I don't remember when I started having sinusitis but I had it since I was a child. At first, what I know is just colds. It's normal because I'm still a kid. But growing up, and moving forward, I realized that it's not normal anymore. Then that's the time I knew I had a problem with my nose which is called sinusitis. I easily catch a cold during winter. I breath thru my mouth. But sometimes I use my nose especially when I'm in public because I'm ashamed of having my mouth opened and my throat becomes dry.
It was in highschool when I heard my sister saying that I snored. I shrugged and kept quiet. I snore maybe because of being fat and having sinusitis. Then one morning after waking up, my sister said that my snore was very loud that it could be heard in the other room. I told her I was sorry because I didn't know. I didn't do it intentionally. Sometimes I snore loudly, sometimes I don't. They suggested to lie down on my side not my back. "You snore because you're so fat!"
I was relieved when my siblings went to college and was left alone at home. But of course I'm with my parents. I occupied the 2nd and 3rd floor of our house. I slept where I wanted. I found freedom because nobody will be disturbed with my snore. My parents' bedroom was in first floor so they can't hear me snore. But then I finished highschool and followed them to the city.
There was this time in college when I was in the clinic of our school. I went there to get my temperature checked and the school nurse asked me if I have colds. I told her that I don't have it. "This is normal to me as I have sinusitis", I told her. She was about to hit my shoulder but did not do it. She said, "What? That's what you call normal? Don't be ridiculous." And I just laughed. She then told me to consult a doctor for proper consultation and remedy.
I consulted a doctor and he prescribed a medicine. He told me what to do. He also told me to go to a specialist and undergo an operation if there will be no effect. He gave me a recommendation letter to a specialist. I used the prescribed medicine for a month until no more. No effect at all. After that, I went to see the specialist but he was not there. And I never came back.
I also tried accupuncture. It really helped in unclogging my nose. But because it's expensive, I tried it only three times. There was this thing also that I tried which has herbal medicine to drink after they apply it but I forgot what it's called. It looked like a ballpen but it's not. The shape looks like a ballpen but no ink. It's not light, there's weight on it. It also helped but I did not continue also because the person administering it lived to a place away from our place. I tried everything they told me except operation.
Sometimes when I talk to someone, they ask me if I'm having colds but I say no. "Why do you breath loudly? It seems that you're so tired. Use your nose not your mouth." Yeah, I want that too but what can I do? I hardly breath if I use my nose.
I snore when I sleep. That's the problem of people when they're with me."I can't sleep at night because of your loud snore. Can you do something about it? It's very annoying!" It hurts but I can't do something about it. Some people are sensitive. With a soft noise, they can be awaken. It seems that their ears are always on guard. Those are the people I want to avoid as much as possible because of my situation.
I always try not to snore but I can't. It's not that I do it intentionally. I'm sorry. I always feel guilty. Some also say that my snore makes the house shake. They always wake me up if they can't tolerate it. Some of my friends and relatives recorded the sound of my snore and they told me to hear it. I kept quiet because of I was ashamed. "It's loud, I'm sorry for the disturbance."
That's one reason why I sleep late at night. I want them to sleep first before I sleep also. Until it became a habit and sometimes I hardly fall asleep at night. Maybe that's one of the reason why my eyes became weak because of facing the gadgets. I prefer to sleep alone because I don't want to disturb anybody. I wish that I occupy the room alone especially when we're having outing. I don't want to be a burden just because of my snore. I rather hear them snore.
I got married and I forgot about my snore. Then one time, my husband told me that I snore. "Sorry, I forgot to tell you about it." I let him sleep first before I sleep also because I don't want to disturb him and I want him to rest to replinish his energy. At first, he complained about it but as the days, months and year passed by, he was accustomed to it. I seldom hear him complain.
I hope that I can overcome it. I'm afraid of having operation because it's not 100% sure that it will be removed. Hearing from people with experience in sinusitis might help.
