I guess the saying is true you'll never find real and pure love again once you've finished your student life. Everything is transactional afterwards. But even if you found one during studying, reality can shatter the genuine memories you built. Just like what happened between my cousin and her ex, whom she met during their high school prime. They don't align anymore, and their visions are now different. If you're still studying and you happen to find someone, cherish the memories and bond because life will never be the same once your school years are over. 💔
If I won't get to marry my crush in this lifetime, then I'd rather be single for the rest of my life. I don't want anyone but him. 💔
I would like to thank this page for posting something like this..
I am torn between teaching and freelancing. I want to build my own skills and expand it but a part of myself see the meaning of becoming a teacher. The sad reality here is that applying in private schools will only give a monthly wage of below $175 which is not enough. Not enough to consider the travel and all the daily expenses for an overtime role. Now, I'm exploring freelancing and I'm now earning but I asked myself, can I do this for the rest of my life???? I feel so distant and like I'm not included in so many things.
Life after school hits so hard. I already know this before. But it's really scary when you are now facing it, especially with no one to tell about what's running in your mind. So, I just cling in to this motivational posts. 😭
Life update: I'm now doing online jobs, and the pay is better than minimum wage jobs here in Philippines. Although I feel lonely easily because I am used to being surrounded by many people. But I need to keep going because this is the opportunity I always prayed for. Every time I feel stuck in my thoughts because my job requires me to think a lot, I just remind myself the purpose why I'm doing this. I will still get my teaching license one day, but for now, I’ll focus on what I have and sow it for a better tomorrow. The silence of walking a path alone feels different, but I guess it’s better than walking someone else’s path that leads to nowhere. 🌱
I never thought I would be missing my college life since I graduated. The people you started the journey with, you get to witness their growth through the years. From being online classmates during pandemic to wearing our togas on stage. How could you not miss the memories built over those four years. The tears, laughter, sadness, and happiness. They're the reason why this journey is unforgettable. This have been the best chapter of our lives. One we may never get to relive again.
Now, we’re all walking our own separate paths in life,
and maybe, we’ll just remain part of each other’s once-colorful memories. 🌸
It has been a long time since I made my last post here..is this site still alive?
Compiling what I have read from Tiktok:
Hey it's my bday!
Yung buo na loob mo na di ka magteteacher pero may pa pizza at soft drinks with milk tea & bracelet pang nalalaman mga students mo. Ang sarap pala makatanggap ng ganito. 😭♥️
When you are fully decided not to become a teacher in the future but your students are like this on your birthday. 😭♥️
I'll never forget this day.
I have higher hopes that the governance in Philippines will change. If only we educate ourselves more and stop electing the wrong ones, we won't suffer the consequences of our bad choices. I heard he made the public classrooms air-conditioned which made me really think it's not impossible for DepEd to have good facilities in every public school. I really hope change is coming and equality and equity are present in the Philippines. Being a warm country can be bad as it drives the warmth to put more in the pockets but still I wish for a catalytic change!
I realized that the saddest part of teaching is when the school year ends. Although ours is not done yet and we are having rotation to different grade levels, I can still feel the emotional part of being a classroom adviser. Back before, I don't believe certain posts about the saddest part of student teaching is when it's over and you will never see your students again in that classroom. Aaaack I hate feeling this way, but the fourth quarter will almost end probably on the month of March. And now I'm feeling a little emotional especially when they post about "our classroom memories will end soon, thanks for the memories." Even we only have 3 weeks for every grade level we are rotated, I can still feel myself a little bit attached to the students. What makes it more emotional for me is the fact that some students keep calling me when they see me. Especially those stubborn boys from the Grade 8 & 10 call me on the corner, "Hi ma'am Cindy!" I can get along and vibe with them so maybe that's why they are happy to see me again. 🥺
Being a teacher means accepting the fact that all your students will come and go with memories left in your classroom. 😭
I remember getting so hooked on this drama that it still lives in my memory. Now the song hits differently when you hear it after the passing of the Taiwanese actress. It ache because you just realized your childhood is over. I still can't believe how old this drama was but it still gives you a lot of emotions. So far this is one of the dramas that I will never forget my entire life. Even if I would watch it many times I'll never get tired of it. Everything is so perfect and the way they portray their characters, is very real.
