Hypno Therapy 'Come on, give in...' The seductive voice rang in my ears as I tried to refuse. 'Let go.' I couldn't say no. Why would I want to say no? 'Yes.' My voice sounded strange, sluggish and a little slow. I was probably just imagining it. Doctor Barton said that was a part of my condition, imagining things or just seeing things differently. When I first met him I didn't really like him. Actually I hated him and my sister didn't like him either. She tried to convince…
Snowy Day Blues As I type this, it's snowing outside. It's only the second time the snow has stuck around so far this year. I can't say I'm thrilled about it honestly. I hate snow, always have, probably always will. It doesn't help that by the looks of it I'm going to have to shovel several times today since it's coming down pretty fast right now. I'm trying to look on the bright side, at least it's a bit of a workout. Only trouble is I know before the day is out, heck,…
Impossible Choice ***WARNING*** Potential trigger. I suppose the first line makes that rather obvious but just to be safe, here's your heads up. 'You have to terminate the pregnancy.' The words had haunted her since the doctor had said them two days ago. Her answer had been firm, but those words are enough to chill any woman to the bone. What had made it even worse was the way the doctor said it. No emotion. He was talking about killing a child that had been developing…
Coffee They entered the coffee shop together and split off as she went to claim a table and waited for him to place their orders. A minute later he gently placed her drink in front of her and she murmured a soft thank you to which he nodded in response. They sat across from each other, seemingly interested in their meaningless little conversation. Every now and then, they would take sips from their respective cups of coffee, their eyes never leaving the other. Perhaps they…
Unrequited Love Her vindictive laugh still rings in his ears. 'You said you wanted me.' He struggles to keep his voice level but of course it breaks, much to his dismay. 'I lied.' Her answer is cold, sharp and clipped. Like she finds this conversation unworthy of her time. He hears the rain hitting the window, and it's like the sky is weeping for him as his heart breaks. He thinks back to all the times he made her laugh. He thinks back to everything that has gone on between…
The Revelation (Part 3 of the Haunted Series) ***Note If you haven't read parts one and two, I highly recommend reading them first to get the full effect.* Parts 1 and 2 can be found Here:** https://read.cash/@Paganprincess/surrounded-part-1-of-the-haunted-series-d285591b https://read.cash/@Paganprincess/gone-part-2-of-the-haunted-series-79065dce I tried to calm my pounding heart. *It's an old, creepy house. That's it. Monsters aren't real. Nothing can hurt me.* 'They say…
Trying to be Positive They say whatever you put into the universe will come back to you. I have to admit, especially lately, I've had a really hard time believing that. Today I'm having a hard time believing that right now. I'm trying to be positive though but I still need to get this out. I woke up and as most mornings, I didn't want to get out of bed but I did. As soon as I realized I was about to enter a negative mindset, I pulled myself out and told myself 'No. It's…
Token From Another As they lay on the bed, his fingers idly entwine with hers, their heartbeats syncing and for a moment it's pure bliss. He can't remember the last time he was this happy. Actually, he can. It was the last time he saw her. The last time he was with her like this. He feels whole here, laying with her. Complete. Nothing seems to exist outside this small, peaceful room with only their breathing to disrupt the still air. The illusion is quickly shattered as he…
Prediction for the New Year A lot of people are hoping 2021 will be a better year than this one. I myself was hoping the same thing. Unfortunately, I'm predicting that at least the beginning of the year will not be that great. So many people are frustrated with the constant rules. Lockdowns where so many stores have had to close while big box stores are just fine even with hundreds of people milling about. Or people not being able to go see their families for the holidays.…
Untold Secrets The smell of perfectly ripe strawberries filled the air as though someone had walked in wearing the sweetest of perfumes. The only problem with this was that the room held only one occupant and he was most definitely not wearing that scent. He froze as the aroma encompassed him. He had been smelling it on and off for a few months now. At first he'd assumed it was one of the women who had been at the house but he now knew that was impossible. None of them had…
