Are you depressed? I am depressed

Good morning, it's a good Sunday morning here and I'm sure y'all must have been thinking that I've disappeared again, just like I do on a norm. Yeah, I actually did disappear but guess what, I'm back😂 Am I really back? That I can not say for sure because it has been a very long school run in the last two weeks, I haven't been able to settle down into the school hostel yet because of some complications from the university authority and the fresh students are to be admitted into the hostels first before the can consider the existing students that you call stallites. I have been on that accomodation issue for over a week now even though I haven't started classes yet. Well, my faculty hasn't started classes but one of the courses we borrowed from sciences have held a class and it's not easy for me to go to school from my house to receive lectures and that's how my days have been going though. I wish to be back fully but I can't say that for sure now... Thanks for understanding...

Are you depressed?...

Let us first start with what depression means actually.

Depression can be defined as a state of mind that is characterized with being confused and a very low esteem maybe due to some psychological trauma from our daily activities. It's really a very troubled state of mind that keeps one silent. It's indeed the silent killer. I'm going to share one of my experiences that could have led me to depression this week.

It's was just last week Monday when my school opened the students portal for the payment of school fees, I'm not my sponsor, so I put a call to my dad to tell him about the development and he promised to send me the money which he did the second day, Tuesday but the fear of paying through my bank card due to the stories I've heard where people tried paying with their cards and they had multiple debits without even completing the transaction. I decided to go to the bank and go through the long process to pay the fees, my Dad actually offered that he paid the school fees for me but I didn't want to disturb and stress him, so I decided to go to the remitta page and download the teller, I withdrew from the ATM and headed for the bank. The delay I got before entering the bank was just annoying but I couldn't leave because the university had also set a deadline for Friday and I also had other registrations to do before the deadline.

I finally got my way into the bank and made the payments exactly how I've been doing it since I've gained admission into this school. I left the bank after hours and had to rush to my class that I almost missed and I didn't even have time to check if the payment had reflected on my portal or not, I got back home and charged my phone to check my portal and I couldn't find my #23,000 fees. I was still thinking it was network issues until I checked the receipt I got from the bank. I had paid into a wrong account 🙆🙆🙆

I couldn't hold my tears as hot tears rolled down my cheeks and I couldn't tell my dad because he offered to help me which I foolishly rejected, I checked my BCH wallet and all I had didn't pass #10,000. If I'm to be honest, I came back to readcash to hustle more maybe I'd beat the deadline before Friday and if not, I'd have to either call home or borrow from my friends...

Thanks for reading my pathetic story😓