@ThisisGrace21 7 April 2022

Out of time The age and the things that I needed to achieve wasn't meeting each other and I feel like I am out of time. Today's article was supposedly yesterday's writing but then since I wasn't able to write because I felt so sleepy and I can't help it, so I am writing it a little bit late. I felt a little out of time and I blame it to myself cause I did not do it earlier than I needed to before I've felt drowning to sleep. Yet, blaming couldn't do much of it. I don't want to force myself to write anything just to comply and don't have the heart while writing. Like the rest of my inactiveness it was the same reason I had. So, I told myself "I should get to sleep and maybe I will just write later" and here I am. Meeting the goal to write eventhough I am out of time for yesterday's goal to write 1 article per day, still I am trying my best to be here now. I just hope I could make it. *Greetings to my dearest sponsors. In every writing you are there. You are all part of this journey. Your support is the best of part of it all. Thank you so much.* In this age and the life I had today, I always felt I am out of time. I will be celebrating my 26 years this year yet I did not yet achieve the things that I expected within the age that I have. **Time. Why are you running so fast that I can't cope up with you?** We all do have those plans and time frame for ourselves. Dreams that we could all be in that aspects of life in that specific time of our life. Sometimes I felt like giving up with all those dreams since **time won't allow me to be there. Time isn't giving me the favor.** They all said we have those specific timeline so don't compare yourself to others success. I'm not really. I am not comparing anyone to myself because even I am not, in my own terms I believe I am not achieving the things a person should be and should have to in this time of life. **Is time is a little hard to me? or am I to myself?** When they said, "You're still young." I don't feel that anymore. I know to myself that I am not getting any younger and yes I don't. I am not pressured by anyone or anything yet I believe that I should have done this now or else I will be out of time. I believe getting a my career now or it will never. I believe if not then I can't settle in this life sooner. If not sooner then I couldn't do it as well later. I won't and I can't. **Why I had this feeling that I had this short time now?** I really felt like catching my breath, catching my goals. Sooner or later when time runs out, I will die. I will be dead. My dreams would be dead. Dry out. Worn out. I felt like if I won't make it now then I couldn't live any longer. If I won't make it sooner then I don't have chance for later. There's no time. To dream. To wish for a shooting star. To be happy. To reach for the skies. Because I don't have time. Because I am out of time.

Am I really out? Tell me. They said, you can do anything. You can still achieve those dreams even in later years of your life because dreams have no age. Really? Is it? Then why I felt, I am not allowed to dream anymore if not today. If I can't make it today. I felt I can't make it to tomorrow either. When guy said in the movie "*The Croods*", that tomorrow isn't time, it is a place and that's where he is going. Then I ask myself, where is that tomorrow for me? I can't seem to picture it out. If I won't make it to tomorrow today then I don't have the time to make it to the later years. I need tomorrow now or it will never. I needed it now. I needed to achieve it now that's why I am giving my best and my all now. I believe my chance of trying isn't limitless, therefore I should make it today. I needed to make it today. To my goals, to my dreams because I am running out of time. **Am I impatient? Maybe I am. Is it helping?** I think the feeling wasn't healthy but it help me. To give my best everytime, every try. But I think if this would last, I won't survive. I needed to get out of this feeling cause I will soon not enjoy my time, my borrowed time. I had to get over it. I needed to reset my mind. My beliefs. My goals. Because if not, I will not just waste my 26th chance but the rest of 40 or 50 more chances in this life. I should repurpose, reconstruct, and remind myself that I have only borrowed time so I should make the most out of it. The dreams are supposed to be aspirations, inspirations in life only not the purpose, not the mission. Goals are supposedly the things that gets us going not the things that would stop us going if not achieve. I know I had sin. To myself and to God. And I am deeply sorry. I am grateful of this opportunity, of this delay in writing, of this 2 a.m thoughts. It is an awakening, that I am not out of time for those dreams, for those goals. I should think what my purpose really is in this life rather than those dreams and goals. If I am living with those purpose then I think, God will give me the dreams that I am hoping to achieve someday. **What's your purpose?** **What's your dreams?** *"If you are living your dreams rather than your purpose today. Then rethink cause you are given this time, this chance for one purpose alone. To glorify God by becoming of service to others. And if you are living that purpose then I tell you, you will have that plenty of time in your life and won't never feel out of time anymore."* This is what God's message for me today. Thank you for the time reading me. Thank you for the chance to participate in this prompt Miss Jonica @JonicaBradley it was a beautiful chance of my life. I appreciate you all. God bless you always. If you wish to join the prompt you can by following these simple rules: Join the Promptly Jonica community Write anything about time Write 100% original content Write at least 600 words for Rusty to be happy Submit your article to PromptlyJonica Tag me, @JonicaBradley Have fun! *Lead image by Unsplash*