3 AM Thoughts. ✨

Hi there people. I am actually on duty as of the moment, however we are avail right now. (Avail means, there's no customer coming in the chat) And with that being said, I have nothing else to do since I do not feel like scrolling on facebook, twitter, and IG. And yes, here I am making the best of my time here in Read Cash. And I will start.

I have a lot of insecurities. With my body, my face, with what I am doing and what I have to do, with success and everything. I mean, why? Others are good and I am not. Others are doing well and I am not. Others are getting successful and I am not. And it makes me feel sick. Day by day, during work and when I am alone, I always cry out of frustration. I will cry my heart out. I will just cry out of nowhere. And it pains me. And it makes me tired.

Just until today, I realized. Why I should act this way? And with that, I came with these following thoughts.

1. LOVE YOURSELF

“Loving myself is my whole life goal until my death. And what is loving myself, what is loving yourself? I don’t know. Who can define their own method and the way of loving myself? It is our mission to define our way to love ourselves.” - Kim Namjoon of BTS

I always say that I love myself. That is always the thing instilled in my mind, however it is not showing the way it should be. I mean, how can I love myself when I feel that I am incomplete? But I was totally wrong. Everything and everyone was made perfectly. And we are unique in our own little way. We should be the one to love ourselves first. Because if not, who will be? How can we expect someone to love us if even we, cannot love ourselves? And that's it. I need to love myself more that anyone do. Hope you too.

2. IT IS NOT YOUR TIME YET

"Behind every successful man there’s a lot of unsuccessful years." Bob Brown

I've always been hungry of success. And I've been afraid of failure. A young dreamer as I should be. Have many thoughts in mind. Wanted to do things. Trying to reach goals. There is actually a definite meaning of success, however I am trying to look at the other side of it, and that is the time I will feel unhappy and unsuccessful. For some reason, there are times that I am getting ungrateful, which I know is wrong and still continue to do so. Until I realized that success is not that easy to achieve. It needs blood, tears, and sweat. That's when I realized, its okay not to be okay and its okay to fail, what's not okay is not bouncing back after you fall. Make sure that if you fall one time, bounce back ten times or more. That, you will be stronger to reach the success you are aiming for. They say, there is really a happy ending. And if you are not happy, it is not yet the ending. Time will tell. And if it is your time already, you will have it. I believe and you should too.

3. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL

This. This is one of the reason that I am eaten by my insecurities. I always see beautiful people. I always see attractive ladies. I always see confident ones. And I am always have this in my mind, "How lucky they are to be that way." I am insecure and I am not confident. Not until I read this quotation, "Only one thing you need to do to become more beautiful is to love yourself and accept yourself the way you are." I already love myself. We are created uniquely. We are beautiful in our own little way. We need to be confident so that the beauty we have from within will reflect on the outside. We are beautiful, no matter what.

4. DO NOT GET SICK, YOU HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO

Stay healthy. That is the only way you will be seen as a beautiful as you can be. Be healthy to be more confident. That you will be able to have more time chasing your dreams and become successful. Do not stress out. Enjoy every single day. Treasure it all. You have a long way to go.

My thoughts may help some readers realized their worth, and some may not. But hopefully soonest all of us would know that we all matters. We should love ourselves.

-MissJo 💜