No! Leave me alone. I will not go. I'm not going. Mother ...

What happened Anupa? Anupa? Anu opened her eyes in shock at Binu's body. About Binu his cousin. There is a curious look on his face.

Ish, the girl is so sweet. The soft sun of winter has melted the curtain on the face of this two-storey hundred-year-old window grill of old Dhaka. Maya of the kingdom in his face, intense curiosity in his eyes like the crystal black lake. When Anu was mesmerized and looked at Binu with a fixed gaze like the heroine of Bengali cinema or like a hero, Binu said, what brother? Did you get scared again? Well, why are you so scared?

He raised a hi and went back to sleep. Even if you don't do the politeness of waiting to hear the answer, Anupar leaves. Why would he wait. Anupa doesn't know how to speak. As a child, Anupa fell down the stairs adjoining the two-and-a-half-storey store-room, and no one heard her speak again.

Exhale long breaths. He will never forget that day. The day aunty pushes her from behind ... no no ... she can't think anymore. The breath is coming off. What time is it today? 9 o'clock! Daddy ... it's been so long! Aunty had come so far and discussed all the ugly things that shook the sky and the abyss and did not explain to this Nawabzadi alias Anu as usual, where is her position in this house!

Hah, his position! Where to stay, where to stay. He knows everything. That's why every time I think about it, my chest trembles. That aunt is seen. He is seen smiling, Emma! I see breakfast in hand again. What do the big people say, and yes, the bed! Today, all of a sudden this maid-servant is entertained with the bed, she can't catch the point behind it. There is no date for his shoot today. And even if there is, aunty doesn't do that. What happened ... What happened ... Cash for the shoot? He also gave.

But this time his thoughts came to an end when he put his hand on his head. He said, "Anuma, get ready soon." The son of the landlord of the house next door is yellow today. You have to dance there. Whatever mother gets up, I understand your pain. But tell me what to do, if your uncle were alive today, then ... stay gay .. Yah, you get up.

At this point, Anu understood why her so fond reception was on her forehead today. He has to dance today! Otherwise, his aunt would never have turned his affection on his head. To touch him is to hate that society. Or he is forbidden in society. Society! Um ... who is the society? ... what society ... who defines this society! Who! This molecule wants to see him very much. I really want to know what this society really is the standard of morality and humanity!

What this society knows is the feeling of not being able to speak even if it has the ability to speak. Does this society know the feeling of acting silent year after year?

What will society be able to do as a boy or a girl, no, no ... to act as a girl Acting! Yes, he is a great actor. Aunty said that acting is the only source of her survival. That is why even though she has been a boy since her childhood, she has become a mature woman by absorbing the clothes of a girl and a woman.

The Creator has given her beauty with both hands. Today she is cursed by the glitter of that beauty. What the woman needed was a lot of coveted jewelry, in fact her weapon was to give her this beautiful face as a gift. This beautiful female face in the form of a man's body is a proof that even the object of intense desire is the key to a cursed life. Which is why today he is so delicious. The source of lust for many men.

Smiling? You can sit on the oiper and smile. However, only because of his beautiful face, repeatedly stuck in the greedy eyes of his aunt's younger brother, only Anu knows how he survived by hiding his body and hiding the unknown secrets of his body from under a roof.

Dafarfa would have happened one day if Tinku Mama's mother had not seen her next day, and she would not have saved her because she thought she would be born. Oops, what a thought. Leaving the bed, Anu sat in front of the mirror. What will be his age, 25. Yes it will. At this age, girls are busy looking in the mirror and admiring the glory of their appearance. How to make yourself more impeccably beautiful, so think.

Meanwhile, Anu looks in the mirror with her big thick black eye petals, sharp nose, thin chin, thin lips, soft pink cheeks and radiant cheeks in extreme depression. However, the brilliance of his form is such that sometimes he himself stops. Why does nature like so many mysteries, otherwise why should she have such a beautiful feminine face. Binu could also get this form.

No matter how much gossip he has to hear in the society. The color of the pressed skin, so memorable, the wedding flowers did not bloom because Mukhshree was not attached to her forehead. People are not less laughing about this. He knows very well that marriage is not for him. As soon as Barapaksha came to see him, he promised to take away the nucleus. Anura doesn't understand that Binu is also angry with Anupar. Not in the mouth, but in his gaze, this form, the juice, the elegance is the eye-sore of his love.

Love, boo boo and what again. This is a society-free conversation. But, at this time, Anu assures himself that he has a society again. Nah, Binu really loves the girl. From that childhood, well what does society know? The feeling of not being able to touch your own love from the same room, from the same room year after year! Not the feeling of being able to pull!