Budget Readjustment With grocery prices set to go up by who knows how much next year, I know I need to change my game plan. Sometimes as much as twice a year, I will look at how I do things and change it up if what I'm doing doesn't work. I always try to get the most out of our money while still making sure my family doesn't go hungry. I'm not a shelf clearer but I will pick up a few extra things now and then if it's on sale. Especially if I can freeze whatever it is until I…
Loss He spits jewels on the floor. They drip, drip, drip from his lips. *Impossible. This is impossible.* Your mind struggles to understand the scene in front of you. *Not real!* Your mind screams. *Not real!* He shakes violently and your mind races through every possibility as you watch, hating yourself for your weakness. You can't move. You can't help. You scream inside your head but the words don't leave your mouth. After what seems like an eternity, you finally find…
Lots of Produce for Little Price I think it was a few days ago that I wrote an article about how I was going to have to readjust my budget, make some changes and try to work around rising prices somehow. One of the things I mentioned was an app I came across. I actually came across it a few months back but didn't think much of it. The threat of rising prices on groceries seriously had me reconsidering my earlier skepticism so I decided to download the app and take a look.…
Fireside Confession 'Nice night.' Surprised, she whirled around to see a man standing behind her chair a few feet away. The night air was pleasantly cool and she had only been trying to find some peace and quiet when she'd come out here. She had expected everyone to be inside at the party. 'Can I join you?' He nodded in the general direction of the firepit she was seated at. She composed herself and shrugged half-heartedly as though his request meant nothing. 'Be my guest.'…
No Strings 'You're the one who set the rules! Why am I being punished for following them?' 'I'm not punishing you.' He ran his fingers through his hair. 'Well it sure as hell feels like it!' He sighed and tried to think of what he should say to her. She was right, he had been the one to set the ground rules. He just hadn't actually expected her to abide by them. If he was being honest, a part of him had wanted her to break them. He should have known better. She didn't break…
Ava Ava had always been the good one. The sweet one. The kind one. Or at least she fooled people into thinking that. Whenever something bad happened, I was always the one they looked to. When things started going missing around the house, I swore it wasn't me. I had seen Ava take the necklace. Even when mom caught Ava wearing the necklace in question, it was still my fault. 'Leila gave it to me.' she had told her. Of course mom believed her. Perfect Ava would never steal or…
Holiday Baking Plans Christmas has never been my favorite holiday. I think a lot of it is because for me, it meant trying to stay out of the way and avoid being noticed. My mom would be busy and anyone who came around (with the exception of a couple people) would either ignore me or make rude remarks. I wasn't good enough for them and only really worth noticing when they wanted an emotional or verbal punching bag. The ones I actually wanted to spend the holidays with, I…
The Past Few Days Two days ago I wrote about my plans to bake for the holiday season. Part of the reason is because I just love baking. The other part is because it's one of the ways I show I care. This year, there's another motive. Things have been tight this year and baking is one way I can still have a gift to give even if I couldn't afford to get someone anything else. Monday morning I got up, got my daughter her breakfast, did a quick clean on the kitchen and started my…
I've been battling a headache right behind my left eye for the last few days. As I suffer from migraines, I can say that despite placement, this one is thankfully not a migraine. Yet. Hopefully this doesn't stick around for Christmas.
Me to my daughter at 2am after she got her water: 'Go to bed. You need sleep.' Her: 'You too do.' *confused face* 'What?' Me: 'See what I mean?'
Anyone else ever notice if they plan something out, even if you don't say anything someone does or says something that messes up your plans? Please tell me it's not just me.
So December 24th and we are without power in half our apartment. I checked the breakers and they all seem to be fine. I had to move the deep freeze because the outlet it was plugged into isn't working right now. The bathroom and half the living room is also without at the moment. Hopefully it's fixed soon. Happy holidays, right?
