Scene in my head 2 : Borrowed (remastered )

** So let's try this shall we? Posting this with a little hesitation as I am unsure of how this one will come across but let's try, right?

I can always hide it, right? hahaha or stuff a lot of other entries to bury it under...

Retaining first person as I think it would have more oomph..

You know "The Little Prince"? That book that was supposed to be stories for kids but rereading it you realize it is not actually for kids but it speaks more to you as an adult... well that has no connection to this one.. just saying lols. . .

Of fallouts ... here goes...

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Nothing is ever going back to the way it used to be.

I’ve wondered time and time again where the bridge that promised to be concrete started becoming a weak hanging bridge. The ropes quickly got old and the threads started to weaken and right now, I am on the other end waiting to see if you are going to cross the bridge or if i should go back to fetch you.

Either ways, the outcome has no guarantee – you can, you might and you will choose to go else where. And as much as I would want to hang on to yesterday’s promise of "infinity and beyond", "toy story-ish", it stings to admit that I saw this coming.

We met on a road where your old bridge was thinning out. We were walking the same path and I happen to have the available ear.I had a bag of comfort and the supply of lifelong loyalty – a perfect hot chocolate for cold days.

Little by little your company added to my lively journey. Tons of bright laughter lit the way to adventure. And slowly you healed. And as you start to glide, I saw what I knew would happen eventually –

I’d bore you.

Loyalty bores.

Safe haven chokes.

I know you’ve tried hard to understand my way of coping and prepping myself for the worst. But I would need to preserve me. I knew I would need to prepare my own hot chocolate soon. I don’t mind at all. But it’s trying to double guess what I foresaw that made me keep in step.

What you do not see, I see clearly:
Your wounds have healed, you are back on your feet. Slowly, without you being aware, you refuse the hand I offer.

Once.

Twice.

A lot.

I know you said I can tell you what I feel . And when I did, here we are at the point of hesitation. I knew this was fleeting. I felt it weigh down when I became the easy trade off. But I would stay for as long as I see there is a road that can fit me to go side by side with you.

But I can only keep up up to some point. The road thins somewhere and when I crossed this bridge and saw you hesitate I knew it’s time to move forward.

It took a while to dawn in on me. I never knew the you before that crossroad we met. And I guess now is that time. Reality sank in and I welcomed it wholeheartedly. Had we crossed paths at a different time, we would not have taken notice.

I figured I am the easy trade off because...

in alternate reality, I would be one of the people you would not hang out with.

So it is ok. Maybe I should not have let those thoughts out of my mouth. Maybe it was the wisest. But nonetheless, thanks for the borrowed time. The stretch of that adventure I'm sure would not have been fun had it not been you with me on that road.

Till next time our roads merge.

I can see you from this side anyway. Take care of yourself.

Thank you.

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