Surviving

June 29, 2022

Happy Hump-Day Friends! What I like about when my boss is not around is that I have little to no tasks to do. Our boss may be bossy but I love how she cares for her staff too. Plus, bosses are allowed to be bossy in my opinion. Without her around, I got a lot of time to spend here. She is on travel and she likes it. Her work is very demanding and takes a lot of her time and effort but still, I can see the happiness on her face whenever an event she organizes turns into a successful one. She loves her job. Though she isn't paid for that job description, still she performs excellently because I observed it is what she loves doing.

At the workplace, there are six people I got to work with closely. Four of them are men and are my seniors. The other two are my men and the other one is her clerk. The three men are great at their job. They perform well and they're easy to work with.

Of course, they aren't all perfect. We all have a not-so-pleasing attitude. One acts like a boss. One is grumpy. One is moody like a lady. One is untimely rude. One is not so creative. And the other one works like there is no deadline. But despite that, we all have managed to co-exist. Sometimes we gossip. We laugh when the other one isn't around. It's not as toxic as you think. It's normal in the workplace.

Today marks the second to the last day where my contract ends. I would only work until tomorrow. On Friday, I'll be unemployed. But our boss wanted our contracts to be renewed. I don't know how to feel about it. I thought this job would be temporary as I originally aimed for an item at DepEd. But I'm about to venture onto the present work's second contract. The original dream seemed too hard for me to reach.

I can't help but think that maybe God is playing favourites. Or maybe I'm destined to be where I'm now and I have to work my way up. I don't have problems with that but my ageing parents make me worried about the future. I just want to be financially independent so I can spoil them already.

Living is so expensive nowadays. I can barely afford it. I just hope that God will help me as I walk in the dark tunnel and I pray that I'll get to see the light soon. I'm slowly getting demotivated and hopeless. It's like every day is spent only for surviving and not living.

I wish I could have that comfy life one where I can pursue my passion without being scared of what's to happen. I wish I could have that means to fall back on so I can fly without fear.

That's all for now folks. Sorry about that random rant on a hump day.

Enjoy your day!

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