Inside the Mind of the Depressed
Hello my name is Bryan and I`m struggling a lot. I`m alive for 22 years, does the definition of alive is “ a man that breaths?”, then yes I`m definitely alive. My heart feels so heavy and I don`t know why It`s like my heart is surrounded by concrete and it just can`t contract. I can`t eat and I can`t drink, It make me nauseous. I just want to bite my tongue so I can fill my stomach with my own blood. When I want to stand it makes me panic, it feels like I`m going to fall into emptiness and silence. I just want to close my eyes forever, will you help me? And by the time I`m ready to wake up will you be there for me?
I feel that the whole world is my enemy and everybody is trying to hurt me. I feel so afraid, I want to be alone in my bedroom until the clouds on my head past away. But what if it didn`t past away? What should I do? will I just embrace what is happening until I melt and nobody would notice? If I get swallowed by my problem then that would be nice.
It feel so cold and sometimes hot, its like I have a fever that every minute would rise. I want to go out but can`t, I can`t move my feet it feels like it is chained. I try to think something nice but my thoughts are blocked by anger and rage. Rage that I don`t know where it comes, fear that I don`t know about. It`s weird but it`s true, from the eye of the depressed I don`t want to see you.
I want to open up but I know what will they say, that I`m crazy and it is all just in my head. That`s why many poeople don`t open up because of those mentality and judgements. I`m so afraid to see a therapist `cause she might say I`m crazy, I`m afraid to take pill ‘cause it might suppress me.
The more I think something nice the more it worsen. I guess I don`t like lying to my self.
The demon is patting my back, whispering words that I don`t want to hear, I`m afraid that if I listen closely I might follow it. Hang my self, cut my wrist, take drugs, and become over dose. I love the darkness, I love the emptiness, I love the silence and the void. I love how I am lost into the woods. I love how the words in my head sharpen and cut my throat. I love the pain, I love the lie and I love everything that can hurt me when I`m alive. I want to bleed until I die, blood on the floor, I paint the grave stone red so you can see it a far. Those are the words in my head I don`t want to explore
How can I fight and survive this, when I can`t see the enemy but can definitely feel it. Inside the mind of the depress, so silent and empty but I know there is a consistent war that is happening. War that will shape, war I know that will never end but I will not give in. We are not crazy and we are not numb, I feel the same way as yours but our feelings were amplified a thousand times and we endure it until we can.
I will fight until the end, I will step out the woods, I will destroy the wall I have built. I will be strong because I know there are tomorrows worth seeing for.
Love is everything we need, with love we can make peace and remove hate in our hearts. Love is a complex thing and at same times it is simple. Love change many lives for good or for bad. Love also build and at the same time destroy.
I`m in love in a long time now, 1 year and 6 months to be exact. It became a big part of my life, it helped me through my problems and help me to pass through some tough days. Love prevent me to hurt and kill my self. And I`m so thankful to have good people who love me. Now with love, I love my life and I don` want it to end, I don`t want to make those people who love me to cry. I just want to live my life until my every last breath.
The way I See the World
The way I See the World
I see the world in different sides. For 22 years that I lived in it I see how It changes and grow. I witness moments that I shouldn`t, I hear and feel words that I should`t. I think I`ve seen enough, everyday I see more bad news than good news. I see how people complain about it, while they just sit in their couches.
I saw the New York`s twin tower fell, I saw how many people get caught by the falling rubles in earthquake in Haiti, I saw how giant waves swallowed the coast of japan, leaking nuclear power plant. I saw the news about how 44 SAF officers were slaughtered. I can`t even count how many people die in a plane crash. I saw how the Government officials stole money, get in jail and when they got out, people still vote for them. I saw how bad parenting can affect the future of one child. I saw how Bin Laden got killed by his own men. I saw how the rich monopolized oil. We left our ports to explode, now dead bodies is in the floor, we are forced to wear black cloths. I saw how the police abuses their powers. I see poor people in their knees begging for help.
This year many forests disappeared. Volcanic eruptions and countless earthquakes. We raise livestocks but we chose to eat bats? Now we`re paying the price, we can`t go out with out a mask. We are punished when we breath. We looked like ninjas, but we are those ninjas that even the eyes are shut. Governments don`t to cancel flights. Vaccine trial succeeded, the powerful countries will get it first and how about those developing cuntries? we get vaccines leftover from the syringes. Wild fire in different continents, I can`t breath, I don’t know if it is because of the polluted air or there is a cop sitting at my back? Demented kid whose father is a policeman, blood in the hand four shots drop dead and it`s too late for the hashtag stop the killing when they`re already dead.I see more but I can`t mention it all, but one last thing, I saw people die because they don’t have any other choice.
I see many problems but we only have few solutions.
From water shortage in many parts of the world, our people that feel hunger, people who die because of poor medical support. We can come up in a solution in no time but we chose not to. Government fund go to advancement of technology, war and many more, which can be use to support the poor and unfortunate people. We can use that money to enhance our economy to open more job opportunities so many people can have work that could support their own life. We can use that money to develop more in agriculture and build food banks, we can do that to prevent hunger and when calamities come, such as flood and devastating typhoon we won’t worry about food supply shortage.
People choose to be blind and silent instead of solving a problem, we are afraid to commit because we know we will bare big responsibility. we make more problems more than we solve it. We will pile our problems and when it gets overwhelming we will blame others?
*“People choose to live in clouds of lie rather than to live in the dirt of truth.”*
I see war more than peace
War is not just what we see in movies and news. There are different wars that we face sometimes we loose but sometimes we win. There are other wars that we fight forever and some are just temporary. But how will we achieve true peace if we are the enemy?
The war on the streets, there are war on rape, war on drugs, and war on slavery. We fight those everyday until now. Is it going to end? Or will we just be used to living with it.
Can we end the war on racism? many people die because of this. Can we win the war on rape? the victims are rising, adult, teens, even 7 years old and even man is now a subject. How can we end rape if we took the blame to the victims.
War on drugs, can`t we see? We are paying them to kill us. Drug distributor will never stop until we are all addicts. War on drugs will never stop until the police stop protecting drug lords. It will just stop when we all go clean.
Don`t you see all the problem that happened in the history is just a reflection of what the path we choose. We can end every wars if we want to, we can end other peoples suffering if we lend them an open hand. We can be one, we can be brothers and sisters if we choose to understand and accept each other. We can make a better world if we choose to open our minds.
***I`m not suicidal, I`ll repeat loud and clear so the people at the back can hear. I`m not suicidal, so if i die next year you know i didn`t commit suicide.***
Can We make it more Beautiful?
Can We make it more Beautiful?
We live in the world full of up and downs, problems and obstacles, world full of hate and anger. As days goes by we combat our fear, anxiety and depression and nothing changes. Everyday many people die from diseases that can be cured if we pay more attention, many innocent civilian die under war and we never talk about it. Poverty increases it`s rate in the past years and there is no action for it since then. Is this how humans prosper in life? Is this kind of thinking will be normalize and become our new culture?
Can we make our remaining days beautiful and worth living? But how? With all this issues, pandemic and killings that brought negativity, how can be it more beautiful? How can we find positivity behind this great wall of negativity? Making world better place is hard but we can start it in our self. Step by step we can change the world, lets start small until we get big.
*“We can only spread positivity and peace when we can find it in our self.”*
Be ***compassionate***, show concern for others. As long as we care for something or someone we will see what they worth. We will learn how important and how much we love them. Through compassion we can be more aware. Once we are aware we can see what the real problems is and we will find solution to solve it.
Be ***kind*** and be the start of a new whole cycle, be friendly, generous and considerate. When you show kindness to other they will admire you and do the same as you, through that the cycle begins.
Be ***considerate*** in many things, admire every single creation and you will see the beauty through it. Careful not to hurt anybody through your actions and words. Ask people how they feel and connect to them, it will help them a lot.
Provide ***help***, open your hand and expect nothing in return. Help people in need, helping does not mean giving money as help. Help can be in different forms lend them some of your life and communicate to them.
Teach our children to be ***compassionate, kind, considerate and helpful.*** Teach them about ***love*** and ***positivity***. The earlier we teach them how to be a good person, the earlier they will learn that the world need people like them. Our children is a big part of our future, they will continue what we started. So its important that they are aware about the real problem so they are able to solve it.
With this words, we can make the world a better place. When we follow the deeper meaning of this words we can now be a better version of us. We can start a cycle a new world that people understand and love each other. A world that all people are equally happy, There`s no more time for war and hate, It`s time for peace. Enough with the killings that breeds more pain and hate, enough with the lie that manipulate many people. Enough for the discrimination that destroy other peoples life.
It`s time for change, there`s enough soldiers and innocent people who die because of the greed of many countries. There are many dreams that fall because they loss their hope under poverty. Many people die due to hunger and they get less and less help. There are many race war because we don`t accept and understand each other.
*“There many problems that can not be solve by money and power but we can solve it by simple words that I said”*
**The time for change is now, before it`s too late.**
When People learn to Talk
When People learn to talk
As humans we learn to talk at our early age, we talk about love, peace and at the same time hate. We use our voice to communicate and express our selves. Sometimes our expression can hurt and sometime it can benefit other. That`s why we need to think every word we want to say.
