I have merged feelings!

!!I have no intention of making this a captivating post, nor a bait for anyone but the information that I will be presenting here are true!! Don't be too emotional and let you mental health be at rest. It's nothing too serious though a little bit painful to me, but I have gone over it.

This month has been a great one right from the start and a lot of consistent writers have made their make by reaching their goals. I am very happy for you all and I must say that there is no reason why we should not achieve your goals. I wish you more achieving in days and years to come.

I have my set goal as well, which I have not achieved even 5 out of 10 of my set writing goals. One of the things that I set as a goal for this month writing journey is to gain more sponsorship with excellent communication skills and as well, sponsor more people.

However, on the contrary, I have 2 sponsors less than that of the month past (November). That's obviously not good enough. Right? Don't bother yourself, it's a rhetorical question. On the other hand, it's in my mind to sponsor 5 more new writers on this platform along with the 7 writers that I was sponsoring earlier before the beginning of December. But by this time of the month, I have less than six platform users whom I am sponsoring.

Things are already going out of hands already. Even the ones that I sponsor, they are about to go away soon because I haven't paid the sponsorship payment. It's my fault though. All these are not what I desired or wanted to see happened but I have to just let it go.

It is just as if things are going the other way around. Maybe the weather is not what I desired? Maybe I was wondering what the result is going to be if I just keep myself away from participating and relating with people over here?

The answer to those questions is 'NO' . I have no such thing in my mind. I don't go against others and I love to engage with people a lot. However, I guess that I am just going through a lot. I think I have lost my mind. I do things that makes me to feel like I need to take some rest overnight and also during the days. I have done that times without numbers . I have slept for days and nights and yet it's as if there is needs to do more.

I felt like giving some BCH gifts out since last week but I didn't announce it here, and I started without the plan of how I was going to do that. I paid $2 to @Alther but I later thought that will be too much as a gift so I requested for refund and he gave it back. Thanks to you dear friend for being loyal.

While I was planning to planning how to start the gift distribution of $0.50 for 10 users, I got a notification that my browser is out of date already. I needed to update it. I always want to keep my browser up to date. So I went ahead to Google play store and updated the browser. After updating my browser, my read.cash shortcut is gone from my screen. I had to log in back and add my seed phrases.

After completing my Login ID submission and seed phrases words input , my earnings are no where to be found anymore. I could not access the earning which I have saved for sharing from my last two posts.

When I checked my account information, there are three different wallet addresses showing there, this I believe was due to transferring account from one device to the other lately. I must have made the mistake of typing a wrong seed phrases while I changed my device.

I will work on the sharing where 3 users will get $0.50, $0.40 and $0.30 from me. I will consider doing much things on here when I get my stable mind back. Before the Christmas. I've been making some unnecessary mistakes recently and I would not want it to affect my social life. So, I better show up a little less.

I'm feeling unhappy because of my heart instability and as well, feeling happy because of Christmas celebration that is coming. I hope that things will get better soon.

Merry Christmas in advance. I hope for a new beginning by 2022. I might not be active henceforth. I'm trying to work things out and that's why.

My next desired post on here are about;

• myth: about crypto

• How I wish celebrate

• Welcome back post. And a little more.

Thanks for reading through dear friend.