Partial Power Today or I guess yesterday since I'm writing this at 12:32am, was well maybe not as great as I wanted it to be in the beginning. Things started out pretty much the same as any day. Got up, cleaned, dishes, ect. Around 11 things took a turn and a light went out. I didn't think much of it. I figured the bulb had gone out but that wasn't the case. The lights in the kitchen, bathroom and one light in the living room all wouldn't come on. The ones in the bedrooms…
Got power back and I can now use the stove. :)
You cannot put your heart into the hands of those who cannot love. They are bitter and they are broken. They will not protect your heart for theirs is long gone. ~Elizabeth
'One may tolerate a world of demons for the sake of an angel.' -Reinette (Doctor Who)
'I suck at shopping for your sister. Probably because I don't like her.' -Me
Life is a constant learning experience even when it comes to ourselves. Just when you think you've got yourself figured out, someone comes along and shows you a side of yourself you never even knew was there.
Me watching John water my tomato plant after I repot it: 'That's too much water. ' John: 'No its not. The soil needs to be wet.' Me: 'Not that much.' John: 'I took classes for this. I know what I'm doing. ' *Both of us looking at the excess water that drained out of the bottom* John: ...... 'I think I put too much water in. ' Me: 'Yeah. I know. '
The Morning After He saw her there, standing on the corner. Her innocent eyes betraying just a hint of fear as she waited. The light changed and she quickly stole a glance at him before crossing and heading to the book store. She saw him, as she stood, waiting for the light to change. He was watching her. She looked at him again, hoping he didn't notice and began crossing the road into the dingy little shop. Surely he wouldn't follow her. The little bell rung above his head…
Landlord complains about high hydro bill. Landlord also runs 5 electric heaters upstairs instead of the furnace yet still thinks it's our fault the hydro is high.
I'm noticing less engagement on my read.cash. I wonder, is there less traffic or are my posts just too ordinary and boring? Is anyone else noticing this?
Some people only want your attention so long as it's directed elsewhere.
Seeing a lot of people begging for tips. Don't get me wrong, tips are great and everybody could use more (myself included) but begging is really the wrong way to go. Just post something that isn't begging or spam and hope for the best. ☺ Good night 🌛
Tara: *Stares at me intensely* Me: 'What?' Tara: 'Why do you always have blue eyes?!'
Depression isn't a science my dear. It's a parasite that slowly eats you alive until you wish you were dead.
My daughter is getting interested in Buffy the Vampire Slayer. 😂
'Don't blink.' If you get the reference, you're awesome and we can be friends. 😂
Today is the tomorrow of yesterday.
Struggles of a Writer I have so many ideas going through my head right now. Snippets of stories, whispers of plots, wisps so vague I can't even figure out exactly what the thought is before it's gone again. It's frustrating to have so much to work with yet nothing at the same time. So many ideas for characters just popping up out of nowhere but no idea what to do with them. I've got a notebook and an app full of short pieces that don't seem to fit together. Some are full…
I had a dream that I got squashed by a giant marshmallow and had to eat my way out. 😳
John: 'You never ask me to do anything. I feel so useless.' Me: 'I did ask you. I asked if you could make me a tea.' -pause- John: 'I forgot.'
It is 10 o'clock at night. I should not want snacks. My brain says 'no' but my mouth and stomach say 'yes'.
There's something to be said for delayed gratification. And not just in the way you're thinking.
Trying to convince myself it's going to be a productive day.... Too bad I have zero energy. 😴
“Water does not resist. Water flows. When you plunge your hand into it, all you feel is a caress. Water is not a solid wall, it will not stop you. But water always goes where it wants to go, and nothing in the end can stand against it. Water is patient. Dripping water wears away a stone. Remember that, my child. Remember you are half water. If you can't go through an obstacle, go around it. Water does.” ― Margaret Atwood, The Penelopiad
Me: *absentmindedly singing in the kitchen* Tara: *Walks in and stares at me.* Me: 'Sorry I'll stop.' Tara: 'Why?' Me: 'I can't sing.' Tara: 'Yea you can. It's pretty!' 💖
Me: 'I call it my witch wall. It's not done yet.' Him: 'Witch wall. Is that why my mother sits there all the time?' 😂
Me: 'Pass me the broom please.' Tara: *staring at me* Me: 'The broom.' Tara: *confused stare* Me: *making sweeping motions* 'The sweepy thing.' Tara: *Finally catching on* 'Oh! Sorry.' *hands me the broom*
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