Do we use our voice properly? Did we really mean every word we said? Can we voice out what we want to say? Now a days people just talk and talk nonsense, we talk about other people`s bad sides whle we can`t fix our self. We talk about peace while we fund and support wars. We talk about equality while we want to be above others. We talk about how to help but we all we want is fame. We tell lies to save our self. Isn`t it disturbing how humans evolve?
Peace from War
Did the word peace change its meaning? Because when we talk about peace, the following word will be war and blood. We benefit when our country is in peace, but do we know how peace is achieved?
From war we achieved peace, but why start war in the first place. From the beginning of time people always wage war for many purposes, for expansion of land, revenge, anger toward other race, greed, advancement, oil, water, power, religion, belief and mainly to boast how powerful and great they are. Many people die because of war, many innocent people die and many loss their homes. Many countries rise while others fall.
But they said “ What`s done is done” right? Now a day there are several wars still on going in different parts of the world, they fight under many issues. But with war hatred will grow, pain will rise and it will go on and on. It will never stop until we accept and understand each other. It will only stop until we learn to call each other as brothers and sisters.
*“We can only achieve true peace when we open our mind”*
Greatest Lie ever told
People speak lies more than truth and it bothers me. We lie every day, we lie to out family and friend, we lie to our self about things we don`t want to know and other lie to either to protect or to hurt us. We live in the world full of lies starting from the government. The government fed as us lie to calm us down. They say every thing is in control but it`s not. They said many promises during elections but it`s still a lie
We lie to our self to make us feel better, we don`t want to know the truth to prevent those tears to come out and drop. We are comfortable with lie, it can make us happy but as long as we lie to our self we are unconsciously destroying our self until we just collapse and break. Truth will always be painful and harsh, but it`s just how it is. We can`t live our life in lie forever we need to commit a big step in the truth to know the real strength we posses and that will make us more stronger.
*No lie can hide the truth, and the truth can`t hide a lie.*
Crucified for opinion
Can we really voice out what we want to say? When we say our opinion toward things, other will disapprove while other will approve. When we say something some one will be offended and rant about it in the social media. So to make it short, we can`tsay what we really want,because we will be judged bases on it. Even it`s about some thing good, other will not accept it. It`s so confusing, as long as we continue this kind of mentality many people will be afraid to speak, people will be silent even they want to use their voice for change. People will remain silent even they know something is wrong.
*People can`t agree and accept a single fact. Instead of accepting the truth they will become offended*.
People at the Park
It`s Deceber 27, 2020. I wake up early, fix my bed and get some tea. Christmas past by like a jet plane in the sky and before you realize, it`s now gone. Now we will wait for another year to feel the season of Christmas again. As I take a sip at my hot tea something pop up of my head, questions that I really want to ask. What do we celebrate on Christmas? Is it really the birth date of Jesus Christ? Or we just celebrate because people will be more giving and during that single day we feel peace?
I finish my tea and head to the sink to put the cup and my mother called me and she said “Hey Ian. be quick, we`re going to be late." We are going for a walk near the lake, we do this regularly since my father died 4 weeks ago and I`m not ready to talk about it. On the other hand my mother, her name Is Lydia. She is beautiful with a black hair, white skin like porcelain, brown eyes, fine lips and just a regular nose. In short she is beautiful, kind, and gentle.
That lake is beautiful, it is surrounded by trees and big rock and the birds always come there too, which make the place more beautiful. When I was a kid, me and my mother would always go there to spend our whole morning playing ball and stick, and we would watch the birds until afternoon before we head home.
As soon I hear the voice of my mother I would eventually grab my bag and run towards the car. Now we are driving going to the lake. My mother tune the radio to her favorite station and began to listen some music.
Two hours passed, we arrive to our destination. We park our car not so far in the entrance, we unload our things and we`re ready to go. The lake is perfect, the sun light hit the water beautifully. It`s not so windy, it`s so peaceful and there are few people in the lake, the one lady seating in the bench, a girl with his mother and a girl older that me.
Me and my mother search a spot for us to seat with our basket full of packed breakfast, hot tea and coffee. I carry the bag at my back while I`m holding the book that my mother would always bring and she carries the basket. Not so far we find a good spot, it`s on the top of the hill and the view is amazing, we can see the whole lake together with the park and the people in it.
We set up and take a seat. “How are you feeling?” my mother ask me.
“I`m fine and out of the woods now” I said with a smile, “ but I`m not ready to talk about it”
“Me neither” my mother said while she look at me in the eye and give me a smile.
This day is so peaceful, quite and light. I feel so relive after a month of crying and mourning. I`m out of the woods and I feel nice and light. I wish my mother feel the same.
We ate our breakfast, before we left the house my mother packed some sandwich and boiled some eggs. It taste good and become better and better every bite. Now we are done eating. My mom start to read her book and I start to watch the lake and birds flying over it.
Hours past by and my mother is done reading her book and I`m still seating on the bench, she seat beside me and she said.
“Ian do you see those people?”
“Yes, mom why” I replied immediately
“Good…let me tell you a story about life” she said
“Lets begin with that teen age girl” she said
“That teen age girl have plenty of time in her life to use, she can be anything she wanted and have a good life, it`s up to her if she will waste it or use it properly. With a plenty of time she can decide on how to live life by many different choices”
As she speak gently I listen carefully. My mother is always telling me stories about how good life can be and how beautiful the world is if we live in it the right way. And I agree with her, I promised her that when I grow up I will influence people to do good or form organizations that focuses on helping people.
“Hey Ian, are you listening?” she said
I just simply answer “Yes mother” and she continue her story
“That same girl will grow and be old enough to find a man that can be her husband, they will start a family just like us. Family is everything, and definitely more important than money. In life, along the way you can meet friends that can help you and friends that you can trust, but friends will be just friend. Sometimes they will leave you and sometimes they will stay by your side. But family will stay forever”
“That what`s friend are for?” I asked my mother
“Yes, but not all people can be your friend”. She said. “ some might hurt you and some might help you”
“And lastly see the old woman?” she said
“that is contentment, happiness, pain, joy sadness and gratefulness”
“That`s life" she said. I just smile and looked at her amazingly. I did not have time to ask question because the rain starts to pour. And we hurry towards the car. We drive home and relax, we unload our things change clothes and my mother read her book again.
How the Story goes so far: 2020
How the Story goes so far: 2020
For sure all of us will never forget this year 2020. This year will forever be in our minds. 2020 is a devastating year for the earth and its people form the wild forest fire, global pandemic that kill millions, racial justice, increasing rate of poverty, police brutality and many more.
Australian bush fire
From September 2019 , fires burn many regions of the state of New South Wales with more than 100 fires across the state. The State`s forest burnt out of control for almost four weeks until the last week of December 2019.
Despite of total fire ban in the seven regions of New South Wales, including Greater Sydney. Catastrophic fire danger was declared in the mentioned areas on November 12 2019.
As of January 2020, 46.03 millions acres was burnt all across he Australian states. The University of Sydney estimated that 480 million mammals, birds and reptiles died since the start of the fire on September. Different species of plants and trees were burnt since the fire started and the estimate number of all the species died is more than a billion including the animals. With this forest fire the air quality become so bad that 445 people died due to the smoke inhalation and 34 people due to the fire. According to the Australian government the damage cost is over 103 billion AUD
They said that the fire maybe caused by lightning strikes, accidents, drought, global warming, substantial fuel loads and high temperature.
Volcanic Eruptions
There were 67 eruption recorded in some point of 2020 from 63 different volcanoes and 22 of those eruptions were new and started at the early dates this year. In those 67 eruption Taal eruption is one of them.
2020 Taal Volcano eruption in Batangas Philippines on January 12, 2020. The volcano erupted from its main crater that spread ashes across Calabarzon, Metro Manila and some location in the Central Luzon and Ilocos Region. The eruption lead to suspension of many Classes, works and flights. There are 39 people dead in the eruption and many people are forcedly evacuated and loss their homes. In the evacuation, many animals including pets like dogs and cats and livestock animals such as pigs, cows, horse and goats were left behind and die, some of the animal are rescued due to the joint effort of many government and non government organization several days after the evacuation.
Covid-19 Pandemic
Covid-19 also known as coronavirus pandemic was started and identified in December 2019 in Wuhan, China. The WHO or the World Health Organization declared it as a global pandemic in January 2020. As of the December 27 2020 there are more than 80.3 million cases have been confirmed around the world and more than 1.75 million deaths are recorder.
Due to this pandemic people are restricted to roam outside there house, many establishments were forcedly closed, classes, works and flights were canceled.
2020 Beirut explosion
On August 2020, explosion happened in the city of Beirut, Lebanon when large amount of ammonium nitrate stores in the port were left unchecked for many years and exploded. This cause 204 people deaths, 6,500 injured and left 300,000 people affected and homeless. The estimated damaged is 12 billion USD. During that time people that are affected and begging for help and they said if we want to help, help directly to them and don’t entrust the donations to the government because of the corruption.
