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Something Different
I recently read a post by @**wakeupkitty** It reminded me that it's okay to show my emotions so I'm going to do that now. A few months ago, my husband and I experienced the loss of a particular pet. He was technically my husbands but even he acknowledged that we had a special bond. I love every pet in our home and animals in general but our pet rat Silas was different. Silas took to me very well which for some reason is not out of the norm for me. Most pets we get do tend to be drawn to me. Perhaps I have a way with animals, but I digress. Back to the topic at hand. We originally got him as well as his brother from a pet store. When we got them they were already at least a couple years old and had been surrendered. We took them both home. 2 years later Silas had a stroke. He passed a few hours later. I have gone through the loss of a pet before but somehow his death hit differently. I have even had pets pass while I was holding them before. Perhaps people will think I am crazy for this, but so be it. I know what I felt. The moment of Silas passing, it felt like a connection, some physical thread, snapped abruptly in me. It still hurts, even now. I can't explain it, but something about his death was different. Some have said he was a familiar or spirit animal and a part of me wonders if that is true.
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That's so sad. 😭 But, your pet's name is kinda cool. Remembered it from a series The Vampire Diaries. There's this certain character named Silas.
I haven't watched Vampire Diaries in years. I actually forgot about that character lol. I got the name from a book series called ' Children Shouldn't Play with Dead Things' (Not as morbid as it sounds)
To be honest I have no idea if that is truly the only thing I know is we feel what we feel. I had animals for my entire life but not a close bond to each one of them and each bond was different. I had a shelter for over 15 years working with predators, animals with issues caused by humans. The most aggressive ones turned into sweet animals and many of those who were sick died while I hold them. Perhaps you only need to be close or a good observer to see the real animal, feel the soul, or who knows there is more. The fact is if they die you feel it and with me, something died too to. Let's see what the RC readers & commenters have to say about this. @charmingcherry08, @Clarissa_KG, @esciisc, @gerl, @Hanzell, @Jane, @Jdine, @lioness777, @marblely, @Mehedi01, @psychie, @Urmeelaurmee122, @Xzeon If it comes to sharing something personal in your articles keep in mind it is the personal part that in each story (books included), article (newspaper, magazine) is what frequently makes it worth reading. Even in made-up stories, you will find back something personal of the writer. 💕🍀
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I'm not sure why but I tend to bond very easily with animals even if they aren't mine. A friend of mine and my husbands lost his cat and I was devastated. I never told him that though as I honestly didn't feel I had the right to be so upset over an animal that wasn't mine.
I am not sure if you bonded with the animal if you feel devasted about the lost. There are people who are more sensitive than others which makes them feel each lost.
Very true. I've always been a very sensitive person when it comes to things like that. The funny thing is, if I didn't go around to visit every week, our friends cat would look for me. Then when I finally did show up she always wanted me to pick her up and cuddle her. Even her owner was surprised since she normally didn't like being held much.
My grandfather used to tell me that animals will be protectors. They'll protect you mostly from sicknesses so if a pet dies first and you know the cause, it's likely that the owner should have been the recipient of that disease. I'm not sure how true it is but my family has lost a few pets before while someone is sick. What's good though is that all baby pets go to heaven so I'm sure silas is just up there watching over you
Have you noticed the no exc? After i posted my latest article, it doesn't have exc and my subscribers wont be notified..
Oh, i don't think i did? But what's more concerning before was if the subscribers would get notified at all 😂
I do think animals can be protectors and it's a nice thought to think that they love you so much they would do that for you.
That just shows how important we are to our pets that they would do what they can for us
You're not crazy for thinking and feeling that way. Until now I still can't move on over the loss of my 2 puppies Jihoo and Xavier 8 and 9 years ago. After they pass away so sudden, I never dared adopting a new pet. I'm sure Silas lived a good life while he is with you, otherwise you won't feel that way 😊
I'm sorry you lost your puppies. I hope I gave Silas a good life. He seemed happy enough. He loved to cuddle and oddly enough, he seemed to think he was a puppy. He would wag his tail when we pet him. People said it was a sign of aggression. Even the vet thought so until we showed him what we meant. After showing him he said he was just a bit strange but that seemed to be his way of showing he was content.
When i was young, we had a dog named whitey but he actually have black big dots of fur on his body but we preferred to call him whitey. We love that dog so much, it was our protector, our savior. Savior from naughty kids who's bullying us, it will just barked at them then they will run away. Whitey's life last for long, it died coz he was old already. It was really so painful because we treated him ad our family member already. So i know your feeling. After few months, our father adopted a dog again and the named it blacky because it was totally black. Then the kids became happy again. 😊... in life we always lost something, but one thing is for sure, something will come. Just like the saying, when one door closes, another door opens. Thanks for the mention @wakeupkitty
We did end up getting a rabbit shortly after Silas passed. We lost his brother Quinn shortly after Silas. He just couldn't live without him. We have one rat left. A female named Naomi. She's a sweetheart. She runs right to the bars of her cage to greet us when we enter the room and she loves giving kisses. She's very unique. So I guess another door really did open because we got her, and our rabbit Roman.
