Awaken
September 17, 2021
These past days I wake up lost and always feeling so tired, I feel like there is no sense of living at all. Many questions are circling my head and thought that I can`t control is slowly consuming me. Despite all of this feeling, I try to continue my day making the same things or choirs every day. I try to be normal and I did not think about it a lot, but there are times that tears just automatically pour out of our eyes and I think that is a sign that we are so full or tired about what is happening. We always try to hide the memories that cause us pain, memories that give us the sense of regret, and many other things that make us uncomfortable. We always hide those things because we are afraid to face them? or we`re just too numb to care?
This past day since the beginning of September I always say to my said that what will happen, will happen and I don`t care what will be the outcome, that is the greatest lie a man can tell to himself. Since the beginning of September, I did nothing I just lie in bed and write on read cash every night, that is what I`m doing every single day. I drop anything I do, I feel too lazy to draw, write songs and play guitar and I just accept that. But in the back of my head, I still want to do those things, I feel guilty laying in bed all day but once I try to draw I feel so irritated, so I will just go back to bed.
But this morning, something change. I woke up early, clean, make my laundry, and start doing what I have to do. I am surfing on the internet and suddenly I watched a video of Ola a guitarist, I feel so awaken and I think I know what I have to do. I talk to my cousin that is also playing many instruments and we plan to make a record this year. But the problem is that I sold all my musical instruments 2 years ago to purchase a dog as my companion, but I did not regret selling all my stuff to buy a dog. That dog saves my life many times when there is no one for me he is always by my side, when everything becomes so dark and heavy my dog is always by my side cheering me up. So for this year, my goal is to build again a home studio and make a record to be released next year. This will never be easy because we are in the middle of a pandemic but I have high hopes for this. My target date is December 30, 2021, on that date I will buy new or 2nd hand equipment for the studio and set up the equipment the following day. wish me luck
This month I have a lead that whatever we do, or whatever distraction we face we will always come back to the thing we love to do, to the things we embrace when we are young. Sometimes we forget what we need and what we love but with just a simple video or simple word from someone, we can spark again. As we grow older, with many things and responsibilities like saving money, taking care of someone, and planning for our future we tend to forget ourselves and we just focus to do those things. And once we are done or we become tired, what`s next? There is a chance that we will be happy and look for the next goal, but there is also a chance that we break and lose it. Always give time to the things that you love to, it will make you happy and less stressed. Make your life your own chase dream of your`s not the dreams of others like your parent or another relative, chase your dream and you will always win.
***We can sleep but we will be awakened in the darkest times, so just keep going and don`t forget what makes you human, what makes you who you are.***
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My Own Definition of Change
September 14, 2021
With my monitor still broken, I`m still in quarantine and I almost clean the whole house, I think there`s nothing left to do but to lie in bed all day and all night. I think there`s nothing left to talk about but I don`t want to left this page empty, so let me tell you a story about how people define change and how it affects everything around them, and the different ideas of change that different people have.
They said change is what makes us humans, our ability to move faster than any other living creature on earth, but is it always good, or do we always need change? Many people embrace the idea of change, they said it is useful and it will result in improvement. In some ways it is good and sometimes it is bad. We see that not many people can cope with that change and they were left to chase the change, but what will happen if they don`t chase the change? They will be left behind? They will be dumb or what?
See, different people have different times when one person is left behind with the fast-changing world, they will have a choice to chase the change or live in that time where they are left behind. Being left behind will open other possibilities, open many more doors and opportunities for change. Those who are left behind will cope with that situations and will progress with their own time, own definition of change, and own definition of progress.
As we see in the indigenous people of the Philippines in Baguio City they are fighting for their definitions of progress or change. As years go by we see that many trees are cut out of the forest of Baguio City to provide room for tourists and some time for agriculture, and the government and some people believe that is the definition of change or improvement. They believe improvement can see in how many tall buildings they have or how much they can earn per year. But Aeta`s definition is different, change or improvement of one community or oneself must bring good impact to the environment, change and improvement must be for the development of the environment, for the protection of the environment because they believe that nature provides everything that they need.
See? In that behavior and thinking of the Aetas, we see how people change and some don`t, some choose to be left behind because of what they believe or what suits them very well. That is how we can tell and see that humans have a different timeline, what if we think we move fast but in other`s eyes we are moving slow or we are moving backward?
My definition of change is simple, Slowly changing and improving while building oneself for what is ahead. Build the strength both physically and mentally so that I am ready for whatever obstacle change might bring. Change for me for the greater good of the many rather than the few. Change must benefit both body, mind, and spirit, you must not take advantage of one of those three. Life is step by step, it`s not a race, it`s about how many lessons you learn during the journey and how many people you become friends with.
Change can wait while we know that we can`t change right away, but don`t be stuck at a certain point of your life, to the point that you are rejecting every possible way of change. When you are not ready It`s okay, just gradually build yourself for the next step of your life.
One of the greatest changes is when Pangea broke up about 299 million years ago. Pangea is a supercontinent that incorporates almost all the landmass of the earth and it is surrounded by the global ocean called the Panthalassa. It is the greatest change, why? It gives the animal a chance to evolve, many animals will not survive in Pangea and even we have no chance of surviving that massive landmass. in Pangea, there are limited places to live, with this massive landmass few waters can reach the middle of it making the center of it a massive arid land. Storm and other calamities will be harsher and it can last many days or months. That's why it is the greatest change, all benefits from it.
September 15, 2021
Finally, my new monitor arrived and it is time to work hard to lessen all the work that file up for almost 1 week. The new monitor will be fun, I will rearrange my workspace and I will try to make It simple and comfortable.
For the whole day, I just rearrange my room to make way for my new setup, and is fun and relaxing to see that my dream setup is happening. The only missing part of my dream setup is the office chair and a good desk lamp or floor lamp. Once I get those two it will be the perfect workspace for me.
2 Cups of Coffee a Day
September 13, 2021
Still in quarantine and my monitor is not working I feel like have much spare time to relax, play on my phone and watch some videos. And when I get bored laying in bed I will make some coffee and spend my time staring at the window and thinking how much time do I have or is there still time?
I think many people are feeling the same when they have much time left in their hands, for example when the examinations are a week away we choose to do the thing that we want or things that will make us happy and sometimes things that fasten time. But when the exam is near and we realize that there is not much time left we tend to be irritated by all the work that stocks up, and we know that we can do it little by little last week, right? As humans, we do this thing a lot, even in the biggest decision we make in life we tend to relax then panic when it`s the time to choose.
As I am taking a sip on my coffee there is a question floating in the back of my head, what if we know how much time we have left or when we will die and what can we do to make it worth it? Do you make it the most adventurous life like in the movies jumping without a parachute? or you will just continue your life and go with the flow? Mine is just simple, I will stay in the normal tract of life but at the same time, as I am losing time I will be more adventurous and louder about life. Traveling to many places, meeting friends, write some stories and songs, and draw more. Lastly will seek forgiveness for those people that I hurt emotionally, mentally, and physically. With that as a approach my death I will die smiling and contented. *And you? what are the things you will do when you know when are going to die?*
Today we live in a world so fast that many people can keep up, so fast the many people only look to the goal, not the journey. As fast the world gets the slower is the progress for many people, as the leaders continue their rat race many of their people are left behind, especially the people at the lower part of the society and the indigenous people that are abused.
***For those people that are trying to keep up like me, we can all slow down. Different people have different times, right? We can all have our time to spark and light the dark pathways, our time to seek what we want, time to seek answers, time to grow, time to listen, and time to be on our own.***
As I finish my coffee and my wild almost nonsense thought, it is time to continue the day. Roaming around the house finding things that I can do, clean, or anything that can pass time.
At night I try to spend my time drawing flowers, I think It`s the 2nd day practicing drawing them. Drawing for me is so relaxing, I feel like I can freeze time in my drawing and stare at it for a long time. I`m not a great artist but I`m still on the way to become better and better every day. The lesson that I have learned during the times the I am trying to draw is there are no people born good or great in certain things like drawing. As humans, we all learn as we try to learn, there are no people that are good at one thing since the day they are born. They all pour hundreds of our sometimes thousands of hours to be good in one thing. Keep trying to learn, Keep waking up early and keep practicing.
All image are from Unsplash
Days of Rearrangement
September 8, 2021
Since I`m still in quarantine, last night I spend my time browsing around Google Earth. I go to Albania and see the countless war bunkers that the late dictator once build, I go to Sparta to pay respect to the Great Leonidas and I see the pictures of the Spartan theater that is not taken care of properly. I go to the Great Pyramid of Giza and wonder how the ancient Egyptians build a magnificent and breathtaking structure. Wondering in the Pyramids makes me ask man questions, Are the pyramids are built by the people alone? or do they have some help from the extraterrestrial kinds.
There is a saying that ***there is life along the Nile***, and it`s true, we saw how the ancient people of Egypt settle there and have their life. We saw them live for almost more than 3000 years in that area. It`s not only the water from the Nile that helped the people of ancient Egypt, but there is also a season once a year that the Nile river overflow. Once It overflows and goes back to normal, the river will leave the side of it with soil and mud that the Egyptians used to grow their crops. It always fascinated me how ancient people all around the world cope with the harsh environment back in the day.
Now it`s the morning of September 8, 2021, I wake up early to write up my thought that later will be published here and to check emails and classes but my monitor won`t open. I tried many things that I think will make the monitor turn on but it did nothing. So I just lie in bed and search for a solution to fix my monitor and they are all saying that I must check for the HDMI cable, so I just order a new one online.
September 9, 2021
With my monitor still broken I wake up very late so I can pass the time hoping that my package will arrive early. I cook, eat, and clean and lay again in bed, but I feel so uneasy laying down, so I clean my dining area for the whole afternoon. And in the evening nothing happen as well since the HDMI cable did not arrive.
September 10, 2021
My monitor is still broken, nothing to do since all my work is saved on my computer so I find another thing to do. I clean the bathroom and give my pet a good nice cold bath. My pet name is Luci short for Lucifer, we named him from the Netflix show Lucifer. He is an American bully he will be 2 years old on October 28. Even he is considered an adult he still chews on things like my bed, slippers, and even my books. But even sometimes he is a bad boy, I still love him. Through rough and good times he is still on my side just like my girlfriend.
September 11, 2021
Still, the HDMI cable that I have ordered online did not arrive, so again I will find things to do that is should do a long time ago. I clean the other room where I put my old things like clothes and shoes. I almost spend the whole day cleaning that room, while I`m cleaning that room many memories came back to me. Memories of all the old things that I kept for a long time, like a piece of stone that I picked 3 years ago when I and my friend is walking along the beach, an old clothes that I get from one of the Christmas parties that I attended. There are many things that we kept that serve as a reminder or lesson that make us who we are.
September 12, 2021
Still, in quarantine and with a broken computer monitor, I lay in bed for almost the whole day, because of covid I`m always feeling so tired and out of breath. Sometimes I can feel a little dizzy and my head is always aching. They said it is the post-covid effect and it will last for 6 long months. At night I tried to draw to pass the time and it works.
I always want to draw everything in nature like flowers, stones, and trees. It makes me calm when my drawing is almost done, and when the drawing is finished I feel like I have frozen time to capture that very moment of peace and calmness.
3 Days Grace
September 5, 2021
Still, in quarantine and there`s so much to thing to do, but I don`t have the will to do it. I am drawing regularly since mid-February and I saw a huge improvement in. my drawings, but this May I have to go home to assure that my family is okay and I stop drawing since then. My family is in chaos since the beginning of this year, my sister which is so young to be married is forcefully leaving our house to be with his boyfriend and my father did not like it. So last April I went home to talk to my sister about it, but she did not listen. She asks our mother if she can leave our house permanently, my mother agrees to put an end to all the nonsense that is happening in our house when my sister is around. Last May my sister leave the house permanently and my father did not like the decision of my mother, I thought if I go home their fighting will regress day by day, and I was right. They did not fight for too long and just accept what my sister wants for her life.
Since I go home, I stopped drawing and now I`m in my apartment again. Even I came back here to my house where I start my drawing career, I feel that I don`t have the will anymore, I can`t feel the passion that I feel when I start last February. And It`s kind of sad that the things that I want becoming the things that I can`t do. I`m still trying to pick up my pencils and sketch pads but it`s not the same feeling that I get when I started drawing. It`s like that there`s a part of me that is missing and I can`t find where it is.
That`s why I feel kind of lost this past few days, I feel lazier and lazier about all the things that I am doing before I go home, Back then I thought that I just don`t have enough time to do things that I love so I become lazy, but not now I`m in quarantine and I have all the time that I need, I still can`t do it the way I did it when I start and I don`t know why.
September 6, 2021
Today is the official day of the first day of class and I feel that I`m not ready. See, I`m still in quarantine with a cough and my sense of smell and taste are not returning, so I can`t eat properly and I feel week. Quarantine, feeling weak and first day of online class? it`s not a great combination to make me feel well. But I don`t have the choice so I arrange my schedule and go with it.
It`s just the first day so there is nothing much to do, I just list all my subjects, find the Facebook groups of my subjects so I can join them and don`t miss any information that is essential. And it is so stressful, I can`t find all the groups that I need and there is no student that knows how to have access to the groups. this is the downside of online learning, there is no good information dissemination. All the students don`t know what to do and all the students are afraid to email the professor and ask questions. So here we are starring at the computers don`t know what to do next.
After that dead-end, leaving me nothing to do all day, I just sleep to end the day faster. I wake up and it is the night watch some youtube videos, eat, and sleep again.
