The Day After Tomorrow: Reminiscing Good And Bad Days.

I am 50/50 if I'm going to write an article for today or just let the day pass until tomorrow but heck, this platform is calling me to make an article.

So today, since I still have the last 2 nights sleeping here at where I am from, I want to reminisce all memories that makes me cry, sad, and happy.

This article containing the happiest and saddest memories that I gain for the past few years since I was a child while I am still here. The memories where I can say. I experience both.

The article title was for March 23, where it's my flight date. Wish me luck!

This is the first time that I visited iloilo with my family. I didn't know that the time will come, I'm going to stay here after. I thought, this was onky temporary and we'll be back at manila but no. As I grew older, I realized that something was wrong. And yes, I just figure out why my family choose to live here at iloilo despite of having a good life in manila.

The image was me and my father, my mother used to be a lovable kind person when I'm still kid. And right now, I don't know. She's not the mother that I have before, she changed so much. As I grew old, I see what kind of changes that appear. And I didn't like it, because it seems like as I grow older, dhe knew that she can get something to me. And I am allowing her to take me for granted. Which is I super regretting now hehe.

I'm not a selfie girl during this years so I just have limited photo, and this one is from one of my old facebook account.

This picture was took at Small Ville here at Iloilo, lmao I still remember when I got lost at small ville because I go to the beach alone. I'm a kind or person who used to go at random place alone and ended up thinking where I need to go to come back home lol.

When I'm still in Grade 2, i still remember that I have many pencils with barbie style, or winnie the pooh in there. And I have many small radio I guess? I forgot what it it's called like but it looks like a keypad version of phone and have an antenna and also you need to put a headset on it so that you can hear what it plays. I know a lot of users remember this. It was a mp3 player but bigger than that and it was a radio, but it's only have PM on it. My teacher during my grade 2 days love me so much, she taught me well and even guarded me. She gets angry when some students were bullying me.

And I used to be the most behave student among her student because I am a transferred student from laspiñas and I can't understand hiligaynon that time lol.

When I reach grade 3, among students always bullying me. Not among but most of them, I experience being guarded outside, where they will get my bag and throw it somewhere. It's gard, it was really hard. I also experience crying outside of the room because my teacher was bullying me also.

This time, I still can't talk to my parents like being open to them. The reason?, they're busy playing tongits or pusoy and when they didn't win, ofcourse the badluck was on me. They used to blame me whenever that they are lose. That's the time where I can hear their words like, "You're good for nothing.", "You're useless.", I'm still a kid back then but it was hell hurt. What am I doing is to hide inside of the room and just ket myself cry.

I'm afraid to get caught by them because my father will beat me if he saw me crying.

When I'm already at grade 4, my life is kinda better. It's where the time where everything was smooth, I have many friends to play with and they are friendly. I thought my whole elemtary year will be like this but I'm wrong, I'm being bullied again by one of my classmate.

At this grade, my trauma hit me hard because one of my classmate touch my upper part and down there, I just cried and cried and my teacher was really shock why I suddenly cried. I explain everything but she didn't know that I have a childhood trauma, she thought that it was just because my boy classmate touch me.

Since then, I became a lesbian lover. This one will explain why I became a lesbian lover, why I became like this. And yes, it was because of my trauma.

At Grade 5, this was one of the most insane bullying experience that I've ever experienced in my whole life. Someone used to throw foods on me since I am chubby and that's not what am I expecting. There are times when someone used to get my chair and she's the one who's gonna sit there.

I remember when I am praying that I hope she's absent and not present because everytime that she's present my life was a hell.

Lmao, she even get my weekly allowance and buy what she want. I'm not even sure why she's like that to me but heck, I wish I can fight back then.

Okay let's stop there.

There are no happy moments during my school days, I always got bullied just because of what they saw to me. Not until I reach Senior high, my life change when I transferred to the another school.

Everyone was so friendky, they used to smile to each other whether u know them or not. They even supporting you even if they are not familiar to you, that's what you called family.

That time I also become active and even joining school activities, and until now I'm still one of their student hehe.

What I can say is, even if ny childhood and teenage year js not okay, I'm thankful because I'm alive and I'm still kicking.

Final Thoughts:

Hi everyone! So hows everybody? Some of us are too busy because we doing our modules. But this time, I'm taking vreak since I'm done all of my task until april 12. I still have many days to do the others hehehe.

OGLU2022.
MARCH22,2021