Turning unlucky faith into lucky one
I'm searching for my luck almost month now and I still couldn't found it. Have you seen my luck by any chance?
3 weeks ago
My friend encourage me to enter online flat forms that would earn BCH. I told her that my cellphone is not capable of such flat forms. It is just a local and cheap cellphone since I am contented and is not willing to spend so much in whatever gadgets. As long as I can call, text and chat through messenger and Facebook that would be fine for me. Few days after she encourage me again,she let me see her earnings from the different accounts she has. Seeing the value of the digits in her BCH wallet I was amazed. I asked so many questions about the flat forms and get interested on how BCH works.
To make the long story short, I was encouraged to try the flat forms she introduced to me. But sad to say that my phone, as what I've said earlier, it's not capable of exploring such flat forms. And it is necessary for me to have new cellphone in order for me to have an account.
Few days later, she chatted me about a home credit cellphone and she would get herself too. I am not sure what to do, if I would get myself a new phone too. But guess what ?
Yeah, your right, I get myself a home credited phone.
As planned, I made myself an account and started exploring. I start making stories right after. I made my first story about myself, but I earn nothing. I was bad at making stories, that even the random rewarder didn't like it. I am down, but my friend continue to encourage me. Well, she's right it's just the first. So, I've published my second story, I've waited days and guess what?
I still didn't earn any penny.
Well, it's just first week maybe next week so, while waiting I published my third story.
Another week had passed.
And I still didn't earn. What a luck !
I feel so unlucky.
I don't know maybe, I am so bad in flat form like this. So, I decided......
To........
Continue.
Right, you've read it just right I still continue. Inspite and despite the unluckiness that I've face.
I am here writing. I love writing but maybe writing don't like me at all.
Well, as long as the flat form will not kick me out, I will put this of good use and advantage to discover my writing skills.
Maybe just maybe, my unluckiness turn into a luck.
Einstein become successful of his discovery before failing so many times, and many other successful individuals. I, too had to surpass those failure.
For I believe that there is no such unlucky situations that happen in our life, only challenges. What you need to do is to accept those challenges and turn those unlucky situations into lucky one and see it as opportunities to become best version of ourselves.
-Margarette
The Long Sleeve
"Here take some of the clothes that is not use, my daughter bought it from Canada" Aling Rose happily tells her neighbor to pick some clothes in the box that her daughter gave her.
Bregette, Aling Rose sister, is hesitant to pick clothes in the box because it's very unusual for her sister to give her belongings to other people. She knew that Aling Rose never done something like that. They are neighbors since Rose husband died, and she knew what kind of attitude her sister has. But because Aling Rose is very persistent she end up picking a navy blue long sleeves in the box.
Bregette loves it in the very first time she saw it in the box. It has a turtle neck design and a zipper in both sides, and it has a cute ribbon in the end of each sleeve. She's thankful to her sister, Rose. She's happy to receive such gift from her because since they had each other she never receive any gift from her. Hesitant but she is so happy.
She is very excited and decided to wear it on Sunday at Church. She also decided to pair it with her favorite slacks and her doll shoes. That very same day, because of her happiness, she brings food to her sister Rose as a thank you.
Sunday Morning
Bregette wakes up early and prepare herself for church. She take a bath and decided to iron the long sleeves that she received from her sister Rose and her slacks. She even pick up flowers from her garden to bring it to the church and also candles. She is so happy and came to church early.
In the Church
Bregette sets in front of the church because she doesn't want to be disturb. She just done lighting her candles and place her flowers in the altar. She start her prayers and by the time she is done, people are started to gather and occupying all the seats. She eyed her sister not far from her sitting in the left side of the church. The mass started. The time of shaking hands has come and she started to roam and shake everybody's hand inside of the church. She shake her sister's hand with a wide smile. Her sister stare at her when she sees her beautiful long sleeves. Her smile widen and greet her as a sign of peace. But her eyebrows narrowed. Her face form into a frown which she never expected. She is clueless of what happened but she continues shaking hands to everybody.
After church
She is ready to go out when her sister came to her and ask her.
"That's my long sleeve",Rose told her without hesitation.
"Yes. You gave to me". She answered
"No, I didn't. I was searching this for awhile now", she responded with high tone of voice.
People are now watching them.
"You forgot? That you gave this to me the other day?" She explained.
Bregette is a bit shy, she started to walk out of the church to avoid creating commotion inside the church.
"Where do you think you're going?
I'm still talking to you" Rose said.
