@Mayiee 20 March 2022 more from that month

Discovering myself more through Questions Hello dreamers , happy Sunday to us. I know that most of us is a bit sad because tomorrow is Monday again, meaning to say more school activities and tasks for us. But nevertheless, we should still be grateful at least because we still given a chance to experience the beauty of life even it seems that storms and problems is always coming on our way. I hope that you still able enjoy your Sunday. We should not forget to rest and have some chill out moments. I hang out with my family especially to my 2 nephews because I felt guilty when one of them which is 3 years old said last night to me " *Tita, can you play with me tomorrow? You're always busy on your laptop and studies, I missed playing with you".* I'm a bit sad hearing those words because I can't deny that lately, I always used most of my time to finished my activities and also to work on our thesis so I don't really have time to play with them. So I decided not to hold my phone since in the morning and set aside my activities to play with them. Honestly, I also missed this kind of bonding. Even they are so energetic and hype at least I know that I make them happy today. But I forgot that it is not something connected to my articles tonight , so enough talking about what happened to me today. And because I can't think a topic tonight because I'm literally lowbat, so I will just answering these questions that I saw on social media earlier. Sorry, if it is might be boring for you hehe.

*1.Are you doing what you truly want to do?* I guess somehow, I able to do the things that I really love to do. Choosing and studying the course where I see my future profession. Somehow helping those random peoples who is really in need. Starting investing in agribusiness. But there's still a missing piece to it and I can't determine what is that. All I know is that I'm still eager on exploring and searching for the things that makes me really happy. So my answer is really somehow haha. *2.How many promises you have made and how many of them you have fulfilled?* I'm honestly not used to say a promise or swear to myself because I believe that some of them is meant to be broken. I also hate hearing promises especially when I know that she/he can't keep that one. I also don't want to disappoint myself if ever I didn't fulfilled that promise. So I guess I'm more doing actions than promises. *3.Will you break the rules because of something /someone you cared about?* Definitely yes especially when I know that thing or person is really worth it to fight for. I actually break the rules of my parents once before. They didn't allow me to drive a motorcycle especially when I don't have anyone to accompany me. But one time, my friend called me crying. She seems so determine to end her life that night and I was so scared what might happened to her. So I immediately get the motor key of my brother to go the my friend's house. When I was there, I witnessed how she fearlessly hold the knife and she is also so wasted because she is drank. Her family don't have an idea on what's happening to their daughter because they are so busy on their work. My friend is alone on their house and good thing that she listen to me. I honestly can't remember what advices I give to her because I'm also crying that time. And good thing that my parents especially my Mom didn't get mad on me because I fully explained to them what happened. But after that, they hide the motor keys because they also said that it is also dangerous for me to drive eheh. *4.Is there anything you can't let go but you know you should?* My past. All about my past. I admit that at this moment of my life, I can't still move on on the death of my 2 best friends and my Dad. It almost a years but still, the pain is wandering within me. I know that I should move on from it and move forward. But I can't because they died at the same day of my birthday. That's also the reason why I don't want to celebrate my birthday. *5.Do you remember anyone you hated 10 years ago? Does it matter to you know?* I can't remember that I hated someone else. Maybe it's just a misunderstanding sometimes but not to the point that I hated him for too long. I don't know how to instill anger to someone. If they apologize to me, I immediately forgive them. But if they don't say sorry, I still forgive them throughout the time. *6.If you'd die now, would you have any regrets?* I still want to be alive but if ever I will die now, I don't think that I have any regrets in life. I believe that 21 years of being alive is already a big reward and blessings for me. And we should not be afraid to death because it is everybody's ending. *7.Are you afraid of making mistakes even though there's no punishment at all?* Before I considered myself as a perfectionist one, I want everything to be perfect or at least good so at some point I'm afraid on making mistakes. But as I grow older, I also learn that making mistakes is not a crime instead it sometimes teach us some lessons that we could used on the future especially when it comes to decision making. Instead of being afraid, we should accept the fact that it is normal to us being a human being but at the end of the day, we should not also tolerate ourselves to commit the same mistakes for the second time around. *8.What's the difference between you and most of the other people?* They say that everyone has their own uniqueness but unfortunately I don't know what is the thing that is unique on me. Maybe my laziness to the highest level char hahaha. But I really can't think of my difference from other people. I'm not used in comparing myself also that's why I can't notice that thing hahaha. *9.Have I built my character?* Of course, we should. Character is one of the most important aspect of our life right? So we should mindful on the characters that we possess because it is something that can define us. I can say that what you see on me is the real character that I want to portrayed in life. *10.If today'd be the end of the world, what would you do?* Of course I will talked to God, maybe there's a reason behind those happenings. I will tell to Him that if it really the end, I would accept it but I also prayed that I hope that no one will deeply suffered on this ending. Aside from that, I will hug my family because it might be the last hugs that I can make to them. So yeah, I guess I already finished the Questioning Myself portion. I honestly this questions an interesting one because I can able to answer those questions that I can barely hear. I also realize that there's always a way on know more truths about ourselves. All we need to do is to discover it. I hope that some of the questions here will also be my guide in order to step in on my tomorrow's journey in life. We couldn't say what might happened in the future but one thing is for sure, we deserve to show the real us.🤗💚 Thank you so much dreamers for your unending supports to me. I highly appreciated you a lot. Always prioritize your well being okay? 🤗