Black Lives Matter movement
BLM or the Black Lives Matter movement is a decentralize political and social movement for non-violent disobedience in protest against incidents of police brutality. This movement is founded July 23 , 2012 to advocate and protest against racial discrimination.
Kobe Bryant`s death
A legendary basket ball player of the team Los Angles Lakers Kobe Bryant was killed along with his daughter Gianna Bryant and seven other passenger when their helicopter crashed in the Calabasas, California on January 26 2020.
Police Brutality in Tarlac Philippines
Few days before Christmas, Social media was shocked as a video of a police killing two unarmed civilian I Tarlac Philippines went viral. The police In the video was Master Sergeant Jonel Nuezca, who shot Sonya and her son Frank Gregorio dead. This accident brought rage to many people including the family of Gregorio. Now the police who committed the murder is in prison.
Flood in Algeria
Flood In Algeria after heavy rain on December 12,2020
Typhoon Ulysses, Philippines
This typhoon brought severe damage in affected areas in the Philippines. Agriculture losses grew to 12.8 billion PHP due to the destruction of farm lands because of the floods and some landslides, P469.7 million damage to infrastructure and at least 25,852 homes are damaged. there are 73 death recorded and 12 people were lost due to the flood
"If we`re not aware, we might loss"
Do You Feel the same?
Do You feel the same?
My brain has always mind on its own, I can`t control it and it want to control me, it want to burst and sometimes it want to shrink, sometimes its full of candies and rainbows but sometimes its full of fire and rain. There were days when I wake up, I don`t want to get out of my bed. I want to stay there and starve my self to death and to make it easy I want to put a pillow in front of my head until I suffocate and hope for the best. I think that whenever I stand I`ll fall to the ground and sleep there and by the time I woke up, I`ll just close my eyes again and feel the vibration in the ground and hope it will clear my head. I want to lay at my bed the whole day and think how my life is going. I want to think about the wrong choices I committed, all the time I have wasted, all the moments I regret that it ever happened and all words that I said. I want to lay at my bed until my roof came off and the four walls of my room falls on me.
I can`t think of anything else, I just think how the world will end or how can I end it. I feel so useless and numb, terrified, and horrified. I`m afraid to read some news or open any of the social media platform because I`m afraid it might break me. I just want close my eyes and wait for the end. I want to scream at the top of my lungs, what is happening? Or why?
When this feeling start to destroy me, it gets harder and harder to walk out of it as time past by. The more I push myself to step away, the more I get pulled. I don’t know what to do, so I just embrace it until it’s gone. It feels like someone is holding my neck and if I move my neck will break, it feels like something is on the top of my chest and I can`t grab it to put it away. It feels like I`m in a tag of war against my demon and what if I lose?
By the time I have the courage to get up of my bed it takes till afternoon. I will force my self to eat, shove a whole piece of bread into my mouth and force myself to swallow it. And every time I do that it’s like I want to vomit, but I have no choice but to do it. And I think it is a big step for me.
After I eat, I listen to some music, I`ll search some good music or play my playlist. Every time I hit the shuffle button it landed to good tract. And it make it worse, even a happy lyrics of the song makes me want to cry, even the meaning of the song is about hope I will interpret it in a different way. It goes on and on until I cry out the last drop of my tears.
I go back to my bed until the day is finished. I just lay there until the room get dark and I will fell assleep. I can`t seek help cause I know they can`t understand me. They will think I`m going crazy and I`m falling out of my own mind. No one will understand so I`ll just endure it until I die.
I wonder how many people feel the same way, and how can they snap out of it or did just they snapped and break? I wonder if they survive just like what I’ve been trying to do for so many years or did they just let go? I wonder did the pills work or did it just make it worse. I have many questions I want to ask but it will just make it worse. Now I`m awake and I`m driving the wheel, my demon is in the back waiting for an opening. How will I defend my self to an enemy I don`t even see? How can I win a fight that I know will never end?
***“It`s hot, It`s cold I don`t know what I`m feeling, It`s dark I can`t see, can you please help me?”***
From mud, Gravel and Cemented Road
From mud, to gravel, to a cemented road
We, as humans, what we face in our life are in many different ways, we march to our lives in different times. As our life’s past gets more and more complicated and problematic. We are having a difficult time transitioning from being a child to becoming an adult. Through challenges and different problems some couldn’t make it, majority of people die due to diseases and accidents and some take their own lives because of the problems and challenges that comes. Some people just give up and there are some that strive to survive.
Our life is like the survival of the fittest, the more we make our selves stronger and wiser the higher the chances we survive. The more we can resist and tolerate pain, the more we become unbreakable and the more we strive to live and never give up, the more we become aware on how our world works.
“The more we struggle in life, the more we will know about it”
Our lives have many secrets and we need to unlock most of It. We need to know our self better to unlock those secrets. Those secrets can bring us happiness or sadness, and it can either build us and make stronger or it can destroy what we have build. From that destruction we build a better version of our selves. But sometimes it`s depressing to see how our dreams that we our building for so long would just fall so easily right? But its just how it is, ones we go up we will eventually go down and ones we are down, we can stand up again.
“Sometimes our downfall can be a good thing, it’s just up to us how we pick our rubles”
Imagine your self walking in the mud, to gravel and in the cemented road. How would you feel? Does it make your life easier and more faster? Before we talk about that, lets first talk about the builders of our road, that make our lives easier and more comfortable to walk into.
In life there are people who make roads and there are people who walk and uses that road. Those who make the roads are called “builders”, they make our life easier. Those builders are the literal builders that you are thinking, I`m talking about the builders that make our dreams possible, builders that help us survive through all our problems and challenges. The builder we are talking about can be our mother or father, your friends, girlfriends or boyfriends and even our pets, those builders make our life move smoothly and fine, even not all the time but most of the time, they are always there for us no matter what and they will always help us.
From Mud
From mud we rise until we crawl and learn to walk.
Our lives will never start and end in an easy way. We will work for what we want to achieve because what we want would not just fall from the sky. We start from the mud, and we will crawl in it. This is the first phase of our life, in this phase its all just hardships and uncomfortable feelings. It just full of trial and errors, but more in error. In this part of our life the more we fail the more we will grow. This is just the start and this will shape us.
In this mud pit many people will guide us like our parents. While we are taking this muddy roads, it will shape us for who are, it will raise us for what we will be in the future. And we are in this mud we will learn a lesson that we can bring in our long journey, lesson that will make us wiser and stronger. It’s the easy part, so never give up and move on
To Gravel
In this phase its easier to move but gravel is hard and it will hurt our foot. In in this part of our life, more problems are emerging and we must learn how to solve it, we don`t have a guide forever to help us and do something for us, but we can seek help and some advice from that guide. In this phase we need to learn more lesson so we will be ready for our future.
In the gravel road we can move fast, but the more we move fast the more we will hurt our self. Dont be hasty but don`t be too slow, be confident, cherish every moment even it is tough, pick every lesson you can pick along the way.
The Cemented road
This road is the easiest, be a good observant because you can be caught in a clash. In this road people go fast like they are running out of road to go. This is the part of our life that they are searching for the right place and tract. We are searching for the right parking space that we can get to rest and have fun.
In this cemented road it`s more fun to travel more, find friend that have the same vision as you, travel the world and step out of your comfort zone, be wild and free but know when to stop.
Life is short to do things that you don`t want to do. Pursue your dreams and ambition. Make friend along the way. Find people you can trust and let them help you. Find your own road where you can travel fine and peacefully. Find a place to stop and settle for the rest of your life.
MAKE YOUR LIFE A CELEBRATION.
Most Destructive Natural Calamities in the World
Most Destructive Natural Calamities in the World
Natural disasters is sudden event that cause destruction and damage that result to loss of life, brought about by forces that even humans can`t predict. A natural disasters can be earthquake, volcanic eruption, flooding, landslide, hurricane and others. To be classified as natural disaster it should bring damage, human loss and financial loss.
There are many natural calamities that happen since the begging of time, it can be destructive that brought extinction to many species like the dinosaurs, some calamities can cause destruction and can end a history of an entire civilization at its peak of splendor like the Minoan civilization.
Natural calamities can be beneficial for all the inhabitants of the earth, but some can be destructive. An example of beneficial calamities is the splitting of Pangea, if the Pangea never split, we could never be alive, if we are alive we will have a hard time to survive because of the powerful tornadoes and devastating droughts simply because Pangea is a massive island. In addition if we are present in the time of Pangea we can only settle at its coast, because water can never be found the further we go to the center.
Now a days natural calamities can be not natural, due to the abusive behavior of humans. We cut tress more than we can plant which causes land slide and flooding. Prolong drought together with the melting ice from the poles because of the global warming. Melting of the ice will cause the rising of water level in the oceans that in the near future will flood many famous cities and coastal areas.
Based on the report of EM-DAT there are 6,873 natural disasters worldwide between period of 1994 and 2013 in which claimed 1.35 million lives and affected 218 million people on average. But in the course of human history there are countless calamities that happen that shape and change the human history. Many calamities can`t be forgotten because of the damaging blow it give to man kind.