Rest in peace, Barbie Hsu. You are one of the greatest actresses in this world. And because of you, Shan Cai will totally live forever in this world. 🌸
One thing that has crossed my mind right now, if I really want to teach for passion, I should choose private schools over public school (DepEd). I have never been in a private school, but these places, you will really feel the feeling of being a teacher with students really listening to you compared to public school where you are not really teaching but yelling at the students to sit down and clean ALL day. The only issues you will mostly encounter teaching in a private schools are the entitled parents who will crash you down when they are not satisfied with the scores and grades of their students. Which is which.
I don't blame the teachers and the students because they're victims of circumstances. If the government would only fund the public education well, quality education is attainable, and when I say quality, I mean the conducive learning.
If money is not the issue and you really want to have the experience of being a teacher "teaching" to your students, go for private schools because DepEd is not the right place to teach; the lessons are not even taught properly. And also some private schools adapted the international curriculum while DepEd is still stuck in the old times. I can really testify to it, as some of the examples and lessons in the modules are using 90s, 2015, and 2014 examples, and what makes it even worse is that the statistics are based on that year. This makes the lesson even more irrelevant to the current time. I feel sorry for the students today. They don't always revise their statistical examples and lectures to match with the present generation. And to tell you, public schools here in the Philippines are behind in terms of technology! Do you think it's impossible here for the classrooms to be lacking in technology and conducivity (I'm referring to reducing the 50-60 students per classroom)?
Well, one thing that will end all of this is to end the corruption. But since ruling people are only after their interest, quality education is not for every Filipino child.
It's crazy! I can't believe I have watched a lot of movies this year! Here's a breakdown of what I have watched this year so far:
•American films- this is my most watched movie. I just recently watched the Breaking Bad series, hello my profile picture here is Jane Margaret lolz and also I wanna add the leading actor is really good at acting (Jesse in character). Stranger Things, I'm still in season 1. C'mon don't laugh at me for being so behind. 😂 I will finish it next year. Including Emily in Paris, still stuck at season 1.
• Some Western films
•I also have watched the Korean movies, including Thai, and Chinese, and Filipino films.
• My best horror films are the Immaculate, Resident Evil, the Strangers, the Substance, Jennifer's Body (can't remember the others ).
•My new favorite stars of the year are Anne Hathaway, Krysten Ritter, Megan Fox, Theo James and Sydney Sweeney.
My 5-star movies of the year (I'm referring to what I have watched for the first time) are Vivarium, the Strangers, Succubus, Divergent series, Nowhere, Damsel, No Hard Feelings, The Watcher, Interstellar, the Orphan, Lisa Frankenstein, Death on the Nile. There's many more I want to give the Oscar's award, but for now I'll pick the leading ones for me.
I'm planning to watch the Squid Games but probably next year, haha. I tried watching the viral series online "the Kaplan heiress" but I was like, oh it's like a highschool project drama, haha. Well, I want more films to watch next year. Also, I'll watch more Kdramas recommended by my classmates. What else am I missing? What movies have you watched this year?
Have a Happy New Year everyone! 🎇
Merry Christmas everyone, manifesting a bullish year ahead!🎄✨❄️
Growing up is when you realized that teaching will never give you financial freedom. Maybe I was too idealistic about the teaching profession that I swore to die for it but now my views has changed. It's a condemnation. I'm glad that as early as this, I have realized the truth about it. If you want to live your life for free and live without debts, teaching will not guarantee to give you that success. It's in fact the opposite. Now I understand why others leave the profession, I used to think they don't have the passion but when you dig deeper how the system works especially the government, now I understand and I feel pity for them. It's nice to have a passion for something but when the system is unjust, you have to let go the passion and look for the greener pasture.
