“The last payment”

THIS IS MY HISTORY, A MAN WITH A DREAM.

Hello, world:

My name is Stoyan and I’m a man who is in a race to catch his dream. No just any man, a man with a family to take care and feed a little girl who makes me recently to be a father, she is 9 months old and she have a lovely mother, my beautiful wife. Always with my mind on the clouds and my feet trying to follow it, but they listen another voice making me take different path at the same time, which brought my life until this point, a hard one to focus in a way to live. 

When I proposed the decision that I will leave my short carrier on tourism industry, the only one who unlike and support my decision was my wife and A. Nina who doesn’t talk yet. My mother and all my parents from my mother side thinks the idea is like suicide. When you say that you are going to leave your job, a secure job which is going to feed you and become you in some kind of built-cube-machine without a brain they get upset because no one can fallow it dreams, not any more. So they can’t understand why I took this decision.

My wife doesn’t like the idea but she supports my own madness (how other people think) because she loves me and trust as a good wife does (not too many wife does it). She saw me leaving a job which everybody wants because is a job that can give you too many things like houses and cars with longs lonely nights only if you are so clever as a drug dealer is (but not everyone is like this, still good and innocent people outside). Someone have to do the job and someone like me or you have to be a dreamer, so the other people who is working without thinking to much, I can give them some out-their-reality to enjoy a time with words that make them forget a heavy day after they working journey.

Now I’m preparing my path to do my last job. It’s my last job because I’m going to be here until the end without looking to any side, I am a writer and not just any writer, I’m the one who is going to put my fingerprint in the humankind minds as others greatest writer has done in the past.

Is very difficult shut up all those voice which are trying to make you give up and drop your dreams inside the toilet. They don’t know how you could create it for they joy, but isn’t till you build a big dream that they can see, when they leave you be in peace to be what you decide to do.

Unconditional support. I’m selfish for a while to be able to focus on my work and my wife support and understand that idea had been the point that strength me and she does me part of what am I.

2 years since I wrote this, everything is different since.