September 21, 2021
Time: 11:32 pm
Emotions: Physically and emotionally tired
As you can see in the lead image, my boyfriend can't stop gambling in online cockfighting. I don't know what to do. My boyfriend never listens to me anymore. I told him a couple of times to stop spending his money in any gambling games. Here we are, full of debts because of him. I just feel really tired, especially he just told me now that he wants to sell his phone to pay some of his debts.
I posted an article about it already. Addicted in Cockfighting, and will post an article about it again because I want to rant everything here. It feels heavy to hide it. The pounding of my heart never stops right at this moment. I feel angry, tired, and hopeless. I need to let it out here.
How could I succeed in life when there's someone pulling you down? How could I save BCH for my parent's house renovation when I spend most of it to pay for his debts? Is this like too much?
Please give me an advise on how to solve this. I sometimes want to leave him, but he is a very weak person. Everytime, he'll be in this situation, he will open up and will say he wanted to end his life. Like wth? You are the one putting yourself in that situation, and you're the one who would also fix your situation.
He never listens except himself.
If the person never listens, he is hopeless. I tried my best to help me even if I have already nothing, but still he tries to ruin my trust over and over again.
I want to hear your advises. I really can't handle having these mixed emotions. I hope one day he'll realize everything he lost. All the money he supposedly help his family, are now on waste.
Closing thoughts:
If you have someone who supports you, please appreciate it, don't go it to waste. People who accepts you a million times, are the person who truly value and loves you.
I know this is just a trial I need to face. I asked God to help me go through with it. I asked God to help me find a way to pay all the debts.
I also want to say sorry for ranting this again, it just feel very heavy. I hope you understand. Thank you.
If your boyfriend doesn't give up on gambling, you should give up on your boyfriend. If you continue, he will screw you with him. I read your first article. I can feel what you're going through, but now it's time for you to make a decision.