It takes courage to forge your own path, but at least yours is a just one. And when I'll make it, I'll be the candle for others and help them find theirs too.
As we are getting older, life is becoming sadder. I miss the way I used to view the world. I miss the feeling it gives me, the nostalgic emotions. When I hear particular songs, it resonates life to the fullest with me. But I haven't lost my spark in life yet. Maybe people start to lose the meaning of life when responsibilities start to wrap up their arms. When we are young as kids, it's not difficult for us to enjoy life, maybe because we don't associate it with material and duties. But we only become child once. The least we can do is find meaning in our life and stop comparing it with the definition of what others call life.
Truth be told, I don't stress myself out about college because I know the real fight does not start here. It's when you finish and are exposed to the real world life. It's when you are no longer a student will you face the real battle of life. So I don't rant much. In fact being a student is a privilege like you can have all the excuses you want like not attending a class or not submitting a task. But when you work and filled with excuses, expect you'll be terminated and you're one step of getting replaced by someone else. Heh. Let's just enjoy being a student for now because it's not the actual ride of life. When you're a student, you can complain all you want. But when you're a worker, you have no choice but to keep going on. So I'm mostly calm about my studies compared to my other classmates, who complain constantly.
I have stopped posting on most of my socials. It feels like I'm not the same person I used to be.
I thought noise and read were gone because when I tried to open these, there was an error. My online diary 💔
They say college life is the last chance to find someone and if you won't, then it's over for you. So I guess my glasshour is coming to end soon, then it's a good bye for me!
Now I am not seeing the world by fate but now I'm seeing through political lens. Everything is fueled by connections. Some people are lucky to be born with privilege. The world does not work by doing hardwork or kindness. It works by being associated with people who are in authority. That's how it works, in this world.
You are a nobody if you don't have connections or family in authority. And I know it's not only in the Philippines, it's all around the world. I can name one, Hollywood stars are mostly Nepo babies (check if you want to find out like Dakota Johnson, Sydney Sweeney, Lily Collins) and it's hard to be one when you don't have established parents on the field.
I think I need to slow down from using Tiktok, every time I open it all I see are videos about Liam Payne and it hurts me so much. I have no idea about his existence as a 1D member but now after looking at his previous videos, he has the gift of singing. I didn't know I was grieving already and I think about his death because he has a promising talent so it feels everything is gone wasted and he is so young to die.
Well, one thing I realized is drugs have altered his life. His ex made a book about how abusive he was and it's not unbelievable because drugs can cause you to be physically dangerous. I wonder if he never got into drugs, he wouldn't ruin his life career especially since it changed who he was and many fans hated him when he was alive.
Not a fan girl but listening to their band songs with him on the music makes me cry thinking about it. Also I just realized that he was attractive and his accent was beautiful. I only became his fan girl after he died which is so late and absurd. I just want to share this thing because I've been thinking about it lately 💔
Life is full of pressures 💔😥
I'm not a fan girl but I always love One Direction' songs. All of them are iconic. It's so tragic to hear that just when they are about to reunite their band, a sudden news like this happens. After reading all different sources and watching his videos, he is deeply in a state of pressure and depression. People say he is an addict and based on the evidence found in his hotel room, there are drugs found. I actually feel sorry for him. Among his former band members, he is the one who seems to be behind while the rest are successfully doing their solo concerts..while the record label company he is trying to make music with rejected him..
