The Vacation is Already in Front of Me.

It’s been safe hours again. It is time for moments like these again. I have been missing saying emotions like this. It is because it’s been a long time since I held these feelings. I actually don’t know how to feel about these things already because my main concern right now is my final activity. I set aside my emotions just to survive the past two months. It’s going well, to be honest. I am holding to the idea that whenever 8 pm comes in, I must not trust my feelings. It is actually fun because I felt relieved at some points. I learned something that I took as a personal concern and could be taught as well to others, but I think I must keep it because of how diverse we are. The feelings I am feeling might not the same as what you are feeling.

Aside from those things, I am grateful and overjoyed to say that I already finished the second semester.  We just finished the last activity yesterday, which was a group activity yet the most complicated among my last activities.  It was a big relief to me as I finally met the verge of this academic year. You know, it was a long journey, I would say. The things that happened this academic year to me were somehow blessing in disguise because I learned something that I didn’t imagine I will learn at that moment—an indeed unexpected experience. What has happened to me between the president was a lesson to me as I learned to enjoy my life more privately. She was the opposite of me that I would say I will never want to meet again. Some people could say that I might low of soft to feel the feelings I felt about what she dealt with us, but they were never right because they never experienced being betrayed and lied to. Nevertheless, I am still their vice president, but I already retired from it before the second semester started. It was another lesson for me that I can’t handle such a position because I don’t have the power to urge people with their concerns. Maybe, that was because I am too scared of them but it was a personal matter I could say.

Anyway, my vacation already started. I already packed things that I missed to experience. I already messaged some colleagues and planned to meet them even though their classes haven’t ended yet. They already agreed on the plan so my hopes are enormous as of now.  I am also planning the things I want to achieve this vacation but some of them are still blurry. But the thing that I am sure of right now is my journey on this site. I have no academic agendas this vacation—or if there might be, I think those were the enrollment for the next academic year—so I will put my energy and days here on this site and will grind writing. I don’t remember very well if I said that writing is not really my forte but I came up with the idea again that you will become fond of the things you usually do, and eventually love it. I love writing, especially here. If there is a place that I would take as a safe place, there is nothing I could say but “there.” And that “there” is nobody but the site that is my go-to.

Watching Korean drama suddenly became a thing as well to me. There is a series that I am watching before I go to bed that I relate to so much and even made me cry in the middle of the night. I will share my experiences with that drama soon but there will be another article for that.  I guess these are all for now. I hope for more good days for us, especially for the students like me as well that still haven’t gotten their vacation yet. With all our strength, perseverance, and hopes, we will pass all the burdens and challenges we have.

Thank you for reading this article.

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