#25 My Biggest Fears

Are you afraid of talking about your biggest fears in life? If I am going to answer that then I would say "Yes" but I think it's about time to talk about it. Each of us has our own fears and somehow we don't know how to overcome those. We often tried to avoid it and never want to deal with it. For most of us it could be a nightmare to face our fears in life. We see it as negative side of our life.

Even the strongest and powerful person on earth has their own fears too. That is normal as we are all human being. Actually even animals do have some fears also. So no one is exempted in having fears. Don't be ashamed about it instead have some confidence and courage to share it with anybody so that they could help you to overcome it. Well it doesn't have to take it out of your mind but to just let yourself at least try to handle it with the help of others. Imagine that what you fear the most may be the best thing for you after.

Today I want to tell you my biggest fears in life. I will also tell you some reasons why I am afraid of those things. Even though I am afraid of something I still decided to try doing it because I want to experience it and want to learn how I am going to overcome those fears. But somehow I failed to do it as my fear grows stronger than I thought it could be.

I am afraid of Darkness

When I am in the dark I always feel unsafe and I think something strange is going to happen. Maybe beacuse I watched it in some horror movies that there are monsters or ghosts that may eventually appear in the darkness. It is so weird but yeah honestly those are the reasons why I am afraid of the darkness. When I am alone in the dark I feel that someone is staring at me or someone is behind me. It feels like I was in a horror movie.

That is why I don't watch a horror movie as much as possible especially at night time. I don't want to have a bad dream about that. To be alone in a room that is totally dark is what keeps me awake. I can't sleep without even a smaller portion of light. I know that ghost and monster are not real creatures and just fictional only but I don't know why I am still afraid of those. Maybe because when I was a child some people are using it to scared me. That is not funny as I bear it until now.

I am afraid of Heights

I am not much an adventurous person that is why I am not capable to go in higher places. But I tried to go up in some higher places but my knees are shaking though. I am afraid in walking into the hanging bridge, as it is very shakey when I walk through in it and I can see the view below I am so scared of it. When I go up in a bulding and when I took a view from above I feel like I am going to drop. Although the view was spectacular I still can't handle my fear of staring the view from above.

This is also the reason why I did not try most of the rides in theme park as I am so afraid of the heights. But I did try to ride the ferris wheel in Mall of Asia. It was safe as it is closed but as it started to climb up and starts shaking then I see the view below I can't help myslef from worrying until I get out of that.

Until now I do not know how I could overcome my fear with heights. I feel I am going to fall whenever I am up high. Even when I am watching videos where some people do try to go up in higher places I still feel the intensity of their activities. It really takes a strong will in doing it.

I am afraid of Sea

I do love swimming but only in shallow part area. It feels like there was always a shark or killer whale that is waiting to attack if I were in the sea. I did experienced to ride in a boat and it was a great experience. One thing that I don't know how to do is to swim. Maybe it is because I am afraid of bigger creatures that can be found in the sea like octopus and giant squid. I know some of those creatures are harmless like the whale-shark or Butanding.

Sea is a territory of other creatures and at the very depth there are living creatures that may harm us. I am afraid of the sea because it is so wide and I don't know what else I could see below the surface. I know there is also a beauty in the depth but the problem is I don't know how to swim that is why I will not be able to explore it.

I am afraid of Wild Animals

Obviously we can't control the act of those wild animals and I don't know what to do if I will see a snake, lion, tiger, fox, crocodile and many more up close. In the zoo yeah it was safe to go there but when you are in the jungle or in a place where you could see them closer I am sure you were in trouble. They could do everythinh they want and their aggresiveness is so powerful.

Wild animals are territorial and they don't want to be disturb by anyone. They want to protect themselves and they will attack surprisingly. When they feel hungry all they want is food and I don't want to be their food. That is why I am scared going in a jungle because I probably know there is a higher chance I could meet those wild animals. If I did then I have to run as fast as I could.

Those are just some of my fears and there are lot more to tell but I picked only those that are my biggest fears. I am still learning how I am going to overcome those fears but it would gonna take time for me to teach myself how to face all those fears without being so scared or at least I know how to calm down myself. We don't need also to push ourself to face those fears as it would then create a trauma for us. The important thing is we are aware of what we feared the most.

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