September 7, 2021
The second day of school and I`m still in quarantine, I still have a cough and my sense of smell and taste and still not coming back. I wake up late today so I will have fewer hours for the day doing nothing, I still don`t have the will to draw and do other things that I do last February. I just want to lay in bed watch youtube and Facebook videos all day and that is bad for me, back then I always find things to do and now I find ways to do nothing at all.
Today is also the orientation for this school year, I attended 3 minutes and leave the zoom meeting, and back to watching youtube videos online. I`m watching Yes Theory all the time, I find them funny and motivating sometimes.
Terrifying Weapons of the Great War
World War I will never be a war without Its amazing and terrifying guns and equipment. World War I is one of the most terrifying events in the history of humans, almost 20 million people die leaving their families and friends shattered their whole life. With 30 nations participated in the war there will no plenty of safe places left to hide.
As the war arises, military science makes its way to the scene, developing different equipment for war. Many of the inventions find it`s way to the battlefield, claiming millions of both civilian and soldiers' lives, but many are just tossed in the junkyard because they can`t function properly or it`s not lethal enough. Many of the inventions brought fear to the enemies on the battlefield because of their terrifying sounds and looks. Many of this invention is still used today and some are only be found in museums. Here are some of the equipment that is widely used in World War I:
Rifles
Even though all nations used many kinds of firearms during the first world war, rifles are surely one of the most used weapons. The different rifles used in the First World War were manufactured between 1886 and 1903 during the war. Rifles are the most used because they are the most convenient, not too heavy, not too long but not so short, and they are fit to used in the trenches.
One of the most famous is the Lee-Enfield .303, this rifle was accepted and used in the service in 1902 and remain the principal long-arm rifle of the British soldier until the mid-1950s
Machine Guns
The design of the machine guns in the First World war is from Hiram Maxims in 1884. Machine guns that time can fire 450-600 rounds per minute and that is so deadly. On July 1, 1916, the British suffered 21,000 deaths by the Germans using the Spandau Machines Gun, which is the German version of the Hiram Maxims design.
Flamethrowers
The report shows that infantrymen using some sort of flaming-throwing devices can be found as far back as Ancient China and during the American Civil war some newspapers claimed that Abraham Lincoln test and tried to used flamethrowers. But the first recorder use of hand-held flamethrowers is by the Germans on February 26, 1915, on Malancourt, near Verdun.
Over the course of the war, the Germans utilized 3,000 Flammenwerfer troops, over 650 flamethrower attacks were made. The British and French developed it too but did not use it extensively as the Germans did.
Mortars
In 1915 the British introduced the Stokes Mortar Design, this mortar is far advanced beyond their earlier counterparts. The British mortar has no moving parts and could fire 22 three inches of shells per minute, with the ranges of 1,200 yards.
The Germans developed their own version of the mortar, the Minewerfer or Mine Thrower that had a 10-inch barrel and fired shells loaded with metal balls
Artillery
in the 20th-century traditional weapons, technology was increased its lethality because of the entry of the artillery due to improvements in the design, range and it`s ammunition. As the record says artillery killed more people than any other kind of weapon in World War.
Poison Gas
The First World War is also called the Chemis War because in this war new biochemical weapons are introduce by different nations to be deployed on the battlefield. On April 22, 1915, the Germans fired cylinders containing chlorine gas in the Ypres area, this is the beginning of gas attacks in the First World War.
I wrote a different article about this chlorine gas and other poison gas that is used in the First World War, here's the link
https://read.cash/@MWSA/ruthless-brains-e989ff51
Tanks
The Land Battleships go back as far as the Medieval Era, the plans for this idea are found in the drawing of Leonardo da Vinci. The weapon came to reality during the First World War. The name tank was named by the British as they secretly developing the weapon. The first British tank is named Little Willie, Weighed 14 tons and have a top speed of 3 miles per hour.
Tanks were deployed in small numbers in support of an infantry attack. But on November 20, 1917, the British launch the first massive tank formation of the war in the Battle of Cambrai. The British deployed 470 tanks for the battle, however, the French already win a war in the great war on October 23, 1917, this is the most impressive victory of the French using 76 tanks.
Sources:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mark_IV_tank
https://www.mentalfloss.com/article/63365/wwi-centennial-gas-attack-ypres
https://www.historyhit.com/important-artillery-weapons-from-world-war-one/
https://www.theworldwar.org/learn/wwi/artillery
https://www.theworldwar.org/learn/wwi/artillery
https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Stokes_mortar_AA_mounting-3.jpg
https://rarehistoricalphotos.com/flamethrowers-world-war-1/
https://weaponsandwarfare.com/2020/07/11/machine-guns-wwi-issue-organization-and-doctrine/
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lee%E2%80%93Enfield
https://www.britannica.com/event/World-War-I
Your Moment Will Spark At the Right Time
Many of us feel lost, we feel we have no place to go or there`s nothing to do. Sometimes we have anything we want and we needed but there is always something missing, something that we know will keep our world spinning but we don`t know what it is. We all want something so bad and by the time we have, it`s like we are not happy about it. We want to be in a certain place and we can`t stop thinking about it but we know we can`t go there for now.
We are so lost and envious of what we are watching on the internet, we see them living their life compare to us. We see them traveling while we are lying in our bed doing nothing. We always look at other people that they are so lucky they can do this and that. But, did we see them before? Before of all the thing they are doing now? Did we see them struggling? Did we see them when they have nothing like us?
What should we do when we feel this kind of thing, what is the first step to not feel so lost every day?
Just remember your dream
When you feel lost and unmotivated to do anything, just remember why did you start, remember what is your dream or goal. Remember all the things that you have been through before you are in this position, remember how many times you bleed and fail before you get here. Once you remember that ask you`re self again do you still don`t know where to go?
Always take a rest
It`s okay to take a break and rest, it's okay to stop for a moment and think again for the next move, for the next destination, and for the next task that you need to accomplish.
Always stick to the Schedule
even you are unmotivated always try to keep up with your schedule, when it`s time to get up, try to get up. Always try to keep up, you don`t know when will the motivation or the energy will kick in, it`s better to kick when you are out of bed trying to do the things you need to be done.
When you don`t have the will to draw, just practice your shading, look for another pencil online. When do you need to write but you don`t want to? just try to sit in front of your computer and try to type what is happening to you or what you are deeply thinking. always try to push yourself out of bed when you don`t feel to get up.
Watch energetic videos
When you feel that you don`t have the energy that you needed for today, try to watch videos online that you like, videos that will make you laugh or sing. Try watching the youtuber that making motivated, try watching vloggers that are doing the same as you. It will help you boost your day because you will feel you are not alone in what you are doing.
Talk to you`re Friends and Family
talking to other people will lighten your mood and sometimes will make you forget what you are thinking. Talk to you`re mother or father, ask them how are they, it will make your mind focus on other things rather than flying all day long.
We all feel lost sometimes, we sometimes feel like every turn is a dead end. but as I said always think about why you started in the first place. Try to remember every hard time that you did not give up, every obstacle that you have passed. And don`t forget to look above and ask for help and guidance, he will always help you in the times that you need him and in times that you don`t expect him to come. be patient and don`t force yourself, your time will always come around, your moment will always spark at the right time and right place. MAKE YOUR LIFE A CELEBRATION
Images: Unsplash
It`s a Bad Day for Me
September 1, 2021
It is a bad day for me, I have been tested positive to covid-19, and it's hard. I`m in self-quarantine for four days now, as soon as I feel the symptoms I immediately did not go out. Even I`m not sure if I have the Covid, I choose not to go out to protect the people around me and to protect myself as well. The effect of Covid is more on the mental side for me, it`s kind of sad to not go out and interact with others for a long time. And tomorrow is my little brother`s birthday and, sadly, I can`t come to visit them at our house.
As my Isolation goes I feel more and more alone as the days go by. Because I have many times in my hand, my mind does nothing but think and think about the past or the future. My brain always shows me what if like, what if you choose your own path, and what if you follow you`re dream from the beginning. It`s kind of sad and at the same time happy where I am now. I`m proud of what I have become and the thing that I have done, but there is always a voice in my head saying that I can do better if I follow what I want. There are more possibilities if I follow my dreams.
September 2, 2021
I start my day feeling good with no fever but I still have a cough, sore throat and I still don`t have taste and smell. I start my day by eating breakfast and cleaning the house then I fed my dog named Luci. After that, I write an article on read.cash here's the link you are interested in histories of the war.
https://read.cash/@MWSA/evil-dictators-96400c08
This article is about the evilest dictator in our history based on what they have done and how many peoples they have killed. And you will be in shock at how many people died at the hand of this dictator and what is the reason why they do the killings. I also write a story about the deadliest inventions of all time. This invention is not intended to use in war but people manage to think of a way to use it, if you are interested here is the link:
https://read.cash/@MWSA/ruthless-brains-e989ff51
September 3, 2021
I was still in isolation and my friend visited me and bring me some food, he stood far from my house while we talk a little. He brings me some medicine and vegetable to fill my stomach. I`m so blessed to have a friend like him, he always supports me and gives me a place to stay with minimum rent to pay. Last year I am always going to the hospital because of my stomach, he always drives me to the hospital even it is the middle of the night and I`m so thankful for it.
September 4, 2021
I woke up great, but last night my cough is bad that I can`t sleep until my throat is so bad. I tried drinking water and ginger tea but the cough is still bad so I just try to sleep and wait for it to pass.
As days go by and I`m still on quarantine it gets tiring and tiring. I have nothing to do but to eat and rest, I`m not used to it. My normal days when not in Covid are so productive. I always go outside every morning for biking, after that, I will study and later the day I will just draw and write here in read.cash. But now everything is different.
Evil Dictators
As of 2019, the number of people in the world is 7.674 billion and there is always and percentage of bad people. People are ready to do bad things, people than can sacrifice and doom all of humanity to get what he/she wanted. In the course of history, we see and learn many people like that, people that kill or order to kill other people just because of their difference in belief, race, and religion. In history many deaths are because of wars, nations that want to expand territory and power, some wars are fought to gain economic dominance and let other nations suffer.
With all the blood and tears shed in the past, still many people long for this kind of war or era. Until now many endless wars are being fought just to establish dominance or power. Humans never learn of the lessons and consequences that wrongdoings can make.
Every year we pay tribute to many people that die in different wars, massacres, and other types of killings. Like in November 77 1918, we remember the end of World War 1, people back then are not satisfied so they make another war, World War 2 which ended on May 8, 1945. Yearly we remember those main wars and be sad about how many people die and how many lives were shattered because of the war.
Behind every war, massacre and slavery is a dictator, a president, or just a mad man that wants everything in his hand. A dictator that will sacrifice everything in order to achieve his goals, does not care how many people die or how many countries are involved. He only looks at the price. Here are some of the most ruthless, evil, and shameless dictators of all time:
1. Ismail Enver Pashas
A Turkish Military officer and leader in the Young Turk Revolution and eventually ho rose to power and lead the Ottoman Empire in both Balkan Wars and World War 1. In the time that Ismail Enver Pashas was war minister, he is not very useful and suffers many losses over and over again. Because of that failure, he decided to blame the Armenians, and that is what began what is now the Armenian Genocide. The word Genocide in coined to describe this event.
**Ismail Enver Pashas killed:**
1,200,000 Armenian in 1915
350,000 Greeks Pontian
482,000 Anatolians Greeks in 1916-1922
And 500,000 Assyrians in 1915-1920
2. Hideki Tojo
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hideki_Tojo
Killed 5 million people, Hideki Tojo was a general in the Imperial Japanese Army. He assumes many positions in Japan and has a major contribution to education teaching militaristic and nationalist indoctrinations.
During World War 2 Hideki Tojo starts winning many battles and gain popularity among Japanese people. But when everything changes and he began losing, and he went into seclusion, tried for war crimes, and was found guilty of waging wars of aggression.
3. Leopold II if Belgium
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Leopold_II_of_Belgium
Leopold II was the king of the Belgians and he believes that colonialism is required for a powerful country, so he form and group called the International African Society and travel to Congo. After they arrive Leopold II laid claim to a plot of land 14 times the size of Belgium and made many countries agree that he has the power to rule it. Then he forced the people into forced labor, created a bustling rubber industry, and abused workers.
**Leopold II killed 2-15 million people in Congo**
4. Adolf Hitler
We all know that Adolf Hitler was the leader of the Nazi party. He became the absolute dictator of Germany from 1934-1945, he gained support from the people by promoting values like German Nationalism and Anti-Semitism. Nazi forces engaged in many battles murdering many as 17 million civilians an estimated six million Jews and 1.5 million Romanis.
5. Mao Zedong
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mao_Zedong
Mao Zedong was a Chinese Revolutionary, Political Theorist, and communist leader who led the people of China. He has many programs that lead to death, a decision that led to death, and chaos for his own people. His program to rapidly industrialize China led to 20 million deaths due to hunger.
His policies and political purges from 1919-1976 caused the death of 49 to 78 million people.
As you can see from this list there are people that choose to be bad and choose to kill millions of people for their nonsense ambitions. And this person and country leaders are sometimes appointed by the people. So please in the following election of the country and world leaders, choose the best candidate, do research before voting and be careful who to choose.
