2 days to go

March 25th, 2022.

All I think about these days is my birthday. Its 2-days and some hours to it.

Planning - So, I have a confession to make, I love planning but get easily frustrated at times when the plans are getting down slowly.

Yes, that’s right. I’m an adult. And I still suck at making plans. I’m sure there are other people who feel the same way too, it’s just not socially accepted to admit it.

I started planning my birthday party at the beginning of the year. Hoping that I'll be perfectly ready by March 28th.

I was planning it by saving a particular amount daily specifically for the birthday.

Everything was going just as planned until last week which is some days before my party, an unforseen circumstance had me selling off all my birthday savings.

Well, my day will come and I'm ready to have fun because I would not allow anything or anyone kill my joy.

Though I might not be able to carry on with the plans I have for my friends, it's not like a big thing I had planned on, but they are still awesome plans.

Since I was a little girl, I loved making plans; I still have the notes I use when I was eight years old to plan my future, but the more I grow the more I stopped documenting things.

When I was a kid in school, I would spend a lot of time planning this and that. Today, things are so different. I use my phone to plan things, to organize my life and my time.

I’m not sure how many of you are like me, but as much as I love planning, I get so tired and angry at times.

I plan my days, weeks, months... okay, I plan everything. I plan when I am going to see my friends and family. Planning is in my blood and even though it may seem stressful, there is nothing more satisfying than checking off an item from the list.

Which makes me hate it when my plans don't work.

The thing about planning is that it's boring. There are so many apps and websites out there that make it so easy to create plans and check them off as time goes on. Not only that, but it's almost necessary in today’s world with so much chaos going on, for everyone to learn how to make plans.

But every once in a while, there are those moments where things don’t go according to plan. Those moments where you have to be emotionally tough, where you have to do whats best for you and your family. I recently realized that the times that are most important shouldn’t be planned out, they should be spontaneous.

When I want to make plans, I want to make them and stick with them. I don’t want anything to go wrong.

When something does go wrong in the process of making plans, it gets me upset.

It drives me crazy because I can’t just live with the mistake and forget about it. I start getting anxious, I have to redo my plans and make sure that everything goes as planned.

So I had this really cute couple over to my parent's place for dinner on a weekend, since my dad and mum were in church for a program, I was the one who entertained them.

They had come pretty late but it was no problem to me, I thought to myself, after a few drinks we started talking and we got on the topic of relationships and how long it took each one of them to plan the proposal.

I was so fascinated by how special the couples plans were, some things they needed were planned for months and other were planned for just days.

With their story I felt so happy for them and thought about when that day will come for me.

After they were gone, I was organizing the place, when it dawned on me that to have an accurate planning, you need to be free-spirited when making plans.

Okay, so let's say you have your weekend/birthday/wedding planned out and you’re approaching a decision point and you have to make a plan.

You could turn around and go back home, or you can push forward, which will take 20 minutes longer to reach your intended destination.

What will you do?