Robotic Tears

Why do I feel like I'm insane?

I'm a person who thinks rationally and scientifically

Nevertheless, why do feel like I'm always conceived to be distinctive

For all I thought it would be normal considering the reasons behind every conviction

I fully know myself 

I'm never emotional as I felt bothered

Easily exhausted and don't want ructions

All I see are hormones

It's normal for humans to feel this hormonal sensations

But, what's weird is that I can't feel any

It's not that I'm afraid to be drowned by it but 

I just can't

Maybe my mind's all forged to be a computer

Forged to the point I'm empty

Like I'm made up of bundles of datum, .exe's and commands

And turned out to be an AI robot

Thirsty for awareness

Thirsty for emotions

Thirsty to live normal

As far as I got friends

They all have sweet songs to sing

Felt butterflies

Experienced fathomless smiles

Create memories they'll never regret

And even dreamt with someone who's willing to take their hands to paint a colorful future

While me?

I can't even imagine what the future holds

I can't force myself

What lacks can't be learnt through encyclopedias

Can't either be downloaded and ran as system programs

There's no option

I can't escape..........

Unconsciously,

Tears fell down