Source:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mao_Zedong
https://www.britannica.com/list/9-things-you-might-not-know-about-adolf-hitler
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Leopold_II_of_Belgium
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hideki_Tojo
https://www.theguardian.com/books/2018/apr/25/dictator-literature-daniel-kalder-review
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Enver_Pasha
Ruthless Brains
It is fun and scary to think how deep our mind can be or in other cases how shallow it can be. The endless possibilities of our mind to think in every possible way can be both dangerous and good. How our mind thinks or acts with anger and hate or love and care can affect the outcome of everything. Powerful minds and a wrong bearer can be a bad tandem while a good mind and a good bearer are hard to find. How our mind influences everything is so overpowered, that is what makes us humans. The way we make decisions and sometimes it led to our own demise like how many inventors are killed by their own inventions. And lastly, many people and inventors witness how their life work is used against them or against the world, how their inventions killed millions or even erase the whole city on the map.
Are we humans worthy of holding such power, in an instant, we can change the world and even its history? Can we manage to outnumber those wrongdoings or its just too late for us to make a difference?
In the course of history, many minds fascinate the whole world because of their inventions. An invention that sometimes makes our life easier, but some of it is just useless. Some inventions are for good things like how to hold and use energy more efficiently, but as the evil mind takes control of it, it can cause an apocalypse. Here are some ruthless inventions in the course of our history:
1. Zyklon B (hydrocyanic acid) also called Cyclone B, was invented in Germany in the early 1920s. Bruno Tesch, one of the inventors that are responsible for the misuse of this chemical during World War 2. Before the war, this chemical is used as a pesticide in the agricultural industry, but everything changes when they discover that it can kill humans.
https://www.flickr.com/photos/spinfly/6639909387
During the holocaust in the killing center, they will fill the room with people and when the room is full, they will close the door and screw it shut. And once the door is locked the vents at the top of the room will open and drop solid pellets of Zyklon B. Upon breathing in, the vapor forms the chemical combination with the red blood cell, the people that inhaled it can die in less than 20 minutes due to oxygen starvation.
2. Serin Gas
Is one of the most widely used and effective nerve agents because a simple drop of it can be lethal in only a few minutes. It is an odorless and colorless liquid when at room temperature but when heated it will evaporate in an instant. Discover by Dr. Schrader in 1938 for insecticide use, but this chemical was put to misuse by the Nazis as a chemical weapon.
This chemical is used many times in history to provide destruction in enemy territories. Serin Gas was used in the Halabja poison gas attack, Iran-Iraq War, and the Syrian Civil War.
https://intpolicydigest.org/sarin-gas-cover-up-continues/
3. Chlorine gas
World War 1 is also called the “Chemist War” because many weapons that war is chemicals or gases and one of the most used the Chlorine gas. Chlorine gas, also called the Bertholite, was first used by the Germans in World War 1 in the Second Battle of Ypres, France in April 1915. The Germans launched a thousand of containers containing chlorine gas across the battlefield killing hundreds of French troops.
The chlorine gas can affect the body in many ways, it causes a burning sensation in the eye, uncontrollable blinking, redness, and inflammation and it can also damage the cornea by burning the cell in it.
https://www.history.com/news/world-war-i-gas-chemical-weapons
4. TNT
TNT or the Trinitrotoluene, is one of the most used explosives for military, industrial and mining applications. It was developed by a German chemist, Joseph Wilbrand in 1863, he had no idea his invention will be used in war and will change the world forever. In 1902, it was discovered that TNT could be used as a destructive weapon in war if a change in a certain way. During World War 1 and 2 TNT are used in the battle by both sides creating massive destruction.
5. Atomic Bomb
The deadliest bomb man ever invented. Humans witness what this bomb can do on August 6, 1945, at 8:16 AM after the Enola Gay an American B-29 bomber dropped the bomb in Hiroshima. 80, 000 people are killed as a direct hit and another 35, 000 people are injured and at least 60, 000 people will die at the end of the year because of the fallout
https://www.history.com/this-day-in-history/the-first-atomic-bomb-test-is-successfully-exploded
This is the power of human minds, it`s up to us how we will use it. With our mind we can make a better or chaotic future, we can always choose what to do and when to act.
Sources
https://www.usatoday.com/story/news/nation-now/2014/07/28/world-war-1-lessons-learned/13045897/
https://www.history.com/this-day-in-history/the-first-atomic-bomb-test-is-successfully-exploded
https://mainichi.jp/english/articles/20210408/p2a/00m/0na/024000c
https://www.history.com/news/world-war-i-gas-chemical-weapons
https://www.flickr.com/photos/spinfly/6639909387
https://www.thevintagenews.com/2015/12/09/10-deadly-inventions-in-history/
https://intpolicydigest.org/sarin-gas-cover-up-continues/
A Venture to My Dream
August 29, 2021
It is so fascinating that we can live In two different worlds, right? the way we experience the scene in our dreams sometimes feel so realistic, the way that our dream leave a memory and big impact in our mind. But sometimes we wake up and our dream is not yet done. And then we force our self to sleep again and wish to continue our dream but we can’t. And we don`t have a choice but to wake up, back to reality. Stress, endless responsibilities, heartbreak, viruses then what is next?
I woke up today at 6 in the morning, the sunshine so bright and so welcoming, sadly, for now, we can`t enjoy the sun so much due to the protocols that we need to stay inside our house. This quarantine is taking forever to end, so many things changes for good and some are for the worse. it`s like we are punished when we breathe so what should we do? Confine ourselves self-inside our home? Until when right?
As the morning ended, while I`m preparing the food for my pet, I remember my dream last night. this is one of the dreams that I will never forget. In my dream I was a soldier, I think I dream of it because before I go to sleep, I am watching a lot of clips about Marines and the Army.
My dream starts, I'm s soldier depending on a country, but I don`t know which one. I`m one of the soldiers on the frontline and we are approaching a town. That town is not like others, it is surrounded by many rumors about how brave and ruthless the citizens are. According to rumors the town is both defensive and offensive, it attacks any sides of the war that try to invade or approach their land. As we approach the town, the resident starts to look at us from top to bottom, as if they are looking for something in our body. One of my buddies said “it's happening”
We continue to walk until the end of the town until one of my comrades disappear. We ready our self and our weapon for any possible fights. But one of the residents step up and said “we don`t want any troubles, we just want you to help us" the conversation is not yet finished but the enemy forces are near and they are spraying us with bullets in different directions. it`s time to fight.
And then I woke up, the dream is not yet done but there is something about it, there is something about how the residents look me in the eye as if they are trying to say something. The way the resident talk when he said that they need help feels so familiar. Is both weird and mysterious. I tried to sleep again hoping to continue my dream but I can`t the creeps of those dreams force me to stay awake
23 years of...
Today is my birthday and I think it is the right time to be engage in writing again, this past months was so tough both physically and mentally. Mental breakdown and happiness both come crashing at the same time like how cold and hot weather intertwined. Last December was so dark, January I undergo surgery, February and March was full of stress academically and family problems, but I`m out of the woods now. I tried writing a poetry book titled "Between Silene and Peace" it is a collection of my poems about my everyday state of mind. I also started drawing again, I draw landscapes and for me it is so therapeutic and fun. It makes me apreciate nature more and put time to look and admire how wonderful it is, how color of it feed my eyes with peace and how the wind blows to my hair like it is the last time. I love looking to trees and observing their flaws that make them more organic and beautiful. I like how the talls trees dance with the wind and they don`t care if the break or fall.
I lived 23 years in this world and my life is full of ups and downs, both happy and sad, disappointments and regrets. Full of dreams that until now is failing. Since the beginning my life don`t flow according to plan, every step I take lead to failure but I don`t give up and I continue pushing. I think that how life`s works.
But in the brighter side, I think everything is fine. I move step by step toward my goals and dreams, building it slowly form the ground up. Fighting my demons from morning until dawn I think I`m strong enough to continue my journey. I hope we have the same feeling on how to look in the light even it is far and we stand in the dark.
For 23 I have learned many lesson that build me to be a different man, lesson that I never forget and I used it for my everyday life. The lesson the bring me in where I am to day, lesson that many people taught me and they said the same thing.
“Life is life and it will continue it`s cycle”. As we live day by day we face different problems that make us weak, make us loss hope and think to giving up, but remember life is life. Life is a journey full of rocky roads and muddy trails, some time in our life we face war and we live in our won trenches for a long time. but in the end of the day we still fight for our self, for the people that we love and to provide necessities that will make our life more easy.
We fight for what we know is right, I think fighting will be easy if we love what we fight for, if we enjoy the process before the goal. What I`m saying is, do what you want, do what makes you happy. When you fight like that you will never lose.
There are thing we can`t control, things that will happen despite of what we do. Those this are not worth bothering, let it happen. Sometimes it`s better to go with the flow and don`t resist we don`t know what is at the end of the river or a tunnel. Just go with the flow and let the nature guides you.
But there are time that we need to resist and trust out self, be different and stir the wheel in direction that we want. Times that we need to overcome our fear of tomorrow and try something new, is sound cliché but it`s true
Life is life no matter what happen, it will continue even we don`t want to, it will provide us different lesson and experience if we embrace what it give to us. With respect we can enjoy the full potential of life may give.
Have a nice day ahead every body. I hope you find the right path for you. MAKE YOUR LIFE A CELEBRATION.
Lead photo not mine it is from Google images, you can check my instagram for my own drawings, mike_william27
Why Filipinos hate Philippines Government
**Why Filipinos hate the Philippines Government**
As I said from my past article I`m a Filipino and I lived in the Philippine all my life, ever since I was a little child the people, the government and the environment never change at all. I can still see news about the non sense killings, drugs still roam the streets while the police can do anything to stop it, I still see children In the street begging for money instead of going to schools and most of all I still see officials sitting still in their chairs while the whole country is in chaos.
I know almost all my fellow Filipinos will and agree and some will not. But those who will say that Philippines is in great shape are blind or they are to rich to care about all the commotion happening now.
But the question is why is that the Philippines never change and it get worse as the years pass by. Who`s fault is it that the economy is crashing slowly over the past few years? Can we really blame al of this to our government and say that they are bad in their jobs?
There are so many thing we can talk about the Philippines but in this article we will talk about the government and its people. How the Filipinos are blinded by the money and speech during elections, what is the big problem and how to prevent it from happening again.
**The Election**
During the election candidates is all over the place, we can see them in the television, social media, news papers and even in roads with their posters and fliers almost every where. Everyday we can hear their speeches about how they can change or improve the country if they win the election. And if the election is near there will have debates participated by the candidates tackling some issues in the Philippines that needs a solution quickly. This is normal, the campaign phase is how they spread their plans and let their names be heard by the masses.
The problem is what is the content of their speeches and if the listeners will listen. This is where the problem begins if the candidates are good enough to manipulate the people through their voice, if they are able to spread lies and sure that the people will believe it.
I know all of us can relate to this, politicians always say plans and goals during the campaign and if they win you will never hear anything form them ever again. This is normal hear in the Philippines shouting lies and teach false idea while manipulating the people to listen until the people believe on what they are saying. That is the first problem. The second problem is when the people or the voters believe that lies and false ideas. And when the election come they will vote for the wrong candidate because of that.
Other problem is vote buying which is very prominent hear. Candidates will distribute money ranging from 500 to 1000. They will give it to people especially those people in the lower part of the system, people who is currently under poverty. This will result to the thinking that the people will vote for that candidate because they receive money from it. Do you see the problem? They will vote for the wrong candidate who save them for a day instead voting for the candidate that will save them form many years. And i don`t blame for that because they need the money so badly.
There are other problems like voter do not conduct background research before voting. They will just vote who they see often in the television and social media. There are cases of stealing the ballot boxes from small municipalities.
And one of the biggest problem, during the campaign some of the candidates will die or become loss suddenly. i think you know why right? There opponent will pay a hit man to kill the other candidate and that is mess up. Last election killing get out of hand in many municipalities it does not matter if the municipality is small or big. This one of the biggest problem, kill other people for power? I think its not worth it. Because of the politics many family are broken and uneasy in their everyday life.
Don`t get me wrong not all candidates are like this I just talk about the bad side because I know we all see it in the same way. Some politicians are great and we can see their great ambition and dreams for our country but there are only few of them.
*This is the beginning of my series I hope you like it next article I will write about the aftermath of the election. I hope you read it and leave a comment so we can talk about this certain topic. I know many of the Filipinos think the same way as me, I know many people are suffering right now because of the government wrong moves and choices. We all hope for better Philippines so lets do our part in the process.*
The Necklace of Hope
Chapter 1: the Story Begun
The day started like any other, rain pouring in the roof and the wind is slamming my door back and forth. I haven`t get out of bed yet, I`m to lazy to move in the morning. I feel like the bed is constantly absorbing me until I`m comfortable enough not to move, do you experience the same sometimes?
I`m Luci, I`m from a small town from Manen, this place is magical, sweet and sometimes chaotic at the same time beautiful. Houses are build with polished stones and brown woods, colorful flower are planted near the side walks. Street lamp that is light every night and illuminate the whole street. Hear everyone know each other starting from the youngest to the elderliness. Everyone roaming around with their horses pulling big carts full of things that they sell in the near by village.
My family is one of those family that is not so poor but not so rich as well. My father Den work every day in our farm together with my mother Karen. They are married for a long time and I think they live happy hear with me.
In the morning we have our own work to do, my father headed to the farm while my mother cook us some foods. My duty is to fetch some water form the well 3 houses away from us so we can have water we can use in drinking, cooking and taking a bath. Before lunch time arrive I must finish my one and only duty and my mother must finish cooking our food. Once we are done we are ready to go to the farm and help mu father there.
Our farm is not a typical farm, it`s not so big but we get plenty of vegetable that we can sell, and that profit can feed us for a day. I think that a good thing right?
