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@Shyness 6 November 2021

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@Shyness 6 November 2021

Visiting My Mother Again We visited my mother today. It was late in the morning when we went to the cemetery. It took us 15-20 minutes to go there. It was near but we need to to ride 1 tricycle and 1 jeepney to go there. The weather was hot and we came late because our schedule was supposed to be 7 or 8 in the morning. I was waiting for my sisters text message but I haven't received any so I just slept and thought that we will not go today. I came from a night shift so I just slept after my work. Suddenly, my sister woke me up at 9 in the morning. It was the moment I have a very deep sleep so it was hard for me to woke up. My sister, her daughter and I went to cemetery. My father already went to he cemetery yesterday. When we arrived, there were very few people. The place was wide and full of trees that even it's hot, you can still feel the air. We cannot recall the exact place where my mother was. It was last April when we buried her together with the remains of my cousin and sister. So we tried looking for her gtavestone and my niece found it. When I saw my mothers gravestone, I was about to cry. I just controlled myself because I am embarassed to cry again in front of my sister and niece. It is still painful to me knowing my mother is no longer here. Before, during all Saints day, my mother and I are together when going to cemetery to visit my sister who passed away. It was just painful to know that I am now visiting her and my sister. That she is now together with my sister. It was almost 6 months when she was gone but her memories were still clear. I remembered my last dream with her. When I was dreaming, my dream was very clear but when I woke up. I cannot remember anything aside from I am with my mother. But I cried because all I can recall was I hugged her tight and I just cried because I cannot feel the warmth of her hug. Then I just cried because I rralized that she was really gone. We brought 5 small candles only and we bought flowers outside the cemetery. We sat in the grass in heat of the sun with just umbrellas as our cover. But it was not that hot because of the wind. We were covering the candles with umbrellas because it was blown away by the wind. We have a hard time lighting the candle everytime it dies so we spent more time there because of the candle waiting for it to melt. I thought that maybe my mother wants us to stay longer with her. But I know my mother is in a safe place now aside from knowing that she is in heaven. But given her a nice grave is a feeling of safety. It is easy to visit her now because it is not crowded unlike the previous cemetery that we visited. Before, it was a public cemetery that we visited that is why every year that we go there, a lot of gravestones were added. We sometimes stepped on others. Aside from that, it was too crowded in that cemetery. It is not also safe to go there because of COVID-19. Now, it might be sad but moving to a new private cemetery is a better place. It is not.crowded and children are safe because the land is flat and with grass onIy. I am proud to say that she is resting in a very peaceful place. Not to mention, it is now paid in full aside from the previous cemetery, that we need to pay every 5 years. Even it is cheap, it is not a safe place. I knew that my mothe is now happy living in heaven wih my sister and her mother and brother. They have more time together. No pain and no worries. I am expecting my relatives to visit my mother this week. My younger brother and one of my niece visited her last October when it was my brothers birthday. Happy reading everyone!!

@Shyness 4 November 2021

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@Shyness 4 November 2021

"Home Town Cha-Cha-Cha" - K-Drama Showing How Life Is Simple In the Village This is the lightest K-drama I watched. Lightest because it is very comfortable to watch alone or with the whole family. Seeing the beauty of the place is definitely breathtaking and can be self-meditating. The story happened in the province of Gongjin but I found out that it was only a fictional name. I searched for it in Google but it is not searchable. The real name of the province is Pohang. Just by watching the first episode, you will see how beautiful it is to live in the province and especially in the seaside village. Away from the hustle and bustle of the city, the traffic and the pollution. Some province are modernized which means progress and it is a good sign but it is also good to maintain the old style of the province. The people living a simple happy and contented with their everyday lives. ***The Beginning*** It all started when the dentist Hye-jin resigned from her work because of her misunderstanding with her superior. She found out that her superior stoles her patients. She is a beautiful, fashionable and spends on expensive items like clothes, shoes and jewelries. One morning, she left Seoul and went to the seaside to release her stress. She wore her expensive high heeled shoes for the first time while driving the car. When she reached the sea, she sat down for a while then left her shoe in the sand while walking barefoot in the seaside. She enjoyed the place and she felt relaxed. It was Gongjin. There were lots of fishermen and one of them is Du-sik who is also a plumber, machine operator, surfer, electrician and different jobs. The two met while Du-sik was surfing and Hye-jin was walking in the the sea. When she came back where she left her shoes, it was no longer there and Du-sik returned from surfing. Hye-jin asked her if she saw her shoes. But Du-sik only got 1 piece of her shoes and gave it to her looking mad at Hye-jin. Hye-jin asked for a slippers from Du-sik and he offered his toilet slippers which at first the girl did not accepted. But she wore it since it was too hot. She ordered a coffee from a shop but it does not accept card so she needs to withdraw first. But she cannot withdraw her money in her ATM card due to system outage in the area. There were also no signals from her mobile phone. She has no cash so she asked for help from Du-sik. Instead of lending her money, she worked for few hours with other older people in removing skin of squids. After that, she earned money and rented in a sauna to sleep. Unfortunately, her car was also not working. There were no machine operator that day so she have to stay for a day and wait until tomorrow for it to be repaired. The next morning, everything was ok including her car and her money in the ATM. Hye-jin went back to the city and looked for a job but because of her fight with her superior, it was hard to findsince she was banned. So she planned on going back to Gongjin and stay there for good. She planned to build a clinic since she found out that there were no clinic in the village. She also rented a house from one of the restaurant owner who owned both place. The clinic was a good spot since the sea was overlooking. It was Du-sik who build her clinic and her house. Hye-jin was surprised that they meet again in his different job. The next day, her bestfriend also live with her after being heart-broken. She worked as the assistant of Hye-jin in the clinic. The next morning, there were many people looking outside at their house since they were just new. Her clinic was also opened after a few days. But unfortunately, no one came for check-up for the whole day. The 2 got bored. Du-sik told them that they should meet the people in the village personally. But Hye-jin insisted. So the next day, there were still no customers. One morning, Hye-jin realized and changed her mind and meet the people personally. She talked to them and went to their restaurants and business spaces. She also went to some house. She became friends with them. After that, few customers came until many came for appointments. They were very happy. She started to interact with the neighborhood and became close with Du-sik. **Du-Sik** Du-sik is the man working with different jobs. In the morning, he is the assistant in the coffee shop of his friend who used to be a singer before who has 1 daughter and an addicted in a boyband. Du-sik also worked as part-time in a grocery owned by couple who has a cute daughter. The wife is currently pregnant. He was a very busy man but everything he does should be paid. That was his job. He was living alone in a house from his grandfather who passed away and his life looked mysterious. He always have nightmares when he sleeps. It seemed somethings bothering him. He grew up with his grandfather when he was small. Her grandfather died because of a heart attack during the time he was not at home He felt it was his fault. Aside from that, no one knows his own life. How did he got there in Gongjin? The People in Gongjin All are happy in the village especially when there are occasions and gatherings. All of them seemed close in the village. One day, a visitor went to the village. He is Seong-hyun. He was looking at the views where he met Du-sik who grabbed him when he was about to fall in the sea. He stroll in the place with Du-sik. The reason for that was he was a producer in a famous show in tv wherein he will feature the place and he chose Gongjin. Accidentally, he saw Hye-jin who was an old friend in their university. He saw her clinic. They talk to each other again and with Du-sik. Seong-hyun has a secret crush to Hye-jin ever since they were in college but he did not have the courage to court her before. Seong-hyun remembered all their memories together in college. Seong-hyun became closer with Du-sik. He asked Du-sik if Hye-jin has a boyfriend because he is willing to court her now. Du-sik was surprised because he has also feelings for the girl. Seong-hyun admitted his feelings to Hye-jin but she has feelings for Du-sik already. Du-sik also has feelings to Hye-jin. One-night, when Hye-jin was on her way to see the shooting of Seong-hyun and his crew, there was a man who was following her. It was dark on the road so she ran fast and her cellphone fell. She continued running and luckily, Du-sik was roaming in the village and she saw Hye-jin. She hugged Du-sik tightly because of fright. The man disappeared. The next evening, she was going inside the house from work. Her friend went to Seoul because her mother undergone operation. A man was following her with a knife. She was able to call Du-sik since she was holding her phone. Du-sik was on the rescue and fight with the man but he was stabbed in his shoulder. He was brought to the hospital. The man was captured by the police officers. Hye-jin stayed for the meantine at Du-siks house. With those incidents, Hye-jin developed her feelings to Du-sik. Both of them fell in love with each other. Seong-hyun knew that Hye-jin has feelings for Du-sik too. **The Secret of Du-sik** Hye-jin and Du-sik kept their relationship secret first. But later on, the neighborhood already found out. They were happy and in love. But when Hye-jin was asking about Du-sik's past, he cannot answered it. Hye-jin wants to know if he wants to stay with his life like that without changing his work in Gongjin. But Du-sik seemed he was hiding something. He said that he has worked before in Seoul. That was it. Then he went back to Gongjin without them knowing the real reason. Hye-jin was opened to Du-sik so she was frustrated that the man was not open to her. Seong-hyun continued their film in the village. It was shot in one of the houses of an old lady who was like a mother to Du-sik. Seong-hyun accepted the fact that Hye-jin was just a friend to him. He did not know that his staff has feelings for him for a long time so she got jealous every time Seong-hyun talked about Hye-jin. Then when one of Seong-hyun staff knew the real name of Du-Sik, he remembered that it was the name who fooled his father from an insurance company where he used to work in Seoul. His father was in comatosse and still recovering. While in the Thanksgiving that day in the village, he talked to Du-sik and punched his face. This is where the secret of Du-sik was revealed. He stayed alone in his house for days. Then he called Hye-jin and told his story. Hye-jin listened to him. He said that he met his bestfriend who was his roommate who worked as a manager in an insurance company and he worked there, too. It was a good company and one of the security guards joined. He used all of his money to join the insurance. But suddenly, the agency was scammed. All members were scammed including the security guard. He was totally depressed of what happened. Du-sik thought it was himself who cause the trouble to the security guard. He was about to visit him and drive but his bestfriend force Du-sik that he will be the one to drive. But on the way, they met an accident. A truck bumped their car which lead to the death of his bestfriend. The wife blamed him for what happened to his husband. Du-sik sold all his properties and gave it to the family of the security guard. It was the staff of Seong-hyun who was the son of the security guard. He committed suicide but there was a call from a friend that stopped him from jumping into the bridge. He said that it was not his time to die. He left Seoul and went to Gongjin to stay for good. **The Happy Ending** Du-sik has finally let go what he was keeping for a long time. Hye-jin believed in him. He knew that Du-sik is a good man. Hye-jin received an offer to work in Seoul but she did not accepted it. She wanted to stay with Du-sik for good in Gongjin. But the old lady whom Du-sik treated as his mother passed away. No one expected it. Everyone in the village The wife of Du-siks bestfriend was the sister of Seong-hyun. Her sister went to Gongjin and forgive Du-sik. Seong-hyun knew how hard it was for Du-sik too. His staff also talked and reunited with Du-sik after the incident. After all the worst thing that happened, Du-sik and Hye-jin got married. They lived happily in Gongjin. **My Final Say** It is true that love finds a way. We can find our true love in a far away place or sometimes just beside us. We should also be honest to our loved ones because they will understand us and accept us for who and what we are. If not, it is still good because we admit what we have done. Happy reading everyone!!

