Can I have it?

10.30.22

So many things that we want to get, and want to have. Some things can make us happy or at least we think can make us happy. As for me, I've been longing to do things that I used to do, used to have.

Instead of thinking I can't have it anymore, let me make a wish list so that we can fulfill what my heart wants or needs.

Let me start...

For Lil B.

She used to have toys when we were in my parent's house. She used to play with her toys now and then and rotated her toys to keep her attention and curiosity going.

When we moved out and transferred here to Tacloban, we didn't bring all of her toys. We were only able to bring a couple of toys that were pocket size and can fit into our bag.

We already bought her a few toys and books but seems like they didn't get her attention or fascination for too long. She wants things to play with like, cleaning, cooking, and other things that I usually do at home.

I wanted to buy more complex toys for her to play with. I also wanted to buy a few things that we used to have back in Marikina, like a stroller to save my back from carrying her, and we need a car seat to keep her safe while we travel.

For Husband

• New sling bag

He's been using the Converse sling bag I bought around 2018. There was a Converse warehouse in Marikina and I bought it on sale along with a pair of shoes at that time.

I gave that back for him to use because he used to have a very very small sling bag and I find it too small for the things that he usually brings. Now the zipper is broken and he needs a new one. It still lasted for years so it was all worth it. I don't want to buy a very cheap bag online because I can't check the quality and yet I don't have any budget to buy him a new one unless I use SpayLater as a payment option.

• Fix his phone

This one I've done this one already. I ordered a battery online for his phone as he still wasn't used to using my phone. He still prefers using his old phone and we found a battery brand that is recommended by most techies from Reddit. It was a bit pricy around $20 but we feel that it's worth it, then buying an unbranded battery that only lasts a month.

• Exercise

I want to exercise with him. When I say exercise, that's an exercise with S at the beginning. Char!!

I admit that even after giving birth I still have that urge but don't have the time and energy to do so. Having a baby gets in the middle of it all!!

• Play computer games

My husband and I love to play mobile games, watch movies and play computer games.

We used to play Mobile Legends when we were still dating and during lockdowns. Then when I got pregnant, we used to play COD or left 4 dead. He also gifted me a Batman Arkham Knight on Steam before I gave birth. Now we purchased Fall Guys from Epic Games and got it for free but we have yet to play that game. We don't have the time to play together. We all know the reason why hahaha!

• Date

Our relationship went so fast and we missed hanging out. We used to go on dates before the pandemic hit.

For me

• Tattoo

It's been years since I had my last tattoo.

I would love to get another one. I want it to be a symbol of my family. I have 4 tattoos which are reminders for me to keep going. Now I want to have something to remind me of my family and something to look at when I feel like the world is turning on me.

• Earrings or piercings

My husband has been reminding me to buy earrings because they might close soon.

Aside from having tattoos, ear piercings tend to divert the emotional pain to physical pain which I can endure.

• Hair dye

I haven't dyed my hair for a while now. I mean with vibrant colors. I used to change my hair colors every month since 2010.

• Nail polish

I also have a mannerism to biting my nails and having nail polish somehow prevents me from doing it.

• Fix my teeth

Looks like my teeth are misaligning now. Plus I haven't been to a dentist since I got my wisdom tooth removed. Now my teeth are starting to have things that I don't want and I may end up losing my teeth too soon hahaha!

• Clothes

I gained weight since I gave birth and all of my clothes don't fit anymore. I got clothes which are hand-me-downs from my sisters. I don't mind having hand-me-downs but the thing is most of my clothes are in Bulacan. I only have a week worth of clothes here with me in Tacloban. Now I am a legit 'hubadera' in the house HAHAHAHA

I may have the things that I want right now because I have to put first what Lil B and my husband needs. My wants are not that urgent so I can still wait and save money so I can have them soon.

Being a mother puts all of our needs and wants the last thing on the list.

I am just waiting for the time that we can recover financially and have things in-line again. Just wait, be more patient.

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