Midnight thoughts

I don't plan to post here tonight but let me divert my feelings. Actually, while I'm writing this, my anxiety is attacking me, my body is shaking badly and my chest is pounding because of what is currently happening at home. I won't talk about the problem going on here, I still prefer to keep it private. We have different opinion in every situation that sometimes make it even worse. It will never be solved if many other people intervene. So to distract my mind from whatever is causing me anxiety right now, I chose to write here.

Because I can't really think of any content, my topic for now is our monthly water and electricity bills.

As the weather is so hot now because it's summer, it is expected that the bill will be really big. We can't avoid not turning on the electric fan or AC especially every noon and night which is the reason for the increase in bills.

I read a meme, it says that this summer there are two possible reasons for our death, first, we might die from too much heat, second, we might die from our excessive electricity and water bills.

Our electricity bill has almost reached Seven Thousand Pesos or almost 127.40 USD . We don't have air conditioning, we only have an electric fan, TV and refrigerator. We rarely open the refrigerator because we save electricity, so we were surprised at the amount we need to pay. The service of the electric utility company here in our area is also not good. The brownout is almost every week.

This is the amount we need to pay for our water consumption. You can see that it has reached more than 1,500 pesos or 27.04 USD. We also save on water usage. Instead of always getting water from the faucet, we use the neighbor's water pump or poso/gripong de bomba for free.

It is not possible to take drinking water from the poso because it is quite slimy. It can only be used for washing colored clothes and bathing.

When it comes to the water service, I can say that it's good, it's just too expensive for people like us who belong to indigent families.

Our problem now is where to find money for these bills. This is not the only problem we have but other necessities that need to be prioritized such as food, tuition, and sometimes unexpected emergency cases, and many more. There are times when money is so tight that you're not sure if you'll be able to pay before the due date passes.

Money is a real problem for everyone. Maybe if we all had money, we wouldn't be too distracted by our other problems in life. Even if you have family problems, if you only have money, you can unwind somewhere else to relax your mind and body. Because going to different places to relax is not only a wants nowadays but also a way to reduce stress in life so that you can think more clearly for you to properly handle the problems you are going through. Well, if you are having problems with this simple expenses, can you even think of spending even a little to have fun in another place? I think no, instead, you become more practical, you would rather just pay these bills than make the problem worse.

Have a good night sleep everyone.

Thank you for reading!

@Reclusexantho

*All attached photos are mine