@Shyness 31 October 2021

True Beauty - K-Drama For Feeling Teenager Like Me After "Backstreet Rookie", I started watching another Korean drama. At first, I did not enjoy it. When I watched its first episode, I thought that I would not enjoy watching it. But when I was in Episode 3, the excitement and thrilled began. This is the story of a teenager who was born "not so pretty". Her name is Joo-kyung. She has an elder sister and younger brother who were beautiful and handsome. Even before she was a child, her friends and relatives noticed the difference between the 3 of them. Until she grew up as a kid, she was always teases by other kids with her looks. They don't play with them so she just played alone. **The First Meeting With The Guy** Until she became a teenager. She studied in a school where she was bullied everyday by her classmates because she was ugly. Once her classmates shouted at her, she will run fast to buy dumplings for them at the canteen. They always make fun of her and even her closest friend at the room betrayed her so that she will not be bullied too by those bullied people. One day, her classmates made fun of her by taking a video of her while she was about to confess her love to her crush at school. She thought his crush likes her too. But the guy did not appear on their meeting place but rather, those who bullied her showed up instead of his crush. She was embarassed by what they did to her. She went on the top of a building and crying because of what happened. She looked like she was about to jump. Whike she was standing in the edge of the building, a guy suddenly grabbed her knowing she was about to commit suicide and jump. They both fell on the ground and the girl lost her eyeglasses so he cannot see the guy who pulled him. They went down the building while the girl was following her because of her poor vision. She was holding onto the rails of the stairs because she cannot see anything. She fell down on the floor but the guy was walking fast. When she noticed that the girl fell on the ground, he carried the girl while going down because they thought that the elevator was not working. When they were at the ground floor, they found out that it was already working and there was just a maintenance during the time they saw it closed. She rode the taxi going home and thank the guy even though she did not saw the guys face. The guy left too. When the girl went home, she saw her mother crying. She found out that his father was scammed and they need to sell their house for their money and go back to their old house. Being embarassed of what she suffered from their school, she watched videos from the internet on how to apply make up to cover her skins imperfections. She bought make up from her savings and practice what she learned from the internet. **Going Back To Their Old House** They sold their house and went back to their old house. Because of that, the girl and his brother transferred school. It was early morning and her family were having breakfast. She applied make-up in her room and dressed for school. When she went down, her family were surprised with her new look and went to school without eating. When she entered her new school, everyone was looking at her. They were all amazed by her beauty while she was walking inside. She was also surprised with the reaction from the people around her. They all found her pretty. Then she was introduced to the class. There she saw a handsome guy which turned out to be her classmate. But that guy was a quiet man. He was Su-ho. Many girls have crush on her but he did not care. He was a smart and rich guy. His father was a CEO in a big company. But he was not close to his father. When she heard the voice of Su-ho. It was familiar to her but she cannot remember that it was the guy who saved her in the building. She met many friends including 2 girls who easily became close to her. She was also added to a group chat which never happened to her before in her previous school. She was very welcome and happy with her new school. But when she reached their house, she removed her make up and get back to her old look. Then she visited the shop where she used to visit before when she was a kid. The shop were renting comic books and she loved reading about horror. When she was looking for the certain book, there was also a guy looking for that same book. It was the handsome guy in her class. They became close as time goes by. The girl did not know if the guy knew that she and the beautiful girl in school were just the same. **The Other Handsome Guy in School** An old stufent came back in the class. He was on a vacation because he took care of her sick mother. Joo-kyung met him also in many instances outside the school. That guy was also handsome and he was before close to Soo-ho. He is Seo-jun. They used to be 3 bestfriends but the other one committed suicide because of false rumours that were issued to him. He was also bullied. Soo-ho thought that he killed their bestfriend because he was not able to answer the call when their bestfriend was calling him for help. They thought that it was Soo-ho's father who made the issue about their bestfriend and why it died. Seo-jun and Soo-ho had a secret crush on her. But everyone in the class did not know her real face aside from Soo-ho. **The School Trip** During the school trip, everyone enjoyed their school activities. Soo-ho expressed his love for Ju-kyung. but his rival was also there showing his affection, too. This was also where one of his girl friends saw her bare face accidentally. She told the truth to her friend and she was accepted for that. This is where they became closer. Soo -ho and Ju-kyung started dating secretly. They met at the comic shop because they enjoy reading horror books.. Until they became a couple but it was only the two of them who knew their relationship. But Ju-kyungs friend told her feelings to Soo-ho. Seo-ju also has deeper feelings to Ju-kyung. He wanted to confess his love to Ju-kyung because he cannot hide his feelings for the girl anymore bit he knew who the girl loves. The company where Soo-ho's dad was the CEO released a song that was written by Soo-ho's bestfriend who committed suicide. It was not released but they plagiarized it. When it was aired in the radio, Soo-hi and Seo-jun heard. They were both angry and Soo-ho went to his dad's company and heard what bappened. He ran away and Seo-jun saw him crossing and followed him which made them into accident. They were both sent to hospital in one room but Seo-jun has minor wounds only. It was Soo-ho who became fatal. They became close again like brothers when they were together. Ju-kyoung visited them. **The Secret Revealed** One morning, when Ju-kyung went happily to school, she was seeing people looking at her and staring as if she has done something bad. Until she reached the classroom and one of his friends confronted her and ran away. It was about her old videos where her old classmates bullied her and showing her real face. The face with pimples and no make up. It was seen by many students. She was emabarassed. She ran away and her boyfriend saw her but she ignores him. She went to a place where no one will saw her. Her boyfriend was looking for him but she was nowhere to be found. The video was uploaded by her bestfriend who has a strong affection for Soo-ho. Ju-kyumg was absent for few days because of what happened but because of the family's support and his boyfriend, she went to school one morning with no make up. She was brave enougj to face her classmates. Her boyfriend was proud of her. Soo-ho also admitted his relationship with Ju-kyung. Her classmates accepted her and it became normal again. Ju-kyung also talked to one of her bestfriends who got mad at her. They reunited too. Her friend who uploaded the video dropped out from school. After the issue, Ju-kyung and Soo-ho became sweeter since their relationship is no longer a secret. One day, they planned to go on a date. They went to stroll in the sea. But Soo-ho's father had a heart attack and his secretary tried calling him but both of their cellphones were out of charge. Seo-jun went to their date and personally told him what happened. They leave and Soo-ho went to the airport to go to the United States and took charge of his father in the hospital. He bid goodbye to his girlfriend for the meantime and promised to come back. When he was about to come back, his father got illed again. He went into operation which made Soo Won stayed. Ju -kyung waited at the airport and thinking Soo-ho will come. She called Soo-ho and found out what happened. Soo-ho was not sure when to come back. So he decided to broke up with Ju-kyung but she did not acceptes it. She said that she will wait. Ju-kyung hanged out with friends to forgot her past. She enrolled to make-up school to make herself busy. She decided not to call Soo-ho again. She still go to the comic shop and reminisce their moments together. She noticed what Soo-ho had written in the wall. To wait for him in the first snow in a certain place. One night, the snow appeared. It was the first snow and she remembered what Soo-ho wrote. She went to the place where he mentioned but Soo-ho did not appeared. Ju-kyung went down and leave but she forgot her ticket so she went back and he noticed a man wearing long jacket staring outside the building. It was Soo-ho and when he saw her, he hugged Ju-kyung but the girl stopped it. She was still mad with the guy for breaking up with her. The boy told the whole truth. But the girl left. Seo-jun who had a crush on Ju-kyung tried courting her since he had broken up with Soo-ho. He admitted his feelings to her which he has been keeping for how many years. He said that he wanted to moved on and admitted his feelings because he that Ju-kyung only loved one person. When he found out that Soo-ho came back, he told Ju-kyung that Soo-ho will come back to the United States. So the girl went hurriedly to Soo-ho to stop him and tell her how much he love Soo-ho. But when she got there, Soo-ho was not actually leaving. It was just Seo-jun's way of telling Ju-kyung to get back with Soo-ho. He was hurt but he keeped moving. He joined a boy band since he was good in singing and got busy with it. Ju-kyung and Soo-ho reunited and lived happily. She also reunited with her old friends at school. **My Final Say** All of us had imperfections. True beauty is our attitude. It is what people will admire us for in the end. It depends on the people who will accept and love us for our physical looks. We just need to be honest with the people around us.

