@Reo 25 August 2020 more from that month

After Break-Up what are you doing? After break-Up with your Boyfriend or girlfriend what are you doing?

I guess not. You probably not acting like that but some people may act like that--crying in front of their ex when they caught them cheating with their new. However, we can't judge someone easily who is crying to them because When you imagine your self to that situation maybe you can also feel weak when you caught someone cheating behind your back. It is hurt, right? I don't understand why we have a people in this world, cheating to their love ones. I want to ask those cheaters if Why Cheat if you can tell to your boyfriend or girlfriend that you already tired or you want to end it than having a affair with another while you are still in a relationship with him/her? You know, It is better to tell to her/him than you will caught in that situation. I understand that you think Cheating is bad too but you can't stop loving another while you are still in a relationship. But, you should also think about the feeling of betrayal, if you betray and hurt that someone. You should understand, think and imagine if how they feel when he/she will caught you. I also want to ask those Cheater if after they cheat to their girlfriend, boyfriend, wife or Husband are they satisfied when they hurt other's feelings? Because I know that after they caught with their affair they didn't say or Do anything but ***'SORRY'*** and ***they will choose their new*** than going back to their first. Do you think Sorry Is enough? How about the experiences and the feeling of that someone you hurt? Do you think it is easy to them to accept and be back to their normal self? No! One hurtful relationship can also lead to someone into a trauma. It is not easy to trust someone again, they will become weak instead of being strong. It is hard for them again to back to their normal self because they will think different kind of scenario, they can also hurt their self. Just like someone in the news that they hanged their self because they think that it is their fault for not being worth it. Break up with a not good ending, It can also lead to depression. Just like me, in the past few days.. I also think that It is my fault that my love one cheat to me. Sometimes I think I feel bad because I am not good at anything just like his new. His new is so beautiful, sexy, good at playing mobile legends, and all the things that I don't have is in his new. But, I didn't think of killing myself just because of them. Maybe I cried a lot because it is so painful and hurt. Do you know what happened? *I am waiting for his chat. I didn't bother to move first because It is tiring chating someone that it is always busy. All I want is I want him to put some effort too. Because he is always busy, after going home to work, he will play* ***Mobile legends.*** *He is not like that before, before He has a lot of time to me. We are happy, we have a lot of happy memories. We didn't fight but if we are, we always talk to each other and say sorry. But, this month.. It changed because of letting him playing mobile legends because it is his dream to become a pro ml player. I let him do the things that he want because I always support him but, Mobile legends became his priority. He didn't chat me, he didn't even bother to ask if Did I eat my dinner? And if after he done playing it's already 12 in the midnight and he is already sleepy. Funny right? That is my always routine. Waiting for his chat but one day,*

*I saw this post in his facebook account. It is so painful and I am not aware that he already have someone at that time I didn't know what I will going to say because I am not aware, I didn't know, he didn't say any word about it. All I can say is*

*I know I am stupid. But what I will going to say? I lost my words. My mind feel blank and I didn't say a single word. I don't know why, I think at the whole time, I don't know what Happened I wish it is just dream. I didn't chat him for a two days because I don't know what to do or I will say to him. He is.. far away from me... but, we have lot of dream to each other. Our relationship is long distance But I don't know that even him is far away from me. I am hurt and that is the reason why I didn't active here at Read Cash.* After knowing about that, After 2 days I chat him and ask him why did he do that to me. I ask him if what did I done? Why he do this? Because all I know is I give all my best to love and care him even If I am far away. I want to give want he want in the future, Having a House, a family, and all that we planned that's why I am planing to enter works after this pandemic. We will fulfill our dreams to our family and to our self. But, this is what happened. I don't know maybe I am still not worth it, I know that I am not like his new. But I did do my best to be worth it. But still not enough.. not enough.. and not enough. I envy the girl now because he is proud to her. I envy the girl that he loves her not like he give to me. I envy the girl because she is good at everything. I envy her because I am not like her. After that, I still crying when I remember what happened. I am still hurt but I still continue to live with a Peaceful life. I have a lot of friends who encourage me always. I have a lot of friends who do everything just to make sure that I am okay. Today and tomorrow, after we broke up there is nothing to do.. but to leave and start again just like before, that I didn't know or love him. That's why I am spending my time to the things that makes me calm and forget about him. I still continue to communicate to everyone and encourage them. I am thankful too, because of the people here at Read Cash I forgot about what happened and while I am writing this article, I feel sad but the same time I feel okay now.