@SenseiZero 7 June 2021 edited

My Love Life Continues here...

So let's continue what I said in the last article. Let me question you for this time. What is the meaning of love for you? What love do you expect to feel? Do you want your girlfriend or boyfriend will be your husband and wife in the future? For me **YES,** I want it because we choose to be their lovers in the first place. The important is we don't want to get hurt again and experience the painful heartbreak that we felt before. **Talking To God**

After what happened I went to the church and still crying. It's weekdays and no mass so that I sit for a while and pray because when I have a problem I always do that and make myself calm while talking to God. I always said to him what happened and keep blaming my self. But lately, myself-calm and I want a religious, good girlfriend and she will also love me. **Going Back to Normal** It's been 2 years since that happened and I am feeling okay back to normal. Does boys are too long to recover from the pain? For me, I think YES and we are waiting for the chance that will come back but it's not going to happen. It is true that **Time will always heal.** I am working after I graduated I keep myself busy and I will forget the past little by little. I can't remember what happened but for me, I will stand up and reach the goal in my life. **The Girl I Met** I have a best friend a girl who was my classmate in the first year of college. She is smart and belongs to a poor family. I belong to a poor family too and I understand her situation. We notice each other in the quizzes, tests, and final grades. We are enemies when it comes to grades because she wants to be a top student, I also want that because having a high score or grade is the thing I want to give my family and makes them happy. Lately, this competition will make an end and when we are being grouped in an activity haha I don't know why but love makes a move to give a chance to know each other. We are having fun, we two have always been together in the library to study and supporting each other to get a high grade. After we finished the first year in college and on my second year the first day of class I noticed that she was not around I think she is late. So many days come I don't know why but she is not here, I haven't had her cellphone number and her Facebook is not always active. When Two years my ex-girlfriend broke up with me I find my best friend on social media sites and make contact with her. I want to greet and make some chat hopefully she replied and we talk about our time in the first-year college experience. I said to her in the last chat that I had a crush on her hehe she doesn't shock because she knows it a long time ago haha I am thinking if I will date her. **I am thinking if this is my prayer to God that gave me a girlfriend that will love me too?** Haha, I think it is because it gives me clue that she will love me. I chat with her always and do the **pickup lines or ninja moves** haha So I am in love then my mind is working on this time.

The chats and my ninja moves are worked and she answered me Yes! What a day. I think it works so fine because we barely see each other and we can make chats on messenger only. She stopped in the 2nd year because of poverty and she applies for a babysitter. The contract of its work is they make her school in the college, free foods and shelter and also take care of their child because both of the parents of the child are teachers that are busy in work. That is great she can finish her studies, when we met she came back to college and started her 2nd year. When a coincidence I met my ex-girlfriend when she was in her 2nd year now it's the same situation but I keep ignoring it. **One Day it Changed** When I fetch her in the school we always hang out with her girl best friends in the baywalk we eat some siomai, takoyaki, and street foods. When I open the 1 liter of Coca Cola she stands up and said that bad trip and walk out. All of her friends were shocked at what happened and also I think what is wrong open the bottle of Coca Cola. So I excuse them and follow her I said what's wrong she keeps saying she is on a bad trip and her head hurts so she wants to go home. Then I want to accompany her on the tricycle but she said she can handle it and I follow her command because she is in a bad mood. When I am working in the office she texted me that she has an important message for me I am excited about what it is I smiled while replying to her. Do you know what she texted me? **I want to end this.** At first, I don't get it but after 2 minutes I know what is the meaning of this. I am asking why? Her reason is: **✅I don't want to expect too much from you because you have work and I am only a student.** **✅I want to finish my studies.** **✅My family is poor. I am not suitable for you.** I answered all of her reasons but she keeps always repeat her question. I cried when I texted her. I know there is a reason so I asked one of her best friend's and she said the whole story. That day on the baywalk when I open the Coca Cola there is her one boyfriend too. Her other boyfriend is on the school campus. Many friends of hers saw what happening in the school and they keep texting me because they feel sorry for me for what their best friend have done to me. She chooses the other guy because he has a motorcycle. My mind is blowing that because of the motorcycle? Is she is a materialistic person? I am so angry because of that. I talked to her once and keep telling them that you broke up because you have a boyfriend on campus with a motorcycle? She keeps on deny she always lies. She pushes me back and doesn't want to see me again. So I go home and still crying like a baby. When we don't see each other after that event and I stalk her Facebook it's confirmed that they are to are in together. I make this article short because I don't want to remember all the pasts. **Lesson Learned**

**Life is beautiful, treasure it always and give it to your family and friends. Never hurry if you want to have a girlfriend or boyfriend. When are tested and each broke up we learned new things as charged as our experience. True love waits and it will arrive in a perfect place and a perfect time.** It hurts when someone while broke in the relationships I feel you all. Don't be negative of what happens because in every sadness there is joy will come. ( Sakit talaga lods any hirap naman pag ganito ) **Also read some of my articles:** https://read.cash/@SenseiZero/my-love-life-is-starting-here-6362d663 https://read.cash/@SenseiZero/10-articles-that-i-made-so-far-2f204853 https://read.cash/@SenseiZero/encountered-many-obstacles-in-my-college-days-63464301 https://read.cash/@SenseiZero/when-the-day-i-have-my-own-motorcycle-d3e4d4d6 https://read.cash/@SenseiZero/what-an-expected-experience-of-applying-an-office-staff-5edf4a9a @SenseiZero