When a person has a bad time, the person he loves gives him courage and inspiration. Never leave him alone like this. As Sadaf left me. I needed him most during this time but he ran away in danger like a coward. Didn't Sadaf know?
Looking at his face, I could spend days and nights without eating. Didn't he know? I could spend every night with my head on his chest in the pull of his love.
Didn't he know? I was happy wherever he put me. Then why did you do that to me? Did I have a crime? Did I make a mistake?
He could have told me if I was wrong. Why did it go like this? The answer to these questions is unknown to me. Still very curious. What was lacking in my love that he betrayed me so much? Insulted my love.
Today is the day Sadaf left me. This was one of the hardest days of my life. This one day seemed like a year to me. I didn't put anything in my mouth, not even a drop of water. I just looked at Sadaf's letter and thought of all the strange things.
When Jahanara came and saw me in this condition, she too could not hold back her tears. She knows our love, I told her everything. I said how much Sadaf loves me. Maybe no one in the world can live so well. Sadaf loves me so much that I can't love more. Today my love for Jahanara turned out to be a lie.
Jahanara took good care of me that day. Maybe without him I would have died on the floor. When I had tears in my eyes, it rained with my eyes even though I didn't want to cry. Then Jahanara would wipe away my tears. It would give me courage. It showed a thousand reasons to survive. I wanted to live by listening to him. Again, when he thought of Sadaf, he wanted to die.
When I told Jahanara everything openly. I have no money. There was a man in this town whom I left in love with him, but he deceived me. There is no one known to know except you. You tell me what to do?
Then Jahanara put her hand on mine and said. He who has no one has God. People are for people. Such a big house can't give us a place to stay? We are not such bad people. From today you will be in my room with me. As long as you want. No one will tell you anything. And my living room is a little far from my family. So you will not be uncomfortable.
Sadaf and I left the flat and started living with Jahanara. Jahanara was afraid I might do something if I was alone so she took me to her house. Besides, no one will leave my flat alone. Two days after I left, the new tenant shifted there.
I was studying in Honors third year. I thought if Sadaf did something, I would be admitted again with honors but that did not happen. However, Jahanara arranged for my admission in Honors. Gathered some tuition for me. He also gave some money. With which I was admitted to Honors. At one point I got very busy. The struggle of my life began. As a girl, I used to do three tuitions a day. I used to take regular classes in varsity. But in the midst of all this, I could not forget Sadaf. It's been almost a month since Sadaf left. A lot has happened in this one month. I tried to fix myself, I don't know how much I did. Forgetting the past, I have tried in vain to be good with the present. I tried to call home many times but did not dare. Which face will I call home? What should I say?
I ran away with a boy. I stayed in the same flat with him for about two months. Dad may not be able to bear to hear all this. The mother may forget thinking she is a bad girl. So many times I have been looking at the screen to find out the number, I did not even go to dial.
There are clouds in the sky today. Looks like it's going to rain. Jhum rain. When I think of this rain, I think of Sadaf very much. How many times I have been soaked in the rain. I walked in the rain holding Sadaf's hand over the green grass of the village. Sadaf knew that if he got wet in the rain, he would get fever and cold. Yet he would get wet with me for my pleasure. Never would. Because he knew how much I liked the rain.
Because it was in this rain that Sadaf told me he loved me. That afternoon. I was soaking in the rain and touching the sky with a fascination in my mind. Just then a boy with a bunch of footsteps told me that he loved me. That day I ran home in shame and anger. What a cruel irony of fate. After a while, I got involved in my life with that boy. That boy was Sadaf. But all this is now past. It does not currently exist.
Suddenly Jahanara came and sat beside me and I did not notice. How long will you hurt yourself like this?
- I don't know.
- You talk at home once. Maybe forgetting everything will pull you closer again. Thousands but parents. They can never leave a child. Even if the child makes a thousand mistakes, they forgive.
- I don't have that courage.
- Talk to you soon. Maybe they are still counting the days waiting for you. They are waiting for their daughter to come back to them. I forgot everything when I called. Then mother picked up the phone and started crying.
What have I been doing for so long without talking to us? Didn't you remember us once? Your father had a stroke after you left. I was very scared. I've given you a lot of calls. Your phone doesn't seem to be busy. You leave, mother. Your father has forgotten everything.
- Mom, forgive me. I made a big mistake.
When I told her everything, she just said don't worry. Your parents are still alive. The next day my father came and took me. That day I ran and fell at my father's feet. But the father did not let him fall on his feet, he hugged his chest.
In fact, no matter what we say, there is no one like parents. No matter how bad the boys and girls are, they are innocent to their parents.
Sitting in the room, I was looking through the window at the strange environment of my own village. What a beautiful sight! At that time my father came to the room and sat next to me. How are you feeling now?
- Good. You didn't go to the office today.
- No, the office is closed today. Your uncle brought a wedding for you. The boy is very good, the boy's family is also very good. I'm not telling you to get married. Here is the boy's picture and phone number. I want to talk.
Saying the words, the father left. Despite not wanting to, I looked at my father's face and called the boy. Because I know it's not Mama's job. Dad did it for me. I can do so much for such a good father.
To be continued. Thank you
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