We all undergo very dark and rough times, many of us survived, but many failed and there are many more that are still fighting. Many lose hope and change the path that they are facing, and there are some that are stuck in the middle of the journey and can't move anymore. Stuck because they are afraid to fail again, afraid of what other people can say to them.
When everything gets so dark and chaotic, our first reaction will be to fix it. We try to make it work again by doing anything it takes to make it better. We try to do our best and think of the best way to get out of the darkness and the chaos, but still, we will find ourselves stuck in the middle of it all.
Sometimes we try to lighten the and it works, we become happier and we feel that we are ready to conquer the world. But what will happen if it fails again? What we will do?
We tend to hold everything in and try to act that everything was fine, that everything is all laid down like in the plan. When someone asks how are we doing, of course, we will answer everything is fine, we will smile and slowly change the topic so they will not talk about it again. In the beginning, it is okay because we are at the point of we are trying to fix it without anyone knowing that we fail. We are trying to make it like nothing happen at all.
But there is still a chance that it will fail and we will be left with nothing...
Let it bleed...
I go back home every December to celebrate the holidays with my family. It is always fun when I go back home because look at me with a smile and everyone is trying to talk about what happened to me for the past months. In the first days or week, I will visit everyone in our family and try to talk to them about life and if they want to have a get-together with all of the family members.
It always feels so happy when this time arrived, everyone is smiling and happy with the celebration. Everyone is talking to each other like they did not talk for the whole year. Everyone brings their gift to be given to other people. This gift is always special and when I received one, I will keep it for the rest of my life.
Everything is fine on the occasion when I see that everyone is smiling and everyone is having a good time. The sad part is when the celebration end and everyone should go back to their own places.
A happy ending seems to be happy, but will happen when the happy parts end? Everything has an ending and we are not always ready for it.