Nature forces us to awaken the intense attraction of men and women. But why is society keeping him here again? Don't keep it or why, by the way. Will this Binu ever accept him! Understand his love! Why he is, no one will understand. Binu, whom she has embraced as a sister for years, will be able to adapt to the male smell on her body! What will Binu do then? Anura plays electricity on the body just thinking. The look that had been staring at him in the mirror for so long vanished like camphor in an instant, turning his eyes away in extreme hatred, in the filth of inability.

Anupama, you have quite long hair. Babbah. There is no one in our family like that, Allah has really given you two hands. As pretty, so much hair. Tama's uncle had said so last month. I didn't say anything after hearing it, I forbade him to say it. In the midst of all this talk, the male voice of his thick and heavy throat was exposed to the world. You know, he had a lot of trouble as a child. Not to mention, her aunt helped her a lot. Aunty has burnt hundreds of sticks on her penis for the crime of talking to her face every time. It would have been better if he had died then.

But death is not so easy. Society does not accept suicide. Nature does not let him die. What will he do? Will you act? That's enough, he's doing it. However, Sholaana aunty is taking the remuneration. What are you thinking? You think that if you don't do it, this is acting. So? What do you think, this incomparable or incomparable did not try less in childhood! As much as it has benefited, it has been associated with physical torture as well as mental torture.

Aunty said, she will send Anu to her society naked. His society? Yes, yes, that is the society of transgender people. Half-man or half-man

How many people say so big. They came after Tinku became Mama's son. In order to save their stomachs, their terrible fame, that is, the dance of Kalbela, did not make them happy. Every night his society has come to take him in a dream, a society that is very dark. That is why he is still fighting with nature to survive in this civilized society. Dhuke Dhuke is ending, but not surrendering.

Thinking, she started touching her hair hanging down to her thighs. He, who he really is, incomparable or incomparable. Everyone at home calls him Anu. So it is not difficult to catch a lot. However, sometimes when there is no one around, the aunt calls him Anupam and explains his position, society and nature. That is not a problem. The problem is when someone outside calls her incomparable. Well, if nature knew how difficult it is to live as a boy and a girl, how could it be so cruel! Who knows, maybe society would have been a little more flexible then.

Nature believes in morality. All beautiful is a gift of nature. Nature is a worshiper of spirituality and mystery. At the same time purity. The law of nature is paramount in the society. That nature has hatched the worst conspiracy against him. What else can he blame the society. Why would this so-called realist society always accept the blackness of this nature, the cursed gift.

Anu is getting hair by sniffing, what has he done! Loves to play with hair, did he tie the rope with hair? It's over, let's finish the game today. The long hair that reached far below the waist did not hesitate to show his game this time. Everyone did wrong, but a lot of long black hair, but did not cheat.

In the afternoon, he came from the mosque to bathe Anu and bury him. This is the way of Islam. However, Anu has committed the haraam act of committing suicide by eating the head of this ritual. This janaza is just to show people. The suffering of the soul will not be reduced. While everyone, including the lord, was talking about all this, a woman from the next room said, "Oh, aunty, go to Deikhya, this is a good man!"

After so many years the truth was revealed. Nature began to get its head in front of the world in its blackness, its mystery, its inability. What has happened in it, the society will not accept it. As soon as this incident took place, all those who came from the mosque left, and the people in the vicinity also ran away one by one. Binu, meanwhile, was dying of disgust instead of tears. She has been with a boy for so long .... Aunty's younger brother is walking around the house feeling nauseous.

Aunty is locked in her room and wondering how the family will go now. How to earn income. And Anu, Anupam or Anupama, he is lying in the yard of one of their huge two-storey houses. There are two flies sitting on his beautiful eyes. Bilu is watching him from a distance, the dog next door whom he loved very much. Who knows, not watching. I have heard that there is a little bit of humanity in animals.

At half past two or three in the morning, all the sleep in the house. The area has become known. The cursed news spreads with the speed of light before the wind. Anura feels very hot. It was as if a rotten stench had come out of his body. There is no biluta. Part of his humanity is gone. He doesn't have a piece of cloth to wear today. Why is it so hot? Suddenly, a cold wind blew. The sound of the door opening loudly, who? Who came? A group of people. Man? Yes man. Imperfect man? Hijra? Impotent? What do I know? Tell them what they want, they have no objection. Today they did not come to Kalbela's naked dance performance. Didn't come in search of livelihood. Has come at the urging of humanity. Anu alias Anupama or Anupam should be given the last peace.