"Let's not talk about that here, let's go to the house?" she calmly asked.
But Rose seems no plan that's why she hold her hand and guide her outside the church while Rose continue to accuse her of stealing the long sleeve. She ignored it as if she did not hear anything but she heared everything, she just hold her temper for so much reason. She walks faster, not holding Rose anymore. Rose is now following her and they are almost in the house.
In the house
Rose continue her sermons and accusitions to her. She couldn't hold her temper anymore.
"Are you done now? I can't believe you for doing that infront of many" asked Rose.
"No. Because you stole my long sleeve" Rose insisted.
"No. Off course not. You forgot the day you let the neighbors pick anything in the box that came from Canada? This is one of the clothes in that box." She exclaimed.
"No, I couldn't remember giving that long sleeve. How can I gave that to you?" She shouted.
"So, your accusing me now?" Bregette asked.
"No, I'm not accusing you because you really took it. You maybe took it when,......when I hang it on the clothes line" Rose continue.
Bregette can't believe her sister. She's so upset that she can't hold her tears. She knew that she can't win this fight. She knew her that whatever she think and want to believe, whatever she says will be useless.
Because of so much anger, hatred and pain, she went to the kitchen, get the scissors go back to Rose. And infront of Rose she cut the long sleeve. All her feelings of anger and hatred she put to the clothes that is the reason of everything. She cut it into tiny pieces.
"Here's your long sleeve that I stole"
Shattered pieces
Family is the basic unit of the society. Parents are the first teacher of the new generation. They are the ones who mold, nurture and loved their kids. But what if they will be the reason of their distress, their rebellion and their broken soul.
Meet Ivy, she's now a Senior High School student with GAS strand. Came from a broken family and had dark past because of her family. How can she manage to survived ? How will she live her life?
"*Where are you from Iv*?" her mom ask.
"*It's none of your business*." she replied emotionless without looking to her mother and start walking towards her room living her mom dumbfounded of the attitude she gave.
She is brilliant but she inflect so much bad influences to her classmates. She smoke, drinks and invites her classmates to cut class. She's always away from the supposed to be her home. She loved to go to the bar to spend all night with friends. She always go home at dawn.
It's not like the first time she acts that way towards her in 18 years of her existing. She was already showing attitude towards her since she and her dad broke up when she was just 8 years old. It just gotten worst when her mom found new guy to replace her dad and even worser when her stepdad arrived the house. His dad give dirty looks on her and shows interest in her but her mom do nothing about it.
When she's in her room, she can't hold herself but cry. She never wanted to be in the place where her soul broke. She cry and cry and until she couldn't feel her eyes and finally drawn to sleep.
"*No*. *Please. No. Have mercy on me. Please*" she beg herself while crying. She tried to escape from the big man in her front holding her two hands and pinned her on the floor.
"*Please Tito Bryan please don't do this to me*". She tried with all her might and effort but she fail. With her teenage years and thin body, she definitely can do nothing. The evil stepdad of her's continue her evil plan and position himself infront of her. Striping off all what's left in her.
"*No!"* She scream with all her voice and she wakes up. It was a nightmare. Her sweat is running, dripping all over her body. It's the nightmare that keeps on visiting her and makes her hate sleeping. Thus she always chose to drawn herself of alcohol and many other vices.
It's almost year now when the incident happen but she wasn't able to overcome it and she hate herself even more. Maybe because she saw him everyday. Maybe because he still has freedom and did not pay for what he had done to her. She was more than furious because the freedom that he obtain is because of her mother. The person she expected to protect her among any other but she's wrong. She told her what happened but she was furious and told her she's lying and a slut. She called her names and accuse her that she just wanted to make her stepdad out of the house. She also tried to make her leave but she begged. She begged with her own mother to not abandon her. She was just 10 that time. She doesn't know where to go. Or what to be done. Her mom agreed but of one condition, to keep silent and live life in the house like she never existed. She did it. She do as she says. After that she change so much. She become the girl she hated to be. She own knife and put it near her. She is afraid of her own shadow. She become mad of all the things that had happen.
She cried even harder and hug herself. She miss her dad so much, her superhero. She is a daddy's girl since she's a little kid. She miss his hugs and his very comforting voice. When her parents got separated she couldn't see his father anymore. Her mother never allowed him to visit even once. She doesn't know where he is and how he is doing. Some part of her is angry with her dad for not doing something just to see her. But the feelings of missing him over powered just the thought of him.
