I am getting impatient and realized.

Dream. Goals. Passion.

For some reason, I am not seeing myself the way I used to see it before.

For some reason, I can see and I can feel that I am just doing this because I have to. I am just doing this because I have no choice. I am just doing this because this is how it should be done.

For some reason, I am getting impatient. And for real, it saddens me.

I am 23 years old, I know I am just too young to feel it this way. I am just too young to be stressed out of the uncontrollable things. I am just too young to be problematic of the things around me.

But why can't I? Can I blame myself for feeling this way?

I have a lot of dreams, both big and small. I wanted to achieve something. I wanted to reach my goals. But I am getting impatient. Why is this? Why I am feeling this way?

After I talked to myself about this. I realized, I am afraid. I am frightened.

I am afraid to fall. I am afraid to fail. I am afraid to be left behind. I am afraid that I may not reach my goals. I am afraid that I will not be successful.

I am afraid of these things. Being afraid instead of getting motivated.

I then realized ...

Others made it, so why can't I? I mean, I do not need to compare myself to others. I am authentic. I should not copy what others did and made. I should create my own. And that is how I will grow. Instead of comparing myself to others, I made sure that I am working on my goals. I should be working on the things that needs to be worked on.

The reasons actually I am feeling impatient is because I am pushing myself to limits in a wrong way. I am insisting to do things right way that actually needs some time to be done. I am trying to serve two masters in one time, which is inappropriate. And I just realized, it is not correct way to achieve goals.

It is one step at a time.

There is already a story line prepared for us. There is already a plan created for us. A blueprint is ready. We just need to realized what it is. We just need to look for a clue to know it. It will be a trial and error. The more you try, the more you learn. And by then, you will get the blueprint. Once you have it, you're done with step one. Next thing to come is for you to work for it.

And yes, while working for the next step we need to expect it not to be an easy road. We need to set our mind that it will be a rough one, but do not forget that there will be a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.

Sometimes as well, we need to look back on how we did the step one. What are the things we used to do and the things we need to improved and applied it on the next step and there we can see that everything starts from scratch and by then, getting these little things together and compiling it at once, it will be a big picture of success.

Getting impatient with the things we wanted to have will be nothing. Controlling things that are uncontrollable will hurt us. Forcing things that are not meant for us will stress us out.

Instead.

Going with the flow and making sure to look at the brighter side and working on the things that should be done in a proper way will always be the first step. And once we passed it, it will be the beginning of the success we are aiming for.

And once we have that success. We can be an inspiration. We can help one another. We can help them continue and work on what they dream of. We can help them realized that it is okay not to be okay, that it is okay to fail, and okay to be afraid. But let them realized as well, it is important to bounce back. It is important to stand again. It is important to strive. We can let them realized the value and the true meaning of success.

Our success will not be ours only, but it will be a success and an inspiration for others. Let's not fail them. Let's help them.

And according to Chris Grosser, "Opportunities don't happen. You create them."

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