@Shyness 23 October 2021

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@Shyness 22 October 2021

Failure Is A Way To One's Success Everyone makes mistakes. It is normal because we are humans made to experience happy and sad moments. When we made mistakes, we should also find ways to correct it. There are failures. But we can try to succeed in our own ways. Different ways to make ourselves or our family survive in everyday lives. What is wrong is when we do not try to make our life change for the better. Failure does exist to everyone. It doesn't mean we should stop trying when we failed but rather, let us just continue dreaming and making those dreams come true. Use those failures as an experience for us to improve and succeed. **My Experiences** First of all, I would like to say that I am not yet successful in work or in life. I just want to share my experiences in life where I had failures and somewhat succeeded. There are ups and downs in life especially in my experiences at work. **I remember my first job.** I applied because I was with my classmates. I don't have the confidence to apply alone. Since we all passed, we worked together. I realized how hard the real life was. How hard it was to work for a low salary, working 12 hours a day and a long travel. I experience stress and met strict people inside the company knowing we are new hired. I only lasted there for 3 months due to salary issues. I applied to other company but not because I'm confident enough to apply. I was just hired maybe because the sister of my brother-in-law was the manager of one of the departments in the company. I applied personally with my mother at that time. But I did my best during interview and written examination. It was a better company compared to my first job. They gave bigger salary and other allowances and incentives compared to the first one. It was a success though. Why? Because I was able to find a better company which paid my efforts better. **Then I dreamed of applying to other types of job.** I want to work inside a mall. I want to wear skirts so I can see people while working. So I tried applying and I succeeded. I worked in a mall. I enjoyed seeing people while working. I wore skirts and sandals. I look presentable compared to my previous work wherein I wore jeans and shirts everyday. I met many people working there. Until I heard of BPO. Business Process Outsourcing or the call centers. I thought of applying after my last job. **I applied to different call center companies.** It was totally different from the rest of the jobs I have because you need to speak in English in all the steps of application. From initial interview up to the final. You need to prove that you can speak English well because your main job is to talk to Americans. You should understand them and vice versa. It was not easy ro pass the interview. From the companies I applied, I usually failed during the final interview. Maybe I was not good enough to them or my voice seemed nervous during interviews. I applied to more than 2 or 3 companies before I passed. I almost lost my confidence in applying in BPO's because I always failed. Until I got the job which was just near our place. A one ride travel only which took 20-30 mins only. The salary was big and the job was okay. Luckily, I was moved into non-voice account which means I will not be taking calls. I will only be doing back office jobs. It was better and less stress. My work lasted for 3 years because our account was transferred to India. We were paid for the total years of our service with the conpany. This means I need to apply again. For me, it was still a success because I made it to BPO. I worked with people who graduated 4 or more years in college or universities. Some were undergraduate while some graduated. It seemed we were all in one level though I only took 2 years of college. I am proud to be working with them. **I applied again to other companies.** There was a company where I worked in a voice account and I thought I can do it. But it was difficult for me. I need to study like a student because the account was hard. You need to explain different inquiries from the customer. It was also hard to understand their accent. It was a UK account. We were just under training but it was tough for me. Aside from the stress from training, I was also stressed with travel because it was far from home. I did not pass the training period. It only lasted for 3 months. I failed because I thought that I will be able to work in a voice account. It was supposed to be the first voice account if I passed. I tried to understand every exercises we have but I don't know why I cannot absorb most of the topics. I knew I failed that time because I did not pass the training but I am still happy that I tried and continued it even I was struggling. At least, I have experienced how it feels taking live calls even for a short period of time. I experienced customers being angry witu me because I have not resolved their concerns. I heard them got angry with me because I cannot access their accounts due to their accents. I knew I tried my best but it was not enough. I just thought that maybe that job was not for me. It was meant for others. Now, I am still with the company I worked with for 8 years and I can say that those 8 years were mixed emotions. It is a voice account.There were happiness when we have activities or events at work. We all bonded during that time. Sadness when someone leaves the company. Feeling tired when it was peak season. But happiness again once we receive our salary. **Being Successful** I know that each of us has different paths to success. We don't know when and where but we should just keep on trying our best in everything we do. I am not yet successul in business or in the job I wanted but I can say I am ttying to be successful in some other ways. I am trying to be a successful mother. I will do all my best for my son. I will guide him all the way. I am trying to be successful in writing. Everyday is a learning process for me. What to write and where will my ideas came from. **My Final Say** `"Try and try until you succeed."` `If at first you don't succeed, try and try again.` Failures are our steps to success. How can the wealthy businessman became rich and famous? Some people started with nothing. They started from scratch. They planned everything well in putting up a business. They borrowed money. Then put up that business. All was planned but it did not work that way. They failed. But then, it did not stopped them from dreaming and trying. They think of other business. They tried harder and focused on what business to put up. They started all over again. They still failed. It did not stop there. They became more focused on a business. They started again and again. Until they succeeded. Their business became successful. It was not just a dream but now a reality. What made them successful is by thinking how many times they failed. What and what not to do. Making other strategies work until it became effective. Thank you **scottchbusiness** **Yzza0625** and **Olasquare** as my sponsors. Thank you for believing and supporting me in my articles. https://read.cash/@scottcbusiness https://read.cash/@Yzza0625 https://read.cash/@Olasquare Happy reading!!

