No way. I'm not pregnant.
It was a normal Friday morning when I suddenly woke up. I was heading to the fridge to get water when I felt something gushing through my stomach. I felt a little dizzy and nauseated and immediately went to the kitchen sink and threw up.
I was so shocked when I just saw nothing in the sink except a small amount of my saliva. I am having the weirdest vomiting of my life. I opened the cabinet above the sink to get some pain relievers when something caught me off guard. It is already October and my napkins are still 5 packs. It looks like I didn't touch any of it. Where I normally use each pack per month.
I had a cold realization. I count the months when I haven't had my menstrual cycle. It was last August. I remember being sleepy every day for the last three weeks and having an unusual craving for ripe mangoes. I felt terrified. I remember the night I drank my heart out after failing a lot in life. And forget about how conservative I am and give in to one of the most pleasurable things I ever did in life. which, in turn, is the biggest stupidity I've ever committed.
I was shocked for the whole two hours. I walk back and forth in front of the kitchen table. I am wondering what I should do. Should I call and tell him about the baby even if it's clear to us it was just lust? Should I tell my mother? Should I call my sister? Should I tell my friends?
I returned to my bedroom; the lights are off and all you can see is the light from the window, but it is still dark. I started wondering how it happened when we used protection. I was not crazy enough to try it bare. I sit like a child and sulk in the corner of my bed. I don't know exactly what to do.
Yes, I am single, a breadwinner, and living alone in a studio unit. Abortion is not an option. I did it. I have to take full responsibility for it. It's a sin to kill a baby. No, that won't be an option. I'm not a killer. No No. No.
But I have to work. How would I explain it to my boss? I work on site, and they might probably end my contract immediately after knowing it. How would I raise my baby if that happened? I've got savings, yes. But it is only enough for three months. I've got investments that would last for another 9 months. Okay, I should pull that out. Should I just resign? I should tell my mother I will stop sending money!
But what if I am CS? I can't imagine how much it would cost! I hope philhealth and SSS will help me pay the bills! And I can't work right after giving birth. I should have my own diet and exercise routine! So I could avoid CS.
Should I call my mother to make her the baby sitter? So I can work back after giving birth? How the hell I would send the kid to school? I don't have much savings!
I think I'm going crazy with the changes in my life! To think that I haven't even done anything remarkable in life. And I'm going to give someone another life? I frustratedly comb my hair using my fingers. I hated myself for all the wrong decisions that I've made!
Am I ready for the truth? I should stand up and get ready. I have to consult a doctor to see if my baby is okay. I can still remember that I walked a lot up stairs!
Oh god! It's friday! I have work!
Hey
As random as the picture above I saw this question on facebook and since I don't have a topic for today I have to make a story about it. Also, share how I would be frustrated if I found out that I'm pregnant. 🤣 That was me talking a lot with myself and how would I deal with it.
Clearly, I'm not ready! And I'm an overthinker!
And yes the title is true, no way! I'm not pregnant!  🤣 Coz yikes, I have never been drunk and give in to lust. Uhmm yet. 😹 Charring.
So how would you deal it if it was you that got pregnant?Â
Grabi! HAHAHA click bait yung title eh no. Pero gusto ko din sagutin yan yung question curious din ako if ano gagawin ko if nalaman kong juntis ako 🤣