Here are the list of the most destructive natural calamities based on deaths:
**1. 1931 China floods or the 1931 Yangtze-Huai River floods**
Occur from June to August 1931, is a series of flood that affect Republic of China and major cities
like Wuhan, Nanjing and eventually causing a breach in Lake Gauyou on August 25 1931.
In this unfortunate event there are 150,000 people had drowned and 2 million people died because of the flood and lack of food. Following the flood, in the subsequent year in May 1932 an epidemic of cholera that taken 3.7 million people lives. After the devastating flood and epidemic lack of food and medical attention also contributed 422,499 death
Researchers said that the cause is the melting of the ice in the mountainous areas, from 1928 to 1930 China is affected by a harsh winter that cause the increase of ice deposit in the mountain, following that year, in early months of 1931 the climate transition form harsh winter to severe summer and drought causing the ice in the mountains to melt. The flood is approximately 180,000 square kilometers an equivalent size of England and a half of Scotland or the whole stale of New York. Due to the flood, the affected rivers did not return to their normal courses until November
**2. 1887 Yellow River flood**
Yellow River flood of 1887 was a devastating flood that hit Huang He China. The flood began in September of 1887 and it killed at least 900,000 people and the highest estimated death toll is 2,000,000 million people
**3. 1556 Shaanxi earthquake**
The 1556 Shaanxi earthquake occurred in the morning to January 23 1556 in Shaanxi, during the Ming dynasty. More than 97 counties are affected by the earthquake including Shaanxi, Shanxi, Henan, Gansu, Hebie, Shandong and Hunan. And some of the building at Beijing were damaged.
The casualties are 830,00 people and in some countries almost 60% of the population was killed by the earthquake.
**4. 2010 Haiti earthquake**
Haiti earthquake was 7 magnitude earthquake with an epicenter near the town of Leogane and approximately 25 kilometers of west Port-au-Prince. The earthquake occur on Tuesday, January 12 2010 and several days after the main earthquake after shocks are recorded on January 24, the aftershock is approximately 52 times with magnitude of 4.5. After the calamity an estimated 3 million people are affected and the death is approximately 220,000 to 316,000. The quake damages almost 250,000 residential houses and 30,000 commercial buildings collapsed and other are severely damaged.
We can`t prevent or see this natural calamities to happen but we can be prepare for this. We can minimize the damage. we can take care of our planet and hope for the best it will take care of us.
All this calamities take many lives and destroy people`s life. Many people loss their homes and love ones. I hope this kind of calamities never happen again and i hope we learn our lesson to be prepared at any cost. Dont abuse the environment, take care of it and it will take care of us. Plant trees to save our dying mountains. Clean out bodies of water. Be prepare because we don`t know when will the biggest flood and the strongest earthquake will come again. And until that we need to make our word a better place.
Lets make this world beautiful again. Theres no other places like earth so don`t act like we have plenty of earth that we can transfer and destroy again.
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Can I have a Better Life than this?
Hi, I have a confession to make, a story to tell. And I know many of you can relate and can feel the same about what I’m about to say. I`m a kid from the Philippines where life is not so good and not so bad, where dreams stays a dream until it falls to ground and shatter, a place for strong and wise, a country that is govern by murderers and robbers, a place where parent is an obstacle and place where every one is judged based on the same intelligence.
Chapter 1
My Story begins
My story begins like any other story. I was 7 years old and living with my parents, we are one of the families that are not poor and at the same time, we are not rich, middle class is what it`s called, I think. My father works as a service crew at a hotel not so far from where we live and my mother is a house wife. My father is one of those fathers that look at his son like a redemtion. He think I can do what he did not accomplish, he is a perfectionist even he is not perfect himself and he always wanted me to at the top of everything. My father always pushes me to study everyday even it is a holiday or vacation. Every morning before he left for work, he will call me and said “I want you to write words and master its spelling”. Its not just 5 or 10 words I`m making every day, I make hundreds just to impress him. But it does not work at all. He will just look at the paper and said “You will repeat all of these tomorrow”. But since then Im not so good at studying, I am an artist type as a child, I like to draw and write stories and poems.
As a child, I never experienced playing outside with other kids or even go to the park. I only stayed at home while he forces me to study. My mother is nothing alike my father, but he can`t refuse on my father’s ordains, she was too afraid to stand up for her self.
Bullied
Years past and now I`m on the 4th grade, I was bullied everyday because of my father. May father is now the janitor of our school. My classmates have always teased me like “ hey I just spill my drink, want to clean it?” or “can you call your father to clean it”. I lived almost my whole 4th to sixth grade experiencing those mocks.
One day after the first grading. I saw my name on the list, I`m one of the honor students, Im at the third place. I was so excited to tell my father about it, because it is what he always wanted for me, to be one of the best, to be one of the top. As I saw the list, I immediately called my father cleaning in the near-by room. My father walk towards me while Im standing near the board where the list is placed. I told him "See Im on the list, I`m one of the honor students”. His face did not change a bit, it is still blank with no reaction at all and he said “It is not enough, you must be the first” and he walk away. After he walk away, my tears started to fall and I realized that I will never try to impress him again.
That time and moment about what my father said to me remains in the back of my head. As long as I think about it the more I gain doubts to my self. What if I`m not good enough? What if Im a failure? What if I cant be the best. Every time I remember those moment the tears will start to drop and I found my self crying while Im pounding my head against the drawer door until it hurts.
I will never forget that day, the day that my dreams fell, the day that I felt the true pain. I wish I could just die or disappear. I wish that I was never been born but instead I`m alive experiencing all of this.
The Envy
As days past, my hot-headed and short-tempered father never stopped hitting me during the times I do not meet his standards or expectations. I see our family slowly falling, I hate to go home anymore, and I never wanted to see his face again.
I see other family happy and wealthy. One of my classmates is always bragging about how good his father is, he said , his father is always encouraging him in every things he want to do, like keep a pet or play outside with his other friends. And he showed me a picture of him sitting in his father`s lap.
I always wanted to have a good family, but every time I think about, it will be ruined every time my father shows up. Back then my hate and anger towards my father grew and grew each day. Almost every day, I cried and thought about how can I change my life, and waiting for myself to disappear. I wonder do other kids experience these things or its just me?
Thank you for your time, I hope you like my story.
How Scars can be a Good Thing?
How Scars can be a Good thing?
Scars are painful and we acquire it in so many ways. Some people acquire it due to their loss of awareness, some have scars because they choose to have it, some scars are caused by our loved ones and there are scars that we don`t know that it exist. There are two types of pain first is physical scars and the second is emotional scars, they both hurt the more we think about it.
Many people struggle in every day life because of their scars.
We have different scars, sometimes we keep our scars as secret and we left it there until we forget about it. But it`s not always the case, sometimes we need to address those scars and let the pain out, the more we keep it as a secret the more it will destroy us. In the first few days it’s okay to let it sink in to you so you can think how you get that scars, or who put that scars to you. The more days that will pass the more ways you can think on how to recover fast from that scar or how to fasten the healing process.
Some scars are too deep and it can`t just heal. When the scars are too deep its time to seek help, its time to talk about it to your friends. Ask questions to your friends how they handle their own scars and how they’ve heal it. Talking about it will help you recover faster and it will prevent the scar to consume you from the inside.
“The more you hide your scar, the more it will hurt”
Many people see scars as lesson that they either learn or not.
Those people who have scars emotionally and physically see scars as a lesson, lesson that they learned in a hard or sometimes devastating way. The scars we obtain from our journey of life is the lesson we will never forget. Every scar has a story whether it is good or bad, happy or sad. That story will be in our minds forever and when we encounter the same instances we will know how to handle it so that we won’t be experiencing same events that we had before.
Scars will bleed and become painful, but it will be like a stop sign so that we would be able to think twice before doing the same mistakes over and over again. That stop sign helps us and saved us in so many ways, and by that we can be wise for the coming decisions we will make.
There are scars that the more we think about it the more we will feel pain and cry, but it is okay. The more we cherish and know the pain the stronger we get. And the next time we feel pain we must be ready to face it and to not fall back quickly. The more we have scar, the more experience we have, and with that experience we will more ready to face our future.
There are many good sides of our scars that we do not see, because we always focus on the bad side that would either hurt or become miserable again. But there more to scar than pain and bleeding. Take every scar as a lesson, take every scar as a blessing in disguise. Because if we don’t get those scars we will continue with that path that eventually would hurt us more.
“That is the true meaning of scar. The deeper the scar is, the more we feel pain, the more we feel pain the more we will be awake.”
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Document #5
Justice
Short word but has a bigger and deeper meaning. We always hear it at the radio and television, but do we really know what Is the meaning of justice?. Justice is the quality of being just, equitableness and righteousness. It is different in every region of the word through meaning and action, with many different perspective justice can be change including the different concepts of moral correctness based on ethics, they also differ in rationality, law and religion.
Justice differs in every cultures, in Ancient Greek there are man theories of justice based on the writings of Plato in his book “ The Republic” and the writings of Aristotle in his “ Nicomachan Ethics”. But some people believe in the divine command theory, that justice is issued by the God.
In the course of history justice differ in meaning some believe that justice is based on the best outcomes for the greatest number of people, some believed that justice can only exist within the coordinates of equality and some said that justice is a form of fairness. But something never change, justice is to give people what they really deserve.