It's good to know. I love rabbit too but too hard to get one here . I thought it's not allowed to pet rabbit. 😥
I'm not sure about elsewhere but here, rabbits are common pets and they're very affectionate. At least ours is. He likes rubbing his chin on us (to mark us as his) and he loves giving kisses.
Oh so cute to imagine. I guess it depends on the country. And i think rabbits won't live long in our country.
Silas is a rat, right? I haven't had a rat before. Here in the Philippines, you can but the 'white rat' in the pet shop. I think that's the only kind of rat that might consider petting here. I haven't seen a rat that resembles a hamster. I had a white rat when I was in grade school and me being just a kid, I wasn't able to pet it well and my parents and siblings were not that supportive of me with it back then, I guess. I really can't remember why they didn't help me with my pet that time. My parents are busy for sure with their business, and my siblings with their own lives, I guess. Anyhow, my rat died but I didn't felt much sadness about it. I was so young and it really didn't hit me that much. I wasn't into petting that much during those times. Although we have around 10 or more (if I remember correctly) dogs, I was innocent in the real value of pets. But when I grew older, I had my own dogs. 4 of them that I was really close with are: "Spoofy" - my Japanese Spitz dog and I had him when I was still living with my mom. And when I moved out to work in a different town, I left him with my mom. Spoofy became my Mom's favorite. When he's sick, my mom will have him checked up. And my mom loves the fact that Spoofy will wait for her to come home and will sleep beside my mom's bed and stay very close to my mom whenever see go in the house. He died (old age) and my mom was crying. He was buried in our property by my brother. She still remembers the date and cooks for Spoofy's death anniversary. She framed one of Spoofy's picture and displayed it. 💜 "Mile" pronouced as mile in milenuim. She's our other dog's baby. The other dog is named Nium. Yes, when we call them both we shout "Milenuim!!" 😂 Cool, huh.. I remember when she got a sprained ankle injury with her 4 legs (didnt know how), and she can't get up to pee and poop. I talked to her and told her to pee and poop whenever she feels the need tonand bark so I can clean her and it up. I told her it's okay l will take care of her and told her I love her while I held her in my arms. Have you experienced when you look into your pets eyes and they look at you like they hsve teary eyes? I felt crying. I think I felt her crying inside. I took care of her and helped her with the healing process until she can walk again. She did. She healed and was up again... ☺ Years passed, she died (old age). Also burried in our property near where Spoofy was buried. But I wasn't as passionate as my mon. I didn't have her picture framed. Oh, she's Aspin, btw. "Popoy" - a pitbull. I had her when he was a puppy old enough to be separated with her mom. He's biggg. I didn't have her ear and tail cropped. I figured he wouldnt appreciate it too. 😁 He's sweet and very playful. Many are scared of him. He stays beside my room's door everynight. 😂 He died and I was crying. I was used to seeing him outside my door and I'm used with the security he gives me. And I am used to having him and caring and loving him. "Princess" - a princess type shih-tzu. I had her months after I had Popoy. So they basically grow up together. They play together. And surprisingly, Popoy didn't injure Princess given the fact that he's huge and Princess is so tiny. Princess however, stays beside my bed. She died earlier than Popoy, she has dermatitis, she didn't eat for several days, she was in dextrose for several days. When she finally ate little by little, the dextrose was removed. But she still remains weak. I did everything. When I arrived home, my 'bf' was there and he looked at me and said, "She's been waiting for you for a while now." I was confused and nervous. Then he walked me to Princess' lifeless body. He said she died about an hour ago. Everything was in blur. I can only see her, her lifeless body. And I cried so much. I was even shouting her name and shouting, "no no no!!" I felt weak for a week or two. I was so much in distress. I was depressed. I dream of her every time. And I couldn't find the enthusiasm to smile or be happy. I didn't want to see a dog similar to her. But I'm okay now. ☺ And oh, I had her cremated and I still have her ashes with me. It's really painful when you lose someone really dear to you, may it be a pet or a person. It's painful and very sad.... Obviously, this article made me remember my lovely pets again.. ☺ since Popoy's death, I didn't have pet again. I don't know why. Maybe I don't want to be in that situation again where I watch them die and be buried or cremated.
I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your pets. I can understand not wanting to go through that again. All of your dogs seem like they were sweet in their own ways. I really enjoyed reading about them. It's always amazing to see how different their personalities can be from each other. Thank you for taking the time to tell me about them in such great detail.
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