My world

Heaven is where I wish to be,
But hell is where I remain.
Peace is what I seek,
But war infects my world.
Light is what I wish to see,
But darkness trapped me in the blindness of the night.
Joy is what I wish to experience,
But toil is what I endure.
Love is what I wish to feel,
But lust had my eyes fooled.
Freedom is what I dream of,
But addiction has me locked down.
Equality is what I hope for,
But men discriminate me from every angle.
Perfection is what I aim for,
But my vices retain my potential.
Maybe one day my wishes will become my reality,
But until then this inferno remains my world.