@Shyness 18 October 2021

The Birthday It Was Saturday was a tiring day. It was my brothers birthday. 3 of my siblings had birthdays this October. October 10 was my sisters birthday, 11 was my older brother and 16 was my youngest brothers birthday. Every birthday celebration now, my sister is in charge of everything since my mother passed away. She went to market early in the morning to buy recipes for spaghetti, the food for our lunch, lumpiang shanghai. We also have ice cream given by ny sister-in-law. Cakes were given by our cousins which was actually for the 3 of my siblings who had birthdays. My father cooked pansit bihon. We have enough foods for us that day. My mothers duty was replaced by my sister. Her neck was aching that day but she managed to prepare add cooked it all. My brother went home in the morning from a night shift work. It was his birthday leave. He just rested for an hour then he visited our mother in the cemetery. He also checked if the name of my sister in the grave who passed away was corrected. From **Pebecca** to **Rebecca**. Good thing, it was already fixed. My brother visited there with his friend and with our niece. **The Celebration** When they went home, my brother slept for a while. My sister was busy preparing for all the foods. Then we gave pansit bihon and spaghetti to some neighbors. It was a tradition that we gave out foods during occassions because that is what they are doing, too. We did not expected for my brothers visitors. My brother didn't know that her friends will visit him. We served food to them. After eating, they all went for a drink outside our house. While they drink, we still serve foods to them. Foods that were prepared by my sister were almost consumed. My sister already went home in the afternoon since she was done cooking and washed what she used during cookong. It was now my turn to do the chores. I washed other dishes What is more tiring is to wait for all of them to finish drinking. My brothers friends were all there with their kids. Those kids play inside the house with my son. My son was very happy playing with the kids but the house was really messy. They were running in and out of the house. I can't control them because I never saw my son that happy when playing with other kids. Almost all the foods were consumed. It was late at night and the kids left and my son already slept. But the people outside were still drinking. It was already 12 midnight but it seemed like they were just starting with their drinking session. I am waiiting for them to finish so that I can clean outside. I almost slept waiting for them. Until my nephew told me that the people outside were gone. My brother already slept in his bed since he was very drunk. It was 2am. When I looked outside the house, it was a mess. There were bottles outside and the used plates and cups were all there waiting for me to be cleaned. My partner helped me in cleaning. He picked up all the bottles in one case. He swept all the trashes and put water all over the floor. I gathered all the plates and glasses and put it inside. The chairs were put in one place and the table was cleaned. When it was cleaned outside, my partner slept and I started washing the dishes. I cleaned all the glasses and plates uncluding spoons and forks. I cleaned the table and wiped it clean. I felt exhausted because I washed a lot I slept at around 4am. i was just tired but satisfied. **Being A Sister** I have been responsible even before my mother was here. For every occassion, it was my duty to wash the dishes. I am not good with cooking but cleaning the house is my passion. Even before that my mother was in charge of every occassions in the house, I will do my part in washing the dishes. I always told my mom to leave everything behind after cooking. I know how hard it was to cook. So I might as well help by cleaning the dishes. It may sound weird to others but as long as it was our own plates and glasses that I will be washing, I enjoyed it. Especially after seeing the kitchen clean. I will also sweep the floor and wipe it with cloth. I felt relieved whenever I saw our house clean. Now, it became more tiring because my mother is not here. I am all alone to clean the house when there are occassions. Our house is easy to clean because it is small. But if you are only the one to clean it, it is really stressful. **My Final Say** I am just expressing my thoughts whenever I felt bad, I rant, or I have done something bad. But even I am tired doing chores at home, I will be okay after. Birthday comes only once a year and it is my free will and duty as a sister and as a daughter. It is my way of helping in the family. **Thank you** **scottchbusiness****,** **Yzza0625** **and** **Olasquare** **for the sponsorships. You inspire me to write more.** https://read.cash/@scottcbusiness https://read.cash/@Yzza0625 https://read.cash/@Olasquare **Happy reading everyone.**

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@Shyness 16 October 2021

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@Shyness 16 October 2021

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@Shyness 16 October 2021

Christmas Won't Be The Same But I Am Happy You Are Now Safe Who would not be excited for Christmas season? Everyone is waiting for this special day. Once we reached the start of BER months which is September, most of us are excited with the Christmas countdown. But this Christmas will be the loneliest Christmas because our mother is no longer here to celbrate with us. It won't be the same without her. But I cannot forget those memories we have with her. Of course, we should remember that Christmas is the day that the Christ was born. We will not exist if not for him. Let us thank God for the Christmas day and even everyday. It is all because of him. The spirit of Christmas is by giving and forgiving. ***When I Was A Kid*** Kids are the happiest during Christmas. They received gifts from their Godparents and even family as well. Every Christmas season, my mother would buy me a new dress for the Christmas party in school. I will also wear it during Christmas day. I made efforts in buying a nice gift for our exchange gifts in school. At the same time, I was also expecting a nice gift to receive. But most of the time, reality hurts. I was expecting something but I will just receive others that I did not requested and which was less than the amount that we agreed upon. I remember one of my classmates in elementary. I can still remember his name He was **Orlando.** My classmates said that he was rich. So during the exchange of gifts, he told us that he wanted a snake and ladder toy worth P50.00. Luckily, I got his name. I bought him that toy which was higher than the amount that we agreed upon. I looked from different stores to buy that exact toy that he wanted because I want him to use and enjoy my gift. Then I found out that he got my name too. So I was excited because I expected a lot from him. I wanted a 'ping-pong" which was also P50.00 because I saw it in the market and its price. I was also expecting an expensive gift knowing that he was rich. If it was not ping-pong, a badminton will do. When our Christmas party happened and we exchanged gifts, he was happy with what he received from me. Then, when I receive the gift from him, I was also excited to open it. But to my surprise, his gift were school supplies and when l computed the total price of his gift, it did not reach the amount of P50.00. School supplies are useful but since we were told by our teacher to write down the gifts we want to receive, I already mentioned that whoever got my name, a toy was what I prefer. I felt bad with his gift Maybe it was my fault too because I was expecting from him. During Christmas season, me and my cousins will go to our godparents and relatives for oir Christmas presents. I gave the money to my mother. But when I grew up, i just stayed at home during Christmas but I still received presents from relatives and I kept the money by myself. I am already embarassed to go to houses to ask for presents. **First** Christmas Without Her But now, I am not excited for this coming Christmas. This is the first Christmas without my mother. Until now, I cannot believe that my mother is gone. It felt like she was just in the province enjoying with her relatives. We are now incomplete. I know we are trying hard to be strong. I can feel it for my father. He is now the mother and father at home. I know his depression is still there every day. He decides what to eat for breakfast, lunch and dinner. He missed his wife, our mother. That is why whenever he was invited by his friends for a drink, I also wanted him to go. This isp for him to sleep fast after drinking. That he might forget his loneliness for the meantime. He is always on his bed most of the time playing games and watching videos using his cellphone. I know my youngest brother missed my mother also. He is not showy with his feelings but whenver he is drunk, that is the time he will talk about our mother. I know how he missed our mother. For myself, I still missed our mother. I can say that the quarantine we had with my whole family made us strong because we forgot the loneliness for a while. We have made a stronger bonding which made us happy even without our mother. Now that Christmas is coming, I don't know how are we going to celebrate. My sister has her own family so I know that they will stsy in their house at 12am. My father, my younger brother and my son will be celebrating Christmas at home. My partner will also come if he has no duty. But I missed the previous cepebration with our mother. She will cook pasta, hotdogs, ham. lumpia and she will do it all by herself. Even it was just my parents, my son and my brother who celbrted last year, I still felt happy because we are complete. We are healthy. But like what I've said, God has plans. He has better plans for us. I know I should not worry but I can't help thinking how are we going to survive. I am not sure how will this Christmas feels without our mother. December is also her birthday. **My Final Say** But there are still reasons to celebrate Christmas and life. I still have my family. There is my father, my sister, my brothers, my son, of course and my partner. I have my nieces and nephews and relatives and friemds. It may not be the same as before but we just need to live and love. I still have reasons to celebrate. Thank you scottchbusiness, Yzza0625 and Olasquare for the sponsorships. You inspire me to write more. https://read.cash/@scottcbusiness https://read.cash/@Yzza0625 https://read.cash/@Olasquare Happy reading everyone.