In our farm we plant vegetable like cabbage, water melon and potato. If the harvest is good we can take home some of them for our dinner. We live a good life and I think I`m satisfy with it.
The next morning while I`m on my way to fetch some water and I notice something is different. There are many people in one rea and they are lookon at the same direction. As I come near two girls are talking,
*Poor Carno, I can`t imagine the pain he went through before he die.* Said the girl.
*Yes, there are blood everywhere and it smell bad*. Said the other girl.
I immediately interrupted their conversation.
What happened to Carno? I said. Carno is one of my childhood friend and we went to the same public school together. There family is the as mine but his father is gone since we are little. They said Carno`s family is once rich before his father left the village 10 years ago. After Corno`s father left the village rumors spread quickly on why did he left. Some said that Carno`s father is so sick in farming and some said that they are rich because they have other business out side our village.
As I asked the question to the tow girls, I am shaking and my tears is about to fall but the girls can`t answer my question, It`s like they freeze while looking at me or they just want to talk to me because they know that me and Carno are best friend.
I ran toward the crowd and squeeze my self until I see Carno`s body is separated in half. The girl is right, blood is everywhere and there house is almost burned but Carno`s mother and sisters are alive. Carno`s body is separated in half while his eyes are wide open. His expression of fear and pain can still be seen in his face. His one eye is popped out and his fingers are cut off. His lower body is full of laceration and his ankle is fractured.
I can`t move and I can`t speake at the same time, my hand and shaking. I feel numb and the wind suddenly change direction and now it`s cold. Our memories together rapidly flashes back and my tears start to run down my face. His mother is crying loud while his sister is still in shock standing near Carno`s deceased body.
I don`t know what to do now. I can`t even move a muscle to wipe my tears away form my face. The soldier came and clear the area. As we are moving backward I see two man staring at me like they know me. I look them back but I think it`s the first time i see those faces. I eventually look to the different direction where I can still see them on my peripheral vision. I see them walking toward me slowly like a predator tinking thousand ways to devour it`s prey.
After I see them coming near me I started to feel terrified. I gain back the control for my muscle and I look them one last time before I ready to ran. The one man have a sword in his waist and the other man carrying a empty sack of that the farmer use to load their items to the cart.
I brace my self to run while carefully observing them if I know them or not, now I have the courage to look the one man in the face. I look through his black empty eyes, I feel to terrified, the fear star to crawl up to my spines while I nearly forgot to breath.
As I looking in his face I see a blood tinge in his collar and some wound in his fore arm, now my fear is nearly in it`s peak. The two man is closing to me as I step back turn around and run to our house. The two man did not follow me until I get home.
My father and my mother is not there I think they are in the farm already. I`m still shaking while my tears is constantly dripping in my face. my cloths is now wet due to the sweat I get from running fast I can.
I lock all the dorms and roll the curtain down. I still think those two man`s face so dark and empty, I feel like they are sending a message to me.
The day is coming to an end and my father and mother arrived.
why there is no water hear? My father asked. And why you did not go to the farm and help us load the vegetable to the cart?
I feel my father is kind of angry and irritated. I can`t answer any quetion my father ask. I`m still in shock of all the thing that happened this morning. My father is talking to me but I didn`t understand anything he was saying. Then my tears fall down to my face, I start crying. I look to my father and he seems so shock.
*Did I say some thing wrong?*
*Is everything okay?* My father ask me.
I still can`t answer and my mother just hug me and I feel comforted and safe
I started to talk to them. Carno is dead
Those three words left them in silence, they both can`t talk after I said those words.
*How? Why? What happened?* My mother asked while her voice is rattling
I don`t know, this morning while I`m on my way to fetch some water I see many people in front of their house and I over heard that Carno is dead.
I can feel that they are both worried and still in shock. We all can`t talk and suddenly some one knock on our door so loud, it scare my soul of me.
As the Sun rise
There`s so many thing and questions inside my head, questions that leave me uncertain and sometime irritated. With all issues and problem that is happening in the world we become more in to bad sides of every thing rather than the good side. We loss hope for the better tomorrow we can have because of all the craziness.
This morning I decided to take my bicycle and ride around the neighborhood. There is a good view near my apartment, it is pineapple farm surrounded by trees and some hills. So I take ride.
5 minutes later I am in the location I want, I take a stop from pedaling and look to the beautiful view. This place is magical for me now I`m surrouned by tress and it`s so silent, I can`t see any people but there many birds and other creatures. It is morning so there is still a little fog in the area making the moment more good. I park my bicycle and sit for a moment to clear my head. I take a deep breath, inhale and exhale.
I think about my plans in my life together with goals for this year. I think about it slowly to avoid being stress. This year I have many plans for my self and for other first I want to survive this deadly semester that I`m about to take. Even though I take only three subjects I know it will become hard because all the subject are major. My other plan is to add peoms to the boold I`m making. I am making a poetry book, the book`s context are abut love, hope, awareness and justice. I`m having a hard time making poems about love because I`m not romantica at all, but I`m trying. Currently I have 40 poems but my target is 125 poems, so my plan for this month of February is to have 55 poems and if didn`t get lzy I want to edit and master some of my poems. My last plan is to hae a daily exercise and full recover from my operation. This January I have been under surgery for cholelitihisis or simple a stone is the gall bladder. The operation resut is good and I`m almost 100% in my recovery, lastly I want to exercise every day by taking a walk or a ride In my bicycle.
The sun is getting hot so I continue my ride to the nearby village and return home. As I`m pedaling my mind is still thinking about something and I can`t have a hold of it. I don`t know if it`s becuase of the prolems I`m facing, problem of the world or I`m just hungry. The route I`m taking is a inner road so there is less or almost no cars passing by so it`s safe even I`m not totally focused in the road, that`s why I like this rout very much.
As I get nearer to my destination the thoughts inside my head still roaming around. Now I`m thinking abour how the wolrd will be tomorrow or the next week or the next month. Will all the nonsense issues and pandemic we are left unsettled and anxious. We keep saying that the world will eventually see better days but what if it`s not. What if after this pandemic there is another disease, what if terrorist strike again and claim many lives and we all know that the economy is slowly falling. Those though always run in my head and I can`t do anything about it but to think, it bother me.
Now I`m in my destination, this place is beautiful. I`m in the top of the mountain and in front of it a lake so big that a volcano can fit inside it. I can see house afar so small, boats sailing in the lake to catch some fish and birds playing around the trees. I stop for a while and absorb the stunning view and hop the world won`t end just yet.
My head is still not clear the thoughts still bother me, I think is it just me that feel the same way r see the world like it`s falling in thousand pieces. Am I the only one that think the same way? I hope not.
I continue cycling until I get home, as I open my door my dog welcome me home. He look so happy that I have returned, he wag his tale like it`s the first time we see in months. I play with him a little bit and I cook some food for my lunch.
It`s just morning and I know this day will be longer than normal. I know that my thoughts will hunt me until I close my eyes at night. But I still hope for better days and I know it will come soon, I know that the end of the tunnel is near and eventually we can see the light again. I hope we all survive this pandemic healthy and alive. I hope that the following months will be quite and calm for all of us. In fact, I have good feeling for this year, I feel that in this year we will accomplish one of our goals and I feel that we will find happiness in this year.
The cold weather will come to an end and summer is around the corner, I hope you are excited to see go to the beach and feel the sand again.
I finish cooking and I`m setting the table. I hope you have a good and happy day. Don`t lose hope people the tunnel that we are walking on is coming to an end.
Make your life a celebration.
Inner Peace
Ways to achieve inner peace
We all know that this year and the passed year is one of the most tough years that we went through. With all the problems and issues that the world have faced its hard to find peace. Pandemic, volcanic eruption, rape and poverty that is still a big problem that we are yet to solve. Terrorism, red tagging and corruption become more common in almost all countries in the world.
This year is just starting and many bad news conquered social medias and news paper. As the days past by we become more immune to bad issues and we don’t hope for good news anymore. In this tough times it`s hard to see peace behind all the blood spill in the walls.
***“We are blind if we say we are in peace”***
But there`s more in life than bad news, we can start peace within our self and spread it little by little. We are influence easily with what we see in the social medias, we are easily manipulated on what the government feed us but we can look on a different way and seek our own peace. While we are doing that we contribute less to dramas in the social media that affect other people in many different ways.
There are many ways to become better person or to attain peace. It`s easy to have a peaceful life but we choose to be caught on the moment that the world is in chaos and we must participate on the madness. Yes the world is in chaos, madness and the world is going crazy day by day. But can change us within our self become a better person and with that we can change the world slowly.
Find our inner peace
Find a place where you feel most comfortable. Don`t settle on places that stresses you or make you feel sad and anxious. Find your heaven in this hell we call earth. There is heaven in every part of this world, all we need to do is find it. Appreciate every moment and live in it.
Do thing that will make you happy and stress less. Even we are in a global pandemic and we can`t travel, there are so much thing we can do in our homes like reading books, draw something and take care of our pets. There are some good things that come with quarantine, with this we can reunite with our family and do our hobbies that we can`t do during busy days at work. We can do gardening, they said it is relaxing to see plants growing as the days pass by in addition by gardening we can decrease the air pollution
Cut off people
Don`t be afraid to let go of some people you call friend. Some of the is not for you, sometime you feel that you need them in able to survive. But you`re wrong, in order to survive you just need your self. You need to learn to love your self and be your self. Some friends are mean and it can destroy your good day and leave you irritated and shattered.
But we all know that “ no man is an island “ so choose friend that will motivate and inspire you. Friends that will never leave you in taught times, friends that is all ways there though thick and thin.
The is law called “law of attraction” and we all know it. To put it into perspective, for example you are a rock and you surrounded your self with salt water, at first if feels good become you are surrounded by something but eventually that salt water is the one that will cause you to shrink and erode. But if you surrounded your self with other rocks little by little you will become one and big and that is a good thing right? When you choose your friend wisely they will help you to prosper and succeed to your goals.
Do outdoor activities
Outdoor activities like biking and hiking can be therapeutic, it has mane positive things that can give you. Exposing your self to nature can give you more knowledge about what is really happening. You can see and experience many things outdoor.
Outdoor activities can make you healthy while having fun. There are more to see in this world, more mountain to climb and road left for us to walk. Bring your family and friend do hiking or biking, jogging or simply walking.
Behind every rain the rainbow will eventually show, so don`t lose hope just yet. This world is in a crazy ride but eventually it will come to an end and we can see the new and beautiful world again. Find peace even in a simple way, I promise it will make you happy. Live in silence and don`t participate in nonsense activities of other people. For them it`s fun but you know it is toxic for you. Learn to say no to things and people that you know wil hurt you.
This ways help me through tough times and I hope that it will reach you and help you also. You know what you want to do with your life so chase what you want and spread peace and positivity in your way. There`s no other way to save the world but to spread peace and love. Don`t contribute more hate to face book and twitter, don`t poison mind of the children by posting nonsense pictures and videos online. Let`s be real for a second so we can see what is the big problem. Start change within your self and everything will follow.
Make your life a celebration
Clouds become beautiful when the ground is low
The operation is done. I`m from the Philippines and I has a case known as cholelithiasis, it its basically a stones or a cholesterol that solidify inside the gallbladder. Gall bladder is an organ in our body that is responsible of storage and secretion of bile. And the bile Is responsible in the emulsification of fats from the fatty foods that we take. When you have a stones in the gall bladder and it get big, it can obstruct the duct known as the bile duct, when the bile duct is blocked by the stones all the secretion will just reflux back to the gall bladder and it is pain painful. When this condition left untreated is may progress to more severe pain, rupture of the gall bladder and more severe sepsis.
Luckily this passed month I went to the doctor`s office to get my check up and she diagnosed me with gall stones. I have this stones for 1 year and 7 months and every time I eat something fatty my gall bladder will react and the stones will block the secretion and it is painful. Last year almost every month, I`m always in the emergency room because of this.
Last February 3 I have my surgery, the doctors removed my gall stones and it went well. Now I am almost fully recovered and I can do my everyday task efficiently.
Through this suffering that I brought into my self I`ve learned many simple lesson that I will keep for me to remember. I know this lesson will help me to progress more in life. I hope this lesson reach you and help you and push you to enjoy your life with care.
Take care of your body
Let me tell you a story. Back when I was in my third year of collage everything went so dark because of all the failing grades and family problems. I feel all alone so I choose to be drunk almost every night until I get numb and can`t stand anymore. light up a cigarette so i can feel calm. It continue for almost two years until I wake up curled in my bed and I`m suffering from hyper acidity and urinary tract infection. But I didn`t stop there, after I am hospitalized and recovered I go back to drinking and smoking. 2 years passed my hyper acidity went severe and I am hospitalized again.
That same year I meet a girl and she help me to become a better person. I stop drinking but my smoking still continue. My hyper acidity regress but it still hurt. And that same year I bought a dog and I named him Luci. With the help of my girlfriend and my dog, they helped me to stop all my nonsense and become free of it.
I started to stop eat meat and stop smoking. But the damaged has been done, even I stop eating fatty foods my stomach still reacts and eventually I wake up in the emergency room injected with fluids and drugs to regress the pain.
Through this happening I learn many lesson to take care of my body because I can`t get aother. we suffer in different problems until we loss hope but the is not the end of everything. We can choose between killing our self slowly or living and rebuilding our slef from the ground up. I choose both and now I`m happy that I survive all the things that kills me, I survive my pass self and become a better person out of it, thank to my family, girlfriend and my dog.