I think his depression was triggered when he attended the concert of Niall, maybe he felt that he's a failure, and as a sort of getting rid of that emotion, he used drugs to eradicate that until he got so high. We are not in a position to judge him for using drugs when we don't know how much he has dealt with them. We cannot tell him not to compare himself with his successful former band members because, as a human being, it's normal to feel envious especially when you started the same path together and you are the one who is not making progress..you are the one who seems to be a loser. Maybe he have felt so small. How I wish things turned different for him. 😥
Rest in peace, Liam. I hope you'll have dreams of yours in the next life. 🖤
His video when attending Niall's concert before he unconsciously jumped from his apartment:
https://vt.tiktok.com/ZSj16Ewh6
It still bothers me a lot thinking what will I do after I graduate with my degree in teaching. I want this profession as an experience but for a lifetime? I think I would be like the rest who had wished they switched careers lol. Am I having an existential crisis? Most of what I can see is that teaching is also political in nature. And I am someone who doesn't like to be involved with the political system. I like to talk about politics but being engaged with it? No.
Please help me report this fake animal rescue video.
I can't believe these people are willing to do anything heinous just to gain a lot of views. They're willing to do anything illegal just for the sake of money. Even raping corpses just to satisfy the flesh. It's not poverty that causes this evilness, they simply lack morals. I feel sorry for the animals living in that country. I watched a video where cows are eating human trash, like can't they take the time to clean the streets or they're busy pedoing.
Please report this page. If you want to watch how real this kind of act, this is the link and see it for yourself if it's even an animal rescue .
https://www.facebook.com/share/v/tqZy9pfdWr7KG6EP/?mibextid=Le6z7H
Every year I am seeing different posts about graduates oversupply and the unenough jobs available for these people. It's kinda saddening because everybody is competing for a vacancy in a country that can't provide space for everyone. Technology has made it easier for everybody to find jobs across the world. We don't have to be stuck in that traditional mindset where we have to compete for vacancies that are never half-filled. People will always say working remotely is not stable, but the truth is they don't even try. The saddest thing among all is that schools doesn't even teach you how to build digital skills. I guess in my country, we're still stuck in a traditional path. We are not adapting at all. The funniest thing is that when someone hears about working online, they thinks it's scam. I don't care about them, let them fight and wait for their next life until they can get a job without going through a backer system. Yeah, I must say the competition globally is tough but there's a lot of jobs you can apply for online..even the illegal ones, jk. Is being an OFChatter illegal at all?
A unfiltered thought on my mind. I don't want to get married someday but depends if I would really find someone a good match but right now, I realized I don't want. It's scary being in a relationship. After seeing people failing relationships, divorced, physical abuse, manipulation, gaslighting etc. I realized I'll be better on my own. I am not submissive kind, maybe why I never been in any relationship. I will focus on building wealth instead and personal goals and when I get old, future relatives will take care of me because I have last will haha. And besides I'm nice, so I don't think I would be alone and lonely, I'll make friends.
I honestly can't imagine myself teaching the kindergarten level. Not even the elementary level lol. Sure, I can make a face and act childish to entertain kids. But doing that career for the rest of my life? I don't know. I bet I'll go back to my childhood years haha. I can't even stand still to teach grade 7 and 8 levels, how much more under those. I honestly don't know what level I would like to teach. I am still hesitant about my decisions that I have to ask myself if I am sure about what I'm going to enter. 😂
And also the type of job you have. I want to build a skill where I am the one who choose whom to work with, where I have the option and the freedom to say NO. My dream is to build financial stability and I don't care if I don't have a circle of friends, a lover, or whatever. I just want a life with peace and to raise more cats. That's it. I could travel a few places, then I could die happily. Faking life is not for me, and I don't like the built-in rat-race system. I'm sorry but I have to be smart.
I am impressed by how respectful the students are in the school. They are disciplined in not using their phones when it's not a lunch break yet. Even without their teacher, there are few students leading their classmates to proper behavior. They are really nice and obedient. I was wondering if it's also like this in America or is it even possible to turn kids respectful and well-disciplined. Though I know not all students in the Philippines are really respectful, there are also cases where students are a real mess and act evil against teachers.
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