Family is the basic unit of the society. Parents are the first teacher of the new generation. They are the ones who mold, nurture and loved their kids. But what if they will be the reason of their distress, their rebellion and their broken soul.
Meet Ivy, she's now a Senior High School student with GAS strand. Came from a broken family and had dark past because of her family. How can she manage to survived ? How will she live her life?
"Where are you from Iv?" her mom ask.
"It's none of your business." she replied emotionless without looking to her mother and start walking towards her room living her mom dumbfounded of the attitude she gave.
She is brilliant but she inflect so much bad influences to her classmates. She smoke, drinks and invites her classmates to cut class. She's always away from the supposed to be her home. She loved to go to the bar to spend all night with friends. She always go home at dawn.
It's not like the first time she acts that way towards her in 18 years of her existing. She was already showing attitude towards her since she and her dad broke up when she was just 8 years old. It just gotten worst when her mom found new guy to replace her dad and even worser when her stepdad arrived the house. His dad give dirty looks on her and shows interest in her but her mom do nothing about it.
When she's in her room, she can't hold herself but cry. She never wanted to be in the place where her soul broke. She cry and cry and until she couldn't feel her eyes and finally drawn to sleep.
"No. Please. No. Have mercy on me. Please" she beg herself while crying. She tried to escape from the big man in her front holding her two hands and pinned her on the floor.
"Please Tito Bryan please don't do this to me". She tried with all her might and effort but she fail. With her teenage years and thin body, she definitely can do nothing. The evil stepdad of her's continue her evil plan and position himself infront of her. Striping off all what's left in her.
"No!" She scream with all her voice and she wakes up. It was a nightmare. Her sweat is running, dripping all over her body. It's the nightmare that keeps on visiting her and makes her hate sleeping. Thus she always chose to drawn herself of alcohol and many other vices.
It's almost year now when the incident happen but she wasn't able to overcome it and she hate herself even more. Maybe because she saw him everyday. Maybe because he still has freedom and did not pay for what he had done to her. She was more than furious because the freedom that he obtain is because of her mother. The person she expected to protect her among any other but she's wrong. She told her what happened but she was furious and told her she's lying and a slut. She called her names and accuse her that she just wanted to make her stepdad out of the house. She also tried to make her leave but she begged. She begged with her own mother to not abandon her. She was just 10 that time. She doesn't know where to go. Or what to be done. Her mom agreed but of one condition, to keep silent and live life in the house like she never existed. She did it. She do as she says. After that she change so much. She become the girl she hated to be. She own knife and put it near her. She is afraid of her own shadow. She become mad of all the things that had happen.
She cried even harder and hug herself. She miss her dad so much, her superhero. She is a daddy's girl since she's a little kid. She miss his hugs and his very comforting voice. When her parents got separated she couldn't see his father anymore. Her mother never allowed him to visit even once. She doesn't know where he is and how he is doing. Some part of her is angry with her dad for not doing something just to see her. But the feelings of missing him over powered just the thought of him.
She is sick of it. Of all the things she is experiencing. She hate pretending that nothing happens. She is so sick and tired of it all. Everytime she feel tired she thought of ending her own life. She think it's the only solution to end the pain and sufferings. It's too much for her, she can't handle it.
She get up on the bed, it's 2 o'clock in the afternoon. Her stomach vibrates in hunger. She needs to eat. She went to the closet and search for clothes to wear, took a quick shower and went outside. She went to Aling Mer's stall of food and order something to eat. Everytime she has hangover from drinking the previous night she always comes to order Aling Mer's soup. She loves it, aside from the reason that it's her favorite place. It is near the town plaza where she could see kids with their parents playing. She loves the ambiance and it reminds her of her dad. They use to go there when she's still a kid. He always play with her in the slides and swing. The huge bell of the church near the plaza rang. It's sounds music in her ears and it's like inviting her to come inside. She was hesitant, she was never there after his mom and dad broke up. For her, it has a better sweet memories inside. Her chest hurt and she hardly breath.
"Are you alright Iv?" Ask Aling Mer.
She couldn't answer and hurriedly Aling Mer get some water for her.
"Here. Drink some water." said Aling Mer while assisting her to drink water.
"Inhale. Exhale. Breath" Aling Mer tried to help her normalize her breathing.
She do what Aling Mer tells her to do and she slowly gain some air and strength to breath.
"Thank you Aling Mer" she smiled weakly.
Aling Mer smiled in returned while nodding.
She meet her eyes full of questions but her mouth never open. She smiled again and asks if she's fine now. She nod.
She pays the food and leave the place. The bell continue ringing and but she ignore it completely.
She felt so much unworthiness to even give a glance and step inside. So, she decided not to. She's not ready yet. But she know she will.
Soon.
To be continued.....
-margarette01