Life is short
“The clock go fast and I never stop for us” those are the worlds that keep repeating in my mind when I am lying in the hospital`s bed. I learned that life is short and we must do every thing what makes us happy and we must do what we think is right.
Life is short to do things that is slowly killing us until we can`t stand anymore. It`s fine to be afraid to commit to things that we want and what make us happy. But the time will come that we will be tired of what we are doing and the only choice we are seeing is to commit to thing that will make us happy.
We suffer in different problems and obstacles that slows our life and some of it stop our day and we don`t know how to continue. But as humans we must continue every that is what we are doing in enable us to survive. Keep walking in this dark tunnel and eventually we will the light at the end of it.
When I get out of the hospital I look above and see beautiful clouds and it makes me happy that I can see them again. Be happy take of your body because you can`t just order a replacement online.
**“Clouds become beautiful when the ground is low”**
Electrolyte and Nuerological Manifestation
Why electrolyte is test to perform 2 years old female poodle with complain collapse and decreased segmental reflex and decreases muscle tone.
Before conducting any test we can ask the client if he/she observed the animal`s behavoir. we can ask questios like did you observe the animal before and after the muscle weakness occurs, did the animal change it`s food and water intake or did the animal eat or drink before the muscle weakness occur, is the animal is playful, did the animal is the only pet in the house hold and did the animal experiece severe stress and depresion. based in the client`s answer we can construct our differential diagnosis. If the animal changes it`s diet or water intake or if the animal suddenly experience muscle weakness we can conduct test like the electrolyte test.
Electrolyte imbalance may not cause any symptoms. Such disorders can go undetected until they are discover during blood test and if the severe symptoms manifest. Common symptoms of an electrolyte imbalance include irregular heart beat, fast hear rate, fatigue, lethargy, convulsion or seizures, nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, muscle cramps and muscle weakness.
Hyponatremia include nausea and vomiting, head ache, short term memory loss, confusion, lethargy. Fatigue, loss of appetite and muscle weakness. Neurological symptoms occur with very low level of plasma sodium. When sodium level in the blood become very low, water enter the brain cells and causes them to swell. This result pressure in the skull and causes hyponatremic encephalopathy.
Hypokalemia may include attacks of severe muscle weakness, eventually leading to paralysis and possibly respiratory failure. Muscular dysfunction may result in paralysis of the bowel, low blood pressure, muscle twitches and mineral deficiency or tetany. Hypokalemia may also impair the ability of the kidneys to concentrate urine resulting to excessive urination and excessive thirst.
**Late atrophy (Denervation Atrophy) is an outcome of Upper motor neuron lesion and early atrophy (Disuse Atrophy) is an outcome of Lower motor neuron lesion.**
Late atrophy or denervation atrophy is an outcome of lesion in the UMN, example of symptoms that can manifest upper motor neuron lession is hyperflexion. Because there is no signal from the UMN it will result to denervation of the muscle that is supplied by the UMN. And if there in no lesion in the UMN but there is lesion in the LMN it will result to early atrophy or disuse atrophy because the signal from the UMN can`t pass through the LMN, resulting to disuse atrophy
Atrophy of a muscle or a muscle group will result to decrease in it`s size. the mucle will become weak and eventually loss it`s ability to move. This kind of symptoms must be observed so avoid further destruction of the nerves
**Explain why hyperflexion and hypertonicity is a neurological manifestation.**
Hyperflexion is a feature of a UMN lesion. A series of pathological reflex are often present in patiens with UMN, one of the best example is the Babinski sign. The presence of babinski reflex can indicate that the patient may have an underlying nervous or brain condition that causes the reflex to react abnormally
Hypertonicty or spasticity and rigidity is caused by the lesion in the upper motor neuron that may lead to many injuries and diseases that involve damage in the CNS. The symptoms of hypertonicty are uncontrolled muscle spasm, stiffening of the muscle, shock like contraction of a muscle group and abnormal muscle tone. Hypertonicty is seen in disorders such as cerebral palsy, stroke and spinal cord injury.
This kind of symptoms and manifestations must be observed carefully and provide medical assistance to avoid further damage and further disorders.
I hope you like my litle research about electrolyte imbalances and neurological disorder manifestation. I hope it will help you to be more aware in the behavior of your pets or animal. Thank you for reading. have a nice day.
Erythrocyte and Acid Base balance
Erythrocyte
Carrier of hemoglobin and therefore function in O2 and Co2 transport
Regulation of Erythropoiesis
- Erythropoietin
o Produced in the Kidney
o Prevent apoptosis to allow RBC to mature
o Produced in response to hypoxia
o Stimulate stem cell differentiation into rubriblast
- Androgen
o Increase Erythropoietin release from the kidney
- Estrogen
o Have an inhibitory effect on Erythropoiesis
There are 4 division to make 16 RBC
5 days to release the stem cell into the circulation
Intravascular in avian
Extravascular in mammals
Erythropoiesis
- Start with a large RUBRIBLAST
o As the cell divide and mature the cell become smaller.
o The nucleus become smaller and increase hemoglobin concentration
Early Rubricyte- hemoglobin synthesis starts
Late rubricyte-
critical hemoglobin concentration is reached
shut down the cell division
pag na reach na ang tamang hemoglobin level stop na ang hemoglobin synthesis. Kaya walang hyperchromic na mang-yayare
metarubricyte
- Nucleus is small and pyknotic (irreversible condensation of chromatin of cell nucleus undergoing apoptosis)
Reticulocyte
- Have residual RNA and organelles
- Polychromatic cells (RBC that appear blueish gray inn the blood smear) (Polychromasia- abnormal findings, presence of numerous abnormal RBC in the blood)
- Equine- no reticulocyte in the circulation.
RBC
- No RNA
- High hemoglobin concentration
Ageing of erythrocyte is accompanied by changes in enzyme content and cell membrane structure that is subjected by the spleen removal (Phagocytosis of the macrophages)
The body iron content is regulated by the rate of absorption rather than the rate of excretion
Transferrin- transport iron in the blood
- When iron is with transferrin = serum Iron
- SI can be expressed as total iron binding capacity/TIBCB reported as % saturation
- TIBC-SI=UIBC
Ferritin- is the form of iron stored In the RES (correlate with tissue iron reserve)
Causes of decreased SI
- Iron defficiency
- Chronic and acute inflammation
- Hyperproteinemia
- Hypothyroidism
- Renal disease
Cause of increased SI
- Hemolytic anemia (due to the destruction of RBC resulting to escape of iron)
- Lysis of RBC
- Hemolysis
- GCC excess
- Non regen anemia
Erythrocyte metabolism
EMP/Glycolysis
- ATP is generated from glucose to maintain RBC membrane integrity
- Pyruvate kinase and phosphofrutokinase can lead to animia
Hexose monophoshate pathway
- Glutathione is maintained is reduce state (because it can oxidize RBC)
o When RBC undergo oxidation. The RBC will be coated by oxide causing it to rust of become hard resulting to stress RBC meaning that the membrane conformation will change. Now the RBC will become aged and will be send to the spleen for destruction.
- Glutathione reductase deficiency may result to Heinz body and anemia
o Heinz body
Inclusion in the RBC compose of denatured hemoglobin.
Methamoglobin redutase pathway
- Methemoglobin is oxidized hemoglobin
- Reduced hemoglobin is necessary for transport of oxygen
o Oxyhemoglobin – reduced state of hemoglobin
Luenbering-Rapoport pathway
- Allows the formation of 2,3-DPG that regulate transport into tissue by lowering O2 affinity to oxygen
- Increased in 2,4-DPG may be caused by
o Hypoxemia- abnormal low level of O2 in the blood
o Animia
o Hyperphosphatemia- increased level of phosphate concentration. Can be caused by
Chronic kidney disease
Hypoparathyrodism
Metabolic/respiratory acidosis
Clinical features may be due to: hypocalcemia and tetany ( low calcium in the blood. Characterized by spams
Means of evaluating erythrocyte
1. PCV or hematocrit
-the percent of blood compose of erythrocyte
2. RBC count- using hemocytometer, less accurate than the PCV
3. hemoglobin concentration- most direct indication of the oxygen transport capacity if the blood (1/3 of the PCV)
Icterus index
- Hemoglobin fails to be conjugated in liver dysfunction and free bilirubin is allowed to be exess
Factors affecting the PCV, HB and RBC count
- Change in RBC mass
o Anemia
o Absolute polycythemia- increase in RCB mass
o Relative polycythemia- refers to a loss of volume causing an elevated hematocrit
- Change in hydration
o Dehydration
o Over hydration
Erythrocyte indices
MCV/Means Corpuscular volume
- Average volume of erythrocyte of an individual
- Calculation: RCV x 10 / RBC count
Macrocytic anemia
- Increase in MCV
- Example is Responsive anemia
o Mani reticulocyte in the circulation
o Indicate marrow response to anemia
- Vitamin B 12 and folic deficiency
o Vitamin B 12 anemia- is a condition in which the body does not have enough healthy RBC. Vit B 12 is neededd to make RBC
Normocytic anemia- MCV is within the normal interval
- Example: hemorrhages
Microcytic anemia- Decreased MCV
- Example: Iron Deficiency anemia
o In mature animal
o With the deficiency in iron, the body can`t produce enough of a substance in RBC called hemoglobin that enables them to carry O2
o As a result of iron deff anemia It may leave you tired and short of breath
RBC distribution width
- A erythrocyte index used to determine the degree of variation in RBC
- More sensitive than MCV for detecting changes in RBC
- The higher the value above the reference interval, the greater is the erythrocyte size variation
- RDW correlates to the degree of anisocytosis
o Anisocytosis- RBC is unequal in size, found in cases of anemia and other blood conditions
Mean Corpuscular Hemoglobin/ MCH
- Mean amount/weight of Hb contained in an average RBC
- Least accurate
- Calculation: Hb(gram/dL) x 10/RBC count
Mean Corpuscular hemoglobin Concentration/ MCHC
- Concentration if hemoglobin in an average RBC
- Calculation: Hb (g/dL) x 100/ PCV%
Decreased MCHC- Hypochromic anemia
- Hypochromic anemia- general term for any type of anemia in which the RBC is paler than normal
- Hypo means less and chromic means color
- Example: iron deficiency
- Reticulocytosis
o Increase in number of reticulocyte in the circulation (immature RBC)
MCHC within the normal reference interval
- Normochromic anemia- average size and Hb content of RBC is in normal limits.
Increased MCHC- Hyperchromic
- Hemolysis
o Increase MCH
Peripheral blood smear for evaluation of blood cells
1. RBC morphology
- Canine
o Large uniform in size with central pallor
- Feline and Bovine
o With slight central pallor and mild anisocytosis
o Crenation- abnormal notch surface in the cell that result form loss of water through osmosis
- Equine
o Lack central pallor and rouleaux formation is common
2. Rouleaux – grouping of erythrocyte resembling a stack of coins
o Associated with an increase of
Fibrinogen concentration
• Fibrinogen is made by the liver, it convert thrombin to fibrin then to a fibrin-based blood clot.
Qualitative change in serum globulins
• Globulin is made by the liver
• Plays an important role in lover function, blood clotting and fighting infection.
o Common in horses
o In dogs it may occur in mild degree of health but marked during inflammation and neoplastic diseases
o Rare in ruminants in health and disease
Rouleaux formation
- The normal RBC has negatively charged surface that repels neighboring cells, but during inflammation blood protein increases. The plasma protein coats the RBC and mask the negative charge resulting to voiding its repulsion resulting to formation of rouleaux.
Autoagglutination
- Process by which TBC adhere to each other and form cohesive aggregates that no not dissipate when mixed with equal pars of saline
- Occur when the RBC is are coated with Ab that interacts with adjacent RBC.
- Indicate immune-mediated hemolytic anemia or IMHA
o Autoimmune disease in dogs that the body attacks It`s own RBC
o Also predispose dogs to forming blood clots especially in brain and lungs.
3. Anisocytosis
- Variation is size
- Common in cattle
- Occur when there is a degenerative anemia
Macrocyte- RBC is larger than normal with an increase in MCV
Mircocytes- RBC with a diameter less than normal with decrease in MCV
4. Polychromasia- variation in color
- Hypochromasia
o Decreased staining intensity caused by insufficient Hb within the cells
o Seen in iron deficiency
- Normochomasia
o Normal staining intensity
Poikilocytosis - Deviation is normal shape
- Leptocyte-
o thin RBC with increase surface volume but volume is not increased (low concentration of Hb)
o cell membrane can fold or become distorted
o common in non-regenerative anemia
non- regenerative anemia- the bone marrow can not respond in the anemic state.
Codocytes/ target cells
- subclass of leptocye with distribution of Hb in the center and periphery of the of the erythrocyte.
- Formed because of either increased membrane surface area or decreased cytoplasmic volume
- Seen in animals with liver disease IMHA
Stomacytes
- Leptocyte that is bowel shape with 3d
- Seen in
o Liver disease
o Chronic anemia- commonly occur with infection, chronic illness, inflammatory disorders or cancer
Spherocyte
- Small, darkly stained RBC lacking of central pallor
- Have reduced amount of membrane result from partial phagocytosis
- Seen in animals with
o IMHA
o Chronic debilitating disease
Diseases that affect people`s strength leaving them weak.
