidance cause He will make everything easy and manageable. As he said, "***cast your burdens upon me and I will give you rest."***
In this world God did not gave us problems that we can't surpass. Therefore let's have a full trust in him.
Rest in peace Joyce Culla. I believe right now, you are where God wants you to be.
Now that we are aware of the cause and symptoms of this disease, I hope we will not let this happened to us as well. If we have been feeling those above mentioned symptoms please go to the doctor immediately and let yourself be checked.
That would be all for today dear readers. Thank you so much for reading and God bless.
Rainy Tuesday
Good evening beautiful people. How's your day going? Mine was so cold and rainy. This month wasn't supposedly raining anymore cause it's summer season already yet here we are suffering from too much rain.
This is the scenario that I encounter this morning as I was about to go to work. The river was about to overflow from the bridge. It was due to the non-stop rain for many hours. Still grateful that I was able to pass through the bridge yet I am worried if I could cross in the afternoon if rain will continue to pour. Upon looking the brown water flowing passing through the bridge I feel a bit scared and dizzy. I couldn't bare to look it for a long time so I walk as fast as I could to pass through it.
It was the other side of the bridge. You can see the field almost filled with water and the plants was almost all covered. Those green plants you can see are rice and it already has its grains. I am worried and couldn't help myself to feel sorry for the owner. Aigoo, rain please stop pouring. As I continue my way to the highway, the rain is pouring hard. Glad that I get to ride right away.
I arrived at work safe and sound. I am soaked wet with the rain and I couldn't dry my pants easily. Therefore I would endure the coldness of my feet the whole day. I'm sure it would add the pain that I had to endure at night due to the cold weather. It's fine though maybe I should bring extra clothes next time.
I settled myself and continue my work. Few things are needed to finish today. I am glad I had the chance to use the school laptop for me to finished the task for these quarter. Next week would be another quarter to start with thus we need to finish everything before the portfolio day arrived. Few list was already checked, and I am glad that I am productive today even though it's raining and I feel like wanting to just snuggle in bed and sleep the whole day.
I was in the middle of finishing my work when the electricity suddenly went out. It was all dark and scary huhu. I knew this would happened by the look and the sound of the rain, I already knew it would. The rain was pouring hard like no tomorrow. It's getting super cold and so dark in my room. So, I decided to stop my work since my laptop is almost out as well. I wasn't able to charge it earlier. Tssk, I lost track of all the work needed to be done.
Right after I close the laptop and keep it, I decided to visit my colleague in the next room. I don't have anything to do inside, plus its so dark, I don't want to stay longer there alone. I take this photo before going out of my room. The rain is still pouring so hard. Like it's very angry to the world. The water almost over flow and soon if the rain won't stop the water will enter my classroom.
Looking unto the rain. I remember again the flood in the river near the house. I hope it wasn't that bad there. Because if it is, I know I can't cross because I don't know how to swim. I decided to say a short prayer.
I spend the rest of the day in my colleague's classroom. Since she can't do something because there's no electricity we decided to attach some signage in the floor and in the wall.
This signage is for the preparation of the face to face class. Part of the protocol is to put some safety measures signage like this in order to keep the safety of the students. Glad that we printed them last week, so we had something to do in a day like this that there's no electricity.
After lunch we spend time talking and talking. I went home early while the rain stop falling, hoping that I could ride easily going home and the river did not overflow. I was praying while on my way. Thankfully, my prayer was heard and the river did not overflow. The water wasn't not that high like how it is in the morning too. Praise God.
Mom cook champorado this afternoon. It's so good to have this champorado in a cold afternoon like today. It warm my stomach and makes me full. Thank you mama for cooking my favorite. There's no one cooked best like mama. Her champorado is always my favorite.
That's what happened to my rainy Tuesday. With all the worries we had in life not just rain or safety but in general, if we put everything to the Lord and pray to him, he will make everything easy and happened for us. With all those worries when we have God and family as well, everything is easy and manageable. Especially when you have family that you got to go home from work and have some good food. That's a blessing and we should be grateful for that. That even with the rainy days in our life we have God and we have the people we love and loved us as well.
That's all for today everyone. Thank you so much for reading. I appreciate you all. Thank you to my wonderful sponsors. May God bless you and shower you more blessings.
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