Emotions & Writer's Block

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When I discovered I could efficiently put my thoughts down on paper, in a way a reader would even bother, I realised a talent that could be honed and harnessed.

Imagine my excitement when I found out that I could write and earn a reward in crypto.

I am not a good writer, or at least I don’t know what that actually entails, but I know I can tell my stories exactly how I want them told, so I knew right away there was something here for me.

I had stumbled upon this platform on a local blog; this dude was advertising his affiliate link like it’s the next best thing. Now, I was a bit sceptical at first, because nobody made any corroborative comments on his posts, nobody that commented seemed to know about this platform, everybody was asking if it was for real, but nobody gave an affirming or negating response, even the dude himself didn’t bother to explain what the platform was about.

Well, I knew for one that I could write, and I also know enough about crypto to understand that getting paid in BCH for writing was actually a big deal.

Now I had to find out by myself it is was actually real or not so I jumped right onto the site, I didn’t feel like he explained enough for me to use his affiliate link, so I passed (Sorry dude).

First of all, I perused the site. It felt light and simple, I read through some articles and posts written by older authors and saw the tips they had garnered and I thought to myself, this isn’t going to be hard at all. I mean I read through some posts that seemed like personal journals, real life experience kinds of write up.

 I was a bit more relaxed now because I had thought, given that writers we were going to be getting paid in BCH, posts and articles were going to be strictly crypto based. Well, I was wrong and I couldn’t be happier about it.

I quickly signed up, saved my backup phrase and proceeded to make my first post.

I didn’t know about the platform bot (randomrewarder) until after my first post. When my first post didn’t get any tip, I wasn’t worried because it didn’t take me time to compose it, then I stumbled upon the bot’s handle and read the kinds of articles it was likely to tip and the kinds it wouldn’t and I understood the longer your article, the better your chance to get tipped (Quality matters too).

After I had acquainted myself with Mr Rewarder, I understood why it didn’t tip my first post. It was an ‘I am new here’ post and it doesn’t tip those.

I was On A Roll

I was familiarizing myself with everything on the platform; everything was getting clearer at each login. Shortly after, I wrote my first proper article and within 5 hours of posting, I had been tipped $4 in BCH and that rose to $7 in the next 24hours.

 I dropped 7 more articles in the next 8 to 9 days and the articles were racking up some really exciting numbers, I was awed. Dont get me wrong, the rewards may be small, depending on the part of the world you are reading from, but imagine writing at the speed I was doing and accumulating these little bits and fractions of BCH in your wallet. In no time, you could be holding onto a whole BCH or more, depending on your quality and consistency.

After 2 weeks on the platform, I had racked up a reasonable amount and I thought it was time to make a withdrawal (I still hadn’t believed it was real TBH).

I input my BCH wallet address and sent my reward homebound. LOL. A couple of minutes later, I checked my app and saw an incoming unconfirmed BCH transaction. Now I was truly convinced that this was a legit venture, and my imagination immediately ran away with me.

I continued on my initial roll of writing quality articles and the rewards was all the motivation I needed, because the tips kept coming in and subconsciously, I began painting a very large picture at the back of these incoming rewards, maybe just too big for my own good. LOL

I made another withdrawal a week after the first one and it was such a sweet feeling. These withdrawals were after just merely 3 weeks on the platform, and when I thought about it, the potential that I just uncovered and how it could change my financial dimensions, I was fired up.

 Going into the new year, I had put plans in place to help me raise at least $4k in the first quarter of 2021 for my crypto trading portfolio and for bills. I had made these plans before I knew about this platform but after I became active on the platform, I realised that it had much better potential to raise me this $ sooner, alone than the rest of the other avenues combined. How about that for perspective?

The potential that this platform presented (and still holds for writers) was so overwhelming that the excitement actually disrupted my thought process. I thought to myself, to get to my $4k target quicker, I would have to write certain number of articles daily and a certain grand total monthly. This was totally doable, I thought to myself, but I had something else coming.