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@Shyness 12 October 2021

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@Shyness 11 October 2021

My Very Own Collections Then And Now Collections are the things or the stuffs we kept for a long time. Some are useful while some are not. But as long as we love collecting those, we can continue with it because it is what our hearts wanted. I love collecting everything when I was a kid. Mostly, they are toys or the things I used to play. Toys that every kids collected. Now that I am old, I collected most of the things that I needed and those that I like. Generation nowadays are less likely to play toys. They are now focused and addicted with gadgets and anything with the social media. **My Paper Dolls Collection** I still remember when I collected paper dolls that I bought from a store. It costs P1.00 only and you have a girl paper doll with 2-3 clothes made of thin cardboard. I collected and played with it so that I can have different girls with different clothes. I have also a classmate who was very good in drawing. She draws girls wearing gowns and different outfits in paper pad only. When she showed it to me, I cut it out and play with it at home as if they were real dolls. I even collected bottle caps from sodas or beers so that I can play with my playmates. If you win, you have a chance to take more bottle caps which I kept at home because my mother will just throw it once she saw it **My Stationery/Stickers Collections** When I was in highschool, I became addicted in collecting stickers and stationery pads. I will save my allowance to buy those. When I was in 2nd year high school, we moved house suddenly. It was hard to enroll to our new location so I have to stay with my auntie for a year to continue with my school. I saved my allowance so that after school time, me and my friends will go the market and buy different stickers and pads. I kept the stickers but I cannot recall what happened if I used it or just wasted it. But those stationery pads, I used it at the same time while I was collecting it. They are papers with envelopes included. Some were scented while some were not. It costs P10.00 if I my memory was right. A stationery pads includes 10 sheets of paper with 5 envelopes. Those are good collections because I chose designs that were colorful. It was useful to me because I wrote letters to my classmates. I have this classmate where we began talking more through letters rather than talking personally in the classroom. We have different groups of friends but there was incident when we started being close because she asked me a question which I cannot recall and she sent me a letter then I replied to it to. Then it started us exchanging letters. This is where I used my stationery pads. Until the school year ended and I moved to new school and she still sent me letters. **My Own Collections When I Started Working** I remember the first thing I bought for myself when I started working. It was a necklace and earrings made of gold. It was sold by my colleague when I was working as a production operator. Payment was installment so it was not hard for me to pay. But the worst.thing was when I it was pawned for financial reasons. I didn't know where they are now. Then, I bought necklace and earrings made in white gol to A. I bought it in a jewellery shop but I bought it separately. I was with my mother and my sister when I bought it. I bought it because I was working and to see the fruit of my labor. I also bought earrings and other jewelries from different sellers and other stores. I also have bracelets. Some are fancy and some were not. This was the white silver necklace that I bought almost 10 years ago. It has not yet faded and until now, the true colotlr is still shining. This was also the ring made of white gold. It is very thin but pretty. This was the necklace we found outside our house. It was wrapped in a small pouch made of gold. This was the bracelet I bought from my cousin. I bought it 10 years ago but I haven't used it even once. Its big for me so it has to be adjusted. The ring in pink was memorable because it was given by my sister who passed away. It has my nickname inside. She gave it to me 20 years ago. The gold ring was also given by my sister who passed away. I bought the silver one to my colleague. It is only fake but the design is cute because of hearts design. Those are cute pair of earrings that I bought to my neighbor. It only costed less than P200.00 only. These are also mixed collextion of earrings that are all fancy but I know that I will not use ever but I can keep forever ***My Collections From A Gift's Friend*** I have a college friend who gave me presents because his brother started a business. It was online and it was a jewelry business made of birthstones. They were making jewelries by themselves and posted it online. Since my friend knew how to make it, she gave me necklaces, earrings and rings. I like the necklace and bracelets made of jade. I kept it and unti now it does not fade. Butterly necklace given by my friend. It was made of stainless so it will not fa seede but the pendant was big and heavy. Those were the necklaces given by my friend. He was the one who made all these. These were the kind he sold online. Some were made based on your designs. I like this one the most because it is jade style. It fits perfectly for me. This ring was also given to me with dangling hearts design This pair of earrings have small buttterly designs but it is too long that is why I havent tried wearing it. ***My Final Say*** We must remember that we work for a reason. We work primarily because we want to help our family. But of course, we also need to buy something for ourself. Sometimes, it doesn't matter if the things we collected are useful or not. But for us, as long as we want it and we work for it, that is enough. But it would be better if the things we bought for ourselves are useful to us so that we can use it and not just to keep it What is the sense of buying it and not using it? If you collect bags, you should use ot at the same time. I remember when I used to buy bags every pay days. I kept some instead of using it. When I tried to use of those that I bought before, I noticed that the bag was slowly peeling. It doeas not look new anymore. I should have used it before. I hope I can add more to my collections. If only my kid was a girl, she could have it all but since he is a boy, he should collect it on his own or whatever collection he wants. I will always be happy and proud of my son. Happy reading and hope you enjoy this article of mine.!! Thank you **Yzza0625** for the sponsorship. https://read.cash/@Yzza0625

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@Shyness 10 October 2021

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@Shyness 10 October 2021

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@Shyness 10 October 2021

I Have A Crush On Him Crush is admiration. It means admiring a person based on his physical looks, attitude, humor or can be common sense of a person. It is the feeling of happiness everytine you see a perosn you like. It brings joy within or feeling of excitement everytine you see that person. You can admire a celebrity, a singer, dancer, politician or even a closest friend. Crush is not just for teenagers or young generations. It can be for all ages. ***Reminiscing My Crush When I Was A Kid*** I remember when I was just a kid. I admitted that I have a lot of crushes. Most of them are my schoolmates or the people in the neighborhood. I remember when I wrote a love letter to my crush. What I did was that I used my playmates name instead of mine pretending she was the one who sent it. He was older than me and he replied that I am too young for crush. Maybe he knew all along that it was me. I always saw him riding in a bike with his brother and I don't know why but I am happy seeing him. I haven't talked to that person and I don't know anything about him except his house because it was just along the street. Everytime we passed that street, I can't help but glance on their house to see if he was there. I searched for his Facebook account and he has changed a lot. Of course, he is older and he has his own family. I also have a crush with my cousins neighbor. I always saw him outside sitting and I knew he had a crush on me too before. He was small and thin guy. But it was almost 20 years ago. When I searched him in Facebook now, it was the total opposite. He is tall, handsome, and with a nice body. I began to have a crush on him again but I think he is now married and with kid/kids. ***My New Crush*** Eversince I became addicted with K-Dramas and watched Backstreet Rookie, I fell for **Ji Chang-Wook**. I do few research about him. He is a Korean actor and considered one of the best actors in Korea. He is 34 years of age and happily married. I became so addicted with Backstreet Rookie because of him and keep listening to its soundtrack and even I don't know the meaning of the song because it was in Korean, I can say it was giving me a peaceful mind hearing it. A stree free and rimantic song, for sure. Going back to my crush, as days passed by, I begin searching for his other films and clips about him in the internet. But Backstreet Rookie is still the best series for me. ***Why Do I Have A Crush On Him?*** First of all, by his physical attractive looks. I love the whole face. His face fits in action, drama, romance and comedy. He is versatile actor and again, very attractive. Every girls can have a crush on him. He is tall, white and very handsome. I am now old but the person I admire is younger than me. He is also a good singer. I like his hair. He has bangs and very simple hair but still he is very good looking. His face is noticeable and has a good skin. What more in person. I might be stsring him a lot if I see him in person. I believe he will be a great father to his kid/kids and a great husband too. I saw him in Youtube with Senator Manny Pacquiao and his family meeting him in person which happened few years ago. Miss Jinky Pacquiao was thrilled when taking a picture with him. You can see the big smile from her face. Ji Chang Wook also have a picture taking with Miss Heart Evangelista in a famous gathering. He always smiles to everyone. I even told my partner about him. That I have a crush who is a very good looking and a celebrity man. Well, he knew that I have been watching K-Dramas lately and I'm not sure if he was interested. I am not sure if boys can relate how a girl feels when having a crush. Wonen is showy unlike men. We can admit having a crush to a friend or even to the person we admire. Men are mysterious. They tend to hide their emotions and feelings towards a person. They cannot even tell it to their closest guy friend. ***My Final Say*** It is fine to admire someone. It is healthy as long as you know your limitations. Having a crush is free and it is a free will. I may have a crush on Ji Chang Wook but there are only two guys I love the most: my son and my partner. But I love my whole family, of course. Thank you to all the readers and let us just continue writing. Telling about what we experienced, our dreams and anything under the sun that we want to express. Thank you to my sponsors. **Yzz0625** and **CryptoMax** https://read.cash/@Yzza0625 https://read.cash/@CryptoMax I also want to thank **Rusty**. If you can only reply to us. Hope you are okay because we haven't seen you and felt you lately. https://read.cash/@TheRandomRewarder

