Does anyone see her?

The day started as a normal day, getting out of bed and getting ready for the whole day. As I open my eyes is does not feel normal, I feel there is something missing besides, something or someone that will make my day complete and light and happy. I don't know if it's my favorite pillow or something else, I don't know what is it, but I know there is something missing to start off my day.

I get out of bed, do my morning routines like drinking coffee while reading some news or article, it differs based on my mood in the morning. I walk my dog outside every morning on the road near or house, it is my form of exercise for a whole 2 months.

Living here in the province is one of the best things that ever happened to me, it is so peaceful, quiet, and cold, compared to our home in the city. I wish I could stay here for as long as I want, but it is not possible because of my job and my school is far from here and the online class settings will end soon.

As I approach the door to walk my dog I see 2 sets of slippers and the other one is tend to be a female sleeper. I stop for a minute to think if my sister comes to visit me for the weekend. I did not think deeply to think who is the owner of the slipper and assume that it is my sister's slippers.

I continue my day, take a bath and eat my breakfast before leaving the house to do some groceries. Before I leave the house, there is a feeling that I am not comfortable with this morning. I can feel that there is a part that is missing and I am constantly finding what it is.

I arrived at the grocery store, I get a shopping cart and start to buy the thing that I need. I feel that I did it a thousand times and I really know what I am doing. I get the thing that I think I need, when I look at the cart it is already full and there is a tow of everything. I am at the counter so I just for everything, I think that it is okay to have extra food especially since we are at the center of pandemics.

There is something missing in my day, the more I think about it the more my tears pour out. I lie when I say that I don't know what is missing and I lie about the extra slippers near the door. I know that she will never come back so I will try to act like she did not happen and exist in parts of my life.

I miss the way she said good morning and goodnight every day, the scent of her hair when we are laying in bed. The sound of her voice when she calls me that the food is ready, I miss how she talks to me about her day and how he handles things in the office.

I will continue acting that nothing happens and everything is fine, but my behavior is still acting that she is still by my side. It is hard to live like this, so does anyone see her? If you see her can you say that I am still waiting...

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