@ThisisGrace21 13 April 2022

Stranger I thought it will just be a fine day just like any other day, but a strange thing happened from a strange stranger. *Happy hump day to everyone especially to my dear sponsors. I wish you good health. Keep safe and God bless.* First of it all allow me to share my first my fine day before I would share to you how it turn out so badly. In the morning I wake up early and prepare myself to work. I was happy we get to go home early because our work is only until noon only. I went home and eat my lunch. After that I spend my entire afternoon watching my new found K-drama that I am obsess with hehe.

I am so flustered with the romantic scenario and even finished it today. It's been 3 days and I finally finished it. I am happy yet sad at the same time. After finishing my movie, I felt hungry and decided to walk to the near store to buy some snacks.

The wind is so refreshing so as the beauty of the nature. It's a very nice day after the storm had surpass. Finally, the sun is out although it's not totally bright. It's nice to get out as well after few hours of indulging my eyes in the mobile phone and filled it with much radiation. A walk helps me relax as well and enjoy the rest of the afternoon I had after work. I ate my snacks with my mama and sister. I shared it to them since I bought quite few. From here my afternoon gets to ruined... Moments later, two motorbikes arrived with some strangers. At first I couldn't recognize a single one of them but later on, a familiar face greeted me. His not that close and his not a total stranger as well. He is a suitor of mine from long ago that was already rejected. As he waved at me with his loud voice I guess exactly how he came to be in our place. He had his guts coming altogether because he is drunk. After knowing that, I went inside the room and never get out. He then find me and asked me to come out. I had a second thought of facing him because of two reasons alone. First, his drunk. I don't want someone visiting me drunk. It a no, no for me and I don't want to face a drunkard person. There's no since talking to a drunk person anymore. I could remember the last time he visit me in the house of my sister, he wasn't drunk yet he don't have the face to be ashamed that it's already midnight and the people already wanted to rest from a very tiring day. I hate it. When people don't have the sensitivity to the feelings of others. His not drunk that day yet he don't have shamed what more now that his drunk. If I will face him he will not go home 'til midnight or worst until morning. Second reason is that I am totally scared with drankard. I had this trauma that I once shared here. A trauma that I get from a drankard person. A trauma that whenever I hear a drunk person I would eventually get nervous, shaking and my heart would beat fast. I would hide in the corner and couldn't speak. And today I get to feel the same feeling again. I hate this feeling and I hate the people that would become the reason that I would felt this feelings. I overheard them form outside. They want me to get out and face them. They were wondering why I am afraid and what I am afraid of. That I am so loyal with my boyfriend that I can't even entertain them just giving for some respect. Hearing those gets me furious. Respect? Really? Where this respect coming from when they couldn't even give it to me themselves. They're asking it from me? How could they? When in fact they came here drunk and cause a scene. I am ashamed of them. I could hear almost everything they say. And I know that what I did is not good, but I believe they deserve it. Yes, I know I am not pretty or I am no artist to act like that. Not face them, when they visit me. But I totally think they don't deserve my respect. I maybe not pretty but I too deserve some respect myself. And they didn't even show a single, tiny respect to me. *I don't need your gifts, I don't need anything but a simple respect. Isn't hard to give? What's on earth did I do to deserve such actions. In the past I gave you good manners. I gave you respect. I gave you friendship because that's the only thing I can offer. Yet, you gave me shame of all things.* *Why? Am I that lowest in your eyes? Did you see me as a girl who have many faces? Why insist feelings that could not be reciprocated? If you will be in my boyfriend's shoe would you be happy to see your girlfriend entertained another guy? Respect? In the name of respect? If I ask you? Do you have anything left for yourself?*

I am Angry. I felt week. I found myself laughing. In my 26 years of existence. It's my first time hiding because someone had came to visit me drunk. I feel pity towards myself hiding in the corner eating my dinner and the only light that I had was the flashlight. I feel awful. I felt I am about to explode but I need to hold it. And then I found myself smiling. Well, charge to the experience. Congrats self, after quite a lot of relationship you had in the past it's the very first time ever. I finished my dinner that was prepared by mama in a secret without making any sound. I entertained myself and watch movies. Few hours later, I heard someone snoaring. I couldn't believe myself. Really? It's funny yet very annoying.

The bastard is confidently laying, sleeping in our coach. What the? Are you kidding me? How the fudge his sleeping there? Takti walanghiya! Hoy, Gago uwi kana sa inyu! Sigaw Ng utak ko. Did I wake him of course. No, I don't want to cause any scene, so I just click few shoots, zoom his face and get back inside. I chatted my sister and told her everything. And she was laughing at me the whole time. I send him the photos and we both had a sound laugh. After I vent out all my anger, she told me to talk to him whenever he wakes up and sober. Tell him straightforward that what he did is all wrong and I don't want to see his face anymore. Well, technically I really want to do that. But, I guess I can't. I pitty him and could not dare to say words that could hurt him and put him to shame. The shame that he would feel right after he wakes up is enough. I just hope he could remember everything he did. I just hope by that he could not sleep thinking and he would regret everything he had done. Until he couldn't have the face to face me. After few hours he wakes up and eat dinner since he told everyone he was so hungry. My sister prepares him some soup for him to sober. I hope it would add the conscience. If he has some conscience though. After eating dinner they bid goodbye. My day end so badly. And I was still in furious just even thinking of it. Although I already vent out but I couldn't stop thinking and asking myself if I really deserve it. Hayss what a day. I would never forget this day in my entire life. Such a funny yet frustrating experience. I learn some lesson though. " Never question your worth base on how much other people could give." " Respect is earned, not just given. If they don't deserve it, reserve it for yourself." That would be all for today friends. Thank you so much for reading. I appreciate you all. Keep safe and God bless.