@Shyness 8 October 2021

I Fell In Love Again With The K-Drama I Watched After watching the K-Drama "**Cinderella and the 4 Knights**", I became more addictive with watching another more. I asked my sister again what to watch next. I told her that I wanted another romantic-comedy series. Next thing that I watched was the one she just finished watching. "**Backstreet Rookie**" Like the previous one, my sister watched some parts of the series in our house because every weekdays, she and her daughter is with us while her husband and son is at work. So I have seen some episodes and I already like the story without even watching the start. At first I thought it was dramatic series but as I watched it, it was funny and really thrilling. The title is Backstreet Rookie and I know that K-Drama lovers watched it already because it started last year. When I saw the lead actor, I already fell in love with him. He acts naturally and very good-looking guy. His face is not an ordinary Korean. The lead actress is a very cute young lady. Unlike his partner, you can see the beauty of a Korean from her small face. She is very simple but pretty even with her simple make-up. Their love team was very natural. The man is older than the woman but they have a good connection even from the start. **The Story** Dae-Hyun is the name of the actor in jr series. He owns a franchise convenience store where he and his family take turns in managing. His parents wanted him to hire a part-timer at night because most of the time, his parents have other things to do. If his parents cannot go to the store, Dae-Hyun will be there for even the whole day duty. They also have a bad sales record so they also find was how to increase it. Saet-Byul is the name of the actress in he series. She grew up with her younger sister by renting a house. Their father died because of accident while they were young. She grew up thinking by others that she was a bully because she always went into a fight whenever she saw someone being bullied by others. They thought sje always started a fight. They met several times by fate which is why Saet-Byul already got a crush on him since the first time he saw Dae-Hyun. Until she applied as a part-timer to Dae-Hyuns convenience store. When she entered the store, that was the time he was in a 36-hour shift so Dae-Hyun was so sleepy that time. He did not notice that he fell asleep while the girl was the one taking charge of the store. When he opened his eyes, he was surprised with many customers inside. It feels like she was a lucky charm in the store. But the guy was not convince to the girl at first. He doesn't trust her because he actually remembered Saet-Byul when they first met in a backstreet after being broken-hearted. He saw her with her classmates in uniform who were using cigarettes that time. It was a bad inpression that leave to him. So even there were lot of customers, he was not decided to hire her yet. He thought that the girl was not serious with working. Sje also thought that she maybe a thief. But when she was introduced the next day to his mother, her mom already liked her as part-timer. Despite the bad treatment of the guy to the part-timer, she was still very kind and nice to the owner. But Dae-Hyun has a girlfirend. They used to be working together in the company who managed Dae-Hyuns franchise store. But he resigned and planned to franchise the covenience store. Eversince Saet-Byul worked in the store, their sales went up because of her skills in selling. Aside from her beautiful face that attracts people, it was her admiration to Dae-Hyun that made her enjoy her job. She went into trouble not by her own intention but without others knowing, it was to defend the store from thieves and bad people. Dae-Hyun thought at first that Saet-Byul was a bully because she knows taekwondo which was taught by his father. She and her sister were trained well. But when Dae-Hyun found out that all those issues were not Saet-Byul's fault, he became concerned with her. One night, one of the groups that Saet-byul fought with took revenge from her while on duty. She was hitted hard on the head. She was sent to the hospital. Dae-Hyun was worried with him and made his girlfriend jealous on her. His girlfriend visited Saet-Byul and told her to quit her job in the store because she was always the reasom why they fight. Saet-Byul told Dae-Hyun that she will resign because she needs money for his sisters education which was not true. She didn't tell the truth. Unexpectedly, when Saet-byul went out the hospital, they were scammed by the agency where they paid for a yearly payment for their rental. They were forced to leave their house. They live to the sauna because they have no money at all. She has no work and no home at the same time. The only money left was her last salary from the store. She resigned but only Dae-Hyun knew it. His family thought that she will came back. They did not know that Saet-Byul lost their home. Her sister dreamed to be part of a famous girl group. She didn't know that the groups she joined before were bad influenced. She left her sister in the sauna without asking permission to her sister and got all the money her sister have. Saet-Byul was left alone and tried living with her friends house but she heard one of his father's friend who thought that she was a bad influenced to his daughter. She just leave the house and went back to the sauna. One day, Dae-Hyuns mother went to the sauna and there she saw Saet-Byul. Soon, she found out from a friend that Saet-Byul was only living at the sauna because she was scammed. The mother was worried and get her to live into their house Dae-Hyun found about it and tried helping her caught the scammer. But they failed. Until she came back to the store. Dae-Hyun's girlfriend broke up with him because of their incompatibilities. His girlfriend came from a very rich family and .Dae-Hyun was the opposite. His girlfriends mother hated him because they came from a poor family. Dae-Hyun realized and accepted that their not meant for each other. Since hen, he became closer to Saet-Byul until he courted her. He even help Saet-Byul in going back to school. She took the examination. They also went into dates.. Saet-Byul was very happy knowing rhat Dae-Hyun is now inlove with her. But she cannot decide yet because she is waiting for her school examination result. Until Dae-Hyun was offered by his ex-girlfriend to go back to his previous job as a manager with high salary. His franchise will be back to the company but he can get it back anytime he wanted to resign. So his parents told Dae-Hyun to accept it. Saet-Byul will still work there but with new manager. The manager was the one working in the office and was commanded by Dae-Hyun's ex-girlfriend to make her suffer. But Saet-Byul was brave enough to face it. Dae-Hyun accepted the job and still have time for Saet-Byul. But his parents did not know that their son is courting Saet-Byul. Rather, they wanted their son and their son's ex-girlfriend to be reunited. But Dae-Hyun insisted. His mother explained that he just wanted his son to have a better life unlike them. So Saet-Byul was hurt and she left the house and lived in the province where no one knew. Dae-Hyun tried to call her but she did not answer. He explained to his parents that Saet-Byul was hurt when she heard that they wanted Dae-Hyun to reunite with his ex-girlfriend. Saet-Byul worked in a flower farm. Until two of her closest friends who went there for a visit to a family member saw her in that same province. They called Dae-Hyun and he instantly went there. He went home already when he found out that Saet-Byul was okay there and he said that he will just wait for the girl to come back. Until Dae-Hyun resigned in the office and owned the convenience store again. He waited for Saet-Byul. Even Saet-Byul missed Dae-Hyun a lot, she just focused on her work. Until she received a text message that she passed on the school examination that she took. She went to the city to get the certificate because it was sent to Dae-Hyuns house. She talked to Dae-Hyuns parents about the result of her exam and he went to see Dae-Hyun in the convenience store. They were both happy and in-love seeing each other again and together working in the convenience store. My Final Say After watching the series, I felt in love again. A lot of emotions poured into this series. I also felt hurt when the parents of the one you love wants other women for him. I also felt "thrilled" everytime I see them together. They have big age gap but it doesn't matter when you are in love. What makes me also inlove was the soundtrack of the series. I may not know the meaning of the song because it was in Korean but I love the tone and the rythm. The movie was very light, realistic and any age can relate. You will feel inlove over and over again. Hope you all enjoy this arrticle of mine. Always feel in love!!

