Burning it down!
Date: January 13,2022
Author: SequoiaTurning your back away from the things that you used to do, say and think is as hard as breaking up with the person you value the most. Truth be told, it isn't easy and will never be. It'll be a constant battle that you have to overcome from day to day until yourself will finally masterize the new process, behavior and mindset that you've been dying to acquire.
As imperfect as we are, growing up brought a massive changes in our perspective in life as well. Maturity takes place, and the desire of growth as a whole, became our ultimate goal. I am certain that each of us have been wanting to remove some traits, behavior, personality, actions and mindsets in our lives. Things that might hinder us from growing and becoming the person that we are supposed to be.
And as for today's article, I'll be sharing to you all the undesirable personality that I wanted to get rid of. But before anything else, I would like to give credit to my kambal @Athaliah for giving me this idea through her article which is this one. https://read.cash/@Athaliah/the-two-undesirable-personalities-i-wanted-to-eliminate-74c29974
So, let's waste no more time and land directly to the main course of this write-up.
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Aside from athaliah's article, this post from instagram also pushed me to come up with this topic. As you guys have known, I am currently struggling with my writing journey as of now. Writer's block and floating and lagged mind keep on visiting me from now and then.
As you can see in the photo, it encourages us to burn the things that's been hurting us. However, in my case, I'll be listing down the undesirable personalities that I wanted to get rid of and burn it in my mind.
So, here we go!
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My not-so-good-personalities
Over Sensitive
I am well aware that each of us have our own level of sensitivity. But there are moments that I just don't like my sensitivity level. These past few months, I am becoming more sensitive than before. I would feel bad over lil and silly things. A joke would offend me at some point. But it doesn't happen all the time.
Give up easily
I am totally not a quitter back then. Yes, I would complain and rant but that doesn't mean I am giving up. No matter how hard a specific task is, I always make sure to do and finish it. Hurdles won't even bother me. I missed that tough and persistent me. Now, I would just stop doing the things that I find arduous without even trying a lil bit more.
Judges quickly
As much as I don't want to admit this, but I know in my heart that this is the only way for me to remove this attitude. Of course, you can't change the things that you don't recognize, don't you? I know that it isn't right, but can you blame me? I am just human. Well, that's not avvalid reason for this unpleasant behavior. I'll fully accept any judgment from you all with this one.
Comparing myself to others
No matter how many times I remind myself to never compare me to anyone else. I just can't help it. I mean, I feel left behind and unproductive. I am turning 22 this year but yet, I haven't prove anything. But wait, should I really need to prove myself to anyone? I don't know anymore.
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Conclusion
No one's perfect. We all have our flaws and undesirable traits. That's okay and totally normal. However, choosing to remove or atleast minimize those unpleasant things is our decision already. And today, I choose to grow and be a better person. I am burning everything that's stopping me from becoming the best versiom of my self.
Basta gawin mo lang best mo sis, at iwasan mo talaga e compare sarili mo sa iba kasi lahat naman tayo may kanya kanyang karunungan yung may makikita kang mas sa tingin mo lamang sayo gawin mong motivation ang tao na yun in that way mas ma improve mo ang sarili mo.