But in reality justice is now a big joke in many parts of the world, many people are dying every day and with their case are left unsolved. Many families mourn day and night from the death of there love one and nothing happen since then. Women being raped, the eyes of justice is shut closed and while saying that the woman dressed inappropriately that why it happen. Farmers being killed while fighting for their right in the land they work for through their life, and when the times come that there are food shortage who will we call?
Justice for Rape Victims
- In Philippines alone in every 100,000 population there is 10 cases of rape since 2014, and six of those ten are raped and killed, almost 4 of those cases are still open and the culprit is still in loose. Those 4 sex offenders that are not caught will more likely to repeat the same sin that they did and it will never end until proper justice is given. The rape cases is growing since then by 19.08 percent and every year this percentage is getting higher and higher.
- There are 91 rape cases on average reported daily in the world.
- Almost all people are target of rape. Ages 7 to 34 are the highest risk of being raped. Age 7 children are more likely to be silent that to say that they are sexually molested. And that is one of the biggest problem.
Justice for the Kids that until now are Lost
- There are nearly 50,000 children are going missing each year, that`s 137 children a day. Thankfully majority oh this children returned to their homes safely, but the small portion of the 50,000 never came home until now. What happened to them is still a mystery and left their family with pain and broken heart.
- There are some cases that the missing child will be found after several days after the day of abduction, but the child is dead and his/her internal organs are harvested. Rumors said that the organs of the children are being sell. There are no evidence about it yet but the authority is still considering it.
Justice for those Who died under Police Brutality
- Justice for those people who die innocent under police brutality. Many people rages after the death 2 Gregorio family member under police violence. There is a clear evidence that the police shot those 2 innocent people point blank and die immediately. the incident happened in broad day light with people around. But now that police in behind bars. But what if there no video evidence? What will be the report of the Philippines National Police.
- There are many incident like this that are not done yet, and still the family of them is longing for justice.
Every day there are many crimes and cases that are left open, but why? What is the cause of it? Justice is not for any one who needs it?
Sadly, justice is not for anyone. As I said now a day justice is just a big joke. Justice is just for the rich now, justice is for those who posses power, justice is just for those people who have influence. When the poor beg and cry for justice no one will listen, when the powerless beg for justice, no one will listen.
Many people take justice in their own hand, when a member of the family was killed and they know who is the killer, they will take action and kill the other family, and the cycle will begin. In the Philippines is almost normal and it can go on for many years. This action will just breed more and more pain and hate. They do this because they know that justice has a price, they know that when they seek for justice, they will not see it.
That’s how justice works in many parts of the world, it is sad but it is true. Many people will choose to be silent in this kind of topic and let it slide. But after all the killings and all the crimes it gets more and more disturbing and we become more and more silent about it. Don`t wait until one of our love ones and family member be a victim of it, now lets take a stand and put end to this.
I think is the right time to take action. Lets spread awareness to the world so they can see what the real problem is. Enough with the fake peace, enough feeding people lies. Make a voice, it ill be a big help, bring awareness.
“If we`re not Aware, we might loss”
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Everything We Need to Know About Poverty
Poverty is a long-time problem around the planet and it’s getting of out control. Many people from different countries are struggling every day to survive and to raise their families. Even with the joined effort of many government and non-government organizations, those families are getting less and less attention every year. People from different parts of the world are more aware of such nonsense and fake news and drowning their selves in privilege while many people are suffering every day just to eat at least one meal per day and they are doing it since the day they were raised.
What is Poverty?
Poverty is a condition in which a person lacks the financial and essentials for a minimum standard living. People in poverty are those with income coming from their jobs or employment which is so low that they can`t afford basic human needs like housing, clean water, sustainable electricity, healthy foods, and medical support.
“Poverty is like disease, that spread like a cancer and its hard to control”
The Truth About Poverty
**There are 783 million people live in extreme poverty**
The count of people under poverty is still increasing nowadays, because of many factors including the occurrence of Covid -19 that leave many people loosing there jobs. With out these jobs there will be no income and the people will be forced to use their savings until there’s nothing left.
The government help others during enhance community quarantine by giving financial support for two months but the quarantine is already 7 months, and yet a lot of people don’t get any support at all.
**One billion people live without electricity**
**Poverty on a global scale begins after the Second world war, and until now this problem is still growing and give sufferings to many people.**
**People living a community under poverty acquire less education.**
More than 72 million children of elementary education are not in school.
some community don`t have their own school for the children to go. in some places here in the Philippines, many students will travel far by means of walking and some swim or ride boats to get across the river just to go to the neares school. Some students dont even wear shoes or slippers while walking, some don’t have a proper clothing or uniforms. Those were the few reasons why people under poverty have a hard time to acquire education.
Some students undergoing with this situation, they would choose to quit, not because they dont have any dreams or they just don`t want to. They stop going back to school because it’s hard, they would rather choose to help their parents to earn some money to fill there stomach for a day rather than walking many miles just to get to school.
**They don`t have access to clean water, nutritious foods, and medical support.**
Poverty is the major cause of hunger in many parts of the world and every year 9 million people die of hunger, that’s more than the death from AIDS, malaria, and tuberculosis combined. The reasons are unemployment and paid in low salary, war, harsh environment, corruption in the country, and many more. And that’s the very reason why they can`t afford basic needs in every day life. And some of them live in very isolated area such us near the mountains, because they cannot afford the expenses in the city.
There are 5 million people die every year because of poor quality medical care.
There are 3.6 million people die from not having any medical care at all and there is an estimated 1.5 billion people live without access to better sanitation and medical support.
The news and the internet never showed us what poverty is or if it is real, they don’t broadcast it in the television because they are ashamed that a peaceful country is not just enough.They don`t mentionit in churches becuase they cant take some action while speaking of God because they know that many people give up faith.
Sadly those people don`t choose to be there, to be under poverty. Those people are just the result of a bigger problem tha many of us cant see. The selfish action of different country that affect the majority of people is like how the powerful countries wage war to one other that leave only pain and sufferings, the corruption of many officials to satisfy their greed and gluttony, the unending abuse to the environment leaving climate change and the unequal treatment that breeds hatred.
There is a deeper meaning when I say “there are bigger secrets behind colorful walls in the city” because the government hide the slums so we can`t see what kind of suffering that those people are living in.
There are large amount of people suffering every day so just they can fill their stomach, and we can help them, help doesn`t need to be always money help can be in a form of bringing awareness so everyone will know that their are people living under poverty.
“No matter how small the help is, it is help no matter what happens”
“Be aware and you`ll see the reality in every lie”
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Some of the content: investopedia.com
Other Organization helping to lower poverty
worldbank.org
The Borgen Project
Oxfam
Concern Worldwide
End Poverty Now
Global Citezen
What Life can be?
What Life can be?
What is life? Is there more to life than problems and disappointments? How can I manage my life to achieve my goals and have a happy life? Is my life worth living or I can just let go of it?
“There are so many questions in life that’s left unanswered and many mysteries left unsolved. And there are problems, questions, and mysteries that we must not answer or bother to get involved.”
Life
There are many stories of people about their life that I heard, so many people ask me to question that only them can answer and the only help I can provide just talks with them. Some people take life seriously, some people think that life is just a dream, some think that we are in a simulation and some people think life is just a game and we should play it very well.
Past is past, but we can make it right
In life, all we have is moving forward no matter what happens we must move. We can`t go back in time to clean our mess or do something we can to make a better future. All we can get from the past is our memory and some lessons, some scar and experience and that will make us better and stronger. Past is past, but we can make it right and we can make it better. We are not who we are based on the past but we are who we are in the present and what we will do in the future
We all have regrets and things we did not accomplish form the past, wishing we do better instead of just give up. But we can`t go back in the past and change it and pretend nothings happen. All we can do is learn from the past and a better version of ourselves.
Am I in the Right Path?
We are in the path that we choose, is doesn`t matter if it is the right path or not. What impotant is how we handle and manage it. How we overcome and not be overwhelm. We can`t always surrender or go back from where we started right? We need to face it head-on and make it until the end.
We have our different strengths and different power that can lead us to where ever we want. Remember we are human, we are capable of doing everything we can think.
“You will never know what strength you hold until that strength is your only hope”
Life is just what it is
Life is life. We cant just give up. Yes, we have different problems, fear and anxiety, we always have doubt in our self and sometimes we are depressed, but it just shows it is, at the end of the day we will just continue our life and move on, move on with the lesson we have learned. Take every problem like it is a challenge, God will never put you in such problems if you cant win it, right? Just have faith and trust in your self and in the end of the day you will see how powerful you are.
“Our problems do not define us, but the scars we get in the way in overcoming to our problems is who we are”
Life is hard, bitter and sweet, hot and cold. But this harsh environment will build us it will make us tougher, but the point is, to be happy and better in life we must accept who we are, never waste time in thinking about the things you regret doing but use that time to make it better. Have faith and choose your faith, the future is in our hand and we can do anything about, it is an endless possibility but remember is has consequences so be careful what you choose.
