Lonely life (story)

I decided to get married. Because the children are busy with their families. They are now established. They don't have time to look for me. Do you think my decision will make them feel bad, self-esteem? Yet I will not back down from my decision. I have been a widow for thirty years.

I never brought these feelings of love and dislike to my head. Now I have to bring it, because I am helpless. There is no one to look at in solitary life. There is no one person to talk to, I am just alone. I got married after the metric test.

The husband worked on the ship. Three days after the marriage, I fell in love with my husband after seeing him from behind. Looks exactly like the prince of dreams. In the old days, many girls in our time could not see their husbands even for four or five days, especially in the villages. Shame did not lift the veil.

In the modern age, they meet before marriage and settle their differences. I became the mother of two children in three years of marriage. Son Saiful and daughter Laboni. In a family without mother-in-law, the responsibility of the family full of father-in-law and sister-in-law is on my shoulders. I don't know how you are.

The mind is just fidgeting. Shame on you, I went to my father-in-law and sat down. Dad, my mind has become very restless. I have not received any letter from your son in the last month. There is no way to get the news or try.

I am having a bad dream tomorrow. But there is no way to get the news. I was waiting, maybe he will come home, so I didn't send a letter. Twenty-five days later two men came with the news that my husband was missing in the sinking of the ship, he could not be found. The ship was on its way to Pakistan when it sank in a severe cyclone.

Widow at the age of nineteen, I have lost the prince of my dreams, he will never come to me again. Losing my husband, I forgot in a heartbreaking cry that he has left two marks for me. My father-in-law went to comfort me and he went to the boy. Mourning over mourning. I had to digest all my misery by taking my two children, Debor Nanad, in my arms.

From then on, the struggle for survival began. Two sisters Rozina and Farzana. Uncle Ra took the responsibility of Nanad's marriage. Three months after Rozina's marriage, little Nanad Farzana got married. Debor Rafiqul then went to college. I became a widow at a young age, my father wanted me to remarry.

I can't put anyone else in the place of the husband I feel in every nonsense. One by one the room became empty. I stopped breathing. My mother would come and stay for a while, and when she left, she would be surrounded by emptiness again. I am alone in the house with the two children. As the day went on and the night came, I could feel him in the silence of the night. But I could not get his touch, I would cry in the middle of the night. Rafiqul lived in another house.

One day Rafiqul said let's go to town. I lost two at the same time and I can't lose anyone. At first I didn't agree but when my father and I agreed, I agreed. Really his memory is hindering my life. If I continue like this, I will become a human being. I can't make my children human. I sold everything here and moved to the city. They bought the new house in my name. My younger brother got married a few months later, and my father died five months later. Then my mother came to me at once.

After a year, my mother and I left. Thirty years have passed since then. The son moved to London for a doctorate degree, where he married and settled. He married the girl and the boy of his choice with love. My responsibility was only to raise them, to teach them to move on.

When they learned to walk on their own, they forgot their mother was alive. They didn't need my opinion. No, I have no anger or arrogance towards them. My pride is on the man who left me alone, destitute. Even today I am still holding on to the memory of that man.

Even today I am alone. Then my kids were all over Cole. Now they are too far away from me, I can't touch them if I raise my hand. Little Nanad Farzana raised the issue of e-marriage, the first day she could not control herself after listening to him, I slapped him hard on the cheek. Do you want to erase the memory of your dishonest brother? Later I came to know that Morshedul Haque, the husband of his elder brother-in-law Morshedul Haque, a former Air Force officer, has been living a lonely life like me for fifteen years. After listening to everything, I also agreed. In the last age one needs a partner with whom one can at least talk about happiness and sorrow.

When brother-in-law Rafiqul called and told the boy, the boy immediately became excited! - Are you talking nonsense, little uncle? Have you ever thought about your mother's age? Mom is fifty-one years old now, and someone gets married at this age !? I don't know if anyone does, but we will do it. It's up to you to decide.

After a while, the boy called me directly and wanted to know what the little uncle was saying. You heard right. Honestly I will get married. - You're not ashamed mom! You are saying that you will get married at this age.

Why, father, did I leave you small? I didn't do it then, I did my duty. But what are you doing? You have done your duty? Leaving me alone, you are rejoicing with your son and daughter. Once upon a time you thought of a lonely mother? He hung up the phone. - After a while, the girl is calling and saying, mother, please, my husband will not have respect for me in the in-laws' house.

Now you have a lot of respect. Nare Labu, the day I ran away and got married alone, did you even think about my mother once? Only if I get married, your head will be cut off, there will be no respect! Do you love brothers and sisters? I have no value to you? - Mother, these are nothing but your Bhimrati. These are just an excuse to get married.

If I rotted alone in the house, your value and respect would have been maintained, right? And without further ado, Laboni became my little girl.

Finally got married. But I will never go to her house. He and I will stay in this house. This marriage is not for family. The reason for this marriage is to end loneliness. At this age a man is very much needed to be by your side.

I don't feel bad, but I don't think I have replaced my husband. Because his place will remain empty forever. The children misunderstood me. They did not understand me. I do not know if they will break the mistake? Yet I will continue to pray until death, may the Creator keep them in peace and happiness.

Many diseases have taken root in my own life. I do not know when the call comes? I will just call both of them and tell them that if I die, you will not come, your value and respect will go away. If you can, forgive me from afar. You are very, very good.

Thank you for reading.