@Shyness 7 October 2021

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@Shyness 7 October 2021

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@Shyness 6 October 2021

My Last Few Months With The Company I Worked With For Almost 8 Years I still remember the day I applied to the company where I am now. I will not mention the name of the company for privacy. This is the second account I worked with "THEM" because the first one only lasted for less than 3 months. But with the current account, I am now 8 years and 6 months to be exact. This is the longest years I've been in a company. Before, I am happy that I can stay for a year or 2 with my previous jobs. As long as I am a regular employee and compensated, I am happy with that. Now, I can't also believe that I am still here. I am turning 9 years with them by next year of March. ***But the big question is, "Will I still be with my company by the year 2022?*** ***Why am I saying if I will still be working with my company by next year?*** 2020 was a year full of questions and assumptions for the conpany. There were rumors that spread out that our account which is US-based will no longer recontract with our company. We were all confused if it was true or not because it was our work who will suffer. Though it was only rumors, we were all afraid because it is hard to lose a job. But behind those speculations was a different side of what happened in the office. We had meetings to improve our specific work. We were divided into groups depending on the categories we are handling at work. We presented a flowchart of the process that we do and explained it. Our operations manager asked us based on the fkowcharts we made. After a few days, one of the heads of the company visited us and asked us almost the same with what our operations manager did. We were all nervous as we presented our workflow. There were questions from the head officer and that made us more nervous because some questions were hard to explain. With such activites that happened, it seemed to us that there will be improvements with the process so we assumed that the issue might not be true. Maybe our US account recontracted. So even without any clarifications, we disregarded the rumors and continued with our work. ***The Pandemic*** Then there was the pandemic. Everyone got affected because of the COVID-19. Many companies closed, there were unenployment and many lives were taken by the deadly virus. Most of the companies implemented work from home especially in BPO or Business Processing Outsourcing Companies. We were fortunate to work from home. Our work was continuous. August 2020 when umexpected thing happened. There were few employees who were redundiated including my team leader. It means their contract was ended on that same day but with separation pay from the company depending on the total years of service. We knew that our account did not signed for another year contract. We were just waiting when will be our turn. It usually happened Friday and you will receive a meeting invite from your email coming from Operations Manager. That means it is your time to say goodbye and it usually happened at the end of the shift. Few months passed and nothing followed. It's as if nothing happened. More work came for us because it was the peak season. Until the end of December, few employees were redundiated again. January and another followed. Then it was February, and another few employees followed and most of them were my friends and from my same batch. I felt sad because I thought I will be included. Meaning I will be paid for my 8 years of service. But later on, I felt happy because I still have work. It's hard to look for a job nowadays. Only 2 teams left in our account and suddenly, one team leader and 2 or 3 employees were redundiated too. We were now only 1 team. Then by May, our team leader was gone too. So he was replaced by our supervisor who served as the team leader too. We are now 13 left in the account. ***My Coaching With Our Operations Manager*** We all received an invite from our manager that we will have a one-on-one interview. This happened last week. The reason why she held that meeting was to basically know our conditions and if we have any questions to her. When it was my turn, it turned out to be a light conversation like talking to a friend on the phone. I asked her until when will I stay with the company. ***She said that she was uncertain but she told me that I might be staying until December 2020. Some of us might stay until March 2021 but these were all not sure. But what she said was that our account was only until March of next year.*** Before, I really want to be part of those who were redundiated. I want to be free from the company. I want to work in a new company, in a new environment with much better salary. But when the pandemic striked and we were just working from home, I realized a lot. It was hard to find a job. Most of the companies suffered bankruptcy due to pandemic. Many businesses shut down. They cannot afford to continue because there was no income. There was lockdown in every places. There is virus everywhere. We don't know who were affected outside so a lot of protection is required for ourself and for our family. My mother passed away due to COVID-19. My whole family, relatives and even neighbors and friends were affected of he loss. My mother together wih my father were taking care of my son when I was working on-site. It will be hard for my father to take care of my son alone. *What Wil Happen Next?* After the conversation with my manager, I was a bit down. I was greatly affected because I don't know until when I will be working with my company. Where will I apply next? A lot of questions were entering in my mind after. I cannot stop working because my family depends on me and my brother. We both pay for the family's expenses and foods. I don't have any savings in the bank. I have my child to support. Those 8 years were memorable. It was challenging but I enjoyed the memories. So I said to myself that as long as I am here, I need to work hard. I need to prove my worth as a tenured and trustworthy employee. I may have lots of rants with them but as long as I am here, I need to follow their rules. 3 months or 6 months, I am not sure how long will I still stay in this company. But one things for sure, I know God has a plan for me. There are still many things that will happen as long as I am working here. We still have work especially October-December which are the months of peak season. We have a lot of work during this season. All I know is that I should work. I am thankful that I belong to the remaining 13 agents out of 100 employees or more before. People come and go as they say. if I will be leaving the company, I still need to look for a job because I need to keep going for my family especially my son. There were lots of memories I also wrote an article before "8 Years and Still Counting". https://read.cash/@Shyness/8-years-and-still-counting-e8441eca Hope you enjoy this article of mine. Have a nice day and thank you to **Yzza0625** for the sponsorship. https://read.cash/@Yzza0625

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@Shyness 1 October 2021

Thank you @Yzza0625 for the sponsorshjp. Thank you for always making me feel great with my articles.

@Shyness 1 October 2021

My Son Is Now A Student But I Am Not Sure If He Is Ready Classes in all levels started this September due to pandemic here in the Philippines. Before, it usually started June. But still, online classes is being implemented. Face to face is still prohibited due to ongoing cases of Corona virus or the COVID-19. Being a parent, we always want what would be best for our childrens future. We wanted to give them not even the best but a better education. Right now, students can only choose online or modular class. Online class wherein classes happened by means of computer, tablet or mobile phones. We can see our teachers and classmates online. Everything is done online. Modular class wherein studies is done by answering and studying in worksheets and will be submitted in a given time. Another set of modules or worksheets will be given once you have submitted the previous ones. My Son As A Student My son grew.up playing with gadgets at an early age. I admitted that I spoiled him. So when I told him that he will be going to school, he looked like he was not ready though he has no idea what school and studies is all about. Last year, I enrolled him in a daycare center here inside the village as nursery. It was very near to us but since there is pandemic, I just got the modules from the teacher and have it answered by my son. I expected that he will be excited upon seeing the modules or answering sheets that I brought. But instead, he ignored it. I told him that he will be studying but he said that he doesn't want to. I tried convincing him to answer the modules. He answered some and I noticed that he was good in tracing letters and numbers but in a limited time. He will only answer it if he wanted to. Even my nieces told him to do his activities but he still insisted. I cannot force him to study because he will just cry. I decided not to continue with the module. Maybe he was not ready yet. I told myself that I will just wait for him to reaced 5 years old to study. It seemed he is not ready yet. **Kindergarten** A neighbor asked me if I already enrolled my son. She enrolled his grandson to an elementary school who was just the same age with my son. So I asked for the instructions until I registered my son to the school. It was modular class that I chose so I will be getting the modules or activity sheets in the school and my son will answer it at home. It was also the same process when I tried to enroll him in nursery. I knew it will still be hard for him to answer it because he has no interest with it. The module that I got is good for 2 weeks. He needs to answer it for 2 weeks and I will come back to school for new sets of modules. I need to have a plan to make my son answered the module. I told him that I will buy him the foods he want if he answered it. My niece is more patient in teaching my child so she was the one who can guide my son. At first, everything was good. He used his pencil to trace the letters and numbers. But he doesn't know how to read and write yet while other kids at his age were already familiar with writing their names and singing the alphabet song. I knew that modular class is not effective to his studies. I prefer the face to face system but since it is not allowed and there is an increase with people infected with COVID-19 , it cannot be implemented. My partner was the other one who taught him in answering the modules. What he did is by teaching him first on how to handle the pencil while writing. His reason is that once our son became comfortable wih writing, everything else follows. He will then learn how to handle colors. I noticed that coloring was his weakness because he only stays in one position when coloring a certain item. My son is scared with his father so we knew that he is the one who can make my son study. Well, he answered some but still he told us that he was tired in answering so it was stopped. I am not sure when he can answer it again because his father only visited once a week. He is more patient than mine. I also noticed the difference of my sons action when playing and studying. When we forced him to study, he seemed lame and not in the mood always He looked sleepy when answering his modules and his mind is out of what he is doing. I always want to laugh when I saw him but I don't want to show it to him that I was laughing whenever he looked tired when studying. He might think that it's just ok. But when he is playing, you can see how happy and actiive he was. He is talkative and when playing gadgets, he will talk while playing. It seemed he was talking to his playmates using the mobile phone. He is easy to learn when it comes to games. His memory is also good. I will ask him something in the picture if he knows it. If he did not know it, I will give him the answer. The next day, I will ask him again with that same old pictures and he can remember it already. But with studying, it seemed he is not ready yet. But when can he be ready? But if he encountered face to face studies prior to online, it won't be difficult for him because I know for sure that he already knew how to write, read and count. He knew how to count from 1-10, he is good with identifying the colors but when it comes to writing, he is lazy to learn. I imagined if students can have face to face studies so that my son will enjoy it. He loves meeting and playing with friends. He will be active because there is live interaction between teacher and students. But I know that he might get scared with his teacher at first but if he is already comfortable with his teacher, I know he will enjoy his studies and he will learn a lot. I am also worried because time is wasted because of online and modular studies. I can say that there are also other students who have difficulty with online studies. But we need to be safe feom virus esoecially children so parents need to take a lot of effort.l to teach our kids. I am patient but because of daily chores at home and work and the fact that my son is not yet ready to study, I skipped teaching him. I will just ask my niece to teach my son for the meantime and my son is listening to him. I remember a friend who told me that I should not force my child to study. If he does not wamt to study, I should let him be. But how will he learn reading and writing if I will just let him play? I want my kids to learn a lot from school. Not just in academics but also wih other curricular sctivities like joining a club which will develop his camaraderie and talents as well. My son is good in dancing and I wamt him to excel in what he does but studies should be his priority. Hope you enjoy reading my article for today Happy reading!!