Keratocyte/horn cells/helmet cells
- Partial RBC with one or more incomplete cuts
- Projection result form ruptured vesicles
Acantocytes/spur cells/spicules cells
- Form secondary to an altered membrane lipid and cholesterol content
- Seen in patient with severe liver disease
Echinocytes
- Characterized by the presence of multiple, rounded edge projection, evenly spaced along the RBC surface
- Seen in various metabolic disorders.
Erythrocytes Inclusions
1. Reticulocytes
2. Punctate Basophillia
- Aggregation of basophillic staining materials seen as granules of different size RBC
- Attributed to degenerative changes in RNA of young cells
3. Howell- Jolly bodies
- Remnant of nuclear material after the nucleus has been extruded
4. Heinz bodies
- Irregularly shaped refractile bodies representing denatured Hb
- Occur in horses with hemolytic animia caused by PTZ therapy or wild onion poisoning
o PTZ or Pentylenetetrazol- a drug formerly used as circulatory and respiratory stimulant.
o Wild onion poisoning in horses- causes Heinz body hemolytic anemia in horses. The toxic principle is n-propyl disulfide.
Anemia- reduction in number of erythrocyte, Hb or both in the circulation
Classification of anemia
Etiology classification
Four major categories
1. Blood loss
2. Excessive destruction of RBC or shorten life span
3. Depression of bone marrow
4. Nutritional deficiency
Anemias can be classified as regenerative or non- regenerative. In general:
marcrocytic anemias are responding
normocytic anemia are non responding
microcytic anemias can be either the two
regenerative anemia
- bone marrow responds to anemia by increasing RBC production and releasing immature erythrocyte
Non Regenerative anemia
- the bone marrow in unable to respond to anemic state
- reticulocyte is absent, suggesting marrow dysfunction
Polycythemia
- increase in number of RBC and is usually accompanied by a corresponding increase in the amount of Hb and PCV
1. absolute polycythemia
- an absolute increase in PCV, RBC count and Hb concentration by increased total body RBC mass occur
- plasma volume and protein are normal
2. primary absolute polycythemia/ polycythemia vera
- disease characterized by absolute increase in total blood volume with increase in total circulating erythrocyte.
3. Secondary absolute polocythemia
- Caused by increase erythropoietin level (occur in hypoxia)
Relative polycythemia/Spurious
- Increase in PCV but total RBC mass in normal
- Cause
o Hemoconcentration: fluid loss
o Excited animal.
Water, Electrolyte and Acid-Base balance
Two compartment
ICF- water contained within the cell
ECF- fluid outside the cell
- Consist of plasma, lymph and fluids found in the CSF and joints
Intracellular Fluid/ICF
- Contains a higher concentration of K and Ph and lower concentration of Na and Cl
- Major cations
o K
o Mg
- Major anions
o Organic Ph
o Proteins
Extracellular fluid/ECF
- Compose of fluids found in
o Intravascular/Plasma
o Interstitial/including lymph
o Transcellular- including fluids in the CSF and joints
- Water and major electrolyte move freely within the compartment and between it and intravascular fluids
- Major cations
o Na
- Major anions
o Cl
o Bicarbonate
Note:
Na regulates the osmotic pressure in the ECF and K in the ICF
Water movement between ICF and ECF is partially dependent upon the physical effected by:
- Hydrostatic pressure
- Osmotic effects of ECF proteins
Note:
hydrostatic pressure pushes fluids outside the BV
Oncotic pressure (protein) counter act the movement of water out of the BV
Electrolytes
1. Na
- 50% found in the ECF, the quantity is controlled by dietary intake and loss
- In carnivores, it usually preset in adequate amount in the diet
- In herbivores may occasionally experience deficiency
- Excretion:
o Kidney
o Sweat
o Digestive tract
- 90% of sodium present in the renal tubule is reabsorbed
- Controlled by aldosterone
o When the Na is low, there will be an increase in the secretion of aldosterone resulting to an increase of Na reabsorption (vive versa when the Na is In high amount)
Electrical neutrality must be maintain in the body, the increase of cations will result to the decrease of the other
2. K
- Concentration is low in the ECF and high in the most part of the body
- Carnivores and herbivores. Their diet contain an adequate amount of K
- Kidney ability to conserver K is not efficient as that with Na
- K excretion is also controlled by aldosterone
o Aldosterone causes increased Na reabsorption by promoting the exchange Na in the tubular fluid for K in the tubular cell
3. Cl
- Small quantities in the ICF but high quantities in the ECF
- Cl excretion, absorption and distribution is passive. It follows the Na
4. HCO3
- Greatly influence the maintenance of the Acid-Base balance in the body
- Endogenic in origin
- Produced by hydration of CO3 and H2CO3 which then dissociated to HCO3 and H (via Carbonic Anhydrase)
- Excretion:
o Digestive tract
o Urine
Measurement of dehydration
1. PCV
- In dehydration PCV will increase because there is decrease in the level of plasma
2. Urinalysis
-the SG will increase in dehydrated animal because the solute in the urine increase because there are low amount of fluid
3. Determination of plasma protein concentration
- Increase plasma concentration in dehydrated animals
4. Body weight changes
Electrolyte Abnormalities
- Mercury metric titrimetric technique
- Plasma photometry for determination of Na and K
- Serum is the desired sample
o The serum must be separated as soon as possible to prevent further ion exchange
1. Hyponatremia or decrease Na in the blood
- Diarrhea and vomiting
o Caused by toxins and LT toxins
o Because the Na is not absorbed
- Renal disease
- Osmotic diuresis in cases of diabetes mellitus
o Increase in glucose result to increase in ECF osmolarity= Na secretion to avoid hyperosmolarity
o Osmolarity- the concentration of a solution expressed as the total number of solute particle per liter
o Hyperosmolarity- is a condition in which the body has a high concentration of salt, glucose and other substances
o Diabetes mellitus- is a disorder in which the body does not produce enough or respond normally to insulin, causing blood sugar or glucose level to be abnormally high
- Excessive sweating
- Adrenocortical insufficiency- aldosterone deficiency
- Exudation from burns and wounds
- Delusional hyponatremia
2. Hypernatremia (rare)
- Occurs when there is loss of body fluids containing less Na than plasma and water intake is restricted (increase in concentration of Na in the blood)
- Advance chronic renal failure with low GFR
o Sever reduction of glomerular filtration rate
- Primary hyperaldosteronemia
o Secretion of excess aldosterone
- Diabetes insipidus
o Pure water is only being loss because of the opening of aquaporins in the kidney and the Na is being retained and not being loss
o DI is an uncommon disorder that causes an imbalance of fluids in the body
3. Hyperkalemia or increase K in the blood/ hyperpotanemia
- Acute renal failure
o Failure to excrete K out of the blood
- Hypoadrenocorticotism is associated with administration of K sparing diuresis
o Decrease in mineralocorticoid leading to less reabsorption of Na
o In case of hypoadrenocorticotism there is less secretion of aldosterone resulting to less reabsorption of Na, pag ganon nangyare mag stay lang Na pa excrete so mag stay den ang K sa loob. Kase palitan dapat sila.
- Urethral obstruction and bladder rupture
o K is not excreted
- Metabolic acidosos
o K go out of the vessel to the cell in exchange of H. when this happen the pH will increase due to the presence of H in the circulation.
- Insulin deficiency
o Because the entry of K into the cell is regulated by Insulin and Mg
4. Hypokalemia
- Occurs as a result of decreased K loss or a shift of K from the ECF to the ICF
- Vomiting and diarrhea
- Metabolic alkalosis
o K is excreted to the urine in exchange of H
- Hyperaldosteronism
o K is attributed with aldosterone
5. Hypochloridemia
- Losses from the GIT due to prolong vomiting
- Advance renal failure
o Failure of Cl reabsorption
- Adrenal insufficiency- lack of aldosterone
- Exudation from burns and wounds
6. Hyperchloridemia
- Dehydration
- Congestive heart failure
Acid base balance
pH determine by the number of free H in a solution
- pH=log H+
acid is the proton donor that contribute free H to a solution
base is the proton acceptor that takes free H out of the solution
normal blood pH: 7.3 to 7.5
pH maintenance is controlled by the combines effects of:
- blood buffer system
- respiratory system
- renal system
1. blood buffer system
a. buffer
- mixture of weakly dissociated acid and a salt of that acid
- prevent a major shift in pH by binding or releasing H+
- consist of the following
o hemoglobin
o protein buffer system
o Phosphate buffer system
o HCO3/H2Co3 system
b. The Bohr effect- how Hb buffer the blood
c. HCO3/H2CO3 system
2. Respiratory control
- Respiratory center in the medulla oblongata is sensitive to pCO2 blood levels, Increase in blood pCO2 causes the an increase in respiratory rate which has tendency to return pCO2 and H2CO3 to normal
3. Renal control
- Kidneys exchange Na for H causing production of acidic urine
- NH2 may diffuse into the tubules and combine with H. this permits increased H excretion and Na preservation
- Non volatile acid when there is decrease in bicarbonate sodium and bicarbonate will go to the blood and H into the urine
Truth about the Philippines
Philippines, a small country but high population. A country which only the rich have power, a country where robbers are the government officials, a country that killings are normal and a country that people are lost without a trace.
I`m a filipino and I lived in the Philippines my entire life. Hear we have many culture, festivals and places that is worth seing. We have animalls that are endemic hear, people that is so great and intelligent. Filipinos are known for being hospitable, kind and wise and that is true. But i know your knowledge about the Philippines is based on books and good news. I know that you didn`t know what our country look like when you live hear.
You need to see and know more about the Philippines. Our country is not just about Boracay, Palawan and Manila. Our country has it`s good and bad angle, it`s up to you how to look at it
*Let me tell you things that you must know about the Philippines. Facts that might change your perception about peace.*
The people
First lets talk about the good side of Filipinos. Filipinos are hospitable, we will open our arms wide when you need help, we will help you without any return. Filipinos help each other in times of need. Filipinos are good in saving money, we always think about the future and we know that we are not forever rich. We Filipinos are always smiling even in times of calamities, Filipinos always say that “ Bagyo kalang Filipino kame”
Now lets talk about the bad side. Filipinos have a mentality called “Crab mentality”, when you have a spare time observe a group of crab in a container or a jar. When one crab is going up and getting out of the container the other crab will pull it down, that is the crab mentality. Filipinos always do that, when they see other people nearly achieving their dreams other people will pull them down.
Filipinos are a big fan of cancel culture, when one Filipino is sharing his/her idea or dreams other will people will cancel it immediately and say words that will discourage the one with idea. As the days pass by this cancel culture is being normalized and it destroy many dreams.
In the Philippines title is more important than dreams. Hear in the Philippines, when a children wants to be an artist, musician or writer his/her parent will disapprove immediately. They will said that there is no money in that kind of field.
Government officials
Our government officials are different they see the politics as a business. They have poor decision making and at the same time they are slow workers. One good example is this pandemic, last year in early January Filipinos are urging the government to ban flight so the virus will not have a chance to enter the country but the official refuses and the result is catastrophic. Now we have many cases of Covid-19 and we can`t control it. Many are dead and many are still recovering in hospitals.
Corruption is one of the biggest problem hear in our country. The officials are getting richer while the poor are still hungry. During election they are begging for votes while saying their plans for the better tomorrow. But words that they said is a lie, people are still living under poverty. Last year there are news that Philhealth officials stole 15 billion pesos and until now the money is no where to be found.
Justice
In the Philippines we have a different kind of justice. Hear justice is based on power and money, when you are poor you don`t have the right to call for justice. Power and money run the police and money other sector of the government. In early days of January a rape case arise, this month 4 bodies found dead in Tagaytay, the police man that shot 2 innocent people file that he is innocent. Do you see justice?
Philippines is a great country in early times, one of the best I think. But as the president and other new officials are elected it get worse and worse. People remain silent because they are too afraid to speak. Many people just vote without conducting research so they elect the wrong leader.
I hope Philippines changes soon, I hope it`s people wake up and think differently. I hope people start to voice out so the officials will hear it loud and clear.
I have high hopes for this country, and I want to see how it will change and prosper. I want to be a part of the change that will bring better days for it`s people.
**Next time you visit Philippines remember my words and see what story is hidden in every smile of a Filipino**
It`s never the time to Quit
There are time in our life that it is so hard we feel like there is no hope, moments in our life that destroy us as a whole and there are times that all plans that we planned for to long will fall in an instant. But there are times that life is good, times that it`s full of candies and rainbows. But sometimes we are overwhelmed by all the bad things, negativity and bad news we feel like quitting, we feel like there is no hope anymore. We feel so tired and don`t want to go out of bed, we feel that we are not happy anymore. But why? Are we just sick of it and we just want to retire? Are we done of all the bad things that are happening everyday?
But we know that life is tough and it is survival of the fittest, life will crash us until we are on our knees begging. But that can not happen until we fight back right? Until we are breathing there are rooms for moving on and change, there are room for improvement. Until we can stand there is chance that we can win every fight.
I feel like quitting every time and I know some of you feel the same, I know that many of us are crying every night because life is continually putting pressure on us waiting for us to just collapse. As the days and years passed by after many struggles and pain I under went and conquered I learn many things how keep going. Many things that force me to live my day and keep pushing forward. I will share this thought to you and I hope it will help you. So you will know that you are not alone fighting every day, you are not alone struggling to find your right path in life. You are not alone.
Just remember why you started
When you feel like it is all over, when you feel like there is no chance just remember why you started. Remember all the dreams you want to attain and goals you want to accomplish. Just remember all the people that are rooting for you, remember the people that put their faith on you. So don`t give up on what you are doing especially if you really want to finish it.
