Have you ever felt that your mom treats you differently from your siblings? She used to scold you for the little things you've done wrong. Sometimes, she scolds you for no reason.
This afternoon, while sitting on the sofa with my brother, she scolded me for not washing the dishes. I kept quiet, because I know I haven't done it yet. My brother, on the other hand, also sat on the sofa with me, but she never tries to scold him, maybe for some reason, which, I totally understand.
I just kept quiet the whole afternoon, and started doing things at home. I am usually the one who cleans the whole house, so I get hurt everytime she doesn't appreciate it.
At home, we have 3 siblings, and I am the middle child. My brother, who is our youngest, is our spoiled sibling. My parents support him in anything he does, while on the other hand, during my time, I had only myself to support my studies to not burden my parents and that's really okay.
I am happy to see my brother getting the things he liked. That's the things I didn't get during my teenage years. I love my brother so much, but sometimes there's this feeling that I get envy every time my parents' appreciate and listen to him. My mother barely listens to me. 😅
I don't know, maybe I did something wrong? I just don't know. What keeps me fighting is that for as long as I can feel they love me, that's enough for me. Even if mom belittles me most of the time, it's okay, for as long as I have them to call home.
I still consider my parents' as my greatest motivation for why I am pursuing my goals in life. Mom must be really tired today. That's why she gets angry easily, and again, I totally understand her because I love her.
Even though her treatment towards me pained me alot, she's still my mom and I love my family so much, that's why I am doing my best for them.
Even though her treatment towards me pained me alot, she's still my mom and I love my family so much, that's why I am doing my best for them.
My Diary
October 4, 2021
6:30 p.m.
My mom was always hardest on me growing up. But now I seem to be her favorite. Go figure. Maybe she was just grooming me for the role of most favored? lol