 I had my little success on the platform, writing a certain way, my way, a way I have always loved to write, storytelling. I usually fuse real-life experiences, with a bit of fiction and deliver it with a little humour. It was the way I learnt to write, it is the way I figured I am best suited to write. I could write up to 2k words in a matter of an hour and half effortlessly, which was how it was when I was on my roll during my first two weeks here.

My Barren Episode

But because I had already thought ahead to the financial reward, I had already counted the money and even spent it in my mind; I put myself under pressure to churn out articles, the pressure and emotions affected my creativity and numbed my capacity to think in a certain way, to get into a certain state of mind, the state of mind I usually get into where I could write about anything and everything.

I felt like an artist who forgot how to hold his painting brush, I could no longer string words together the way I used to, I couldn’t connect more than two paragraphs together and get them to make sense.

I was really struggling to create and I got the confirmation I needed when I managed to mangle together one raggedy article of 900 words (barely) and the bot didn’t tip me, I wrote another one and got a tip of about $0.36 and that was it. There was trouble and something needed to change, I thought I really needed some help because I think what I was battling with was the writer’s block. LOL

I had actually pressured myself into a block and it was weird, it felt like having blocked nostril during flu season, the more you struggled to breathe, the more you couldn’t breathe and the more your nostril closes further. Hahaha. Swell!

I tried everything I could to get out of the damn episode, but nothing was working. I looked up the internet and tried some of the things suggested, but they were easier said than done. Like the suggestion that said I should try taking my mind off writing, relax and unwind. Well, that sound so cool but not realistic for me, because the more I idled about and did nothing, the more I thought about writing and the more I thought about how much BCH I would have gotten if I could just put out some damn articles. (LOL) and it didn’t help that we were in a bull season and the price of BCH and other major crypto were soaring through the roof.

 

My block episode was taking too long (almost 8 days) and something had to give. I did something that opened up my mind and helped me get into that creative frame of mind again. I wrote a very long rant in a different language and mangled it with English here and there. It was an angry rant and even though it wasn’t written completely in one particular language, it made total sense for anybody who could read and understand the language – Pidgin.

 

The Reasons For My Writer’s Block

 High Expectation: Because of the little success I had experienced, the potential I realized that this place holds, I set too high a target for myself and put myself under a lot of pressure.

 Pressure to Deliver: Because of the high expectations I had placed on my shoulders, the pressure to deliver became too much for me, and this in turn affected my creativity and thus output, in terms of quality.

 Complacency: I had racked up a significant amount within a very short period of time, and it felt so easy. This indirectly got to my head, I felt I could do it with my eyes closed and it changed my frame of mind from agitated and ambitious to relaxed and fulfilled. Such a shame.

 

I am totally out of my barren episode and back to writing again, and I will be dropping the kind of nice articles that got me those very nice rewards, but I am no longer thinking about just the rewards. When I am not writing, instead of calculating unearned rewards, I spend my time reading some of @love_16 articles for perspective. I love the way she writes.

 

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3 years ago

Yeah, you helped me get out of my block. How are you doing?

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3 years ago

I'm doing good. How about you? I guess we can only talk in read cash.

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3 years ago

We could talk outside of readcash. What social media platforms do you use? I have twitter Facebook Telegram Signal Whatsapp. Which one of them are you most active on?

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3 years ago

I only have Facebook 😅

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3 years ago

Whats your username?

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3 years ago

Can you just give yours instead?

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3 years ago

https://www.facebook.com/kelvin.ononiwu.73 This is my burner account, I don't have friends nor profile picture, but we could communicate there, till we are free enough to reveal ourselves. Deal?

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3 years ago

Well I don't have a dummy account. Is your current profile a butterfly? Where are you from?

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3 years ago

Yeah, my picture is a butterfly. I am from Nigeria Where are you from?

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