Life is unpredictable like when the next earthquake will shake us, we don`t know when it will become bad or good, but what we know is, it will never stop until our last breath and until that we must do everything we can to make our life beautiful and better, we must do everything we can to make our self happy.
If we`re not Aware, We might loss
There are thoughts that is always running in our mind, it can be destructive like a bomd droped in an open battle field, or it can be a tea that can calm us. Some of us are sometimes get swallowed by our thoughts and controlled by it, and some of us resist it. But the more we think, the more we get stronger and being used to it.
"The more we fight our dark void, the more chances we see the light"
“Clouds represent stability and flexibility, it can be stable to flexible or flexible to stable”
Like clouds, we humans can be flexible and the same time stable. First flexible, our life can be mold in many ways. It can be molded by problem, fear, happiness and anger. Problems can be devastating at many times, it can take happiness from us and if we can`t fight, problem will swallow us whole. But the same as clouds after we conquer are problems, fear and anxiety we can be unbreakable and stable.
“People are like a house, we can abandon it the way that it was build, and return if we want to. But when we leave it, always remember the damage it can obtain, because we stop taking care of it.”
Once we leave people don`t expect we return and see it the same as we leave it. But dont with it if you dont want to, it will cause bigger damage to the person and to your self when you stay just because you are forced.
There is always more to life than staying with someone that hurt you and lie to you, you deserve more and the best. Don`t hold the knife in the blade and expect not to be hurt.
“We can swim across the lake to see a better future or we can drown in the lake to end our despair or we can sale across the lake by a boat. It our choice.”
The lake signifies our problem, fear and anxiety, we can swim across that lake with all our physical and mental strength, with all our power and all our effort. When we swim we can get to the other side slow and exhausted, but when your feet is on the land again, it`s all worth it.
We can also drown in that lake, we can give up and be swallowed and consumed. But if we end our life like that, if we take our own life, the victim will be the people that we left behind and we just deprive our self a chance to move on with life.
And lastly we can sale that lake with a boat, the boat signifies our family, friend and every people we value. We can seek help if we want, we can seek guidance from them and we can talk with them. Fighting problem, anxiety, fear and depression is now always easy when alone.
“We can climb stares fast or slow but it doesn’t matter at all, what matter is we use the stares correctly and get on top of it”
Never discourage a man trying to climb a stare slowly, instead warn the man climbing the stare fast to slow down. We all have our own time line, if you are moving fast it doesn’t mean that the other is moving slow. Give them a helping hand, assist them in climbing the stare, you`ll never when the time come you will be the one that is needing help.
“We learn to see and see to grow”
Every day we are seeing things that is new to us, every day we read good an bad news and we learn, we are becoming aware of our surroundings. We see that the world is not always candies and rainbows. We also observe that the world is constantly changing every day.
We grow because of what we see and feel, we become more and more human every day base on what we see. Now see the world in the different view, see the world as a place to grow
In life we face different problem and we are on a different time. Some of us is rich some are poor, some are happy and some are sad, some are dying some are still alive, what really matter is we are never giving up, we still push through even in the hardest time. So next time you see a man that is having a hard time, help them. Helping is not always financial, simple words always can help.
“We need to end this, accept each other, the truth the lies let face it together. There is no enemy to fight to, only the self inside you, stop this nonsense lets face it together”
As humans we can be anything we want, but in the process of that, we can destroy or we can prosper. We can damage other or we can harm us selfs, its up to use how we move and change.
“Humans is the one of the most remarkable species because we can change, and that what make us human.”
MAKE YOUR LIFE A CELEBRATION
How Environment help us?
How Environment help Us?
The Earth is 4.543 billion years old the oldest tree alive is 9550 yeas old, and since then our environment helps us in many ways more than we can imagine. With trees, animal and microorganism we can`t make this far.
The environment provide for our basic needs like shelter, foods and even our cloths. Trees and plants us provide oxygen and food, it protects us form devastating calamities like flood and landslides, and most importantly tress and plant give us medicines. Mountain provide so much that I can`t mention it all, mountains serve us a barrier during typhoon, prevent massive tsunami to hit our land and it also provide us different kind of materials to improve our daily life and make us evolve. River, sea, oceans and other bodies of water provide us water and other resources, it is the shelter for many species of aquatic animal like fishes that we eat.
"Environment provide us almost every thing and we can`t repay it."
But more than that our environment helps us mentally and physically. It can influence our mind, body and soul to do good and be good. Hear are some examples:
1. The environment can make people interact to each other.
Environment makes everything happen even making people know each other more. A simple morning hike with family can make the family stronger and united. While walking into the woods your mind will be cleared of all the problems that the busy life give to you, you can talk peacefully and calmly with your family, without phones there is no distraction, you can`t read the bad news from the internet and you cant see toxic people and post from the internet.
2. The Environment can change peoples behavior.
In the silence of the woods and mountain, where all you can hear is the flow of the river and the sound of the birds. You can think more carefully and peacefully, just have a sit or a walk in the wilderness and you might find your true self and purpose.
Away from busy road and terrible people, think alone, answer all the question that is running inside your head for a long time. Take and deep breath and plan for better future. Think about your goals and your career.
“You might find more in the silence and emptiness than in room full of people and book”
3. The Environment can influence your mood.
Color have a deeper meaning and effect in our minds. Walking and being one with the nature can affect our mind because of many color that we see. According to verywellmind.com color is a powerful communication too and can be used to signal reaction, influence mood, and even influence physiological reaction. A certain color have been associated with increased blood pressure, increased metabolism and eyestrains.
4. The Environment can change how you define the world
The environment can change how we define and see the world. It can open and free our minds. It make you respect and value the nature because without it we will have a hard time to survive.
As deeper we walk into the wood we can realize that trees and animal are hear long before human does. So why human act like they own the place? We act like we are the most powerful specie that God ever created. We treat animals without respect, we invade their home and destroy it for the benefit of humans. We discover and destroy every thing. And when the time comes that the nature reclaim? What are wo going to do? Where should we go?
There are more drought, typhoon, tsunami, earthquake, hurricane and other calamites hitting us, and what did we do? Nothing right? What if we plant more trees more than we cut. What If we use less chemical to minimized pollution of our waters. What If we recycle plastic and dispose it properly so it will not end up in our oceans.
“They say humans are the most intelligent species ever lived, humans are the superior of all. I guess we`re not intelligent after all, we destroy our home like have more, we kill animals like we created them. I guess we are not intelligent after all”
Humans can do better, we can do better. Make a stand for what is right. Be aware of what is really happening, we can loss what we have when we are not aware.
What application do you use to convert your BCH?
What application do you use to convert your BCH?
I go for a Walk
I Go for a Walk
I wake up early in the morning, as usual I do my everyday routine. I fix my bed, because my mother always said “fix your bed every morning so you accomplish one task every day”. After that I feed my dog, wash my face and make a tea, specifically a black tea. Black tea helps with my digestion to run smooth and neutralize the acid, because I`m a bit acidic. As I drink my tea, I stare to the window and watch the trees and leaves sway with the wind, while the others fall, some leaves hold. I guess we are like leaves right?
After I completed my morning routine I decided to go for a walk, to get some fresh air, to see beautiful views and to meet awesome people. I change my clothes, pick up my phone and wallet and say goodbye to my dog, and I guess I`m ready to go.
As I`m walking down the road I see Joe carrying a bag, “Good morning Joe” I greeted him with a waving hand and a with a smile. “Where are you going Joe… I thought you opened a store near the terminal last month” I added.
“oh! Hey Mike… not a good morning” Joe said while he look on the ground “ I closed the store”
“Buy why?” I said
“Things are just not falling the way it should be… I put all my money to open the store but, it never go as planned” Joe said with his face so blank and gray.
I cant come up of a word to say to Joe and I can`t even look him in the eye. Joe is one of my classmates back in elementary, he was a happy guy back then, now he graduated in collage with a degree of Business Management. Joe was married last year and now he will have a son.
I feel so sorry for Joe, but I think there is nothing much I can do. And I said “ Joe remember in high school when we just finished our project and about to submit it but we ran out of time?”
“Why are you telling me this now?” He said, with curious face.
“Did you remember how that day ended?” I said. While look in his eyes.
“Yes I remember… we followed our teacher all day and until she got home and convinced her to accept our project” He said, and look even more curious. “And then?”
“I think you should do what we did when we chased our teacher all day, so she can accept it” I said.
“What did we do exactly?” Joe said, with an uncomfortable face.
“We never gave up until she accepted our project… we never gave up until we achieved our goal” I said, looking in his face with excitement
“I guess your right… I should go back and open the store, and I`ll give it another try” Joe said. His face is now look lively and happy
We said good bye to each other, he go back to the store and I continue to take my walk. I wonder if Joe is really okay, I felt that he is carrying a lot of burdens in his chest. I think I should visit to Joe`s store more often to check on him.
Now the sun is rising and I`m almost the top of the park, where the sunrise so pretty. And there I see a woman sitting in the bench holding her dog on a leash. I never talked to that woman before, but my mother said that woman lived three houses away from us. Last year their house was on fire, and nobody knows how the fire started. In the burning house, her son and daughter were trapped, her husband come back inside to rescue the kids. But the house collapsed burying her three loved ones inside. Since then her life never been the same.
