Intercourse in prayer

This sucks.

I kept remembering the time I really didn't want to pass. for the first time i made you cry.

painful indeed. Of course all separation is not an easy matter. but this thing happens, baby!

I told you to leave. but on the other hand, there is me who wants you to walk through the ages with your smile adorning my time every day.

Chaos!! I want to explode! actually, at the very beginning before we all started. guess what I'm sure is ahead of what happened that day.

when you have to go to the glory of your ideals, alone. without me participating in the reins of hope that you bring. but we are selfish, who think that time will open one by one bridge of opportunity.

In fact, the future can't just be with our hands clapping. then all problems will go away. not that easy.

You are the shoulder of everything your parents hope for. that's the way to obey. not with my eyes closed when I kiss your face. or the laughter you get when you lie to them to get to my house. no! that's not what your father expects from you who are his only children. happy we can't be in a way that makes you disobedient.

Excuse me. I'm sorry, because in just two days this ego can't hold back the longing that swells in the head. but i'm fine. because I think, we have only lost the body that hugs each other, not the soul that is still embracing each other warmly in prayer.

Do you see a lot of ambiguous words in my writing? if yes. excuse me! maybe because when word for word I try to sentence it here. For some reason my vision suddenly blurred. It's like something is blocking my eyes from writing.

But don't worry, it's just tears. LoL