Anger, Love, Pain, stress...
And if you recorded yourself...
One interesting man used to say that you don't have to resist anyone, but vice versa.
Dive as deep as possible into everything that comes before your eyes. If you're angry, dive into anger with awareness, mindfulness. Become anger, dive deep, feel hatred in all its power. If you love, dive into love. If you smoke, smoke with full attention. When your mind is diving and if you want to meet yourself, try to take a camera with you.
Don't run away from anything, accept everything, one hundred percent.
Only in this way will you grasp the essence of what you feel. Otherwise, you will have to drag yourself around with these emotions all your life. Without understanding what they are and what they teach you you can't hear yourself.
All those teachers we humiliate by not listening to them, by silencing and ignoring them. Until the voice from within comes "release the demons".
My friends, do whatever you want with yourselves. Even if you think you know what others should do. Let us not impose our script on others, especially on those we call beloved ones. They have their own path, their own furrow, and if they are here now, it does not mean that it will be like this forever. And it does not mean they will leave us. Often the loved ones, who have left us, teach us lessons for the rest of our lives when we remember them. All the moments they gave us, shared with us, we will remember. Even though they are no longer with us, everything is real and alive. Especially if we loved them from the bottom of our hearts.
And we know how to love deeply...
Don't we?