One of My Dreams In Life is To Become a Singer
Ever since I was born in this world I am already a music minded person until I grow up. However I do not have the confidence to sing even though I really love music so much. Whenever I think about it I feel the irony of being a music lover who cannot sing on her own. I cannot help but to feel sad about it. When the music is so strong inside your soul but you cannot perform it. I am very ashame to sing everytime the people will ask me to sing. I know deep inside by myself that I really want to sing but the diffidence keeps stopping me by.
As I write this article, I laugh towards the title itself. It's not so obvious to my face that I always wanted to become a singer because I never participated into any karaoke sing-along sessions. One thing that the people doesn't know is that I always imagine myself singing on the stage performing. It's a secret of mine that I don't want to reveal to the world.
I only get the confidence to sing when I'm alone, when no one's listening and watching me singing. By that I feel so impressed by myself because I feel good and I feel that I need to applaud towards myself. It's opposite when I'm with the people. Even they have put the microphone in front of my mouth, I will never dare to open my mouth.
I remember when I was offered to sing in our classroom way back before for so many times, I keep on refusing. They even have to get my hand just to put the mic on it but it's funny I never really dare to sing a song. Whenever there's an event and occasions, even I am offered to sing on the Karaoke videoke I never dare instead I just smile and said no. I feel like a clown towards myself.
There are so many musicians and singers that I really adore. They are the reason why I wanted to become a singer just like them. If only they can trained me to sing then I will not refuse the chance. I always wanted to create a music and write my own compositions. It's always a dream that I always hide from the world because it's seem impossible.
What is the reason that I do not sing?
It's not that my voice is ugly but it's due to I am self-conscious all the time. I do not know how to describe this feeling but whenever I am asked to do new things, I can't help but feel anxious. I am anxious to sing a single song and I always tell myself that people will laugh on me. This is the hindrance why I cannot dare to sing. I do not go out from my comfort zone. I am not confident towards myself and I am scared for the people to hear and judge me. I feel really socially awkward and scared. If I can overcome this, I believe I can sing without distress.
I believe that there's a way I can reach my so called dream. I do not want to become popular, I just want to learn on how to sing confidently. In that way I will know by myself that singing is such a good thing. I don't know how to convince myself that I need to step out from this shell just for me to reach my dream.
I always picture out myself singing and holding a microphone on the stage performing in front of people. I always imagine that when I'm sleeping. I wish someday someone or some people will motivate me to sing confidently, I just have to try and see it by myself if I can be good in singing. The fear and the shyness always overwhelm me. I love listening music and I also love singing but I just can't tell people about it because I do not want them to ask me to sing.
For me this is one of the weirdest dreams I have in life. Why have I said it's weird? It is because I do not sing in front of the people even just for a seconds only because I cannot bare to do that. I have told myself what if one day I can. I just have to trust the right timing. If singing is something that I have never discovered about myself then I am going to find my way to discover it one day. I need to go out from my comfort zone.
How about you? Do you have a dreams that for you seems unbelievable?
April 14, 2022
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As for me I also love singing, in fact everytime there's a karaoke in our house I'm gonna sing since we only siblings inside the house but if there's people around then I feel ashamed to sing and prefer to hide while singing, pamysterious effect hahaha. But I do love singing, my genre is rock, OPM, old songs and with those falsetto. I have this huge voice despite of my size hahaha.