She is sick of it. Of all the things she is experiencing. She hate pretending that nothing happens. She is so sick and tired of it all. Everytime she feel tired she thought of ending her own life. She think it's the only solution to end the pain and sufferings. It's too much for her, she can't handle it.
She get up on the bed, it's 2 o'clock in the afternoon. Her stomach vibrates in hunger. She needs to eat. She went to the closet and search for clothes to wear, took a quick shower and went outside. She went to Aling Mer's stall of food and order something to eat. Everytime she has hangover from drinking the previous night she always comes to order Aling Mer's soup. She loves it, aside from the reason that it's her favorite place. It is near the town plaza where she could see kids with their parents playing. She loves the ambiance and it reminds her of her dad. They use to go there when she's still a kid. He always play with her in the slides and swing. The huge bell of the church near the plaza rang. It's sounds music in her ears and it's like inviting her to come inside. She was hesitant, she was never there after his mom and dad broke up. For her, it has a better sweet memories inside. Her chest hurt and she hardly breath.
"Are you alright Iv?" Ask Aling Mer.
She couldn't answer and hurriedly Aling Mer get some water for her.
"Here. Drink some water." said Aling Mer while assisting her to drink water.
"Inhale. Exhale. Breath" Aling Mer tried to help her normalize her breathing.
She do what Aling Mer tells her to do and she slowly gain some air and strength to breath.
"Thank you Aling Mer" she smiled weakly.
Aling Mer smiled in returned while nodding.
She meet her eyes full of questions but her mouth never open. She smiled again and asks if she's fine now. She nod.
She pays the food and leave the place. The bell continue ringing and but she ignore it completely.
She felt so much unworthiness to even give a glance and step inside. So, she decided not to. She's not ready yet. But she know she will.
Soon.
To be continued.....
-margarette01
Meet me
Simple is the best thing to discribe me. Simplicity is my motto in life.
I grow in a simple family. I have simple dreams in life and that is to give my parents a good life and live happily. I have simple joy, fish tinola can make me smile. I rejoice over simple victory, just like making my parents proud. Or even waking up with good health. I have simple outlook in life, to be happy and peaceful. I have simple prayers, to surpass daily struggles. I have simple house, not cemented but still with roof that covers us during rain and shine. Simple things, clothes that covers our body. Simple food to be shared with.
Yet we are happy. How come?
I came from a poor family, farther is a farmer and a carpenter. Mom is a full time house wife. We are 4 siblings and I am the youngest. When were young, mother and father decided that we will go to father's home town since we are all -4 siblings born in mother's home town. When we arrived in father's town we don't have house yet so, father decided that we will stay in the mountain (bukid) for the mean time. My siblings stopped going to school. We have small house there, we all just fit. Every morning we go to the river to wash clothes, take a bath and sometimes catch some crabs, shrimp and fish. Every night we use lamp made from cloth rolled in a bottle with gasoline in it in order to have light in the house. Every saturday, father go down to the town to buy our basic needs. He always went home with bread and we are always excited to meet him in the yard.
After 2 years we go down from the mountain and live in the town. We started going to school again with 1 or sometimes nothing in the pocket. Yet we still manage to finish primary level. We have a small garden that serves us our small source of income. Every morning before going to school we sell different vegetables. Bringing a basin on top of head shouting "utan ! Utan mo diha!". To let the neighborhood knows we sell something. After selling we go to school and after class we are assigned to watered the vegetables in the garden. We also have rice field that we took care. It's not ours but we just take care of it. From that we get rice and from the from the garden we get viand. Some other time we sell delicacies in the neighborhood too in order to meet daily needs such as gas for the lamp, soap for clothes and bath, shampoo is not necessary because we just use coconut oil as a shampoo.
Everyday live life like that. We earn just the amount we need. But we can still buy things if we want to but chose not to because it's not necessary. We live simply but happily. Life teaches us that we can still be happy even on the simple life we are living. Life teaches us -children to be wise in every actions and decision making. The life that we live teaches us to be contented on what we have. We learn to be grateful in everything we had because God provided what we need every.
Life challenge us. Storms toast us, hurts us and even burn us, yet it did not make us bitter in life but make us appreciate simple things. It teaches us to look around and see the difference on others. Their are lots of people who don't have hands, feet, babies who doesn't even have a change to see the beauty of life. People who have disabilities -blind, deaf and etc. Kids who have broken family, did not have the chance to have shelter, food and even go to school.
Let us appreciate life. Be contented and be grateful.
-margarette01
@Margarette01