When you fell like quitting just remember why you started.
***Remember that life is hard and we don`t have a choice but to fight until the very last day***
Take some rest
When we start a thing or a mission with full strength and hope. As the mission go we can face many obstacles and problems and as the mission go further we become exhausted and tired what are we going to do? Are we going to quit? Or are we going to abandon the mission? The answer is we can just rest for a while, my grandfather always saying that to me until now “When you`re tired, take a rest". Recover your strength and power, wait until all the scar that you acquired along the way are already healed.
Life is not a race, don`t compare your time to other people. We all have our time to shine, to bloom and to give life. Don`t rush everything because life is short for us to move fast. We can cherish every moment of we can jus waste it because we are always thinking for the future.
Find the right friends
Find your inspiration. Find things or people that will push you to keep going not people that will hold you back. People that will don`t support you to your dream or on your journey are not the right people for you.
Don`t let people discourage you on everything you want to accomplish. Cut them out of your life and let them see how you prosper without them.
Find purpose
Find your purpose in life and follow them, take risk like I said in my previous article. When you follow you`re purpose and do what you want even it is hard you will not quit because you want it. You will not quit because you have a vision of the ending. Find and follow your purpose
Enjoy the process
Enjoy the process. It`s okay to think of the gold at the end of every journey, but what more important is how you embrace the process. Enjoy the process, learn every lesson you can learn in that journey.
Remember in that process there are walls, there are splitting of roads and sometimes there are enemies. Choose the right road, climb every wall and fight every enemy until you get to the place you want to be.
Once to enjoy the process you will not quit even the it is hard.
**Take life as a challenge. The harder the challenge get the more we must fight back, don`t let life deteriorate you. Fight back, Don`t quit and see you in the finish line.**
“Make your life a celebration”
Diving deep
Do we really know our self? Do we really see what`s inside our head? Many of us just live everyday like robots with no emotions or feelings. Some of us live everyday not happy on what we are doing, but we can`t escape it. And there are some who hide their real self deep in their heart because they are ashamed or afraid on what other people will say. But is that right? Do we really accept that we must live to satisfy others by restraining our self or we are just afraid?
Many of us live everyday in our own lie and we get comfortable at it. We are afraid of the truth so we use our lies as walls to hide. But you know it`s not healthy and it will slowly melt you leaving you in the floor. We walk everyday eyes closed, ignoring all the possibilities that we can be better. Our eyes are closed, we are afraid to know the truth because we know it might hurt us.
Be your self
Nobody can make you who you are. Nobody can get a molder and mold you out of it. Be the captain of your own boat and sail the ocean. Some people are just close-minded and can`t accept a person because it can`t benefit them so they choose and find a way to change that person so they can benefit from it. don`t be a victim of the wrong doings, be who you are and in that way you can find your true happiness and true self.
Do what you like
We are forced to do many things we don`t want to do. Very common example is when your family wanted you to be a doctor but you want to be anything else, what will you do? Hear in the Philippines children and teen don`t have a choice but to obey, we don`t have the right to talk back becuase they said is it so disrepectful. So many children loose their hope and do things that make them unhappy. They said that money is more important than dreams, there are no money in being an artist, they said people can`t eat dreams, they said that children must earn money a lot so the family can benefit. Don`t get me wrong, family is important and they care for us, but is that the right way? Destroy one`s dreams to get better in life?
But if you have a choice, do what makes you happy. Even it is hard, even it is a big risk do it. it`s better to risk that to regret right? Do what you want, it is better to get stressed to things that you want to do than to suffer on things that you don`t want to do.
If you pick path you don`t want, eventually you will be exhausted and tired, eventually you will give up because you don`t want it in the first place. But if you pursue the things and path you want, you will not give up because you know that you want it. you will never give up because you are enjoying the process even it Is hard.
Take risk
There are walls in our life that separate us from being happy and being sad, there are walls that separate us form being successful and being a failure. Many people can`t leave their comfort zone because they are afraid, they are afraid to take risk because there is always a voice inside their head whispering “ what if you fail “ take risk and step out f you comfort zone, climb those walls that separate you from thing that you want. Expect that wall is high and crowded with sharp wires, expect that wall is hard to conquer. But once you pass that wall you can see what is in the other side, you can see what kind of happiness is waiting for you.
But remember taking risk is a risk, it can go not according to plan or It can lead you to bad choices. But at least you try, you try to see if it is for you. When it is not for you that experience will not go to waste, you can use it to be more stronger and wiser.
Embrace the truth
You can choose if you can be happy in truth or in lie. If you choose to be happy in truth you can see how the world is changing, you can see how cruel and sad the world is. And based on that truth you can adapt and be stronger and you can make an effort and help the world to change, you will have a chance to make a stand and lead the world to a better place. But if you choose to be happy in lie, you are digging your own grave, you will grow weak day by day and you will not move forward
We can choose what we want to be. We can be anything we want and be happy. By doing this we can learn more about our self, we can learn more how to handle many situation. Get out of your comfort zone and be limitless, like Steve Harvey said “ You must be comfortable in being uncomfortable”
***Make you life a celebration***
The circle of Life
The circle of life
We have our own different life, different from the other in many ways. We are unique and powerful, we can be anything we want to be if we never give up on it. Life can be tough and soft sometimes, it is full of ups and downs. We fell in deep holes sometimes and its so hard to get out. Life give us problems and obstacle, sometimes we are overwhelm and become afraid so we can`t move. But as we live day by day we learn things that we can carry as our life goes on. Lesson that will make us more stronger and powerful.
The children years
Do you have a child? Or do you like observing child playing out side or walking in the part? Do you notice anything significant to them? Children has their own kind of happiness right?
Children are so fascinating and so different. We are once a child in our life and I`m sure we notice how life change as we grow old. As a child we don`t need to worry for anything we can just play all day and be a good kid.
As a children we see life different, because we don`t know how cruel and merciless it is. We only see the positive side and it make us happy. Being a child is having a lot of time, having a lot of time to learn and train our self. In that process of learning some times we fall and earn a bruise and eventually we stand up again. And that bruise will mark us forever, it give us a lesson to not commit that the same mistake again.
The teen years
As the days and year past by we become old. This is one of the moment that is hard, new lesson, new environment, new place and new experience. It feel like we are starting over again but with a little boost we earn when we are a child. As we become old the way we see the world also change. Our problems become more hard, but now we have the lesson we learn us a kid and we are more wiser now. This years we need to study and pursue our dreams and we need to establish our goals.
But in our teen years we are not alone, now we have friends that can help us to grow. Friends that will make us become a better person or friends that will lead us to our own destruction. Having a friend that we can trust is a blessing, good friends will led us to victory and success. But we need to be more picky in choosing a friend.
Now we know that the world will swallow us whole when we don`t fight back, so we need to become more stronger. We need to continue our life even it is hard at this point.
The adult years
This is where we will know what is the true meaning of life is. This part of our life Is hard, tough and stressful. This part of our life is where we will encounter many new things sometime wonderful sometimes miserable.
This part of our life is confusing, we don`t know what we want to do or to be, we don`t know where we want to go, we don`t know if we are moving forward of backwards, we don`t know if we are going to success and achieve our goals. It’s the hardest time of our life there so many thing that is always running in our minds, things that we want to do and things we wish that we didn`t do. In addition, in this time we are introduced to many bad things in life like alcohol and drugs. We are introduced in love that can either help us or destroy us.
We need to work for us to eat and make our life more comfortable. We need to save enough money for our kids. There are so many things that will and can happen in this time but it`s up to us how we will manage it.
Life is crazy, hard and twisted but at the same time it is wonderful and fascinating. All we need to do is live in it and never surrender because at the end of the day life is life.
We have the right to pick what path and fate we want to take and if we pick the wrong one, we can change and make a new path of our own. Don`t let anyone take that right away from you, be the captain of your own boat and live your life the way you want to. be conscious, careful and aware and at the same time have fun. Don`t take anything for granted, don`t look your life in negative way because there are many people that wish their were you.
Sometimes we did not cherish every moment of our life and we will regret it. We will wish that can bring back time where every thing is candies and rainbows, where everything is just so light and not dark. So cherish and treasure every moment from now on, live everyday like it`s your last.
Be happy and enjoy life. Laugh a lot and share positive vibes. Be your self and make your self shine and be free.
Make your life a celebration.
Victims
Not even a month since the year 2021 started but may issues and bad news slowly arising specially hear on the Philippines. Corruption and Covid-19 pandemic is still a problem and there is no great action is being done. People are going crazy because of the new variant spreading. In addition, this past week news about a rape victim blew in social media and everyone is talking about it.
There is one issue that spark rage in the social media in the Philippines. Is the death of a flight stewardess, the news said that the woman is raped by 11 man that is her co-workers. But the case is still open and the police is still investigating. Because of this issue many people take sides and make theories of their own.
Many people become more aggressive and hard in the social media. Because of the media manipulation people take side and express their own opinion and some people don`t accept it and the craziness enlarged. Until now people are debating about it, some say it is the woman`s fault and some says that rape is rape and there will be no rape if there is no rapist and some says that the 2 side is to blame.
The police fabricated lies that make the situation more complicated and confusing. The police said that there is sperm found on the scene and the victim die because of aneurysm, they also said that there is laceration in the private part of the victim but it is healed meaning the wound is prior to the incident. Based on this reports people make theories that some make sense and some are not.
Because of this issue I decided to make poem and post in facebook and hear in read.cash. I hope my words reach your heart and mind. I hope many people can read and spread it, and I hope it brings awareness to many people. Rape is a long time problem in many countries in the world. Everyday there are people being raped whether male or female, young or old there is no exception. Some of the victims keep the incident a secret because victims are just being blamed when they tell the story. Because of this rape culture many criminal are still on loose and the rape will never end until every one cooperate.
I know justice change a lot these days and it become more chaotic. Rich have high chance to get one, but poor just hope for the best. Justice is controlled by power, so when you don`t have the right power, you know what I mean. I hope this kind of justice ends, I hope justice find its own eye, equal and fair. I hope this nonsense end and we attain the true peace.
This is the poem, I hope you like it. It`s title is "Victim"
***Media manipulation, close minded opinions***
***We are unconsciously building walls***
***Well fabricated lie and poorly built truth***
***Who will we trust when the justice turns***
***Blood on the dance floor, blood on their hands***
***Point blank, dead shot where`s the story at?***
***When the rich died, now the poor can hide***
***They say we are at peace but we are drowning in blood***
***Those wide mouth, sharp teeth, thick scale know how to play well***
***Mask on, rope tied, we can`t breath***
***Face shield, eye shut, we can`t see well***
***Scope on, magazine filled, those white flag turns red***
***Bath tub, scarred pride***
***Judas was hanged. Peter denied, 11 apostles on loose***
***Romans said hunt them down***
***They might die, but still we don`t know the truth***
***Now telling the truth is a crime? I`m so confused***
***When we open our minds and mouths we are crucified***
***They throw stones to the wise and they throw coins to the dumb***
***Now I know how those uniforms were formed***
Everyone opinion is important but we must also remember that not everyone will respect it and everyone has opinion. Having an opinion and voicing it out is our freedom, and it help us express our self. But now a days having an opinion is like digging your own grave, people will attack, some people will take It personally and they might hurt you.
I hope the truth come out soon so justice become clear. I hope people see the truth more than the lie. Let`s be all aware
"If we`re not aware we might loss"
I`m so Thankful
This past year is terrible with all the problem and issues that the world is going thru. Almost all the bad headlines happened last year new virus that can`t be treated, volcanoes erupting, flood, earthquake and massive explosion. All bad thing you can think of, it all happen last year. And it is so alarming, even with the catastrophe humans never change, we keep destroying the world.
Many people die and some still recovering, many people suffer and still suffering. I hope this year will be good, no more pandemic, riots and war. I hope people that die in the arms of police and criminals get their justice, those women who are raped and killed, I hope those sex offenders burn in hell.
But after all what happened I`m still alive and I wonder why? What is the meaning of this? Do I have a mission that is not fulfilled yet? Do I have a bigger purpose?
Last year I`m hospitalized almost every month
Almost every month I`m hospitalized because of my stomach acting crazy, the doctor said that I have a case of Gastritis. Even I follow the instructions of my doctor, eat only what Is allow and get all the medicine. My stomach Is still acting up. Its like there`s something in my stomach and it hurts, hurts a lot. Almost every month I experience this and because of the hospital bills I lost my savings and everything.
Because of my disease I`m forces to eat vegetable and oatmea everyday and I think it`s a good thing right? It`s a win and win situation. I saved animals and live healthy.
Tomorrow I will go to see my doctor and have a check up, I hope there Is no complication or what so ever. Please pray for me.
A big fight
Last year me and my father have a big fight and because of that I`m evicted from our house. Because of this I`m forced to live in a apartment with my dog. Every night It kills me thinking what I`ve done, I regret it and I hope my father can forgive me. I know its both our fault but it should not end that way.
Accident
Last year I almost die because of an accident, when I was riding my bike the car in front of me just stop forcefully and I slam on it`s back. I drop in the road and fell as sleep, when I wake up many people is taking care of me offering me some water and wiping the blood off my shoulder. I grateful that I`m alive, because now I can tell stories and bring awareness to people.
I will never forget those people who helped me, they saved my life and I owe them a lot. I hope I can see them again and give a big thanks for what they have done.
