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October, 18, it was late afternoon when I received a message from my mother that my grandmother passed away at 2 p.m. she is 85 years old and bedridden for almost 2 months, they have only 5siblings left my mother was the eldest among them, my mother told me that all of them don't have money to use for the burial expenses and that his brother decides to make the DIY coffin that they want only buy plywood and they are the one who made it at that time I tell my mother that if no one provides the coffin I'm the one who pays it but I don't have an idea of how much the price of a coffin, and my mother said that it's okay when I go there they make things clear to all siblings that we must help each other. all I think that moment is that why they can't provide it I know they can go to the mayor's office to get some help particularly at this time that nearly elections coming.

Since my mother lived far from my grandmother she told me that even fare for a bus she don't have at that moment good thing I still have bitcoincash in my wallet at that from my earnings in noise. cash. I converted it into coin.ph and send it into Palawan remittance.

Thanks to noise.cash it's a big help in times of emergency I converted BCH 0.03...

On October 19, my mother went to my grandmother for interment all my siblings, some relatives, going there, these are like traditional which we only go to someone already in the grave but that time when still alive no one hesitates to visit it's sad but that's the reality others telling because of a hectic schedule, a job that can't leave even in a single day.

On the next day October 20, it's the day for going to the cemetery for the burial they only send me a photo whereof my grandmother inside, I think that everything was okay that they get help from some government agencies same when my Auntie died they did not pay anything, and because my mother gets busy for preparing everything she did not contact me.

When everything is finished all goes back to their home same as my mother and that's the time she contacted me and told me that she borrowed money from my sister worth 10,000 pesos, and she does not even tell me that I must pay that amount and I'm already aware that must I give money to them when my salary comes, but last night suddenly my sister send a message for me asking what time I pay the money that my mother borrowed from her because she said that money, not for her but only shes the one kept it and if there is someone need it they can borrow it but they pay after with interest: here is our conversation with my sister last night see the photo attached:

It's my native language Bisaya so I'm going to translate it,

She asks what time do I send the money that our mother borrows? I answer her when my salary I send 3000 pesos, and then she said like she feels shocked that why I only send 3000.00 that my mother takes 10,000 pesos, so I answered again it says I don't have any money this time this is the only money I have from this month, then she answered me like in a sarcastic way, that she said, better I did not promise anything so that my mother would not borrow money from her and the last she said "it's okay I'm the one find a way to pay for this " this line I felt hurt coz I know my sister has an attitude problem, and because I don't like to the conversation got worse that maybe I can tell some bad words I only tell that I did not promise anything because in the first place mother told me that we help each other that not only me paying for this debt and that's the end of our conversation.

In addition, since last night I'm thinking about the conversation of my sister that I know we have some misunderstanding now especially when it comes to money, and I don't like that my mother knows this I don't want them to add some stress because I know that they don't like that we're fighting about this, it's okay for me that I'm the one stressed than my parents, So while I'm doing the ironing today it comes to my mind that much better I pay the whole amount that my mother used so that to avoid misunderstanding for us siblings for I still believe that" it's better to give than to receive"

Author thought:

I know this time I have so many problems because I wanted to go home and the first reason is I am not comfortable with my job now but who am I to complain, I don't have savings, I have so many obligations, debts that need to pay, a house that still not finished, so, for now, I must still need to work hard even no one knows my sufferings, they only think that I have a lot of money because I'm working here in abroad.

I know God will provide I overcome all these debts that I have right now and soon I will be back in my homeland with a bitcoincash in my wallet forget my monthly salary for it's nothing left.

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Date published: October 31, 2021