My first crush 😻

Who was your first crush, and what drew you to them? How long did it last?

I am a shy individual, and I don't know what brings about this in me. Whenever I try to speak with a lady for the first time, it is always like I am facing a huge mountain. But gradually the big mountain keeps depreciating and then this braveness came. But let me call it a pseudo-braveness.

Talking about the word "CRUSH". I wouldn't say I have never heard of a word like that before. I have heard it but I define it to my taste of use. So to me, "crush" is to trample over something and then turn it to pieces. This had been the meaning of crush anywhere I came across it, even till the end of my high school days.

But the more we grow the more we learn. While I got into the university and I was having some conversations with my friend, a lady passed us by, yeah she was black, but not just black alone I would say "black and shine". She is blessed with her natural look and this made her naturally beautiful. So one of my friends then told me that the girl that passed us by is my other friend's crush!. Little me who never knew the meaning of crush in that aspect bypassed the message in relevance to the definition I know. Then I thought my friend already crushed her! (I hope you understand). 😂 and I never knew him for that.

Later on, some years after I overheard some ladies conversation behind me while I was trying to study in the library, then I heard them say "he is my crush and I love him so much, but I can't make it to him" this opened up my brain to the word and I tried to give it some thoughts but I couldn't fathom anything. All I know is that a girl still can't crush a guy. Unless she is a prostitute.. ( my thinking then).

This made me go wild for the meaning of crush not until I watched a movie some days later after I overheard the conversation, then I got the meaning of crush!!!. Oooh, no wonder this was what crush meant!!. Since then I had a lot of ladies I crushed on because I knew the meaning.

Do I have a first crush??

Hummmn.. YES!!!

I have one and this was one of my days at elementary school, she was not my classmate, but we attended the same school. She was in the same class with my younger sister and her brother was also in the same class with my elder brother. I don’t think I could remember their names anymore. Maybe my sister would remember if I asked her. We would have to passby her mother’s shop while going home from school, so this made her walk home with us most of the time.

Back then I never knew much about love or relationships, all I knew was I got attracted to her, the way she dresses, she was light in complexion and the way she speaks makes me always want to listen to her voice. At times when we don’t go home together, I would always feel her presence. This went on for days until we relocated to another environment and we had no option than to change our school too.

Poor me, I left my crush without waving goodbye or telling her anything about our relocation, because if I should tell her anything my brother and sister would be aware I am the one spreading words around about the relocation. Something painful was that some days after my secondary school exams when I got a cell phone and tried to search for her name on social media’s but I never got a fruitful outcome

I hope and wish I could see her again someday.

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