I wonder, what if the same thing happen to me, loss loved ones, how will I react. And if I’m going take my own life to follow them in the after life? Or Ill just continue my like nothing happens? i don`t really know, but one thing is for sure i dont want that to happen to me.
As I`m taking picture of the park the woman stand and walk towards the gate to where I stand, while she is walking she glance at me and smile. I think she already moved on.
I thought to my self, is this life? Full of joy and happiness and later there comes the day that you`ll be sad and depressed? Is it just a cycle that never ends and we just can’t know how to end it? Is life just an illusion, a dream or a simulation? What if I die today will they miss me?
There are many questions in life and I think it is better to be a mystery. Life is sad and happy and sad and happy, we can`t do much about it, because it just life after all. All we can do is never give up and move on.
Can We Talk about Poverty?
What is poverty to us? Do we aware about it or can we brave enough to know about? What its like to be in the center of poverty? Can we help those people to get out of there? Those are the questions that we are wanting to ask while we are talking about poverty to our friends and family.
What Is Poverty?
According to a site called the Investopedia, Poverty is a stage or condition in which a person or a community lacks of financial resources and essential for a minimum standard of living. Poverty means that the income level from the employment is low that basic human needs can`t be met. Is it the right definition or meaning of poverty? In our perspective yes, its right. Living in poverty is like all you have is not enough, even you work hard nothing will change, life will remain hard. Poverty is like a black hole or a quick sand, the more we stay the more we sink.
The Countries with the highest poverty rates In the World
There are many countries that have a high rate of poverty and they are having a hard time to deal with. Where poverty come from in the first place. There are many cause of poverty like unexpected crisis, health problems, job loss, economic collapse, corruption and many more. This are the causes why those people or family that are crawling away of poverty can`t escape it. The problem is bigger that is looks, hear are some examples. If a family want to crawl out of poverty they will have a hard time, why?. Because:
They are not getting any support
"They are left behind by this fast moving world, while we are not aware about them so we just don`t care?
The unavailability of jobs in the area
Corruption of the government
Mental and Physical health
Lack of Education
Lack of seminars for Family planning and Proper parenting
Limited resources
This issues and problem is sucking many people in poverty and we can`t stop it. Different government prioritizes peace while there people is drowning in poverty.
What its like to be in the center of poverty?
For those people who live or lived their life in poverty, it seems to be a gift. Its hard but at least they are alive, they are doing their own thing to eat at least 1 meal a day. For us its hard to imagine living without phone, electricity, clean water and soft beds, but for them its just normal. They are lucky enough to have a bed in the first place. In terms of education? Well its hard to, in a small poor village there is no school, student will walk far to go to schools to they just choose not to, they choose to just help with there parents in growing crops or collecting garbage to sell.
Dreams? In that kind of situation? You must have a truck full of courage and dedication to follow or fulfill your dreams. Because instead of following what you want to be, you will think first of you will for breakfast.
How to end Poverty?
-**Provide quality education.**
Quality education for all. Education for those children undergoing poverty for them to reach there dream an work for their self, family and community. Education for those privilege children, enough for education that will make them intelligent and competitive, education like being kind for other, aware that there is many problems in the world that nee to be known, compassionate, considerate and helpful.
**Access to health care**
**Elect people that really want to make a change for the general people not only for the rich**
**More job employment**
**Seminars for family planning and parenting**
So next time you see people that are homeless or hungry give some help, or just say something that will lighten them up. Don’t waste food and water. Help spread awareness and true information about those people who are suffering from poverty. Be involve in organization that help other people.
Be kind, helpful and aware
"Its hard to understand wealth, as well how the poor live there life"
How Beautiful is it?
Everyday seems to be the same
Waking every morning with cloudy heads
Gathering every thoughts before they fall
Is this the same? Or its just me who never change?
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Everyday seems to be the same
Running in circles, am I gonna be okay?
Is it the right way?
I will remain a dead fish until I get old
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How beautiful a sunrise can be?
We never know until were on the top of mountains or shore of the sea
What holds me back when am about to fall or drown?
Is it the sunrise or dawn i want to see?
Making a Better Life
Did you feel sometimes your life is crashing, falling into ashes or atrophying? Or did you feel your life is taking off life a rocket going to the moon? People don`t always feels the same, peoples mind always change, in the first moment they our happy and in the other moment they are not.
What life do you have? Is it good? Bad? Happy? Sad? Is it full of anger or rage? No matter what it is we can make it better. We make it better for our self, for the people around us and for the people who love us.
How to Make a Better Life? Can we make It better or we will just live and die with this burden? So hear are some tips that might help you to make the best version of your self.
Start your Day with a Smile
First thing to do when you wake up is to greet everyone you see, it make your and others mood lighter and bright. Imagine when your college is having a bad morning and you did not sat hi to him or simply just smile, it will make his morning and probably his whole day bad.
"Sometimes simple smile aren`t so simple after all"
Be Grateful for What you Have
Be content and be just thankful for what you have. Always remember that there are other people that has a worse life, worse job or worse suit that they don’t want. So be glad on what you have, feel it and just cherish it.
"Don`t find your happiness on others, be happy with your self and it will all follow"
Stay Positive
stay positive no matter what, don’t let negativity engulf you. Always find every positive side of everything and everything will be light, bright and shiny. Because when negativity swallow you whole everything will just be bad, every positive though you have will become bad and its not easy to get out.
Always Remember that We are Growing
Be ready for the future, prepare your emotions and energy. Growing up is tiring and draining, its so fast and it feels like we`re running out of time, if you are slow you can be left behind. But being left behind is not always a bad thing, remember that every people is different and we have different time line that we are following and different fate. So just remember those give up and loose hope will be always left behind but those who keep on going will reach the end
Follows What Makes you Happy
Do what make you happy, don’t push your self to thing that you don`t want to do, you know it that it is killing you from the inside inch by inch, as time pass the damage become bigger and bigger until you can`t handle it anymore and you just snap and break .Remember one life one shot make it the best it can be.
Enjoy Every part of the Moment
Enjoy it, we don’t know when will it end and how long it will last, it can end in a blink of an eye and it can never happen again. Cherish every time when your are with our love ones, when you live far from them come visit them when you have time, you don`t know when is the time that they will be gone. Look every view, do what you want like it is your last.
Change is not easy and it not come fast, it is a step by step process and it require patient and support form the other. Making a better life is always a good move and always a good.
There is no perfect of happy life for every body, we are different yet the same, we are the same in the way that every day we seek for peace, for happiness or for a piece of silence and we can`t get it easy. We are the same in terms of love and pain, in hope and faith and in trust an promises.
Make your life better and make everyday a celebration, do good for other and it will come back to you. Be happy and be you, always smile and make you life better and better every day
I have so many Question and I dont Know why.
December 11 2020
December 11, I felt like my mind is in pieces, my thoughts is in the floor and my head is in the void. Its so cloudy and at the same time its dark and twisty. I don’t know what to do after I wake up, so I made a move and go outside. I think it will clear my mind if I go out and it did. I see places and scene I have never seen before. As I`m going far so many question arise on my head, question I know how to answer and i know you also can. Thats why i wanna share it with you.
Photos are taken in Tagaytay Cavite and Batangas Philippines. Enjoy
Those are the questions running in my mind, i think its worth answering right? i hope i see your answer and responses in the comments.
Stay safe, free and make your life a celebration.
Can we hold hands?
How fast the world will change
What if the river stop to flow
When the wind blows on
The leaves will fall, like we always do
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Step by step they are moving forward
I think I`m left behind
Like a circle that never end
We just die before we can see how it will begin again
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I hope theres hope even almost eyes are closed
Almost all heart are broken, it seems we can carry on
The way we see the end, is the result of what we know
We will grasp the future, like a falling snow
Heriditary Sensory and Autonomic Neuropathy type IV
We all feel pain, like simply bitten by an insect or hitting toe in a chair, but what pain really is? do you know that there is a small percentage of humans that dont feel pain. is this a good thing? or it just worsen everything?
We all feel pain, like simply bitten by an insect or hitting toe in a chair, but what pain really is? do you know that there is a small percentage of humans that dont feel pain. is this a good thing? or it just worsen everything?
Pain keep us away from hurting our self more and more, a simple example is when eating hot soup in the morning, at the moment we put it in our mouth and its hot, i hurts right? That is the same time we realize the pain and we don’t want it to happen again. That is physical pain. On other hand there is emotional pain and it is harder to manage.
Pain is a stop sign meaning if we peruse or continue doing things that causes the pain, we will just hurt our self more and more until we denaturate and loss it all
The pain we feel when we are heart broken or when we loss a love ones and pain we felt when we fail, is a way of life to make us stronger and learn from that pain.
We are breed and build through pain, that what make us stronger, it make us human. So next time you feel pain just think what is the source of it, learn from it so it will not happen again but don`t forget about it.
Remember pain has its purpose in your life, conquer the pain and stop it, don`t pass pain, make your self the dead end for pain
***“Pain is there for a reason and its on us to find out what the reason is”***
Let nature reclaim
Every thing you see, everything you feel
Eventually will lost, eventually will never be found
Lets open our eyes until we see,
did you open your eyes? see? WERE DESTROYING IT!!