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@Shyness 23 September 2021

The Role of Mobile Phones In Our Family Our family time or bonding time at home is an essential part of building a good family relationship. We should spent it wisely for us to make our day useful. At home, I cam say that most of us have no work during Saturdays and Sundays. I spent the weekends with my whole family including my nieces and nephews by playing, watching movies and eating as a routine. Weekends are reunion days for us eversince my mom passed away. It is our way of keeping ourselves away from loneliness. So the more, the better. The more, the louder we are. After my nieces and nephews have taken their breakfast at their houses, they will go to our house and spent their time with us. Their houses are only near to us. Our bonding time is watching tv. We watched K-pop shows, concerts amd videos which was only watched by my niece before. But since all of us enjoyed their music, we began watching it, too. My younger brother was surprisingly addicted to K-pop girl group "Twice" which I never imagined. We also watched movies from Netflix. I noticed that we all have that bonding whenever we watched together. We laughed and talked about the movie together. It is an effective way to strengthen the family. ***The Loss of Communication in the Family*** But after an hour watching movie, the kids and teenagers will focus and play more with their mobile phones. They played together as a team or sometimes they will play individually. I noticed that once we are using our own phones when browsing the internet or by using Facebook or YouTube, we seemed separated from one another. It seemed there is a wall to each of us. Unlike before, weekends are considered family day. The day to go out on a date with family. But when the pandemic strikes, it is better to stay home. But instead of family bonding, each member is busy using their own phones. The other is busy with Facebook while others are using Youtube. Some are busy with playing games. Some rather stay in their own rooms using phones. Or if they will all be staying in the living room, it seemed like they don't know each other because they have their own stuffs to do. Before, the family eats together but because of their phones, some skipped meals. The spirit of being family at home is no longer present. They are physically home but emotionally they are separated. ***Almost everyone of us has gadgets. It is considered one of the basic needs of people. It is useful to communicate with people we cannot keep in touch with personally. Technologies are fast-pacing. We can now talked to our relatives abroad by phone or video calls anytime we are available.*** **Old Means of Communication** Unlike before, we can only keep in touch with our loved ones through snail mail or voice tape recording. I am familiar with it because my father used to work abroad for almost a long time. He worked mostly in Middle East countries like Iraq, Saudi Arabia, Kuwait and also in other parts like Cuba. I akso remembered when we were still using the vintage type of landline where you will insert 3 piece of 25 centavos to the phone to dial a number and make calls. It was being installed in a sari-sari store when I was in elementary. My father started working in other countries since 1980's. My mothers communixation with my father is by snail mail only which my father will receive only after 2 weeks of sending it and vice versa. So there is a big chance that whatever we wrote in the letter have changed in that period of waiting. We also sent voice recordings. My father can call us through landline only but seldom. This means that there was a very little means of communication before. ***Advantages of Mobile Phones*** Unlike now, there is a big difference. There are also benefits of using mobile phones. We can easily talk to our loved ones even in the farthest places of the world. It seemed that our loved ones is just near us because of the modern texhnology. If we have internet or data, we can chat or talk to our loved ones abroad or far away by using our mobile phones. By the use of our mobile phones, everything is possible. We can still study even we are studying home through online classes. It is very useful in studies We can do research and we can have online study or meeting just by using it. We can do online shoppings and online payments by using our mobile phones. We can buy foods through delivery without the hassle of going outside. We can pay our monthly bills amd process tramsactions easily. ***My Final Say*** Everyday and everything changes. Like what they say, change is the only permanent in the world. Mobile phones are everywhere. We use it in our daily lives either in good or bad reasons. But when we are inside our house or with our family, let us try not to use it but rather spent our time with our family. Have a nice day and happy reading!!

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@Shyness 20 September 2021

Thabk you @ZehraSky for the upvote!!

@Shyness 20 September 2021

Thabk you @ZehraSky for the upvote!!

@Shyness 20 September 2021

My First Time To Experience Ilocos Wave back February 2015, I went to Ilocos Sur and Del Norte with my colleagues. I don't have a kid yet so I can still travel that time. I am not actually part of the trip but someone backed out and I was the replacement. It was expensive at first that is why I did not joined but since someone did not go, I paid only half the price. I always mentioned in my few articles about travel that I am not into travelling. But since my closest person at work were going to the trip, I can be easily convinced to come as long as the price I will be paying is right to my budget. The Planning During working hours, that is the time they made plans for their trip. They do some research on the places they will be visiting there, foods to eat, where to stay and what to expect once they are in Ilocos. I want to come because it was not a long trip. Only 2 days and 3 nights. But when I heard how much to pay, I knew I cannot join. I already heard rumors that 1 of them might back out. They told me that I should come with them. But since it was not sure, I do not made any plans, too. Then suddenly, 2 days before the trip, it was confirmed that one of them backed out. So I will be joining them and I just borrowed money for the trip. It was unexpected but I will just try. I haven't been into travelling so I will just enjoy and explore. **The Travel** We all file for vacation leave and it was approved since it was not peak season at work. Our meeting place was at the mall near our work. We travelled at night for us to go there early in the morning. The van was big and comfortable. It was an 8 hour travel including traffic. I don't usually sleep when travelling. Most of my colleagues were slept but I was just looking at the window even that dark night. I remember there was this part where it looks creepy because of the trees and no lights in the area. Until we reach Ilocos Norte. **Calle Crisologo** I cannot recall the places we went first but I can say that those places were breath taking and really amazing to look at. All I remember was that we went to **Calle Crisologo** in Vigan City. All I can say was that it was a very historical place The houses were old and it's good to take pictures at night because of it's old style houses. But in the morning, it looks like a normal street selling goods and products made from Ilocos. When we reach there early in the morning, we ate at one of the cheap restaurants there. I have my packed food for me to save. They all ordered foods while I just ate what I have. After that, we started our day by travelling. **Paoay Church** We also went to Paoay Church. A very old church but still looks strong. It is very big and many visitors can pray. Seeing the beautiful places like this are treasured places in the Philippines. These are our photos in front of the church. It was too hot when this picture was taken. **Kapurpurawan Rock Formation** I am amazed by this view. You can see the large formation of rocks in different sizes. The structure behind me was an amzing structure. Behind the rock formation is the beautiful sea. We took pictures as many as we can because we don't know when we can come back to this beautiful place like this again. It is always amazing to look at with beautiful waves. **Sand Dunes** This is one of the best places I experienced there. We arrived early in the afternoon so it was hot. This is like a desert with beautiful sands. We took a slide in the sand and it was a surprise for me to try because it was too deep if you will be looking from the top. We all tried it in the heat of the sun and it was an amazing feeling. We slide using a board like a surfing board and it depends on how you will slide. Either seated or lied down. It was sandy but it was fun for all of us. The more lighter your body is, the farther you will get once you slide down. We also rode the 4x4. We were divided into 2 cars and there we experienced the fast ride in a sand. Going up and down in the soft fine sand. I remember the non-stop shouting from all of us and at the same time laughter. You need to held tight from any parts of the car before it started because the ride was too fast to feel the excitement. Even it was hot, we still need to wear jackets to protect our skin from the sun's rays. **Baluarte** We also went to Baluarte to experience the different animals in that area. This is a park or zoo owned by politician Mr. Chavit Singson where the collection of animals were there. **Swimming in the Sea** We stayed in a hotel near the sea where we swam. I cannot recall the name of the sea but it was bery cold when we swim. i just swin for a few minutes because I cannot last the cold weather. I noticed that only few were swimming that time. It was already afternoon but it looks sad with few people. Some of my colleagues were still swimming but I prefer sitting with my colleague after swimming and just looking at the view. **Eating Empanada** We also experienced the famous empanada in Ilocos. It costs P50.00 during that time. It was cooked while we were waiting. With egs, longganisa and meat and vegetables. We were all full after eating it and I did not finish eating it because the food was really heavy in stomach but delicious and tasty. No wonder why visitors were very proud about empanada of Ilocos. **My Final Say** We have visited a lot of places in Ilocos. I can say that everything there was first for me. To eat the famous empanada fresh from Ilcoos, rode in 4x4 in Sand Dunes. slide in the sand, visited **Bangui Windmill**, visited former President Marcos old house and a lot of beautiful places that we Filipinos can be proud of. What is best in travelling is that you also learn the history of places we are going. Aside from enjoying, we also learn. Hope you enjoy todays article of mine. Happy reading and have a nice day!!

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@Shyness 16 September 2021

Hope you can help me guys? Coins.ph is asking for the "source exchange" or where the fund of the platform is coming from when I am sending my money. I encountered it for the first time. Thank you in advance

@Shyness 15 September 2021

Thank you @Itsfarah for the upvote..

@Shyness 15 September 2021

Thank you @Itsfarah for the upvote..

@Shyness 15 September 2021

Thank you very much @ZehraSky for the upvote.