Employment

Here we go again, hoping for something. Praying that my wishes will be granted. I hope for the better. Everyday is a challenge. A new start and a new beginning.

I've been a housewife for almost 2 years now. Taking face to face tutorials at home as a part time job. Everyday I ask myself, "When will you be employed? When will you start to save money? When will you apply what you've finished? You're just wasting your time!"

I finished my studies a few years back but not yet employed. I experienced being a cashier while waiting for the result of our board exam. After passing, I did part time jobs as a Tutor, face to face and online teaching. Why not continue to online teaching? Well, internet is the problem. We don't have it at home. What am I doing now? At home, doing household chores. Why not try to apply to other jobs?

I tried passing my application sa ibang agencies not related to my course. Sabi ko, wala naman sigurong mawawala kung itatry ko. Unfortunately, I was not accepted. I tried it again pero hindi talaga. My friends told me to go back to our hometown so that we will all apply in school. Sabi ko sa kanila na, next time na lang kung hindi talaga ako makukuha. Sabi nila, "apply muna tayo sa munisipyo while waiting sa application sa school." But due to this pandemic, I was not able to go home. Lumilipas ang araw, nasasayang na rin.

Then I realized that why not continue on what I finished. But then, it's late. Tapos na ang pagpapasa ng folder. Na late na yung mga hinanda kong requirements. They said, pass your application again next year. "What did you do sa mga nakaraang taon na ito? We don't have applicants last year. Why did you not submit your folders earlier for you to be accomodated? Sinayang mo nanaman ang isang taon." Napa-isip ako, "Oo nga no. Sinayang ko ang pagkakataon. Sinayang ko ang opportunities. Then I came to realize that "nasa huli ang pagsisisi" is indeed true!

When I got home, I told my husband about it. Then he said, "I told you, you will regret it. But don't worry, time will come that you will be employed. Just wait for it. Don't lose hope. You can do it. I will always be here, rooting for you!" With that, I was encouraged. I told him that I will not disappoint him again.

I told myself that if opportunity comes around, I will definitely grab it. I hope that when next time comes, I will be able to be part of it. Sana ma-employ na ako.

Looking for a job is not easy as 1 2 3. Take it slow. Rejection is part of it. Everything has a reason. Let's just hope for a better. Don't give up. Maybe someone is there waiting for you to knock on their doors. But then again, let's try our best until we reach our goals. Don't lose hope! Maybe not now, not today, but tomorrow.