This is the cause to be human
Cursed to be human
Were the most powerful, top of the food chain
Were known homosapiens. yet, not a wise man after all
We don`t care anymore, we can`t see the truth
We discover and destroy
Every step we make forward is a step to extinction
every step forward is a step to destruction
Can the action be done? or its just to late?
We can grow kids, but we can`t grow tress
Our minds are burned by the heavy smoke we make
is there something we can do?
We know whats right, lets do whats right
Enough with corruption, pollution, disruption,
destruction, execution mental manipulation. ENOUGH
Let nature Reclaim
Whats my inspiration?
My inspiration is us, humans. Is there something we can do about what we have done? We are all blind to see? we as human destroy every thing, its hard to believe that there is no action done by the government to prevent this from happening. WE ARE DESTROYING THE WORLD, OUR HOME.
**Lets break down some points of my poem, and why i choose to use those points.**
1st stanza the first 2 lines
***Every thing you see, everything you feel***
***Eventually will lost, eventually will never be found***
Im referring to our nature being destroyed. ***Every thing you see, everything you feel.*** Nature provide us almost everything,and what? we abuse it so much. We can trees more than we plant them, 3.5 billion to 7 billion trees cut every year. when we will stop doing this. Don`t get me wrong, human cut trees for something like houses, but do we plant trees to replace the one we cut down?
2nd stanza
***This is the cause to be human***
***Cursed to be human***
***Were the most powerful, top of the food chain***
***Were known homosapiens. yet, not a wise man after all***
This is the cause to be human? is that right? we are the smartest living creature but we did not think about saving our home? or maintaining or home? we are not wise after all
4th stanza
***We know whats right, lets do whats right***
***Enough with corruption, pollution, disruption,***
***destruction, execution mental manipulation. ENOUGH***
***Let nature Reclaim***
This is what humans do right? so ask your self? how stop this nonsense? that alternative we can use to lessen the deforestation, what solution can we use?
We are the problem don`t deny it so lets work and open our eyes before it too late. lets join out effort little by little and step by step. Our join effort will be a big change, don`t over use plastic, lessen the use of vehicles, lessen the use of animal products and participate to tree panting projects.
In case its the end
In case its the end what should we do? repent? celebrate? or just close your eye and accept it. Ending or dying can`t be stopped, its a stage of a human life. Life is just what it is, living and dying, the beginning and the ending. But what matter the most is what have you done or accomplished before you die, what good seeds have you planted.
Until we are alive just live our life don`t waste our time thinking about making a better ending for our life, don`t waste our time over thinking about what will happen tomorrow. And don`t worry about your what ifs. Your what if lead to confusion and regrets leading to over thinking and over thinking kills the moment you are in. So don`t waste time.
Don`t worry about the ending, it will come like the ending of every movie..
**DON`T LIMIT YOUR HAPPINESS**
When you are having a good time just enjoy and live in the moment. don`t think about tomorrow or your yesterday, don`t waste the moment because you`re thinking about the consequences. Don`t over think, there is always time for every thing. time for joy and time for sadness
D**ON`T HAVE REGRETS**
Don`t feel sad or sorry to something, don`t have regret cause you don`t do the things that you want. Don`t just lie on your bed and say " i should have done that" . Stand up and do the things that you want and makes you happy. Don`t waste your time thinking you cant do it cause in the end you will regret that, try and try things that you wanna try. What if you fail? failure is just other term for victory, why? because you stand up and try, you step out of your comfort zone and trying new. And in that failure you ear experience and new lesson that they are not teaching in school.
**SURROUND YOUR SELF WITH POSITIVE THOUGHTS**
Sometimes when you wake up in the morning and you have a down or sad mood, what will you do? just bring that mood the whole day where ever you go? or shake your self and find a good way to relieve that bad mood? what will you choose? See, your mood or your vibes is up to you, don`t bring that bad vibe the whole day shake it off and find a way to be happy to be joyful. listen to music that you like, play with your, or water your plants. Don`t live in that bad mood it will just affect your whole day and your day will turn to grey and sad. Always try to smile always think positive moment.
**BE YOUR SELF**
Be be your self. live you life for your self, don`t do thing to make other people happy its just a waste of time. Do thing that make you happy and your time will always be worth it.
Don`t find your self from the love of other. find your self in the love of your self. Be your self and every thing will follow through. Don`t stress your self from thing you don`t want to do.
Make every day count because you don`t know when your book gonna end. When your life gonna end.
pursue your dream and do what makes you happy. if you fall just start again, learn from all the lessons from your failure and that what make you strong. Thats just life
And remember, EVERY ENDING SHADOW A NEW BEGINNING
MAKE YOUR LIFE A CELEBRATION
Refuse to be the victim, then refuse to fall
We are all victims, we all have our demons and we fall because of them. We are all victims of our depression, anxiety and fear. We can`t avoid it but we can make a stand and fight. Coping with depression, anxiety and fear is not easy just like i said in my previous article " Crawl out from black hole of depression" just crawl not walk and dont run from it. Crawl slow and make it a lesson for your self.
Depression
A serious medical condition in which a person feels sad, hopeless and unimportant and often is unable to live in a normal way. Who make you sad? your friends, your way of life or your family? step away from those this for a moment and think why am i embracing those things if it make me sad? snap away and live your life. Your more than anything, just like Bob Marley once said " You won`t know the power you hold, until that power is all that you have". Use that power and live for your self step away from those negative things that make you sad and unimportant. Be your self and rise.
In astronomy, depression is the angular distance of a celestial object below the horizon. Your are the celestial object and the horizon is the depression free are. In order to go to the free depression are you must help your self to walk again, to rise again until you are in the horizon. We have our different horizon, our different heaven. Help your self because at the end of the day its you who will defeat your depression
**Anxiety**
Nervousness of what might happen. what holding you back? is it fear from failure? so what if you fail, start again. Take your failure as a lesson, start again. Every day is not a bad day, sometimes the light will shine to you to make you smile and inspired.
**Fear**
what do you fear? heights? fear of the unknown? how will you know what on the unknown if you cant look at it? Embrace your fear and make it as your strength, use it as your power not your disability. Step out of your comfort zone and make something new to you, you might found something that make you more powerful.
Winning or coping with depression, anxiety and fear is not easy, don`t me wrong. Its a step by step by step process. Live you life and be whatever you want. Your are more than a human that is crying in the darkness, you are more than a human in a edge of the clip and thinking to jump.
You wanna know what is your greatest power? your greatest power is you, your self. your not me and Im not you. That what me make us powerful because we are DIFFERENT.
Refuse to be the victim of depression, anxiety and fear, and you will not fall.
Once again, MAKE YOUR LIFE A CELEBRATION
Crawl out from the Black hole of Depression
DEPRESSION. Is the most common and at the same time it is the most under rated mental illness in the world. With more than 264 billion people affected and almost 800 000 people die due to suicide every year. Suicide is the second leading cause of death in 15 to 29 years of age. Note 800 000 people die due to suicide every year , yes our doctor, scientist and pharmaceutical experts help aid and make drugs to help those who are affected. But is ts enough?
Crawl out from depression. Crawl not walk, crawl not run. recovering from depression is not easy and not impatient. it is step by step, little by little recovery. so hear are some tips that might help you to recover to depression.
**Tips #1: Reach out and stay connected**
Beating depression alone is hard will need a helping hand in the later stages of it. At first you want to be alone, and its okay its is the first step but don`t let hate, anxiety and failure consume you. Talk to some people close to you. talk about your problem it helps a lot when you spit out burdens.
Sometimes there are people with depression that is irritated when many people is around. Its okay at the first stage its just like that. But don`t embrace that stage cause it will consume you later on. Just stay there and think what is wrong and how to make it right.
**Tips #2: Don`t stress your self**
Don`t stress your self to things that you don`t want to do and things that is hard for you. You got nothing to prove cause your perfect enough to live for other peoples demands. Stress can affect your body, your thoughts and feelings, and your behavior that can amplify the symptoms of depression. Stress make depression worse and worse so turn your back from things that stress you and make you feel irritated.
**Tips #3: Don`t over think**
Over thinking make everything worse. its just kill the happiness and excitement in a situation. Don`t lock your self thinking every day. erase the doubt in your mind and walk. Be yourself and be happy
**Tips #4: listen to some music**
Listening to music help to let your emotion out. it can help your mind and soul to breath. just listen to your favorite song and sing to from the top of your lung as loud as you can. trust me it helps.
I`ve been in depression for a long time and there are things that i learn. ignore everything and move on. make your life an celebration. Keep listening to your favorite music every day it will help you a lot, dance to it sing to it.
Smile, cry, dance, feel bad, confused and fear its just normal cause we are human. But its up to you how to handle those emotion its up to you how you will handle you life. Your life is in you hand, the future is in your grasp. Don`t let the moment slip because your afraid to engage to some thing again, step out of depression and strive for a better day, a happy day and a day full of light.
Problem is like the sun, its powerful. but it will rise and it will set later the day.
MAKE YOUR LIFE A CELEBRATION
@MWSA
