What leads you in life?

Is it money, purpose, a goal, a person, or a situation? What leads you?

I remember a friend whom I’ve met virtually. On the surface, he seems to be a serious and purpose-driven person. I chatted with him for longer than expected. For me, there was no strings attached and that I just enjoy his responses since he is an excellent blogger. Time came when I was able to notice that he is the total opposite of what I have expected him to be.

To say the least, he isn’t as pure as I perceived him to be. What he released as his posts on facebook were motivating and inspiring. But the way I interpreted his messages were very opposite those that he portrayed. I still have that reservation that somehow, he is as good as he shows it to facebook people. He may just have been way too comfortable in the chat that he wasn’t careful what he was projecting.

Nothing developed into romantic chats and I’m glad about that. I had to find a way to stop our conversations as advised by my cousin because who really knows where the long chats will lead? I am a married woman and I am glad someone made me realize that it is not a good thing to be chatting with another man. It may seem harmless at first but it may lead to suffering the next. So I made the move to back out of the long conversations.

There was a time when I had to chat him to ask if I could borrow some money. He said he was sorry because it was his wife holding the atm. Okay, I shrugged. It’s okay. Good thing he didn’t ask anymore why I wasn’t chatting with him. Maybe the way I did to put down the line is effective. I started saying that, I’m sorry I was not able to respond to your message because I was very busy with this and that. He would reply with, “It’s okay. I understand.”

Our subject of topic were the writers that he recommends as good reads. I was very obedient searching for the authors he has been recommending. Those have been the bulk of the reads I had until now. After those long chats I also stopped reading and was only focusing on my job.

But even then, when I was reminded, I would go over the ebooks he sent me and I would read again. I am looking for the hard copy versions on bookstores but my attempts were futile. It is much better to read those printed than in the ebook. Still I am able to read the ebooks. No problem at all. I am just comparing the convenience between print and ecopy.

I find it weird that the seemingly purpose-driven and happy person I see on facebook actually has a lot of dissatisfaction in life and he has no definite purpose. Maybe, he was just bored because with his intellectual capacity, he had a lot on his mind.

Anyway, what leads me in life? Do I have a purpose? Do I have a goal? Do those goals lead me in life? What do I want to achieve?

I am a simple person. Just a book, a computer and any device that kept me writing and reading would satisfy me.

Even though I was able to see the bad side of that virtual friend, I can’t deny the many learnings I got out of our conversations. I’m sure it is the same with him. It so happens he is an attorney so the more that I was able to obtain few tips on how to do things.

Those philosophers that he had recommended were the ones I’ve been reading. I am hoping to read more when I have more time.

Sometimes, equally important as realizing what’s leading us in life is our appreciation for the small things happening to our lives. It also would be helpful to appreciate the good in people over their bad sides.

Now I could say that I am led by my desire to produce and write my thoughts. I am still in the process of trying different things but at least I am able to finally produce something.

I will be reading many stories here and I am sure that I will be able to get a lot of writing prompts. We can’t deny that we will be empty at times and the only way to solve that is to fill our empty cups.

I sometimes sit in front of my device and I blink with the cursor without anything being written on the screen. Sometimes I want to not be disturbed because I have a lot of things to say. Sometimes the timing is right and sometimes the timing is wrong. All we can do is to make the most of our situation. We tend to learn to go along situations. Or insert writing here and there. Time after time. We can’t just wait for the ideal time because ideal time will never come. There is no such thing as perfect situation. Our movement will what determine what we produce.

Happy writing, everyone! I hope you are led the right way by whatever you deem to be leading you!