Maybe one day, you will find someone different. Someone who will bring out the different kinds of happiness. Someone who you will think is the one for you. You might just never know that you have fallen already for the person. No matter how many times you forced yourself not to develop feelings but the more you resist, the more you are falling for the person. Somehow you probably thought of having the same feeling with the person. You might have thought that you have already found the one. But unfortunately, what he's giving you is all just temporary. That temporary happiness and feelings that you thought will last for long will be the end of you, you should have not invested your feelings in something that isn't sure about yet.
So when the time comes that he will suddenly leave like a ghost leaving with no imprints, you will have to cry out loud and let all your feelings numb because of the disappointment of expecting and assuming too much. Let out. You will think, you should have known better so that you can avoid the losing feeling.
He may not be the one for you, but I hope you learned a lesson; that your heart is not meant to give to anybody who just settles for temporary happiness. Learn to value yourself so that you will be able to know what kind of people can love the mess that you are.
But if the time continues and you can't still forget about him, I think it's time for you to think that he is someone you love but he isn't the one for you, as you're not the one for him.
This is the most difficult part. Trying to accept what we don't want. Overthinking starts the moment you are trying for acceptance. You will always think of why were you not chosen when that person knows that you will choose him over many things. It's difficult to accept the fact that you're not someone for a lifetime for the person you keep choosing. That just hurts so bad. If only you have the guts to tell him one day, that he should have not approached you at first, that he should have not given you mixed signals and other things, then it wouldn't be this difficult.
There will always be someone for us. But the question is, how many times do we need to fall and get hurt by different people before that person comes? Will he be able to recognize that you were the one meant for him? Or he's just like those other guys who thought of you as someone for temporary only?
What I do really think is that the right person comes in the most unexpected moment of our life. When that time comes, learn from your mistakes. Do not give it all yet. Once he has proven himself to you then that's the time for you to shower him with all the love you could give because finally, after how many losses you have found someone who'll make you win.
Love is a beautiful thing. What makes it ugly is when we don't get the same energy from the people we love. Nonetheless, Life's too short not to fall in love.
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