Last year I lost 2 of my grandmother and it breaks me
Last year 2 of my grandmother died, one died because of kidney complication and the other died because of diabetes. They raised we when I was a child when my father and mother is working. Almost everyday they fetch me in our house and go for the walk in the beach. I miss those days, days that are not so complicated and full of problems. Days that I hope I can experience again.
I`m not telling my real life stories to beg mercy and get some attention or to get some donations. I`m telling my stories to inspire people that one day will come and it will be better. Not everyday is a bad day and not everyday is a good day. Life is full of up and downs, sometimes those downs are so deep it feel like we can`t escape it. But once we never give up and keep pushing thru, we get out of that hole and we can see better days, better than before.
Think of this problems as a test, once we passed we learn many things and we can use it to make our self more stronger and wiser. But once we fail, we can still learn some lesson from it. Because of that failure we learned that If we pick that choice again we will suffer the same mistake and it will lead to failure. So next time that we face test like this we know what to do, and this time we will pass the test and move on to the next chapter and lesson of our life.
The other side of every Story
The other side of every stories
Everyday we hear many issues and problems sometimes we hear good news and it affect our day. We know that every stories have 2 different sides, and those 2 sides differ in many aspect. Those 2 sides is the good side and the bad side or we can call it the positive side and the negative side.
With the problems, calamities and pandemic that happened last year we are more and more caught in the negative side of almost every thing. We almost think that tomorrow can be more worst than today and it make us afraid. The more bad news that we are hearing the more we loss faith in the world and it is destroying us inch by inch.
But as I said, every stories have 2 sides. What if I tell you that there is positive side with all this catastrophe. There are good sides that we can look and put or hopes on. we know that every great story end in a happy ending so we must expect that this problem that the world is facing will eventually come to an end.
Don`t get me wrong all the issues that are listed below is heart-breaking and it kills me. All this problems kill people and left their love ones to mourn forever. But life goes on and we don`t have a choice but to move. But let us look in the brighter side of thing and it might give us hope and faith. From this problems that kill thousand of people we must learn a lesson so their death wont come to waste.
Covid-19 pandemic
Covid-19 pandemic started last year 2019. It kill many people and many other are infected and recovering in different hospital. Because of this pandemic people are forced to stay at home because of the lock down. Works and classes are stopped for safety purposes. This pandemic affect our life in many different ways but there is some good sides of it.
Because of the pandemic the world have a time to recover
With people forced to stay home our planet heal it self. There are less traffic in the road, meaning there are less pollution. There are less people using fuels that we all know destroy our world and making our air quality miserable. With less people roaming around many animals can now have peace and repopulate making the ecosystem more desirable.
We know the consequence
The covid-19 pandemic is because of the eating bats right? Now we know the consequences. As years past by people loss respect to the world, we act like we are the only one living in in it and we act like we created it. Now because of this nonsense action we know that we are not always in control and our action can lead to our own destruction.
We raise lives stock but we choose to eat bats? Why? Medicinal purposes, it gives strength? Now where is it`s healing power and strength. The world is going crazy because of it. Now we are aware that some of the things on earth is better left untouched.
Reunited
Because of lockdown around the world we are forced to stay home and because of that we have more time to spend with our family. We have time to talk and ask about what happen I their lives this past months.
Death of George Floyd
Because of the death of George Floyd many people are alarmed and scared of the police. Because of that death people are now aware that every day many people fight for their life, many people are not treated equally. George Floyd death bring voice to many people that die because of the war between different race. Now we know what hate can do when we did not control it. I hope George Floyd is the last, and I hope humans wake up and be enlighten that we are all the same, we have the same color of blood that runs thru our veins. I hope we realize that.
All this happenings are surely devastating, I hope next time we can learn the lesson before it`s too late. I hope we don`t need to sacrifice another life just to see the consequences. There are more to life, even the world is going crazy there is always a small opening of positivity and we can use it as the start of the solution. Never give up even your smallest hope, even a small fraction of it can make the world a better place.
There always a good side in different story, we just need to look deeper to find it. In this world driven by negativity we can just easily caught in the flow but once we know where to look, we can escape it.
The People I have meet
The People I have Meet
Every day we walk outside or we browse in social media. By doing that we see and meet different people. We can speak to them or we just see them. When we walk in the park we can observe many people. In the churches, there are different kind of people. Even they are in the church people have many beliefs. People at the politics that some scream lies and false promises but there are some that tell the truth. As we live in this world, day by day we know more about people, about their characteristic, attitudes and dreams. Sometimes we judge people simply because of their color, physical looks and even life status.
***“The more I know about humans, the more I become ashamed of my self”***
As we meet and see different people, there are some that are so remarkable and some times we find them weird. sometimes we never forget a certain people because they hurt us or we hurt them. But remember humans always change, sometimes for good but sometimes for bad.
People I have meet
The Parents
All of us have parents but as days goes on some of them dies and sometimes we find parents even they are not related to us. Parents helps and shape us to be a good person but sometimes it didn`t end right.
Parent is always the best, they raised us and give anything we need as long as they can afford it. Our parents sacrifice almost half of their life to be with us and raise as a good person. And we owe them our life, without them we are not alive. Parents give all that they have just to make our life better and to make us suffer less.
But not all parents are like that. Some parents blame their kids because they can`t enjoy their life, but in the firsy place it`s their fault. Some parents abandon their children. There are parents that don`t support children in their dreams. Some parents are the obstacle of their own children. Some parents are just parents in words.
The lovers
I see many lovers in my life, some of them become happy for the rest of their life and some of them just end in pain. I see lovers having fun and lovers that Is making fun of the other. It`s hard to explain what is the definition of love.
There are different kinds of love. Affection love a love without romantic attraction, it can happen between friends and family members. Enduring love, a kind of love that deepens as the time past by or love that matures with time. Romantic love a kind of love that ignite with physical contact such as hugging and kissing and there is selfless love, the most greatest kind of love that human can give, a love without expectation of return.
***All this different kind of loves and different but yet the same. Love is love, it never changes what ever angle you look at it.***
The Politicians
The one that I don`t really know who he is, I just see him at the day of the campaign, he say many good projects and loud promises. He say the he stand with the poor and do anything in his power to help, he say when he win the world will be a better place. But the time that he win I never see his face again, the poor become poorer and the world never changed. Now I see that when a man achieve the power he want, he will just use it for him self. Every election the same thing happen and happen, but the people never learn. People just mark the name of nominees that they always hear, people just vote without conducting research. I hope one day the world will really change.
The Priest and the Preacher
The priest teach us many things about God and it`s good. They say they help us spiritually to be more close to God. Is that the only thing they can do? People donate to churches every Sunday but where did the money go? to fund the renovation of churches? Payment for the workers? I thought those workers work for God not for money?
The church can do a big change if they move. But those priest just kept silent when we truly need them.
The poor and the rich
Some people drown their self form money while some people will die just to get a taste of it. We can`t always blame the poor for being poor, you can see them work hard everyday but they remain poor. But why? once you`re poor you can`t fight the rich, because being rich is being powerful and being poor is just being poor.
My self
Every time I look In the mirror I see a man. I know that man is in pain, I know that he is scared. I can tell buy just looking in his eyes, I know he can snap In any minute. Every where I go I can see him, same empty eyes but different kind of emptiness. I wonder what is he going through. Is he crazy? Is he damaged? I don`t know, but there`s one thing that is for sure that man needs help.
Lessons I Learn from 2020
It`s a new year, a new life and new place to start. the end of 2020 bring me relief but the problem last year is still a problem today. 2020 brings alot of lesson for us to learn and think about, it brings devastating problems and issues that many of us can`t handle. Last year many people die and some barely survived. As this year 2021 start I`m happy and at the same time scared of what this year bring, is it another devastating calamities? another pandemic? we don`t know right? But we will know it as the days goes by. What`s important is even we don`t know what this year bring we still enter it just like what we did last year, but we are more wise this time.
As I said 2020 bring a lot of lesson for us to learn, and I remembered some of it. The lessons I picked up last year is the new knowledge I can use to make this year go smoothly and according to plan.
Cherish every moment
Life is short and we want to make it meaningful as possible. We want our life to be happy and worth living right? So as early as now as the year starts cherish every moment we have with our family, friends and most important cherish every moment with our self.
We don`t know when our time on earth will expire, so live every time in the moment. Think about the present, care about the present and everything will follow. As we live in the moment just think about the consequence that it will bring in the future.
Express what you want to express
We have many words that is running in our head and we are searching for the right and the best time to say it to someone. Why we are afraid to say it now? Are we shy? Afraid or what? But every time we don`t express our feelings, every time we hold our words we are wasting our time. We don`t know what tomorrow brings and surely we don`t know if we are still alive. So express your feelings and sa the words you want to say, because you don`t know if we are till here tomorrow.
Do good things
Do good things and it will bring you good luck. Do good to other and start a new cycle, cycle of kindness, compassion and consideration. Start this year with kindness in our heart and every good thing will follow. It`s easier to live with love rather than to live with hate right?
It`s easier to forgive.
It`s easier to forgive others that to hold the anger towards them. Holding anger and hate and hiding it deep in your will just kill you slowly. As long as you keep the hate and anger the more you are being consume by it and you wont notice that you are angry to anyone you meet, you will notice that you are not smiling. But try to let go of the anger and hate that you hold, you will feel that is more easy to breath when your heart is clean.
Know your self more
As we grow old the more we are getting busy and being consumed by this fast moving world and we forget to give time for our self. Sometime we noticed that we our feeling is heave or sad, sometimes we are angry and we don`t know why. It`s because we forget to give time for our self. We are carried away on how the world moves and we think if we don`t sail in it we will be left behind. But take break and let your self have a deep breath. Take some time for a vacation and think about your self. Are you stress? Do you enjoy your job? Do you enjoy your life?
Take care of your health
The more we make wealth the more we forget about our health. Remember that even we have many money and possession we can`t buy a new body, so taje care of it. This is our one and only container we can`t just tansfer to another body if we want to, so don`t waste it. Excercise every day, eat well and healthy, get sunshine every morning and live a healthy life. You know what they say right? " Health is Wealth" ad it`s true
Explore
Explore the world, get out of you bedroom and comfort zone. See things and views that you want to see. Pick up you hiking bag and just go. There are more to life that facebook, IG and twitter. There are many views that you can see and you don`t need to spend large amout of money to see it. Just go and explore
This 2021 lets be prepared and be more aware. Lets start it with a smile and big hope. This year will be an awesome year, this year will be good. Aw we move in this year help and assist each other along the way, it`s more better if we survive this year as a whole.
The market can tell a million Stories
December
It`s 31 December 2020, When i wake up it`s already 10:00 in the morning. I swiftly get out of bed, prepare my breakfast and play with my dog. It feels like a normal day but it`s not right? It`s the last day of the year and there are less than 24 hours left before the year ends and it`s pretty special I think.
As I eat my breakfast I think about what happened this past 2 decades. And I thought this year is so sad with all the thing that happened, the Covid-19 pandemic, volcanic eruption on January, the floods and many typhoons, the police killings, all the riots and of course the government corruption. This year many people loss their jobs and many student can`t go to schools. This year is a hell of a run, it`s like a death maze or marathon that we run without our shoes on.
I finished my breakfast
I prepare my self for the day and decided to go buy some supplies in the market. I grab my face mask, face shield and wallet, I`m ready to go. It`s a fine moring not so sunny and not so windy. As I`m walking toward the market I see a little boy begging to her mom to buy him some toys. I just walk passed them, but deep in my mind I`m affected and my heart get heavy. I remember when I was young, I did the same thing, when we walk in the market I beg my mom to but me toys but she never did. But as a kid that grow knowing that we are poor, I understand that it gives pain to the mother when she can afford to buy some toys for her son.
In the market
I arrive to the market and there are so many people, It`s so crowded. I walk around to search for the things I want to buy, before i left the house I made a list of things I need to buy, so I`m ready. I will buy some Graham`s crackers, milk, all purpose cream and one big loaf of bread. I`m new to this place so I have a hard time to find what I need.
Many minutes later I found the grahams crackers and anything follow through, I quickly find the milk and the bread. As I`m walking and checking every store to see if I need something, I see how differ in spending money. There are some who buy a lot and some buy more than what they need. There is one old lady buying bread and 2 coffee and I see a lady not too old that almost buy the whole store, I also see man that buy only one bread worth 10 pesos. But that man is well dressed and look rich. Is this difference is because of the income or its just how they manage their money? Or they base how much to buy depending on how many people there are in their family? So that man that buy only one bread? Is he alone in his life? But he looks successful. The old lady buy two coffee? And the lady that buy so much?
Walking home
I left the market and walk home, I got all I need and I`m ready to make my dessert. I`m excited and at the same time I`m not. This year I will celebrate new year by my self. I left our house in Naic 7 months ago because my father and I have a fight and it did not end well. We have our own opinion and we don`t open our ears and mind to understand each other.
30 minutes before the year split
Now I regret that I left home, this is the first time that I will celebrate new year alone. It`s not easy, Its like there is something in my chest that restricting my breathing. I can go home any time I want but there is something holding me back and I don` know what It is.
2021
It`s 2021 and i survived the whole catastophic year og 2020. I`m glad it ends and this year is a new start. This year I will make my self better, focus on thing that I want and what makes me happy. Less stress for me.
I want to make every thing right this year, I will visit my parents and talk to them. This is a new year, new life and a new chance, lets make it worth. Lets survive this year like what we did last year, lets enter this year with fresh hope, love, faith and more peace. Left every bad things and thought in 2020 and lets enter 2021 brand new.
Happy New year every one. Lets make this year a different year.
@MWSA
