Observed and fall

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Am I Good? Please bare with my grammar I'm no saint kidding haha

2 years ago

In community: Just Write(e5e5)

Topics: True life story, Smile, Emotions, Past, My day, ...

When you first meet the person, when the first time you saw his/her face, then the fast beating of your heart even you doesn't have any single idea about him/her. You know the famous line "love at first sight"? Then that's not happen to me, because it always feels the first time when I'm with you,

When the first time I see you walking at the corridor of our school, my first impression was weird, you are different, and I'm this curious one who started to observed you everyday,

I spent my time sitting in the hallway, were you always walked through, then to the library where you always spend your time reading, studying, and sometimes I catch you sleeping while holding a book, I found you adorable at that time, I spent hours waiting for you to go out of the class and follow you without you knowing, I found myself following you through a coffee shop nearby after the school ended, you are sometimes cold, and sometimes indifferent but it didn't stop me to get to know you better,

I'm always like this, love watching, a watcher indeed, I'm more on observing than talking, I'm too shy to get close to you and talk but this unexpected encounter on a sunny hot afternoon on the summer day, I was buying an ice coffee for myself when I see the familiar person who sitting on the bench park outside the cafe,

It's you, suddenly I got a confidence and courage to talk to you, I bought one ice coffee for me and tea, I know you don't drink coffee or maybe I just don't see you having one instead you always ordered tea,

I walk towards to you and block the sunlight that hitting on your face I smile when you look up and see me standing, you look at me weirdly and removed your earphones, you asked me what am I doing and that's the first time I hear your voice closely, I just tell you if you could share the sit, you look at the other benches and I could probably slap my self in my thoughts right now because it was all vacant, but I just smile awkwardly and you nod, you were about to put your earphones again when I gave you the tea I bought,

You were shocked but still thanked me, it's not akward sitting with you, I thought you will ignored me but you removed the earphones on your left ears and just start humming while enjoing the tea I gave you, I don't know but I feel so comfortable, at peace, while sitting here with you, I admit that you seems more like attractive that you are when I'm watching you at school,

Maybe it's the hot weather but I feel my face burning red, when you smile and close your eyes humming the song playing on your earphones, you suddenly looked at me and I immediately looked away, I just keep my eyes on my Ice coffee, you just share to me the right earphones so I could relate to you, honestly I'm too shy to take it but yeah it is now or never, I take it and we listen to same music haha I don't know that you are the fan of my favorite band, we got to talk a lot of random stuffs not until you asked me why do I always looking at you,

Now I'm a stuttering messed in front of you, not until you laughed at me because you are always aware of my existence since the first day that you laid your eyes on me, I was shocked to know that coming from you and was embarrassed, I never thought that you noticed me, you were always the same as you were everytime I observed you, but now that I'm this close to you, I get to know you better,

Now that I'm looking at you even you show different expression, I feel warm and comfortable, like home, we wait for the sun to set and we walk in circles in the park, when we already need to separate our ways, you just stop and give me your bracelet as you said a payment for the tea I bought and bid your goodbye

so now this the best summer I had, I wish I could see you again, after this summer end, but no because you already leave the country, I hear from the teachers that you already migrated and that day is the last day you spent here, sometimes I wish we could met in the unexpected places, because even now I can stil vividly remember your face and your smile. I fall to even eveything feels the first time because it is also the last. I'm still stuck to that one sunny summer afternoon.