Dear new me,
I know you've changed alot. You don't like to socialize anymore. You hate people. Wanting to run to a place where nobody knows you. No excitement, even when it's your birthday. I still remember the day, 16 Dec, 2014, when people told you how unlucky you were to have your birthday on such a day.
When they joked about you being a mistake, not realising you actually feel like one. Damn, all those nightmares you were too scared of, they don't scare you anymore, do they? Remember how you used to be scared of darkness? Now you prefer staying in your room with lights off. That excitement when you achieved something, wait you don't even remember you achieved somthing or do you? Losing friends and loved ones don't make you sad anymore. Your idea of "living alone in a world I created" has driven you insane. Over-sensitive and a hysteric, people made you like that. It's not your fault. But I'm sorry I didn't realize what you'd turn into or else I would've helped you in some way.
You saw them burying you, while you were still alive. Your thought of "happy me" changed. Away from the reality, you forced yourself in fantasies. You realised why people become rude and now they address you as one of them. But atleast you learnt something in these years. Happy 16th to you.
From,
Your old self.
